Lexi's P.O.V. 1 week later.
I was curled up in Hidan's arms as we enjoyed one another's company. I was in my simple preggers form since Ray seem content for once in 7 months. Being in his arms made me smile, and that's what I did. I missed him, and now we were going to live happily together.
It's all I ever wanted. To be with the man I love and give him all the attention I could give to him. To make him happy more than myself. And once Rayven is born, I'll be the greatest mom I can be for him because I love him, here or not, he's my baby and I will always protect my baby.
I looked up at Hidan who was looking distant in his thoughts. I grinned and went up to his neck, nipping it. He jumped lightly and looked down at me and I laughed at his stun face. "What the fuck, woman?!" he asked.
"Shh, no yelling in my house." I told him, nipping it again before moving over to peak his lips lightly and pressed my forehead on his with a smile as I stared deep into his eyes.
He chuckled. "Only one kiss?" he asked.
I giggled and kiss him a bit more passionately this time, and his hand went to the back of my head to deepen the kiss. My tongue roamed his mouth, exploring what I've been exploring for the past week and then some. I finally pull back, lying my head on his chest once again. "Do you really not have a last name, Hidan?" I asked him.
"Nope. I'm just Hidan. Why?"
"Cause I would have thought you wanted to give your son a last name." I told him.
"…The fuck's wrong with yours?" he asked.
I gave him a 'what the hell look' "Did I say anything was wrong? Huh? No, I fucking didn't." I said.
He twitched at me and opened his mouth, but I beat him to the punch and looked up at him with a pouting look. "No, don't say anything. Shut up, I won." I told him simply.
He twitched more at me and turn the other way. "If you weren't pregnant with my son-"
I got defensive and stood up quickly with my arms out for confrontation with him. "WHAT? WHAT HIDAN?! THE FUCK YOU WANNA DO?!" I asked him.
We stared at one another before laughing at my action, and I quickly went back into his arms. "But don't make me do that again, my back hurts from doing all that" I told him.
"No one told you to get up and do all of that shit, dumbass woman." he called me.
"Blah blah blah."
We continued to sit here, once again enjoying one another presences. I felt him grab my hand, and I looked up at him to see him looking down at me. I smiled at him. "What?"
"When are we fucking leaving?" he asked.
I was quiet for a little while before looking over at him with a confused look. "The fuck are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about when the fuck we're leaving to Yugakure!" he yelled at me. "Did you fucking forget."
"…" no, I didn't forget. I told Hidan that I would leave to Yugakure with him. He said that he prefer his village because they're starting up with a ninja academy that would be perfect for our son, and he already had a big house for him and Konan before she left with Pein.
He claims he already has things ready for us and all I needed to do was pack my shit and leave with him. At first, I thought it was a great idea, but…that requires me to leave everyone and everything…I don't think I can do that…I don't think I can throw it all away for Hidan, even though I love him…I love my memories and the relationships I already have more than him.
I stood up and did some hand signs before going under my transformation jutsu. I felt the confusion he had before I walked to the door. "I'll be out for awhile. Don't follow me neither. I'll be back." I told him, walking out my house.
I sighed, looking around Konoha, passing the hokages heads, the ninja academy, and then the hospital I work at. I actually stopped as soon as I made it to my job and stared at it for awhile. I think I'm going to miss this the most…
"Lexi?"
I looked over to see Eternal walking over to me with a smile. I forced to smile too. I change my mind, I'm going to miss her the most, my best friend of 11 years…
"Hey, Eternal. What are you doing over here?"
"Nothing, just here to see how everything is going at the hospital. The question is what are you doing over here?" she asked.
I smiled more. "Just out for a walk. Nothing more, nothing less." I said.
She stood next to me and we just stood there, staring at the building. We had so many memories here, so many that I cant even count them all. It made my eyes water to know that…I'm going to miss everything.
"Eternal, if you had a chose to be with the guy you love but you had to leave everything behind to be with him, what would you do?" I asked her.
She looked at me confusedly. "Honestly?" she asked.
I nodded and she continued. "…Well, honestly…I don't know. I think I'll chose to keep everything instead of leaving. I don't know what to do if I ever left everything I kept so dear to my heart over one guy." she told me.
…She right. I cant leave everything just for Hidan. I just cant. I have to tell him that we need to stay here or no us. These people are my family, and I love my family. I looked over at her and smiled. "Thanks, I feel much better." I told her walking away.
Yep, that's what I have to tell him. Us or no us.
I stopped to get some ice-cream before I went home to tell Hidan my decision, and it was just about 9 o clock now. And everything was getting darker. I stopped by the park since no one was here and I ate happily.
However, even though a heavy burden was lifted from my chest, how come I feel like I'm regretting this in some way? Like…if this doesn't work out with him compromising with me I'm going to be alone? I don't want to be alone, I just want to be with him but I want him to respect my decision and just stay in Konoha with me.
"…Why are you out here so late?"
My ears twitched. I haven't heard that voice in months. I looked up to see Itachi standing next to me. We haven't been alone like this in years. But despite the thoughts, I looked the other way. "I'm out here cause I wanna be. It's none of your business." I told him.
He ignored me. "…Yea, it's late at night and you're crying. You were rather dumped, which I know will never happen, or raped. Which one, though I will think you were raped."
I didn't even know I was crying, so looking back at him, I wiped my eyes and gave him a stupid look. "Idiot…I was not rape. Don't even joke about shit like that." I told him, sniffing a little before facing the other direction. "Go home, shouldn't you be with Eternal." I spat at him.
"I was." he said before I heard him sitting next to me. "However, the fact to know that someone dumped you is actually interesting." he smirked.
I growled a little. "What a fucking asshole." I called him, getting up about to walk away.
However, that's when I felt him grab my wrist. "Keeping it inside isn't the best. Especially someone weak hearted as you, Alexis." he told me.
I looked at him, only to see him looking at me with those gentle onyx brown eyes. The way he use to look at me all those years ago. My eyes soften as well and I sat back down next to him. "You're just as weak hearted as I am, Uchiha. And there's a reason why I don't like being called Alexis." I told him simply.
"Is that so, Alexis? What's wrong with your name, Alexis?"
I glared at him lightly. "Because, you're the only one who actually calls me by that instead of Lexi, so it pisses me off."
He sighed out gently. "Forget it then. What's wrong with you?"
"…Why should I tell you about it anyways? Do you even care?"
"If I didn't, would I be sitting here with you?"
…Damn, he had me…
I tsked but sighed out gently, looking out. "…If you had to choose…to leave everything behind for one person…what would you do, Itachi?" I asked.
"…You fell in love? Are you serious."
"How about you answer my god damn question." I said, holding out my ice-cream to him that still had half of it left in it.
He took it and began to eat it. "That's a tough one then…to let go of everything for just one person." he said lowly. "Just how much do you love this person?"
"…He's the second guy I fell in love with." I said, facing Itachi.
He didn't give me a look back. He only sighed out. "…Is that so? You love Hidan that much?"
He already knew who we were talking about. "…Yea…" I said lowly.
"He must be someone very close in your heart to make you forget about your first love." he told me.
"…I never said I forgot about my first love because of Hidan."
His face never changed, but I saw how taking back he was.
"…Alexis…"
"What? That's a shocker to you?" I asked him.
"…"
"See, you never read in between the lines of my words. I haven't forgotten about you, I just don't feel the same way I felt about you years ago." I said, crossing my legs, looking up at the sky.
"Is that so?" he asked me.
"Yep."
"So, if I told you I was still in love with you, would you drop everything and run away with me?" he asked me.
My eyes widened at that and I faced him. He's not serious, he's fucking with me, he's fucking with me! He's…
"You're not serious." I said.
"And if I am?" he asked, his eyes never leaving my own as he scooted closer to me.
His hands came closer to my face and I closed my eyes tightly, trying to shake off the blush that was forming on my cheeks. His warm hands touched my cheeks and cradle my face…the way he used to do years ago.
'Years ago…'
"Alexis, I still love you." he breath on my lips.
'Years ago.'
I turned my head the other way. "I-Itachi, stop it." I said to him.
"I'm just telling you how I feel for you-"
SMACK
'YEARS AGO!'
"I SAID STOP IT!" I screamed at the tip of my lungs before back handing him.
He let go of my now wet cheeks, and I was able to look at him with anger. "YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE FIVE FUCKING YEARS AGO! YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE BEFORE SNUBBING ME LIKE I WAS NOTHING TO YOU! YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE BEFORE YOU MARRIED MY BEST FRIEND! YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE BEFORE I STARTED SLEEPING AROUND BECAUSE I WAS EMPTY INSIDE! AND YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE BEFORE I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIDAN!" I yelled.
His eyes narrowed at me. "So what are you saying? You're denying my feelings."
"Yes! I'm denying your fucking feelings because I found someone better than you!"
"Hidan's better than me? So you're willing to risk everything to be with Hidan?"
"You're fucking right I am! I already risk everything for him one night seven months ago! And I'm not afraid to give up another eternity to be with him!"
"And there's your answer." he told me simply.
"AND YOU KNOW ANOTHER THING?! I FUCKING HATE YOUR COCKINESS! I MEAN HE CAN BE COCKY AT TIMES TOO, BUT YOU, YOU'RE JUST THE WORST-Wait…what?"
He stared at me. "I said that's your answer." he said again, getting up before walking off.
I was still confused, I was trying to let this all process in my head. My answer? …My answer…my answer is that I…subconsciously…I want to be with Hidan? I touched my chest slightly before smiling. I do…I do want to be with Hidan. I'm ready now.
"ITACHI!" I screamed out, my tears never stopped.
He glanced over at me and I gave him a smile. A true smile. "THANKS! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!"
He gave me a smile back before walking away once again and I shortly turned to the other direction, walking to my small house.
I walked in and looked over to see Hidan fast asleep on the couch, snoring hard. I smiled at him and walked over to his sleeping figure, releasing my jutsu and held my stomach.
"…Hidan." I called to him gently.
He was still fast asleep and I rolled my eyes.
"Hidan!"
"No, no, give mommy 5 more minutes. Daddy's feeding her his milk, Ray." he smiled in his sleep.
This time I twitched. He's a fucking whore. "OH MY FUCKING-WAKE UP!" I yelled at him now.
He moved around in his sleep before opening his eyes to look up at me. I was frowning down at him as he lifted himself up, rubbing his eyes. "Fuck, what time is it?" he asked.
"It's time for you to wake your dirty ass up." I told him. "I heard you in your echi dreams." I shock my head.
"Hey! I'm not fucking dirty! I can dream about any fucking thing I want, and if it's you sucking my dick then fuck it, it's you sucking my dick!" He soon look over at the clock, which now said 10:55, and he glared up at me. "The fuck Lexi?! You were out for a long ass fucking time." he cursed at me.
"…So the fuck what?" I asked him.
"I was worried fucking sick about you! The only reason why I didn't go after your ass is because you told me not to! At least tell me where you're going for over 5 hours!" he said, rubbing his head.
My eyes soften at that. He was worried? I've been used to just me myself and I that I forgot about what the term 'us' meant. It hurt me to see him so distress because of my actions.
"…I'm sorry…Hidan." I said lowly to him. "I didn't know that…I worried you so much about it. I really am sorry." I told him.
"…" He stared at me before lying back down, yawning. "Besides, why were you out so late anyways?" he asked me.
I stared at him, staying quiet for awhile. He looked un eased and looked around the room from my gaze. "The fuck is up with you?" he asked before looking into my eyes again.
"…" I soon smiled gently at him. "Hidan…tomorrow." I said.
It took some time for his brain to process what I meant, and after awhile,
"What? Tomorrow what? What the fuck are we doing tomorrow."
My sweat dropped and I shook my head. "What else did we plan on doing, idiot!" I asked him.
"I don't fucking-" he got quiet and I just continue to stare at him. "…Leaving? Tomorrow?" he ask.
I nodded my head. "Yes, tomorrow. I'm ready to go with you, idiot." I said to him.
"…" he stayed quiet and just stared up at me. I stared back down at him as he lifted himself up and held my hand. "…Are you sure?" he asked me.
"…I spent the whole day asking myself the same question…and yes…I am." I smiled at him, a smile I never gave anyone before. "I'm ready to be with you…Hidan."
I saw how his cheeks lit up before taking my hand and kissed every knuckle, gently, which was a shock to me because…well…he's not a person who would be so gentle to another person.
"…You should smile like that more often, you know. You look more than beautiful when you do." he called me.
It was my turn to blush and he continued. "You know, you really are an amazing woman. I never met a woman like you before."
"Now you're just sweet talking." I said, looking the other way, my blush spreading wider.
"No, I'm fucking not. I really believe this, so shut the fuck up and listen." he growled gently to me.
My eyes widen slightly. "I love you, woman. I swear to Jashin, it may have been a year since we met, but you are the only woman I felt connected to. You're having my child, and even if I wasn't in your life you were still going to have that baby and take care of him. You're a fucking beauty while we're at it as well and not even Konan will ever compare to you. Once this baby is born, I fucking promise you that I'll never do anything fucking stupid." he told me.
I waited awhile once I felt my red face cooling down, I cast my eyes down to look at him, but I only gasped loudly.
"So, will you marry me, Saito Alexis?"
In his hand was glimmering 12 krt diamond that was incrusted with smaller ruby stones around it, making a form of a flower. It was so expensive. It was so beautiful.
"…N-No. I-I cant…I cant accept that ring." I told him.
He gave me this look before looking down at the ring before looking up at me. "Why the fuck not?" he asked me. "You don't fucking like it or something?"
"N-No, it's beautiful, the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I…just don't deserve something so beautiful. Please…take it back." I asked him softly.
"…So it's too beautiful so you want me to send it back." he sighed out. "Well, I guess I have to just let you go too, don't I?"
I looked at him. "What? The fuck are you saying? I want to marry you but not with that ring on my finger."
"Until you accept this ring then I'm not going to marry you."
"WHAT?! THAT'S FUCKING CRAZY!"
"NO WHAT'S FUCKING CRAZY IS THAT I'M GOING TO ALLOW MY FUTURE WIFE TELL HER FUCKING SELF THAT SOME DUMBASS RING IS MORE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL THAN HER!" he yelled at me.
I was taking back at his sudden statement, and he just glared up at me before pulling hand close to him. "Alexis, I told you this twice and it wont be my last time saying it either. You are fucking gorgeous, cute, beautiful, hot, attracting, desirable, alluring, tempting, FUCKING SEXY, and any other fucking thing that I just cant think of at the moment because you blow me the fuck away. So just take the fucking ring-"
I couldn't hold it in anymore. "Hidan!" I cried, wrapping my arms around his neck and began to sob on his neck. He was the only one who ever told me that. I've never heard anybody, any man, call me such words. Words of beauty. It made my heart sink.
I'm…I'm actually happy.
"I'LL MARRY YOU! I'LL MARRY YOU, HIDAN, BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU TOO! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH."
"Even with the ring?" he asked.
"YES, EVEN THE RING! I'LL TAKE THE UGLY ASS RING!" I cried.
He pulled me back up and slipped the ring on my finger, capturing my lips with his own before pulling back. "Now stop fucking crying. I already told you I don't like seeing you fucking cry." he told me.
I wiped my tears and looked up at him, sniffing.
"Now smile babe. I wanna see that smile you fucking gave me earlier." he smirked down at him.
After I was done sniffing and drying my tears, and I smiled that smile I will only give to him and kissed him passionately.
'I'm actually happy.'