Disclaimer: I'd don't own TMI
this is the chapter you've all been waiting for.
I could name a million reasons why I hated LA. And one for why I hate Brooklyn. I'm breathing heavily from a nightmare, of a memory that is to painful to remember but impossible to forget did you know that your past defines you makes you who you are? Well I do but I really wish my past wasn't my past I wish it was somebody else's like I watched it on TV or it was just a dream, I wish I could erase it start anew but I won't be able too I have to live with it, by the angel why is my past so complicated. I stare in the mirror at my emerald eyes that were once so bright so full of life now they're just a burnt out bulb, right now I'm standing in my bathroom it's attached to my room so it's just mine I reach into the cupboard under the sink grabbing my face wash a note flutters out, I bend to retrieve it and my breath catches in my throat, it's the note that ended my life as I knew the note that defines my past.
Willow tree 4 o'clock
It says in blue ink that's slightly smudged by tears from reading and re-reading I knew what tree he was talking about and we only met there on emergencies so I knew it wasn't good I just had that gut feeling so I threw it in the cupboard where I carelessly threw all our other notes. The flashback comes but I stop it now is not the time for pain.
At school I arrive at first period right on time and take my seat next to Jace. I open my notebook and start copying down notes off the board, when a folded piece of paper is slid across my notes I open the note and in blue pen it says:
Willow tree 4 o'clock please
I stuff the note in my pocket NO WAY, but Jace never says please YES, i hate him, maybe I stop the battle in my head, and finish copying the board. The rest of the day is uneventful and I'm starting to get anxious the bell that signals the end of the day rings and I practically bolt to the front doors
"yo Clary you need a drive?" I hear Jon yell curiosity gets the better of me
"naw I'm gonna walk" I yell back, as soon as his car leaves the parking lot I'm sprinting as fast as my little legs can take me to the park I arrive there right at four o'clock and fifty yards away I see the beautiful weeping willow dangling and swaying slightly in the breeze and underneath it is Jace sitting on the same brown bench we sat on together a million times, he's facing away from me looking at the green expanse of land in front of him my hand itches for a pencil to draw the perfection, but I settle for a crappy picture with my phone I can draw it later I think to myself then I make my way towards the weeping willow and take a seat on the bench next to Jace looking at the view I grew up with nothing but green with skyscrapers in the distance
"I remember your smile" he starts "I remember your laugh, it would brighten my day, I remember your sparkling green eyes and your fiery red hair" he finally looks at me "most of all I remember you! And every time I think of you I wonder what I did wrong" I look him in the eyes.
"it's impossible for me to forget" I say the memory I've been trying o hard to block out hits me like a freight train
. . .
I'm sitting on the bench underneath the weeping willow, I'm in a crummy mood because I just found out my mom is leaving for LA tonight and Jace told me to meet him here, I know something bad happened because nowadays we only meet here on emergencies. I turn my head to the stomping of feet and see Jace coming towards me with a very angry scowl on his face.
"HOW COULD YOU?" He screams at me I take a step back.
"J-J-Jace what's wrong?" I ask quietly
"You _ and . . . . . him god Clary I thought you were better than that" now he's confusing me.
"Jace I—" he cuts me off.
"save it I don't wanna hear your excuses" he turns and walks away I still have no idea what he is talking about then he turns back towards me grabs my chin and crushes his lips to mine, my eyes flutter shut and sparks fly, all to soon he pulls away and looks at me with pleading gold eyes.
"tell me you didn't feel that! Tell me that meant nothing to you!" I am still to shocked to speak. Jace jut kissed me. "Fine, be that way. But I didn't think you'd go as low as Sebastian" he turns again god I'm sick of this.
"JACE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" I scream at him
"Sebastian is telling everyone you kissed him" he screams
"And you believe him" I spit out
"Ya cuz he's my friend" he says calmly
"So I'm not" I choke
"No because after I started dating Aline you never said anything nice to me " he says shocked
"Ya well the feelings mutual" I mutter
"What's that supposed to mean" he asks
"You started ignoring me and treating me like trash so I lost all my respect for you" I shout on the verge of hysterics
"I only dated her to make you jealous" my heart feels like its been cut from my chest
"You could've of chosen any other girl because dating her only made me hate you, you probably didn't notice but she tried her hardest to make my life a living hell" I scream hysterically
"Well you know what Clary I don't care what you think anymore" all our bridges came tumbling down and a wall was built between us
"Good because I lost all reason to be nice to you" I turned and started walking away
"Go run home and cry to your Mommy" that hit me like a slap "and don't ever speak to me again, because I HATE you" with that last line I broke and sprinted home deciding LA is better than Brooklyn and Jace really is a player he played with my heart then broke it.
. . .
I look Jace in the eyes he just stares at me.
"can we restart?" He asks me I nod my head he sticks out his hand.
"hi I'm Jace" he introduces himself I smile and shake his hand.
"hi I'm Clary" I say sniffling our pinkies lock together and just like that we open a blank page.
Should I reintroduce myself my name is Clarissa Morgesten my friends call me Clary, I used to live in LA with my Mom but now I'm back in Brooklyn with my Dad and brother Jonathan, I am fifteen years old my two best friends are Simon and Isabelle, but my bestest friend in the whole entire world is Jace, I had lost a piece of my heart but its now found and I am whole again, they say home is where the heart is and I realize now where ever Jace is, is my home.
The moment of truth what do you all think but don't go away there is more problems to come ;) tell me what you think should I continue or no?