Lexi's P.O.V. 3 Years

A 6 year marriage I've been in. I've been with Hidan for 6 long years. I thought I would be continent during this time, yea? Well…no, it hasn't. Me and Hidan never been the same. I cant even look at him anymore. But how can I look at a man who claims he's my husband, however, he's never home. He just stop coming home really. He comes back home from his 'missions' and that's about it. Rayven now goes to school to be a ninja, leaving me now at home to do nothing.

I stop going out. I stay in bed, eat some cookie dough, sleep, and take some medication now. Yep, it's gotten bad. I'm taking some fucking pills to make the pain less worse.

I looked over at my ring from Hidan. We had vows with these rings. He's not here for me. He just left. How could you leave me? The time I need you most, Hidan, and you're not here with me.

Just then, I heard my bedroom door open. Hidan walked in with a tired look on his face. I just stared at the wall, lightly tugging my hair. I felt his eyes on me.

"…I'm home." he said.

I stayed quiet. He walked over to my side, and started to gently caressing my cheeks, up to my hair before leaning down gently to kiss me. I didn't respond back though. He soon went over to kiss my neck a few times, and his hands went to fondle my breast. I didn't want to though. I'm so depressed. I really didn't want to do anything.

He felt my lack of response and looked at me. "What's wrong with you?" he asked.

"…Oh, I don't know…maybe I'm depressed and take pills now." I said to him.

He stared at me. "I'm finally giving you what you fucking want. Why the fuck are you having your attitudes on me?"

"Because you asked a stupid ass fucking question. That is why I'm having my problems with you." I told him.

He shook his head at me, "The fuck ever then." he said, before lifting himself up and walked over to the bathroom. My eyes welt up then, and I curled myself in a compress ball. I sobbed, I went to back of my throat and just cried out. I though marriage would be something different. He promised me. He promised me that he will always be there for me! I left everything to be with him!

I cant stand this. I cant stand this shit any fucking more! I got off my bed, still screaming and sobbing. Hidan came running out of the bathroom with his eyes widen and confused, I ran over to the bedroom door and swung it open before I ran down the stairs.

"GOD, KILL ME! JUST KILL ME!" I screamed out, running to the kitchen.

"LEXI, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!" he yelled out, running after me.

I ran to the sink, digging in there until I pulled out one of my biggest sharpest knives. I gripped it tightly, and when I was about to stab myself, Hidan grabbed my arm with the knife in hand and kept his arms around me. I screamed out more as I tried to pull out of his grip. It only tighten, and my tears came out more.

"LET ME GO! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!" I cried out with a sob.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?! DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA WHAT THE FUCK IT IS THAT YOU'RE ABOUT TO FUCKING DO?!"

"YES, I DO!" I sobbed. "JUST LET ME DIE ALREADY! JUST TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY! I DON'T LIKE LIVING!" I screamed out.

"YOU ALREADY FUCKING KNOW YOU'RE A FUCKING IMMORTAL! YOU'RE FUCKING STUPID, ALEXIS, A REAL FUCKING DUMBASS BITCH!" he called me.

I sobbed more. "SEE, IT'S SHIT LIKE THAT!" I screamed out. "IT'S FUCKING SHIT LIKE THAT THAT MAKES ME WANNA DIE!" I stopped talking for a second to swallow the spit in my mouth, before talking in a now crack voice. "YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE, HIDAN, FUCK YOU!"

"OH, I'M AN ASSHOLE FOR STOPPING YOU FROM DOING SOMETHING FUCKING STUPID?!"

"YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR!" I called him. "YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME! YOU DON'T RESPECT ME! YOU DON'T FUCKING LOVE ME ANYMORE!" I screamed out darkly to him.

His grips on me tighten harshly. "I swear on fucking Jashin woman, you are pissing me the fuck off with your fucking accusations! If I don't give a fuck about you, I would have let you stab your fucking self 16 times until the idea of immortality kicked into your small ass brain and you realize that you cant! Put the fucking knife down before I do something that you'll regret." he whispered deadly in my ear.

I don't even know what happen. I dropped the knife like he told me to on the floor. And my tears just stop coming out. He waited for awhile before letting me go, and soon turned me around and held up my know bruise wrist.

"…Mom…Dad?"

We turned around and saw Ray standing there with a confused look on his face. Me and Hidan looked up at each other before looking back down at Ray. I forced myself to smile.

"Hey, hun. Did you have fun at the academy?" I asked him.

He only stared at me. "…You've been crying…" he said lowly.

I wiped my eyes. "No, just a little, I guess." I told him.

He stared at me. "Mom, why were you going to kill yourself?" he asked me.

My eyes widen. He came in the house so quietly, I didn't even know he was watching us…I felt so ashamed, how am I supposed to explain a 6 year old why his mother did what she did? It's shame full.

"Why where you going to leave me and dad, mom?"

"I wasn't thinking about you, Rayven." I told him I walked to him. "I was thinking about myself, and I'm sorry." I told him, getting on my knees to hold him, once I was in front of him. "Mommy's so sorry, Rayven."

"My mom wouldn't stop thinking about me." He told me coldly. "You're not my mom." he said.

Something broke in me, and held his shoulders. "I know what I did was selfish, Rayven. Mommy, cant think straight. Mommy is very sick. Please forgive me Rayven-"

"Don't call me Rayven. My mom gave me that name, so only she can call me Rayven. My name is Ray, and only Ray."

"Rayven! I am your mother-"

"You're not my mother." he told me coldly with a voice that was a combination of Hidan's and my own.

My heart broke deeply at that, and I could only stare into his eyes. "Rayven-"

"MY NAME IS NOT RAYVEN-"

Something made me snap just now.

SMACK

"YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR FUCKING MOUTH, RAYVEN!" I yelled at him.

He was now holding his red cheeks, and his eyes were glossy, but he kept his glare on me. He didn't say anything, and I knew he was shocked. Shit, I even heard Hidan gasp lightly.

"STAY OUT OF MY FUCKING BUSINESS, RAYVEN! THE SHIT I DO, I DO FOR A REASON! IF MOMMY TELLS YOU SHE'S NOT IN HER RIGHT HEAD, THEN SHIT, I'M NOT RIGHT IN MY FUCKING HEAD! I CARE FOR YOUR ASS WHEN YOU CAME OUT OF ME! I WENT THROUGH SO MUCH BULL SHIT BEFORE AND AFTER I HAD YOU, RAYVEN! DON'T YOU EVER TELL ME THAT YOU'RE NOT MY SON! DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME!?"

He was silent and he kept his ground, however tears were coming out his eyes. He sniffed. "Yes…"

"Yes what?" I asked.

"Yes, mom." he told me.

I stared at him, my mother discipline never dropping. He looked up to stare at me too, and it took him awhile before he walked up to his room. I was still on the floor and I just stared at the spot he left at. My whole life is just falling apart. My husband is never with me, my son doesn't believe I'm his mother. What the fuck is going on here?

The only thing that I live for, my son, my baby, and he's acting so distant with me. He's acting just like his father. Speaking of father, Hidan was staring at my back.

"…I didn't think you had the guts to do that." he told me.

"…I just snapped on him." I said lowly.

He was quiet, but he shortly walked over to me. Lifting me to my feet. He pulled me into a hug, and I slowly held him back. My heart was at ease right now. I felt so happy to be in his arms at this moment. Why cant he just do this every day? Why cant he be with me like this? Why does he give up so easily when it comes down to me?

"…I'm leaving again later on-"

"Please just stay home, Hidan?" I begged him.

"I cant." he told me, looking down at me. "If I could, I would, Lexi." he told me.

My eyes welt up again and tears came out. "Why do you do this to me?" I sobbed.

I heard him sigh out. "I'm sorry, Lexi, but I need to take care of things." he told me, letting go of me and walked up the stairs.

I stared at his back as he walked, and I looked down, depressed once again. I glanced over at the knife I was going to end my life with, but I shortly laughed. What good would that bring me?

Later On That Night

Hidan was gone, once again, and I was in the kitchen, making Rayven dinner. I haven't cooked in so long, that I almost forgot how too. I normally give Rayven some money so he could eat that day. I haven't eating anything in days at least.

I heard small footsteps coming down the stairs, knowing it was Ray right now. I looked over to see him standing the door frame. I turned back to the food.

"Go sit at the table." I said lowly.

He slowly did and just waited until I came over with beef teriyaki on a bed of rice. He looked at it as I sat down about to eat me food.

"…Where's dad?" he asked me.

I looked over at him. "I don't know, hun." I told him before I ate.

He just sat there before looking back up at me. "Why don't you know? Aren't you guys married?" he asked me.

I stopped eating for a second, thinking about it, before going back to my food. "…No, we're not, Rayven."

"But why do dad call you his wife?"

"I don't know why, Rayven." I told him. "Stop asking questions and eat." I told him.

He was quiet but shortly began to eat. I watched him, and he had this sad look on his face. But why should I tell my son that me and his father is married? Why should I tell him a lie? This is not a marriage. I don't know what you call this shit, however, I know one thing. Marriage and love are only a words.

"Rayven." I called to him.

"Yes, mom?" he ask.

"Never make the same mistake I made."

"…Yes, mom."

YES! FINALLY AN UPDATE (Even though it's short and probably not my best work, sorry ._.)! I've been dying to write this story for awhile, however, I didn't know what to write about :P. Anyways, WE'RE SOOO CLOSE TO THE END! Next chapter will be straight, oh my fucking gosh DRAMA! Why? You'll see.

For those of you who read I Hate My Dysfunctional Family, you'll understand why Lexi and Hidan hate each other so much, and why Rayven rather be called Ray than…Rayven .. 2 to 3 more chapters of this story left and it will be completed :D! Please leave me your reviews! I would really appreciate it, and you, very much! Thank you, bye!