I was calling Eli late at night again, this was becoming a bad habit that I seriously need to break. Eli and I are like a story, but I have a feeling that its coming to an end. "Hello?" I heard Eli ask, I took an intake of breath, Eli's sleepy voice is incredibly sexy. "Clare, is this you?" and so is the fact that he knows who I am just by the sound of my breathing. That may sound weird, but you would understand if it was you. "Eli, we're like a story aren't we?" I asked, "Clare, what are you talking about?" he asked confused, "I used to think one day I'd tell the story of us..."
I USED TO THINK ONE DAY I'D TELL THE STORY OF US, HOW WE MET AND SPARKS FLEW INSTANTLY
"Remember how everyone always said we were lucky because we found who we were looking for so soon?" I questioned
AND PEOPLE WOULD SAY THEIR THE LUCKY ONES
"And then when we broke up... I didn't know what to do at all, I always knew I would sit by you... I never had to think about stuff like that, until we broke up..."
I USED TO KNOW MY PLACE WAS A SPOT NEXT TO YOU, NOW IM SEARCHING THE ROOM FOR AN EMPHTY SEAT
"I thought of us like a fairytale, but back then I didn't know what page or chapter you were on in the story..."
CAUSE LATELY I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT PAGE YOUR ON
I know I'm not giving Eli a chance to answer any of my questions or anything I'm saying, but I need to get this out. He could talk when I was done. "Then it got to the point where we weren't even talking, all because of a complication named Fitz."
OH A SIMPLE COMPLICATION, MISCOMMUNICATIONS LEAD TO FALLOUT
"I had so many secrets that I wanted to tell you, but you wouldn't even tell me anything, You had too many walls up..."
SO MANY THINGS THAT I WISH I KNEW, SO MANY WALLS UP I CANT BREAK THROUGH
"And we would be at the same party or something and we wouldn't talk, I would just be standing in the corner, away from everyone."
NOW I'M STANDING ALONE IN A CROUDED ROOM, AND WE'RE NOT SPEAKING
"I would always wonder if its making you as sad as me when that happened."
AND IM DYING TO KNOW, IS IT KILLING YOU LIKE ITS KILLING ME, YEAH
"After we broke up I never knew what to say to you, that's why I never talked to you..."
AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY, SINCE THIS TWIST OF FATE WHEN IT ALL BROKE DOWN, NOW THE STORY OF US LOOKS A LOT LIKE A TREGEDY NOW
"And I told and told myself I was done with you, that I was ready to start a new chapter in my life."
NEXT CHAPTER
"Then whenever I saw you, when I was dating Jake, I would mess with my clothes and try to look like I was actually doing something, and if you saw me and we where in the halls you would turn around and go the long way to your class."
HOW'D WE END UP THIS WAY? SEE ME NERVOUSLY PULLING AT MY CLOTHES AND TRYING TO LOOK BUSY, AND YOUR DOING YOUR BEST TO AVOID ME
"And you know, I probably will tell the story of us, but its not gonna be the love story I thought it would be."
IM STARTING TO THINK ONE DAY I'LL TELL THE STORY OF US, HOW I WAS LOSING MY MIND WHEN I SAW YOU HERE
"But you would just walk on by like it was nothing. Like I was nothing."
BUT YOU HELD YOUR PRIDE LIKE YOU CHOULD HAVE HELD ME
"And I was so scared to talk to you because... because I was scared of us ending."
OH, IM SCARED TO SEE THE ENDING, WHY ARE WE PRETENDING THIS IS NOTHING?
"I always wanted to tell you that I missed you, but how was I supposed to say that? The silence was horrible. I would have rather been in a screaming match with you, that to be just not talking."
I'D TELL YOU I MISS YOU BUT I DONT KNOW HOW, I'VE NEVER HEARD SILENCE QUITE THIS LOUD
"And we were both acting like we could, honestly, care less about what happened to the other."
THIS IS LOOKING LIKE A CONTEST, OF WHO COULD ACT LIKE THEY CARE LESS I LIKED IT BETTER WHEN YOU WERE ON MY SIDE
"And when we were at Adam and Drew's party and you said I had to be all in, but it turns out you where the one that wasn't "all in" why would you cheat on me like that Eli? I know we were fighting, but I would have stopped if you would have."
THE BATTLES IN YOUR HANDS NOW, BUT I WOULD LAY MY ARMOR DOWN IF YOU TOLD ME YOU'D RATHER LOVE THAN FIGHT, SO MANY THINGS THAT YOU WISH I KNEW, BUT THE STORY OF US MIGHT BE ENDING SOON
"Then I broke up with you, you hurt me too bad Eli."
AND THE STORY OF US LOOKS A LOT LIKE A TRAGEDY NOW. THE END.
I took a deep breath, I said all of that without a break for air, I needed to get it off my chest, he didn't say anything for a moment, but then he spoke, "Meet me somewhere, anywhere! I NEED to see you." he had THAT tone of voice, hid bedroom voice. How the fuck did he get turned on by that? I wondered, whatever, I realize now that... I just cant resist Eli's bedroom voice...
SNEAK PEAK FOR NEXT CHAPTER!
I had Clare pushed up against the wall of a motel room, we had met up and talked about some stuff that we really needed to talk about, and somewhere between ,eating ice cream and getting here, had my lips met hers, I tried to remember how this had happened... but when Clare started moving down my body, I realized that situations are irrelevant now.
haha, who's exited for the next chapter? ;)