Haruhi climbed out of the pool pissed off. Why would he do that to her? Her passed self was finally realizing how much she needed Tamaki, but he goes and kicks her out? It didn't make any sense. Passing the pool side Haruhi tried to think about her mistakes. Yes she went along with Tamaki because she felt like she was drowning, yes she took drugs to get through life and act as normal as possible when the love of her life was with someone else. Yes, she shattered Tamaki's heart when he realized she didn't feel anything for him, but didn't she try? In rehab all she thought about was Tamaki. Was that why she was here, did Tamaki do this to her out of revenge for the pain she put him through? Did he not realize she was in pain as well, ever since Kyouya hooked up with that tramp? Her feet began to hurt from the heat of the cement around the pool. She sat down on the chair wondering if she could, in some way talk to her past self and tell her she was an idiot. Haruhi huffed at the idiocy. Of course she couldn't talk to her past self, all she was seeing was memories, not going back into the past.

She rested her body on the chair and hoped that sleeping would give her better memories.

She was not going to take this sitting down. She would make her own way back to the main house after being dropped off. She was not some mistress to be hidden behind closed curtains. As soon as the driver pulled up to a house she didn't recognize, she hopped out and practically ran into the house. When she flung the door open Tamaki was there waiting for her. He looked thinner than normal and his eyes seemed to be sunken in. Haruhi's first thought was to scream at him for abandoning her, instead she ran to him and flung her arms around him trying to melt into his arms. Tamaki hugged her back and whispered apologies for not visiting her.

They stood like that for a good five minutes before she pulled away from him and slapped him across the face.

"What is the meaning of this," she practically screamed.

"Haruhi, I'm sorry, but I wasn't sure what being clean would do to you."

"You would have known if you bothered seeing me instead of writing letters informing me on the updates of our friends."

"What would you have done in my situation? Kyouya doesn't love you, but you love him. Picture your lives together knowing that he loved another and was only with you to forget the pain. That is our situation. I love you with everything that I am, but you love another. I WANTED TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU," Tamaki shouted.

"So now you changed your mind? Some love that is. You kick me out of the house when you said you would give us another chance."

"This is our second chance. If I was done with you do you really think I would buy you a house? Do you think I would be standing here talking to you?"

"Yes, because you are just too soft hearted that way. You would never leave a girl out on the streets when you know that it was you that put her there."

"Listen, I love you, that is not someth…" Haruhi cut him off by tackling him to the floor and kissing him.

"Shut up already. As long as I know I still have a chance to make things work," Haruhi said between kisses. Tamaki gave her a sad smile, but lifted her up and took her to the bedroom.

Haruhi woke with a smile on her face. Finally something her past-self did right. She was a little worried about that sad smile and the physical appearance of Tamaki, but that was probably because he was not able to sleep much from worrying.

The burning pain on Haruhi's back did not phase her good mood. Skipping to the pool she jumped in right away.

Haruhi awoke to a familiar scent of something burning. Peeking one eye open, she saw Tamaki in the corner of the room with her drug kit that she saw him throw out. Alarmed, she sat up in bed.

"What are you doing," Haruhi asked as she scrambled to the edge of the bed.

"I'm doing exactly what it looks like," Tamaki replied as he took off the belt on his arm. He sat back in the chair and let the drug take effect.

Haruhi watched him for a while as she cried. She did this to him and her heart hurt. She won't be able to get any answers out of him until he woke up, so she got up and left the room.

Haruhi was in the library when she heard a thump from the bedroom. Marking her place in the book she set it down on the nightstand next to her chair and made her way to the bedroom.

When she walked in Tamaki was trying to push himself up from the floor where he had fallen. Walking over to him, Haruhi helped him up and placed him on the bed.

"Now that you are finally awake, tell me why," Haruhi asked quietly.

"Curiosity I suppose," Tamaki said. "When you said you still loved Kyouya I was falling apart and your kit was right there in front of me. I figured just once won't kill me." Tamaki chuckled.

"I'm sorry Tamaki. But you must stop this; it will not help with the pain."

"You know better than I do on how it helps the pain. It's a rush going through your veins and it feels like you are floating. Nothing matters and nothing can hurt you, you are free," Tamaki smiled.

Haruhi started crying, "You don't need to do that anymore. I'm not going anywhere."

"No, you can't go anywhere because I am your life raft and I won't let you drown."

"Tamaki, I need to tell you something. I guess I didn't realize while I was on the drugs but in rehab I found out that…" Tamaki cut her off by kissing her.

"Take a hit with me," he asked.

Haruhi's eyes widened, "Tamaki I can't. I'm trying to tell you that…"

Tamaki kissed her again, "Tell me later." He pushed her back into the bed and made love to her until she passed out.

Haruhi smiled as she woke. Tamaki fucked her like a man with only one day left to live and she didn't mind at all. As soon as she got his ass in rehab she was going to forget Kyouya and start planning her wedding. She will also have to find a room for the nursery… Haruhi's eyes shot open when she felt a needle pierce her skin.

Tamaki was on top of her holding her down and injecting the drug into her arm.

"TAMAKI," Haruhi shouted at him.

"Shhh…. It will be okay Haruhi. This will be the last time I promise. I just want it to be with you. He bent down and kissed her lips before turning and preparing another batch for himself.

Haruhi felt the drug start to take effect as she laid down facing the ceiling and her eyes began to droop.

Haruhi shot out of the pool and started coughing up water. She was crying in the pool and had swallowed some water. Tears were streaming down her face as she tried to gasp for air. She was pregnant with a little baby. She cried harder as she hugged her stomach where she knew there was no longer life.

A/N: Yes, give me your tears and a review.