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I don't really think it's a good idea for me and Eli to be seeing each other behind Imogen and Jake's backs. Every time Eli calls me to meet up, I go with the intention of telling him that, but when I see his face... I completely forget what I was going to say.
FACE TO FACE, AND HEART TO HEART
When we see each other we get so close... as in kissing close (because that's what we do...) but we feel so far apart, because we never say "I love you" or anything.
WERE SO CLOSE YET SO FAR APART
When we get that close I cant even look at him, he loves Imogen... I don't even know how this happened.
I CLOSE MY EYES, I LOOK AWAY
And it hurts, because I say "I love you" every time we see each other... he never say it back.
THATS JUST BECAUSE I'M NOT OKAY
Sometimes I wonder if what were doing is worth it, if there's no love involved... why are we even doing this? I just gotta keep on wishing he'll say the words. If he never does... that'll will hurt the worst. Just gotta stay strong until he does.
BUT I HOLD ON, I STAY STRONG, WONDERING IF WE STILL BELONG
They way he looks at me... I know he loves me... I just wish he would say it.
WILL HE EVER SAY THE WORDS HE'S FEELING? (1)
He has so many walls up, I can't break through but I know what he's feeling.
REACH DOWN UNDERNEATH IT, TEAR DOWN ALL THE WALLS
I will be with him... if he says he loves me, if he doesn't... no happy ending for us.
WILL WE EVER HAVE A HAPPY ENDING?
He's just pretending that he doesn't care, I know it's not true.
OR WILL HE FOREVER ONLY BE PRETENDING
Sometimes I fantasize about me and him together...
HOW LONG DO I FANTASIZE...
It's easier than accepting the reality... that we're not really together.
MAKE BELIEVE THAT ITS STILL ALIVE
I wonder if he loves Imogen more... maybe I'm not good enough any more.
IMAGINE THAT I AM GOOD ENOUGH
Sometimes I wish I could choose who I love. It would be so much easier if I could.
AND WE CANCHOOSE THE ONES WE LOVE
I've kept his secrets... and he's kept mine.
KEEPING SECRETS SAFE
And when we hug, he holds onto me like it's the last time he will ever see me.
EVERY MOVE WE MAKE, FEELS LIKE NO ONES LETTING GO
It really is sad... because I honestly don't know if he loves me or not. I say I do... but honestly, I don't have a clue.
AND ITS SUCH A SHAME CAUSE IF YOU FEEL THE SAME, HOW AM I SUPPOSSED TO KNOW?
I just wish he would... just stop... Pretending.
PRETENDING
(1) I KNOW I CHANGED SOME OF THE LYRICS, THE STORY WOULDNT HAVE MADE SENNSE IF I HADNT.
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