SO A FUE PEOPLE WANTED ME TO CONTINUE THIS... SO I DID. I HONESTLY DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE THIS SO DEPRESSING, IT JUST KINDA CAME OUT THAT WAY. BECAUSE TOMORROW IS THE ONE YEAR ANIVERSY OF MY DADS DEATH. SO THATS BASICALLY WHY I MADE THIS CHAPTER LIKE THIS... ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ENJOY. ITS BASED OFF THE SONG YOU CAN LET GO NOW DADDY, BY Crystal Shawanda. I strongly suggest you listen to the song while reading this.

I was laying in bed when I felt my phone vibrating, I looked at the Caller ID, "Clare, what are you doing calling me this late?" she sniffled a little bit, she was crying which immediately made me feel like an ass for snapping at her. "E-Eli can you m-meat me somewhere?" she asked, I didn't even hesitate. "Yeah baby, of course. What's wrong?" I asked, she hiccupped a little, "I'll explain when we see each other." she answered, "Okay. Where do you want to meat up?" I asked, she hesitated for a moment, "How about our special bench?" she asked unsure, "Okay, do you want me to pick you up?" I questioned, "No, I-I'll just walk." she answered then hiccupped again. "Okay I'll be there in about twenty minutes. I was already out of bed writing a note to Imogen about how I had to leave early for work or some shit like that, I don't really remember what I wrote, I just know it was a bullshit lie, that she would believe. Which made me feel worse. But I can't stand it when Clare cries. I would rather jump off a bridge into to shark invested water, or get trampled by an elephant, or... you get the point.

Cpov

I was sitting on the bench waiting for Eli when I heard someone call my name. I looked up, but the person was blurry, I was still crying. Then I heard Eli say my name again, "Clare, are you okay?" I started crying even more but I managed to get the words out, "My dad has cancer." he didn't say anything, he just sat down and held me, "The doctors say he has had for two whole years but they never found it, they say it had time to spread, its all over his body, he has two weeks." he held me tighter, saying nothing just listening, letting me talk out my pain. "And now all I can think about is the time when I rode my first bike and wouldn't let him help, I wasn't trying to be mean... it was just I felt freedom for the first time. I told him he could let go, that I was a big girl, it makes me feel horrible."

WIND BLOWING ON MY FACE SIDWALK FLYING BENEATH MY BIKE A FIVE YEAR OLDS FIRST TASTE OF WHAT FREEDOMS REALLY LIKE, HE WAS RUNNIN RIGHT BESIDE ME HIS HAND HOLDING ON THE SEAT, I TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND HOLLERED AS I HEADED FOR THE STREAT, "YOU CAN LET GO NO DADDY, YOU CAN LET GO, OH I THINK IM READY TO DO THIS ON MY OWN, ITS STILL A LITTLE BIT SCARY, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW, I'LL BE OK NOW DADDY, YOU CAN LET GO.

" Or the day I married Jake, I told him the same thing. I didn't even think about how he might not be here one day. I was selfish." Eli still said nothing, just sat there holding me, crying.

I WAS STANDING AT THE ALTER BETWEEN THE TWO LOVES OF MY LIFE, TO ONE I'D BEEN A DAUGHTER, TO ONE I SOON WOULD BE A WIFE. WHEN THE PREACHER ASKED "WHO GIVE THIS WOMEN?" DADDYS EYES FILLED UP WITH TEARS, HE KEPT HOLDING TIGHTLY TO MY ARM UNTIL I WHISPERED IN HIS EAR, "YOU CAN LET GO NOW DADDY, YOU CAN LET GO, OH I THINK IM READY TO DO THIS ON MY OWN, IT STILL FEELS A LITTLE BIT SCARY, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW... I'LL BE OK NOW DADDY, YOU CAN LET GO.

Eli held me as I cried more than I ever have before. I cried until I was all drained out. Then Eli picked me up and took me to Morty, and drove me home, he then picked me up once more and carried me to my room and layed me down where I fell asleep almost instantly, I vaugly remember feeling Eli take my shoes off and my socks, then my blue jean pants and replacing them with some of my sleeping shorts, but I was too out of it to remember if he had or not.

Two Weeks l8r Still Cpov

I was going to the hospital when Eli called, "Hey, I'm at the hospital, your mom is wondering where you are." he said, I rolled my eyes, today was not a good day for me. "I would tell you to tell her I'm twenty-six and she shouldn't worry about where I am all the time, but she would probably get super pissed, so just tell her I'm on my way." I answered, he laughed, I short tense laugh. "Okay, will do." he answered then hung up. I got there twenty minutes later, I saw my mom with tears in her eyes "He's waiting for you." was all she said, so I walked in the room.

IT WAS KILLING ME TO SEE THE STRONGEST MAN I EVER KNEW, WAISTIN AWAY TO NOTHIN IN THAT HOSPITAL ROOM, "YOU KNOW HE'S ONLY HANGING ON FOR YOU" THATS WHAT THE NIGHT NURSE SAID, MY VOICE AND HEART WHERE BREAKING AS I CRAWLED UP IN HIS BED AND SAID

He looked worse than I had ever seen him look, I remembered a conversation I had with a nurse a few days ago, that's what made make this decision. No going back now. "Daddy, you can let go." I whispered

"YOU CAN LET GO NOW DADDY, YOU CAN LET GO, YOUR LITTLE GIRL IS READY TO DO THIS ON MY OWN, ITS GONNA BE A LITTLE BIT SCARY BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW, I'LL BE OK NOW DADDY YOU CAN LET GO. YOU CAN LET GO."

I KNOW ITS DEPRESSING, BUT I HOPE U GUYS LIKE IT!