Just want to say that you guys rock! and I love y'all :) Heres a Sam flashback for you.
Spencer's POV...
"Okay girls, good practice hit the showers and I will see you tomorrow."Coach Smith yelled to us as she started walking to her office. "Spencer come here please."She yelled turning back towards us. I leave the team and make my way over to her.
"Yes Coach?"I asked when I got over to her. "You're doing a great job on the field, the team loves you and you and Marissa play good together, keep up the good work and you can play next weeks game."She said smiling down at me. "Thank you Coach that means alot."
"Hit the showers Hastings you smell."She laughed walking away from me. I shook my head and ran to catch up with Marissa and the rest of the team. "She kick you from the team yet?"Alex asked smiling at me. "You wish Green, Hastings is the best player we got, well besides me of course."Marissa laughed bumping her hip into mine.
I winced in pain and grabbed ahold of my side. "You okay Hastings?"Marissa asked. She stopped walking and came to stand next to me. Marissa placed her hand under my arm and helped me stand up.
"Yeah, I just took a hard hit during practice."I lied. "A hot shower and I will be good as new."
"Left your shirt let me see."Alex said ."I don't remember you taking a hit."
"No!"I all but yelled at her. Fear shot through me as I moved away from her and Marissa. "Spencer chill, just let me look, I won't hurt you."Alex said softly walking towards me once again. "I've heard that before."I mumbled looking down at the ground. "What's going on Spencer?"Marissa asked.
I racked my brain for some kind of lie, something to keep them from the truth but nothing came. "Spencer!"
I turned around to see Sam jogging towards us. This can't get any worse. "Everything okay Babe?"Sam asked throwing her arm around my waist and pulling me into her side. I give a weak nob as I fight the urge to push Sam away and grab ahold of my side.
How did it come to this? How did the once sweet girl turn into someone who used me for a punching bag when she got mad? Which was almost all the time. And why do I stay? Why do I take this from her? 'Because you love her.'Whispered a part of my brain.
"Hey Marissa, Alex, how are you?"Sam asked smiling at the two girl in front of us. Sam seemed to be in a good mood, happy to be talking to my friends but the way she was gripping my side and digging her nails into my skin told a different story.
"Fine. I'm going to get a shower then go get something to eat, you in Spencer?"Marissa asked, her eyes begging me to say yes. Sam's grip tightened on my side at Marissa's question. "No thanks maybe tomorrow."I said sending her a smile. Marissa rolled her eyes and walked off with Alex close behind her, leaving me alone with a very mad Sam.
"Did you tell them?"She asked turning towards me and gripping my arm hard. "No, I didn't say anything."I said looking down. "Good."
"Spencer is everything alright?"Blake asked coming up to Sam and I.. He smiled at me the glared at Sam once he saw her grip on my arm. "Of course Blake, what's up?"
I hated lying to him, to all my friends but I had to. I was too scared of what Sam would do if anyone knew.
"I was coming to see if you were ready to go, you promised to help me study for my math test."He lied giving Sam a sweet smile when she rolled her eyes.
We didn't have plans to study, Blake didn't need my help in math he was very good at it, one of the top students in the class, so why was he lying? Did he somehow know what Sam was doing to me?
"Yeah right, I forgot. Is your brother picking us up?" "He's waiting for us now. Lets go. Later Sam."He said. "Yeah later."Sam said pulling me into a hug. "We'll talk later."
I nod my head and follow Blake to the parking lot, where his brother Jake is waiting for us. Blake looks behind us then stops, grabbing my arm and stopping me as well. I flinch at his touch and pull away from him.
"What is she doing to you Spencer?"He asked, his eyes searching mine, begging me to tell him the truth, tell what he already knows. "Nothing Blake."I lied faking a smile but he sees through it.
I known Blake most of my life, longer than I've known Emily. He's lived across from me for as long as I can remember, and while we weren't always as close as we are now, we both knew we could come to each other with anything. It hurt to lie to him, lie to someone who has never lied to me, someone who always told me the truth even if it hurt.
He pulls me into a hug and rest his head on top of mine."Let me help you please."He begged. When I don't say anything he pulls away from the hug and lifts my shirt up before I can stop him. "You lied."He whispered, his voice full of pain.
He traces the bruise covering my side with his finger, closing his eyes as he pulls me into another hug. "I'll stop this Spencer, I'll protect you."he said. "You have to break up with her, leave her so she can't hurt you anymore."
I pull away from him and step out of his reach when he trys to grab me. "No! I love her, she'll change, this isn't who she is Blake. She didn't mean too."
"Spencer she's not going to change, she'll kill you, beat you to death if you don't leave."He yelled.
The few kids still walking around school stopped and watched what was unfolding between Blake and I.
"I can't leave her."I whispered. "I'm not going to watch her kill you Spencer!"
"Then you don't have to. Bye Blake."I said turning away from Blake and starting to walk home. "Spencer come back!"He yelled. "Fuck!"He yelled again when I didn't answer him and kept walking.
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I walked into the barn, throwing my book bag and gym bag on the floor by the door. I really needed to shower but I didn't have it in me, I just wanted to lay in bed and sleep.
"How did study go?" Came from the couch as I made my way towards my bedroom. I turn around to see Sam sitting there staring at me, waiting for an answer. "You scared the hell out of me Sam. How did you get in here?"I asked keeping as much space between us as I could.
I love Sam I do but sometimes she really does scare me. I believe she'll change and we'll go back to being happy like before but I wonder if I'll be able to take all the abuse ill then.
Lately everything has set her off and I'm walking on eggshells to keep from upsetting her. It doesn't work though, something still makes her mad and she takes it out on me. I know I should lave her but how do you leave someone you love? How do you just walk away from them?
"Key under the mat. He knows doesn't he?"She asked standing up and walking towards me. "No he doesn't I swear." "Why are you lying to me? I know he knows Spencer, I seen it on his face when he walked over to us. He knew and you told him."She raised her voice, backing me into the wall.
"Sam I didn't say anything to him I swear."I whispered not meeting her anger filled eyes. "Stop lying!"She yelled slapping me across the face. I went to move away from her and right as I got pass her, she grabs my arm and slams me back into the wall. She turned without another word and left the barn, slamming the door behind her. I slide down the wall, much like I did the first time she hit me and pulled my knees to my chest. Maybe Blake was right.
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Aria's POV...
"Spencer are you okay?'I asked looking up from the drawling pad in my hand. She just sits on the couch, staring off into space holding a bottle on Scotch tightly in her hands.
After dinner we came back to Spencer's house to relax and watch some movies. Half way through the first movie Spencer got the bottle of scotch and started drinking. That was an hour and a half ago and now all she's doing is staring at the wall.
"Spencer?" I wave my hand in front of her face. She blinks a few times but still doesn't move or say anything.
I'm starting to worry and I don't know what to do. I pick up Spencer's phone and go through her contacts till I find the one I'm looking for. I press call and wait for them to answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hey Blake, sorry to call so late but I need your help."I said into the phone. "Is Spencer okay?"He asked. I can hear moving around on the other end of the line. "I don't think so, she's been staring into space for awhile, won't answer me or anything."
"I'll be over in a minute."He said then hung up.
I would have called Emily if she wasn't spending time with her Dad, or Hanna if she wasn't with Caleb. Blake is one of the few people that I know would help Spencer through anything, would jump if she need anything with out a second thought. He is a really good friend of hers, of all of us.
A minute or two later theres a knock at the door. I move off the couch to let Blake in. "Hey, you okay?"He asked coming in and giving me a hug. "Just worried about her."I answered returning his hug. "Don't worry I know what to do."He said walking over to Spencer. He kneels in front of her and takes the bottle out of her hand, he sets it down on the coffee table and takes her hands in his.
"Spencer, it's just a memory, She cant hurt you anymore."He whispered. "Come on Spencer, come back to us."
A few seconds went by with Spencer still staring at the wall till her eyes moved of Blake's faces, searching for something. Tears spill from her eyes, she tries to wipe the away but more just keep falling.
"What was it this time?"Blake asked pulling Spencer into a hug. "The day you found out."She whispered into his chest. "Lets get you in bed."He said picking her up and carrying her towards her room. I follow him and open the door to Spencer's room. He walks over to her bed and waits for me to pull the blankets back. He lays her down and pulls the blanket up to Spencer's chin.
"Get some rest, we'll be out in the living room."He said leaning down and kissing her forehead. "Good night Spencer, yell if you need anything."I said giving her a hug, which she returns. "Thank you Ari." "Anytime."I said then left the room with Blake.
"How did you do that?"I asked once we were sitting on the couch. He grabs the bottle of scotch from the coffee table and takes a sip. "My brother was raped by a bunch of guys when he first came out at school, he used to space out like that when he was remembering what happened to him. After Sam left her, there were times when she would space out like she did tonight, I just did the same thing I did for my brother."He said.
He took another drink from the bottle and hung his head. "I knew what Sam was doing to her and I let it go on, I let Sam hurt her Aria. If I would have done more to stop Sam then she wouldn't be this way, she would be okay be happy."He said, his voice filled with pain and regret.
"Blake, you couldn't make Spencer leave Sam, we all tried she wouldn't listen to us. You can't blame yourself, blame Sam she did this to Spencer, she broke Spencer not you."I said running my hand up and down his back, trying to comfort him.
"I wanted to help her so bad, to save her but I walked away because I didn't want to watch Sam kill her. Had I stayed and been there for her maybe things would have been different."
"She has you now Blake, she has all of us and we'll never let anything like that happen to her again."