Lexi's P.O.V. 2 Years Later
It's a surprised that I was actually away from the bedroom and actually doing the laundry today. I've been getting better these past years. It was hard, yea, but I somehow learned to just get over it and start taking care of my family. Sure it may have not been what I wanted it to be, however, I have a child, and it's my duty to take care of him…
I sighed out after placing everything in a washer machine and walked out of that room and to another to start cleaning it. That's been taking my mind off of a lot of stuff. Just cleaning felt good. Since I don't work anymore, this is the only thing that's been keeping me in serene…however, I've been getting really bothered by a lot of stuff recently.
A year ago, I got off that pill, and now, almost in my 30's, life's been making much more sense…most importantly, my whole deal with Hidan. Sure I've been acting like my 'normal' self as he calls it, however I began to noticed more details on him when him comes home.
(1) He's always tired when he comes and always has an excuse as to why. (2) Sloppy, as in he comes back home with winkled and pulled clothes. (3) When he is back from his 'missions' he's always a day or two late when coming home. And finally (4) He's always home with a mix scent, and this scent has always been a female.
In conclusion, I know he's seeing another woman. However these are all just suspicions. For 8 years now I learned to just push them aside and just move on. I have to find actual evidence in order to prove that he's with some other bitch that isn't me.
"…Mom."
I looked over to see Rayven standing at the frame of the door. "…I'm going to the academy now." he told me.
"Alright then." I gave him a smile. "Your lunch is on the table. Have a good day today, ok Rayven?" I asked him.
He nodded his head. "I will, mom." he shortly walked away.
I sighed out in tiredness, and went back to cleaning this room up. This is actually the room we were going to give to my last baby…I tried not to remember it, and I tried to stay away from this room. It's just sad for me… But this room is dirty as hell, it needs to be clean some type of way.
When I was about to dust down the room, I heard a knock at the door. I was confused for a second. I wasn't expecting any visitors today. I walked out of the room, down the halls, and to the front door. Once I slid it open, I looked around and didn't see anyone at first.
"Down here."
I was caught off guard and looked down. A little girl was standing there with a smile on her lips. Her hair was a medium length raven color with silver and crimson highlights in it. Her eyes were a burning crimson color as well, and her skin was pale. She was a cute little girl. She must be Ray's classmate or something.
I smiled back. "Yes? Can I help you?"
"You're a Saito too, right?" she asked me.
I was taking back by her sudden statement, and I looked at her with wide eyes. No wonder she had a similar smell to my own. I let her in the house, closing the door once she was in. I watched her as she took her shoes off and set them to the side, and she shortly looked over at me.
"…You know, you're my new mommy now." she told me.
I stared at her with a confused look. "Your new…mommy?"
She nodded. "Yep! My old mommy died. Besides, I didn't like her anyways." she said.
"…Who sent you here?"
"No one." she said simply. "I came here on my own. You're name…it's Lexi right?"
"Yea, it is…and yours?"
"Akumu!" she said happily.
My sweat drop. "Nightmare, huh?"
"Yep! My old mommy named me that! But I didn't care. I made her life a nightmare. You see, she never liked me once…well, a little, she said I kept daddy coming back because he had to take care of me."
"And when did she died?"
"She died 3 weeks ago." she told me, looking down slightly sadden. "…I never loved her…however, to know that she never loved me…"
My pain went out to this girl, and I shortly smile. "You wanna cookie?"
Her head shot up to look at me. "Yes." she said quickly.
I laughed a little and held her hand and walked her over to the kitchen to get her something to eat.
"THIS IS SO GOOD!" Akumu cheered out.
We were now sitting at the dinning room table, and I was watching her eat the cookies I made last night with some milk and a sandwich. I could only smile.
"Thank you. I made it for my son last night."
"I have a brother?!" she asked me with a smile.
"…Sure." I said.
"Yay! I always wanted a sibling!" she cheered again, eating more of her cookies.
I just kept staring at her. She doesn't actually think that I'm her mother, right? But who's family could she be apart of? Even though I don't know them personally, I might know them through my mother…
But even though I barely knew this girl, I couldn't help but to nurture her. In fact, I'm thinking of letting her apart of my family. Rayven could finally have a sibling, and I could finally had a daughter.
"…How old are you?" I asked.
"9 ½!" she smiled.
Ahh, that means Rayven will be the youngest one. How cute. I smiled more at her. "You're a big girl, yea?"
"Yep! I've took care of myself until daddy told me that he'll find me a new mommy."
"And I suppose that's me?" I asked her.
"No." she said bluntly. "Well, I really don't know…I always smell you at times, so I assume you were my new mommy because we smell alike." she blushed a little. "And I hope you are…you're prettier than my old mommy."
"…" I smiled more. "Thanks, beautiful." I pinched her cheeks.
She blushed more, and her hands went forward. "Mommy, you have some big ass tits!" she told me, grabbing my breast with a grin.
I was taking back, but I couldn't help but to break into laughter. Ahh, it's like a mini me. I grabbed her hand for my boobs and ruffled her hair.
"Yep, you're a little cutie. I hope that I am your mommy." I told her. "I cant have a daughter of my own, so I would keep you." I told her.
She looked happy, but confused. "Why cant you have a daughter, mommy?"
"I cant have kids anymore." I told her, not as sadden as it use to be for me to tell anyone the news of my infertility as it was before.
She looked sadden for me. "Then I promise to be the best daughter I can be…" she told me.
I couldn't help but to smile at that. I shortly opened my mouth, but our attention quickly went over to the door when we heard it open up. Hidan was home it seems, and he walked inside of the living room, which was an opening to the dinning room.
"Oh, my husband is actually home on time." I stated.
He looked over at me, and quickly, Akumu knocked down the chair she was in by getting up so quickly and ran over to Hidan with open arms.
"DADDY!" she cried out, hugging him.
I was taking back lightly and Hidan as well. Of course he would be shocked. A little girl running over to him that he doesn't even know-
"Akumu, what the fuck are you doing here?!" he asked her.
"Don't fucking curse at me!" she yelled at him. "I came here because I finally followed the scent you always have on you. And then, I found my new mommy!" she said.
My mouth was lightly open, and I slowly got up from the chair I was in. Hidan wasn't even paying attention to me. "You should have been at home, fucker. I told you that I was going to take you to meet her!"
"So what! Mommy is fucking dead! Who fucking cares when I get to meet new mommy! She already knew about me, didn't she!"
"…Y-You were cheating on me…"
Hidan quickly looked up, now remembering that I was in the house, watching everything. My eyes were spilling tears now. I knew he was cheating on me, but I didn't know how I was gonna react…to something like this. A child? He had a child?
"…" he sighed out with frustration. "I was gonna tell you about Akumu today-"
"YOU WERE FUCKING CHEATING ON ME, AND HAD A FUCKING CHILD!?" I yelled out.
Now I knew why her scent was so familiar. She not only smelt like me, but also like Hidan. She not only smelt like him, but acted like him too, and not only that, she looked like Hidan and Rayven.
"Alexis-"
"DON'T FUCKING CALL ME ALEXIS!" I yelled out. "YOU WERE FUCKING PLAYING ME! YOU WERE FUCKING CHEATING ON ME! YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR!" I screamed out.
"Just calm down, let me explain-"
"FUCKING EXPLAIN WHAT?! HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU JUSTIFY HER, HIDAN!?" I pointed to Akumu who looked confused and sad. "SHE'S ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF OLDER THAN RAYVEN, AND YOU COULDN'T HAVE TOLD ME YOU HAD A KID BEFORE THEN?! WHO'S FUCKING CHILD IS SHE?!"
"…A Saito member like you." he told me.
I could only shake my head at him, my tears coming out more violently, and I sobbed. A second fucking time. He cheated on me two times now, with not only one, but with two different women too?
I heard him step to me. "Lexi-"
I screamed out horrified at him and ran down the halls, barely missing his reaching arms to me. He was running after me.
"ALEXIS-"
"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I cursed to him, almost to the bedroom door.
He almost had me, but I made it in the bedroom quickly, grabbing the door knob and slam the door. However, his wrist was caught in the door instead, and he screamed out.
"YOU FUCKING BITCH-AHHHHHH!" He screamed more because I pressed the door more on his wrist, refusing to let him in.
"THIS IS WHAT YOU FUCKING GET, YOU…MAN WHORE! YOU'RE DISGUSTING!" I called him.
He finally slipped his wrist from out of the crack down, and the door closed. I quickly locked it and stepped back from it to crouch on my knees and cried. I really wasted 8 years of my life? Did I really? I gave him a second chance, and he lied to me like this?
I looked around the room and found a suit case. I quickly grabbed it and opened up the closet door and just threw all my clothes in it. I cant take this anymore. I cant take this marriage anymore. I'm going back to Leaf. I going back to my old life. I'm going back to the life I left for him.
I picked up the suit case and unlocked the door again. Hidan, holding his most likely sprained wrist, glared at me and I glared back at him. We didn't say anything and I turned to go walk to Ray's room, to put his stuff in the suit case as well.
Hidan followed me, finally saying something. "If you just let me fucking explain-"
"I gave you many times to explain yourself! I gave you more than enough time to explain to me what the fuck was going on in this marriage, but you didn't tell me ANY FUCKING THING!" I told him, now in Rayven's room to pack his shit up.
He stayed quiet. "…So you're just leaving? You're leaving everything we made-"
"We only made one thing together and I'm taking him." I told him.
He glared at me. "You're taking my son?"
"MY son? Yes, I am!" I told him. "I'm not gonna let my child adapt to his trifling father's ways." I told Hidan simply.
He stayed quiet, and I was glaring at him, my eyes burning a bright crimson, zipping up the suit case, after putting Ray's brand new kunai set in the bag. I bump past him, purposely, and walked down the halls. I walked by Akumu who had tears in her eyes. She was still standing in the living room, and I stopped in front of her. She noticed my present and looked up at me.
"…S-So, y-you're not gonna be my new m-mommy?" she asked me.
My eyes soften gently, and I got on my knees to stork her hair. "…"
"I-I would have been a-a good girl…I-I a-actually l-liked you…" she told me.
"…I know." I said. "And I would have loved you as if you were my own." I told her honestly. "And I would take you too, if you were my own."
"W-Why wont you stay?"
"Because it's a shame that your father couldn't tell me about you and your mother sooner…"
"…I didn't know how to tell you."
Hidan, now behind me, said. Akumu looked over at him, her eyes widen. "D-Daddy…you're crying."
I was taking back, and I looked over at him. A couple of tears came from his eyes, and he wiped them away like they were nothing. He stared back into my eyes. "Alexis, I didn't even know you when I had Akumu. Her mother and I…she was there for me when Konan was seeing Pein at the time. She was the first fucking person I fell in love with. We had a one night stand and I didn't see her again until 8 years ago. She came back and told me about Akumu. I didn't believe her at fucking first, but it was proven that Akumu was my child, and I had to take care of her-"
"…What were you doing with the mother during these 8 years?" I asked him.
"…" he didn't need to say. We already knew what he was doing with her as well. Even Akumu knew, and she glared at Hidan.
"YOU'RE REALLY FUCKING STUPID, DAD!" she yelled at him. "YOU HAD SOMEONE SO MUCH BETTER THAN MOMMY! SHE JUST USED ME AS AN EXCUSE TO KEEP YOU COMING BACK! YOU COULD HAVE TOOK ME!" she yelled at him, her tears and sobs now coming out. "You could have gave me a better life sooner…" She sobbed
My tears were coming out as well, but I needed to know one thing. "…Was she…more important to you than Konan?" I asked him.
"…She was."
"…And obviously…she was more important than me, wasn't she?" I said, staring at the floor.
He was quiet, and I got my answer then. I breathed hard, I was angry, I was sad. I was every damn thing. I sobbed into my hand, with so much emotions. Just how could he? How could have done this to me? What was his whole purpose in this? Why did he waste my fucking 8 years? Why did he come back for me if he was just going to do the same thing?
Why am I everyone's back up plan?
"Alexis, I know I fucked up-"
"YOU DIDN'T JUST FUCKED THE FUCK UP, HIDAN! YOU RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE WITH YOUR BULL SHIT!" I yelled at him. "YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR! YOU RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE! I COULD HAVE RAISED RAY IN SECRET, BUT INSTEAD, I TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE THE FATHER! BECAUSE I LOVED YOU, I TOLD YOU THE TRUTH, AND I THOUGHT YOU STAYED WITH ME BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME BACK-"
"I DO TO FUCKING LOVE YOU-"
"NO YOU FUCKING DON'T! YOU DON'T FUCKING LOVE ME! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK LOVE IS! YOU DON'T LIE FOR 8 YEARS ABOUT WHAT YOU FUCKING DOING! YOU DON'T KEEP BIG ASS SECRETS LIKE THIS AWAY FROM YOUR FUCKING WIFE! YOU'RE JUST A FUCKING WHORE!" I called him. "YOU INSULTED ME, CALLED ME SELFISH, CALLED ME ALL THESE NAME BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT TO GET CAUGHT IN YOUR LIES! YOU MADE ME GO THROUGH DEPRESSION, YOU MADE ME TAKE PILLS, I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF, IF I COULD, FOR YOU! YOU'RE NOTHING BUT FUCK!" I called him, getting back up on my feet. "And now, I'm taking the only thing that made me stay with you, Hidan." I told him.
I was about to walk away, but he grabbed my arm quickly and stared down at me with a glare. "IF ANYTHING, WE CAN WORK THIS SHIT OUT! WE CAN FIX THIS FUCKING MESS I CAUSED! WE CAN HAVE A DAUGHTER TOGETHER NOW! WE CAN START LIFE OVER AGAIN-"
"YOU'RE JUST GOING TO DO THE SAME SHIT AGAIN! YOU'RE JUST GOING TO DO IT FOR A FUCKING ETERNITY! I'M NOT GOING THROUGH THAT SHIT AGAIN!" I yelled. "I RATHER BE ALONE THAN TO BE MARRIED AND FORGOTTEN BY MY OWN HUSBAND!" I told him. "NOW TAKE YOUR WHORING HANDS OFF OF ME!"
He only glared hard at me, and grabbed me tighter. "I'm not letting you walk out of my life, woman!"
I laughed darkly at him. "Fuck you, Hidan."
SMACK
My eyes widen lightly at the sudden contact of his hand on my cheek. I held it while it throbbed and he was glaring down at me.
"WHY DID YOU HIT HER?! WHY DID YOU HIT, MOMMY!" Akumu yelled at him. "SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! YOU DID!"
I heard a 'tsk' from him and he looked over at her. "You just shut the fuck up, This has nothing to do with you-"
I laughed lowly. "She's just as involved as your pathetic ass is." I spat at him.
He glared at me. "What was that, bitch?"
I faced him. "You heard me." I said, digging in the suit case. "Now let go of me." I said.
His grip only tightened, and I found what was I looking for. I brought my hand up and stabbed him in the shoulder with the kunai from Ray's set. His grip lighting up by the unsuspecting rush of pain, and I pulled back from his grip, the kunai still in my hand.
He growled at me. "You bitch, that hurt!" he told me.
"Awesome, that was the whole point." I stated bluntly. "You should have just let me go."
"I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING LET YOU GO!" he snapped at me.
I was taking back. "LEXI, I FUCKING LOVE YOU! IF I DIDN'T, I WOULD HAVE BEEN LET YOU WALK OUT OF MY LIFE!"
More tears spilt from me when I saw sadness in his own eyes. "THEN WHY DID YOU DO IT?!"
"BECAUSE I WAS FUCKING STUPID, WOMAN! I WAS FUCKING STUPID!" he told me.
"THAT'S NOT AN EXCUSE! BEING STUPID HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS!" I told him. "YOU DIDN'T NEED TO DO THIS TO ME! YOU DIDN'T NEED TO BE A WHORE!"
"AND STOP CALLING ME A FUCKING WHORE-"
"IT'S ONLY THE FUCKING TRUTH! I THOUGHT MY PAST MADE ME A WHORE, BUT I CHANGED FOR YOU! IF I WERE FUCKING STUPID…I WOULD HAVE FUCKED ITACHI AND CLAIMED IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS STUPID! HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE, AND I WOULDN'T HAVE GAVE A FUCK IF HE'S WITH MY BEST FRIEND, SHIT I'LL FUCK HER TOO, BECAUSE I CAN USE THE EXCUSE THAT I'M SOME STUPID SLUT, RIGHT?!"
"THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M FUCKING SAYING-"
"THEN JUST WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING-"
"FORGIVE ME!" he screamed out. "THAT'S WHAT I'M FUCKING SAYING! I WANT YOU TO FORGIVE ME!"
It was quiet and I only stared at him. He looked at me, pleadingly, something I never thought Hidan could do. He walked over to me, his arms slightly out to me. I didn't back away, I stood there, and he wrapped his arms around me. I felt myself breaking, and I soon sobbed again. Why Hidan? Why to me?
"WHY?!" I sobbed out.
"I'm sorry." he told me, and he kept telling me.
"HIDAN, I LOVED YOU!"
"And I love you!"
"I DID NOTHING BUT THE BEST FOR YOU!"
"…You did."
"Why didn't you then?!" I sobbed out.
He stayed quiet, and my heart broke deeply at his silence. "…I will never forgive you for this…" I told him, coldly.
He was taking back and I continued. "I'll tell Rayven…I'll tell him a lie. I wont tell him about what you did. I'll tell him when he comes home today…if you owe me anything…you owe me this…you'll go along with it, and you'll let him leave with me."
"…" I could feel the sadness from him.
"…What about me, mommy?"
We looked over at Akumu's sad eyes. My heart broke. But I cant take her… "…I'm sorry, Akumu…maybe your daddy will find you another mommy."
She started to sob out loudly and she ran out the house instantly. Hidan sighed out and let me go. "…I'll go get her…" he told me.
I didn't face him.
"…Are you sure…that this is what you want?"
"…Yes." I told him, facing him. "And this time…it will be the second non-mistake I made with you."
Ahhhhhhh, a lot of writing. ...So, how will Rayven take this news? :O. You'll see soon enough. The next chapter will be the last chapter to the story. I'll start writing that after I take my nap. I always get sick when it's winter vacation, I don't understand that -_-'. Anyways, I have a poll going on, so please take a look at that :D. Alright, I'm going to sleep. You guys take care :), please review. Thanks and bye!