Yo! :) I won't waste much time with this A/N, 'cause I know most people don't read them anyway... x] Sometimes I wonder if I could write some complete BS in my A/N's about how this gay duck raped another duck, just to see if anybody actually commented on that... (Actually, I heard about a gay duck who raped another duck... x]) Lol.. :P

DISCLAIMER: A good point: Just because you buy tent, it doesn't mean you sell your house. Just because I write, doesn't mean I'm Stephenie :D

Previously: But here I was, starting over, just like I always wanted.

A fresh start with new memories and new adventures. The first chapter was done and over with, and I was ready to begin the next. In Dublin, my new place to call home.

Song: Pixie Lott - Mama Do

Bella POV

Felix and I had it great in our new cottage. It was magical; home, safe, me. I loved it with every ounce of my being, and Felix seemed to enjoy it as well. I succeeded in finding a job at last; I worked as a servant for a rich family, a little further east than centrum of Dublin. I did not live there; I went there in the morning before the sun rose, and left after dawn. I needed to be there every day and I couldn't let the sun interfere. Therefore, I needed to be going when it was safe. During sunny days, I stayed inside and cleaned and tided the already tidy rooms. I was nothing but a mere servant to them, but I got paid higher than most of the other girls they had there. They seemed to like me, even if they were afraid of me. Perhaps that was why they paid me more. I cooked for the family; I remembered all the recipes I had learned as human and made them. I was praised for my hard work. Though it really wasn't hard for me. Something I could do in my sleep. If I slept, that is.

I cooked for Felix; he would most of the time catch his own food and I would prepare it. We were a good team, Felix and I. When Felix slept, I studied. It felt great to be able to live out my Papa's dream for him; I knew he would have appreciated it.

I became better at controlling my thirst whilst near humans; I had never tasted the sweet liquids I was sure jolted around the humans' bodies. The scent was painful, but as soon as you got used to it, it was almost as if it wasn't there. I was pleased with myself for never harming a human.

Every Sunday, I went to church. I felt like I was strengthening my bond with my lost family by doing so. Even though it felt immensely wrong, being damned and still sit in the house of God, it was good for me. I felt cleansed and refreshed every time I stepped out of the church. I felt like I had been forgiven for being damned and still enter the holy place.

I read and re-read the Bible many times, and it was soothing somehow.

When I didn't study, I still had time to kill so I threw myself into the task of being a bookworm of greater means. I read about every single book there were in the library of Dublin.

Slowly, but steadily my fortune became bigger, and I had enough money to buy proper food for Felix.

"Felix! I am home. I have bought you some food. Are you hungry?" I asked as soon as I went through my homemade door. I never got over the warmth that filled me everytime I used to word 'home'

"Very much yes. Welcome home Bella, how was your day?" It was quite funny, how we sounded like a married couple. I giggled quietly to myself and smiled.

"Good. How about yours? Did you catch anything?" I said.

"No, unfortunately." He sounded ashamed.

"Do not worry about it, I have brought you food." I assured him.

As I prepared his dinner, Felix came and joined me by the fire. We sat- or I sat, he laid- in a comfortable silence. His thoughts were silent, and I wondered what he wanted.

"Bella, do you think you are able to turn animals?" He asked suddenly, out of the blue.

"I do not know, why?" I was quite startled.

"I have been thinking. You see, I cannot bear the thought of leaving you alone. When I am no more, then what will you do? I doubt you would be able to find yourself another dog." He was speaking quietly, even if it was in his mind.

"I have not thought much about it FeeFee; I have simply pushed away the thoughts when they appeared. I do not want to think about it." I stated, looking into the flames.

"I want to be like you, Bella. But I do not know if it is possible. I say, let us try on a deer and see what happens" He said and I could see the logic. It would be immensely stupid to try the theory on him, if I was not able to change him.

"Do you want to test it now?" I asked with raised eyebrows.

"I would like to eat first." He smiled his doggy-ish smile and I just rolled my eyes at him. When he had eaten his dinner, we made our way to the forest.

I sniffed and smelled some deer nearby. Maybe 5 miles vest.

"5 miles west, deer." I stated. I took Felix in my arms and ran. In a matter of minutes we were there, and I silently put Felix on his paws again.

"Shh, I will go get one." I whispered in his ear, he nodded and I was off.

I caught a young female and dragged her towards Felix.

"Okay FeeFee, I think I have to bite it. I have never tried it before, so let us see how it will turn out." I said and he nodded expectantly. It did not creep him out one bit that I drank animal blood. I had many times told him that he did not appeal to me in an edible sort of way, and he was pleased.

I bit down in the fearful animal's neck, and I quickly removed my teeth before I sucked it dry. It stirred under me, and then went limp. I looked at the deer with annoyance and sadness; this meant FeeFee would not be with me to the end of eternity.

I looked at his disappointed expression and felt unworthy of his friendship and trust. I had failed him.

"Do not worry Bella; I did not expect it to change. Why don't you drink it?" He smiled reassuringly, but he was still a little disappointed. He had been hoping it would succeed, and that he could be with me always. And I wanted my best friend to be with me too.

I nodded, and drank the deer and we headed home.

The days continued to come and pass, and we stayed in our cottage in the woods of Dublin. I decided I wanted to quit my job at the Pition's - the family I worked for- and stay with Felix and continue my studies. They were nice people, but I did not want to work there anymore. I told them that I had a sick aunt in London, and that I needed to go and take care of her. They bought it, and I felt bad when I left their mansion, for lying to them. On my way back, I stepped by the church to be forgiven.

"Forgive me God, for sinning. It was wrong of me to lie, but in order to keep what I am a secret, I will have to. I sincerely hope you can understand and forgive me, forgive me for being what I am, forgive me for what I have to do." I mumbled quietly to myself.

I made the cross over my chest, and went to leave.

"Hold on there." I heard the voice of a human male. I turned around and smiled politely at him, as I was filled with his past, power and plans. This human had no power, meaning that if he was to be changed, he would be a powerless immortal, just like what was common among Vampires. From what I learned of Theo, it is rare to see a Vampire with a gift.

"Did you want anything Sir?" I asked him, only politely interested.

He was a short, rather fat man with mustache and black hair. He was 36 years old, and his intensions were to, kiss me? What an odd man.

"Hello Miss. What is your name, beautiful?" He asked. I could have rolled my eyes; it happened more and more often.

"My name is Isabella Sir, and if you do not mind, I have to get going; my Mother is expecting me." I said coldly; he didn't seem to notice.

"I am sure she would be delighted to know that you have met a man, Isabella. My name is-" Randalf, yes I know. "Randalf Jones." I rolled my eyes quicker than he could notice.

"I must say you have beautiful eyes." He continued on, not noticing me becoming more and more irritated and impatient.

"Thank you kind Sir. But I really have to go now; it was a pleasure to meet you Mr. Jones." Annoying man.

"But Isabella, why do you not come with me?" He babbled on, as I saw his plans change. I needed to get away before he could try and fulfill the plan; I did not want to hurt him.

"No thank you Sir." And with that, I turned around and walked at a fast human pace towards the road. He tried to follow, but then I reached a corner, and saw that nobody was there, and I ran for it. I knew it was very impolite and wrong of me to tell him off in such a way, but I couldn't help it.

"Stupid, annoying, dumb-headed, idiot!" I cursed when I entered through the door.

"Bella?" His voice cracked, even in his mind. I was instantly worried, and forgot my encounter with Mr. Jones in the city.

"FeeFee, what is wrong?" I had become attached to that nickname and he did not seem to mind. I was instantly by his side, and I saw that he laid on the bed, gasping for air.

I touched his nose, and it was as hot and dry, as if he had been lying in front of the fire all day.

"Felix! What is wrong with you?" I was horrified; no, he could not be sick, I could not bear to lose him.

"I think I am sick. I feel terrible." He croaked. I was mortified.

"Do not worry; I will take care of you." I got some water, and was back a second later.

"Here, drink some water." He slobbered it up and I sat there, stroking his soft fur.

"FeeFee, you cannot leave me. Please, stay with me." I sobbed tearlessly, and for the first time I discovered that I could not cry. I had not felt the need to cry before, but now, when I was about to lose the last family I had, I let it all out. My loss of my Papa, Mother, Grandparents, how I was raped, became pregnant, was beaten, lived on the streets, everything I had lived through came out now, as I cried the tearless cry and stroked Felix's fur.

"I do not plan on it sweet Bella. I love you, you are my best friend. I do not know what I would have done without you that were mainly the reason why I followed you after your change." He whispered in his thoughts. I smiled through the unshed tears and hugged him.

"I love you too FeeFee, I love you too." I whispered.

I sat with Felix for days, only leaving his side to get him food and water. He whimpered and shivered in pain and I became more and more unhappy. I did not want him to die; he did not deserve to die. But this disease he had caught- it was a bad one. He got worse and worse on hourly basis.

"Bella, I think it is becoming too late. Try Bella. Try to change me, it is the only shot we have; I do not want to leave your side." He said after 4 days of hell.

I hesitated. I did not want to be the reason why he died, but I could see his point. It was the only way to try and cure him. And Felix was special; he did not smell food-like and he could communicate with me. He was not like any other dog in the world. He was one of a kind, and I was confident that it might succeed. So I tried.

"I am so sorry FeeFee, this will hurt. I am so, so sorry." I whispered before I bit him. He howled in pain, and then he laid still. I covered my head in my hands, and cried tearlessly. He was dead, I was alone. Alone again, lost.

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