Re-read this chapter I edited it :)
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: I don't own not meant to be by theory of a deadman
: I don't own how to save a life by the fray
ya so basically there is some karaoke in this one I hope you like. Oh and sorry ahead of time if you don't think I used your idea. I've used everyone's idea in a way. For inspiration to continue. Out of all my stories Photograph is by far my favourite.
CPOV
Okay if that's how you want to go, two can play that game Jace Herondale.
I strut into the room like I own the place. I feel more confident then I've ever felt before. I am so over Jace. He's over me too as it seems. I scan the room looking for the perfect someone. When I spot him sitting by the bar doing shots with the bartender.
Sebastian.
I make my way over to mister dark and dangerous. A seductive smile easing its way onto my lips because I know he will be an easy target. Dammit now I sound like Jace. Anyway back to Sebastian. His back is turned to me. Oh how I don't want to do this. A picture of Jace flits through my mind. No were just friends. Aren't we?
"Hey Seb" I say while hopping onto the barstool. He smiles coolly at me.
"Clary right?"
"That's me"
"I don't know where Jon is if that's who you're here for"
"I was actually looking for you" he seems to perk up a bit.
"You're a bit young"
"Soooooo" I say leaning towards him. "When has that ever stopped you" he smirks and pulls my chair closer to his.
He whispers something in my ear but I'm not paying attention. I'm staring at the golden boy across the room. His glares usually look as if they can kill. But this one looks like he might kill you. Go to hell then kill you again. I throw a wink at him. Smiling coyly I turn back towards Seb. Who's gesturing towards the dance floor. I just nod because if I open my mouth I might regret it.
Seb drags me to the dance floor. I'm not much of a dancer so I stumble a couple times. Everyone in the sweaty mass of hormonal teenagers seem to be grinding against each other. I swallow the rising bile in my throat. This isn't my thing but I go with the flow. Which I also hate. Following patterns of un-original people, not my thing. It feels like forever but a loud booming noise echoes through the room,
and then Izzys voice. Everybody looks up.
"We are going to do karaoke" she says into the microphone. I mentally groan. No. People go up picking another person to go after them. Nobody chickens out.
"Clary" the person at the mic calls me up. He's that kid in my English class. Oh shit. I stroll up to the stage. Looking nervously at Iz as I walk by. The music starts and the lyrics show up on the screen.
"It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing if I give that to you I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
It's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that there's no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our life
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
It's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking maybe it's too late
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
It's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I finally see
Baby, we're not meant to be
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I'm, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be"
In a way that song describes me and Jace. Always one step forward and two steps back.
I call Magnus up and he sings some random Ke$ha song about glitter.
I'm about to hear who he calls up when a rough hand drags me into the closet.
"Hey babe" a scratchy voice whispers in my ear. Oh shit Sebastian. I guess I led him on more than I intended. He spins me around so I face him and presses me against the wall. I try and hold in my gasp of pain.
"You looked so sexy up there" he says huskily. I shiver with fear. He presses me harder against the wall.
"Ow you're hurting me" I say. Then he smashes his lips to mine forcefully. I'm standing there in shock. When the realization sets in. I push, shove, kick and scratch but he won't move. I whimper. He pulls away for breath so I do anything I can to get away. I slap him. Hard.
Stumbling out of the closet I make my way into the mass of people. As long as I can get away from that monster. I scan the crowd for anyone I know but it seems they all disappeared. When I see why. Jace onstage.
"Step one, you say, "We need to talk"
He walks, you say, "Sit down, it's just a talk"
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
'Cause after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life"
He bows cockily. Winking at girls who literally swoon. Ugh you have to be joking. But as I think more of lyrics I think could he have be speaking to me?
I push my way to the bar and hop on a stool, and order a Coke. I tap lightly on the counter top a sip my Coke while staring at all the dancers. I feel a light jab at my shoulder, and whirl around to snap at Sebastian. Only it isn't him it's Jace. My breath catches and he must notice because he smirks.
"Oh I see I've rendered the great Clary Fray speechless with my stunningly good looks" I resist the urge to stab his big ego with a pin.
"What do you want?" I growl.
"I just wanted to talk" he says nodding his head towards the balcony doors on the opposite side of the room.
"No" I say and turn around. Warm hands grip my waist then I'm lifted of the chair dangling like a foot off the ground. I try to kick as he's walking towards the balcony. It doesn't work. Where is Izzy when I need her? I stop struggling and he puts me outside on the balcony.
"What—" I say but I'm cut off. He presses his lips gently to mine while he grips my waist. I feel like I'm melting under his touch. He's a lot nicer than Sebastian, and I've wanted this for so long. Problem is this is wrong. It's all wrong. He's drunk. I place my tiny hands on his muscular chest, and push him away with all the force I can muster. Even though my knees are weak, and there's butterflies fluttering through my veins. He stumbles back a questioning look in his eyes.
"We're just friends" I say to him but mainly to convince myself.
"I want to be more than friends" he whines.
"No"
"Come on Clary I know you want me"
"No Jace you're drunk"
"I'm perfectly sober" he complains.
"No" I say "you're not, you can go play another girl . . . . Because I'm not that type of girl and if that's who you think I am then we're not friends at all" I just ended something that was never meant to be.
Then I run back through the sweaty mass of and up to Izzy's bedroom. Luckily nobody's in here. I collapse onto her bed in a fit of sobs, and this time no tears come.
Why did I have to come back?
Why couldn't I have left these people as a bunch of old photographs?
JPOV
I'm not that drunk. But as I watch her run away again because of me again I can't help but feeling I'm drunker then I thought. No matter how drunk I am I'm not going to let her go again. Not this time. I push my way through the crowd but I'm not fast enough. She's getting away.
It feels as if everyone's against me. Like I'm running a race impossible to win. I break through the mob and leap up the stairs taking two at a time. No matter how mean we are to each other I'm not letting her go. I'll burn down the world to get to her. I love her.
I bang on Izzy's door hearing the chocked sobs on the other side. I lean my forehead against the cool wood.
"Clary" I whisper. The crying has stopped and I hear shuffling. I think she might open the door when I hear a voice barely a whisper.
"Jace"
"Open the door" I whisper again. "Please" I add as an after thought.
"Why?" She whispers again.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I whisper. I hear a click and realize she's unlocked the door. So I twist the knob and the door swings open. I lock the door behind me.
"Why'd you do that?" A voice asks.
CPOV
"Why'd you do that?" I ask after he locks the door. He looks up smirk on his face and take a step towards me. I take one back. His smirk grows if that's even possible. That's when I realize I'm standing right at the foot of the bed.
"So eager miss Fray" I scowl at him. He takes another step toward me. I stay where I am, feet planted in the fluffy carpet. The tips of our toes are touching now. I gulp and look into his golden irises. Not feeling one bit scared like I was with Sebastian.
My heart is pounding and butterflies are fluttering painfully in my stomach. He dips his head and my lips meet his halfway. My eyes flutter shut and I entangle my arms around his neck playing with his soft golden locks. His arms wrap around my waist and he pulls me flush against him.
I feel as if a missing puzzle piece has been found. Maybe this is how it's supposed to be. I pull back for air. Green meets gold.
"I love you" he whispers. My heart stops. He. Loves. Me. The puzzles complete. It's like everything's fallen into place. He kisses me again this time more passionately then before. My knees grow weak and I fall to the bed.
Then the door is flung open and Jace and I spring apart. Izzy is standing there with her hands on her hips and grinning like a mad woman.
"Finally!" She exclaims.
Hope you all like it and thank you all for those ideas I got my inspiration for this chapter for them. Review please it would mean a lot to me this chapter took like forever. Give yourself a pat on the back if you sent me an idea in. Hope you liked the Karaoke part. Love you ~CAC