Mai's thoughts...
They say a man only falls in love once, and that when he falls, he falls. If that relationship ends, however, he will eventually find it within himself to care for another. He will protect her, shelter her, and love her in his own way, but she will never truly hold his heart. That part of him will always belong to the first.
And no matter how hard she tries, he will never look at her like she's the only woman in the world. For him, there are now two. And the second will always feel the presence of the first- in every touch, every whisper, and every move that he makes. But she will learn to accept him the way he is, because she loves him and she can't imagine a life without him.
So she accepts the mantle of second, learns to avoid the shadows of his past. She embraces the here and now, and ignores the far-away look that she sometimes sees in his eyes. She pretends that she does not know that he longs for the first. She imagines that he is in love with her…her and only her. She tries to fill the void in his heart, and sometimes deludes herself into thinking that she has succeeded.
But she hasn't, and she never will.
For a man only falls in love once.