Hi folks! Thanks so much to all of you who have reviewed and read this story (: It means a whole lot to me.
I still stand by what I have written before; this story is not for people who cannot stomach abuse in varying levels. From now on, it won't be bad; there wont be anymore abuse (not that I know of, anyway - there will be a retelling a time or two, though) I am really sorry, if this story causes any of you nightmares; I know it isn't exactly pleasant - but it will be; FLUFF TO COME PEOPLE! :D
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Twilight. I can't take the honor for that one. I can however say that I own Felix The Dog, and whatever weird person - vampire or human the like; maybe I'll even throw in a werewolf - but that about covers it. The songs and references I don't own so there, now you know what a lousy - oh wait. I own one more thing. Can't believe I forgot about it... Of course, I own this story as well... Because I my self have written those words y'all read with my own small hands... :D
Song: Tamyra Gray - Dance With My Father
Bella POV
3 DAYS LATER!
I kept thinking about the good times of my life. And especially the image of my Papa, the first memory of him, I kept in my mind as I burned. More than once the fire increased impossibly warmer. Impossibly, because I did not think it could be any worse. But it did, and I whimpered more loudly when it happened. I felt the warm something by my side stir, as I whimpered. And just as I thought it could not be any worse, the fire increased. Again. As impossible as it sounds, it did. But at the same time, it slowly - too slow - started fading from my fingertips and toes.
As the ragging fire left everything cold and neared my heart, it started beating faster. At last it beat so fast I almost couldn't count how many beats it had per minute.
It must have been about 20 beats per second. At last, I felt the fire in my heart only. I arched my back as my heart stuttered twice and then went silent.
My body fell back against the ground. The body beside me stiffened and hissed barely audible. I took a deep breath.
Only to discover that the air suddenly smelt different. Where I lay I could actually smell what I had, when I had hid in there before; dead people. I wrinkled my nose; it smelled disgusting. I could smell dirt and disease in the air. I could smell pollution and smoke. There was a heavy smell of something sweet. It was mouthwatering, and I felt an aching pain in my throat.
Before I could do anything about it, I heard someone clear their throat.
I growled and turned around, so I was on my knees and hands. There stood James and I could truly see him now. The red hint in his eyes was more pronounced now and I could see the texture of his skin. When I looked him in the eye, I could feel a stream of images come to my mind. They were of him. It started with him and a girl. She was beautiful and laughing, while he was grim and sour. I realized it was my Mother. I gasped, and I could see James smirking. He probably thought it was because of the sight of him. Arrogant bastard. The images flooded my mind a 100 miles per hour, but I caught every one of them perfectly. I realized it was from his past. Up until the moment he bit me I saw. He had been a Vampire for about 10 months. Meaning a couple of months after he and Amalia kicked me out, he was turned.
"See something you like?" he asked. I snorted.
"Not at all." I growled at him. He lost the smirk and got that dangerous glint in his eyes again. That was when I saw his plans. He wanted to rape and kill me. I gasped when I realized I could see the past and plans of another creature. I narrowed my eyes at him, and felt something in my stomach "telling" me he was a tracker. What that meant, I did not know. But I guessed he could track things.
"Now now Isabella, no need to go all harsh at me" He threatened.
"You raped me, made me pregnant, beat me, and kicked me out of your house. I have lived on the streets for a year now. You raped me again... three days ago. You turned me into something I would rather not be. I hate you. And I want you to die." I said in a growling yet quiet tone. That was when I listened to my voice for the first time. Really listened. It was beautiful and sounded like bells. I was slightly astonished by it, but I quickly collected myself. That was when I realized I was still on the ground, him standing about 3 feet away. In less than half a second I was on my legs and crouched down in front of him. He took the same position as me. It was like my eyes got a red haze to them, because suddenly, he was reddish around the edges. I wanted to see blood. I wanted him to die. Make him suffer like I suffered. I wanted my revenge.
"You cannot win against me Isabella." He said before lunging at me. I stepped to the side as he neared me, with such speed I would have fallen if I was still a human. I took hold of his arm and pulled. I was blinded with rage; I let my instincts take over my body and I did what I felt was right. I pulled his arm, and suddenly it was off. He screamed out in pain and anger, and took himself to where his arm had been a second before. It took me a tiny fraction of a second before I understood what was happening. But then my gaze got the red haze again, and I growled furiously before I tore off the other arm of his. He screamed again but lunged at me anyway. I tossed away the limps and bit into his neck before tearing off his head. My instincts told me to burn him; it made sense somehow; burning to become one, burning to destroy one. But I needed a fire. So I gathered the limps and ran to the forest. I sensed someone following me. I turned around abruptly, only to find Felix freeze in fear when he caught up. I smiled kindly at him, careful not to expose my teeth, and ran further into the forest. I ripped the pieces of James into more pieces and gathered woods to the fire. Then I took two branches and rubbed them against each other so quickly that my hands were a blur. The fire started and I threw the remains of James in the there. A sickly sweet scent filled the air and I ran towards my cave. Felix had sat beside me, and watched me as I destroyed James, with wary eyes.
He ran with me again, though he couldn't follow me. He was too slow. But I wanted him in my life, so I turned around and followed my own scent back. There he was, frozen again. As slowly as possible, I neared him. I sat down a few yards from him, and waited for him to come to me. He rose, with his tail between his legs, and looked at me with fear. I sat still with my hands towards him. Slowly and warily he neared me and sniffed my hands. He cringed away slightly, but sniffed again. He barked out and started licking my hand. I giggled when his hot tongue touched my skin. And his tongue was hot. Very hot. I then thought back to when James had touched me as a human and when I had ripped off his limps.
As a human, he was ice cold. As a Vampire, he was warm. Meaning I must be ice cold now.
Slowly Felix' tail started waving back and forth - he was happy. Slowly I took him in my arms and he didn't flinch. I had his trust.
I ran with him to my cave where I started a fire for him to warm up. He lay on his back with his tongue out and his tail brushing against the stone-floor. He looked so peaceful I had to smile. When he was sound asleep, I made my way out of the cave, silent as the night. I realized I had no clothes on, and just took a swim and washed myself in the pond. I also realized that the water no longer appealed to me, and I remembered that Vampires were supposed to survive of Human blood. But I didn't want to kill the humans. I didn't want to be a monster. My Mother, my Papa, my Grandfather, my Family would all be so disappointed in me.
I went out of the water and let the air dry me. I went into my cave and looked through my backpack. I found an old dress and I took it on. It fit perfectly. I gasped as I realized something. What about my earrings? My hands flew to my ears and I could still feel the earrings. They were still there where I had placed them myself. I slowly tried to turn them around and without me knowing how, they still could turn. I beamed as I realized I was able to wear earrings. I carefully held the crest of my Father's family. The Cullen family. The family I belonged to. How I wish they were still alive. I thought.
It was still nighttime, and I was bored. The aching in my throat only became worse and I needed to get out of the cave. Felix was still asleep, and I realized the poor dog must be hungry. And thirsty. But he had nothing to eat and nothing to eat from.
I ran through the forest and came across a big stone. I went over to it, and tried digging my fingers into it. To my big surprise I could, and when I blew away the dust, there was a tiny hole in it, of course. That gave me an idea, and I broke off a huge chunk. I rounded it off, and dug a hole into it. And in a matter of seconds, I had a bowl I could use to food for Felix. But it missed something. So I wrote 'Felix' in the side. It was perfect. I made another one and had a water bowl and a food bowl. Now I just needed the food and water for him.
Dogs like raw meat if I am not mistaken? I thought. I closed my eyes and smelled the forest. It came natural to me. I smelled something sweet, though not as sweet as the smell in the city. I listened and heard a pumping heart 7 miles to the northeast. I followed the sound and the smell and was there in the matter of seconds. I saw a small herd of deer and without thinking; I threw myself at the largest one. I sank my teeth through its fur and felt the sweet liquid that was its blood smooth out the aching in my throat. That was how I discovered I could drink animal blood and survive of it. I was ecstatic. That meant I did not have to be a monster. When the deer was finished, I still was not, so I tracked down another and drank it. That continued until the aching was dulled down so much it didn't hurt. Then I cut through the fur of my last victim and ripped off its skin. I took the raw meat and placed it in the bowl I had made. I ran back to the cave and filled the other bowl with water.
I went inside the cave and saw that Felix was just waking up. I beamed at my loyal friend and placed the bowl of food and the other bowl in front of him. He tilted his head, barked and threw himself at the food. Then he drank all the water and looked expectantly at me. I laughed.
"You are still hungry are you not?" I asked him.
"Well yes." I stopped laughing abruptly. What just happened? He tilted his head to the side and looked weirdly at me.
"What is wrong?" Firstly I shouldn't be able to understand him. He should be thinking or speaking his dog language. Right? Second of all I shouldn't be able to hear him.
"I-I can hear you. What is going on?" I said, mostly to myself.
"I do not know, but can I have more food?" He asked.
Absentmindedly I nodded, took the bowl and went to where I had drunk the deer earlier. I gathered all the bodies and carried them back. I ripped them apart and placed some of it in the bowl. Felix didn't even notice the bowl. But he noticed the large pile of meat that was placed by the entrance of the cave. He ate and ate for hours until he was fully satisfied.
"Ahh. Now I feel like sleeping." So he did. He slept.
I sat down in the corner of the cave and thought about what happened.
One: I was a Vampire and I could survive on animal blood.
Two: I could see the past, power and plans of other vampires.
Three: I could hear Felix' mind.
What happened? Why could I suddenly hear his thoughts? I couldn't earlier. Could I? Did he even think there? What did it mean? My mind started spinning. How is that even possible? I feel like there is so much room in my mind! I thought. I started humming that tune my mind came up with just before my transformation. It relaxed me, and I slowly figured out how this was possible.
When human, I had formed a bond with Felix; I had named him, he had followed me, we became friends- as much of a friend we could be for one another- he had trusted me. The friendship between girl and dog. He had stayed with me during the transformation and followed me though he was afraid of me. He had been wandering around all day with his tail between his legs, when I had been bitten; he was afraid of the Vampire he could surely smell.
He had trusted me and re-formed the bond between us when I had come back for him after destroying James. It was only natural we could communicate. I relaxed at that thought; perhaps it was natural, and my mind translated his language when he thought to me.
It was soothing to know that I had such a bond with him.
As I thought of Felix I sniffed the air to see how he smelt to me. He smelled good; sweet and yet dog-ish. But he smelled sweet in a non-food way. I think the dog-ish smell was what made him non-appealing.
And I had to admit it was relief to have him to talk to. I think I would go mad without anyone to speak with. As Felix slept, I just watched him. He was a lovely dog; he was light brown with a black back. One ear stood up in the air and was black the other ear was hanging down by the side of his head, and it was light brown. His eyes were big and brown, and he had that natural curious look to him. His nose was white, as were the tip of his tail and the paw of the left front leg. Though, the nose was a little darker. His tongue was a delicate pink and his fur was soft even though he had lived on the streets for God knows how long. But he couldn't have been more then 2-3 years old. He was very cute.
And as he lay there in his deep sleep, I could not help but be jealous of him. There he was, warm and had blood running through his veins. And here I was cold, immortal and dead. I was unnatural. I was something not worthy of living, something not worthy of Felix' friendship.
And as I lay there and thought, a simple yet brilliant idea came to my mind.
Perhaps I was not worthy of living. But I could be. I could earn some of the trust Felix provided me. I had to earn it, for him. I had to be worthy of his trust.
With that I closed my eyes and waited for the sleep to take me.
But I couldn't sleep. I lay there for hours and still had the same energy as when I first woke up from the burning hell. I figured I had to be too tired to sleep.
So before the sun rose, I went out hunting again. The ache in my throat was becoming worse again. I took down three large deer and brought them back with me, where I ripped them apart and saved them for Felix. He would have to eat it quick, or there would be a terrible smell.
I looked down at myself, to see I had messed my Mother's dress. I cursed under my breath, and took it off. I rushed to the pond and with gentle yet quick movements I rubbed off the stain. I sighed with relief when it came off.
I wanted to have it on again, so I ran around faster and faster until it was dry.
Then I heard Felix in the cave.
"What is for breakfast?" he said. I rolled my eyes and pointed to the large pile of meat. He licked his lips and threw himself at the pile again.
"Do not eat too much. A stomachache is the last thing you need right now" I said pointing at him.
"Okay" Was his answer.
It was sunny, and I wanted to go take a swim. I did not know if the sun would burn me, so I stuck out my finger into the sunlight right outside the cave. I gasped at what happened. I stepped entirely out in the sun.
I may not burn in the sun, but if I would ever mingle with humans again, it must not be in the sunlight. I sparkled. Millions and millions of what looked like carved in diamonds in my skin sparkled in the sunlight. I smiled slightly of the revelation; it was beautiful.
So, Bella is a vampire now, huh? What did you think of Felix? Isn't he cute? :D
Lol, I'd love to hear what you think of this chapter... ;)
- Lu