100 years later

Alice's Pov

It has been a hundred years and nobody has ever truly healed from that loss we had. Eventually we began talking to each other trying to brighten up moods. Eventually we were all able to put aside that past and not think about it.

The only one who wasn't able to do that was Edward. He changed so much when Bella died. He no longer talked to anyone unless it was truly necessary. He hunted alone and never went too far away. We have never seen him laugh and when he smiles it is clear that he is making a great deal of effort. He doesn't do anything anymore. He's doesn't even play piano or listen to music anymore. All he does is just sit in his room and do nothing. We are all worried for him and try to talk to him but he just… he's empty… he's not Edward anymore. Bella took him with her the day she died.

And we all want him back…

Carlisle's pov

We all miss and still grieve for Edward. Nothing has ever been the same. The house is always sad and depressing even when we try to lighten up the room. How can we try to be happy when we know that Edward is in so much pain? No one knows what to do. Esme is so sad for him all the time. In the end we all are.

He stopped going to school since she died. Only 20 years ago we convince him to go back.

Then one year ago we somehow managed to convince him to come back to forks. It was very painful for him and us but he's endured it.

We know that the only reason for why he is still living with all of us is because he is afraid to be alone. He is afraid on breaking his promise to Bella. He knows that we will help him keep his promise….

Edwards pov

100 years

100 years I have been alone. 100 years since she died. 100 years since my life ended with hers.

And here I am 100 years later. The place where it all started. On the house where she spent her last moments. The town where my real life began. And the town where it ended…

And today is one more days to endure and an eternity to go…

My brothers and sisters filed into my new Audi A6 sedan. I went to the driver's side and Alice went on the passenger's side. After a few moments of quiet Alice tensed. I listened to her mind and saw that a lot of people were talking about someone new to the school. I couldn't see the person though.

"I didn't know the new girl was coming today" said Alice casually.

"So you knew someone knew would be arriving?" I asked

"It wasn't difficult to figure out everyone has been talking about that in school" she said it as if it were obvious. I had ceased to pay any type of attention to any human's problems or conversations. In my mind they didn't exist.

"The parker girl right?" said Rosalie interested

Couldn't it have been a boy? This was somehow familiar and I didn't like it.

"Yes but I can't see her" responded Alice. Everything became quiet again, soon enough though we were at the schools parking lot.

"Maybe shell be on one of our classes, she's a junior too" said Alice. This time we were all playing juniors.

We all headed to our classes and they droned on like any other day. I couldn't help but be aware that everyone's conversations and thoughts seemed to be on the new girl. Never once did I see her for myself or through the minds of the students. Today I seemed to be in more pain than usual and that was because this day was too familiar.

Eventually lunch came…

I met up with the rest of my family and we all walked together to the cafeteria. I blocked out everyone's thoughts and looked straight at our lunch table as I made my way there. I didn't want to look. I didn't know why but I didn't want to see this girls face.

I was tense all through lunch never letting my eyes or my mind stray.

It was finally time for my next class everything went alright yet something seemed off.

And then it was time to go to my last class.

I headed off to biology in a rush wanting school to finish as soon as possible I entered the room and was about to sit down when something brought me back

There was an awfully good smell right beside me. It hit me hard and unexpectedly my mouth pooled with venom and I worked hard to swallow it. I was afraid to move an inch. For moving would surely give me away.

No no no NO!

Not again please not again. I can't do this again. I looked down at the creature that hell surely had sent to finally kill me.

Only one thing kept me from killing her. For I had already decided on doing so.

She was beautiful…

She looked at me with a beautiful pair of eyes like emeralds framed by extremely long and dark eyelashes. Her eyes held so many emotions. Confusion, to start of with, innocence, pain, and sadness, if I'm not mistaken. Her hair was very short and it was similar to Alice's except her was a fiery red and there were strands of black in it. She had a thin face that still held traces of a child in them. She had full red lips and was extremely pale. She was small I could tell and extremely thin. Very frail it was easy to notice that, but you had to look closely to realize that she didn't look healthy. The look in her eyes said it all.

Without thinking I turned around and left the room. I wasn't going to resist if I stayed there. I had no such control. I would never have that much control. It was harder than the last time and it smelled better much, much better.

I got into my car and when I did a string of growls and profanities escaped my mouth.

Why? That was the question that summarized all my others. I didn't allow myself to think of her face again. She was lucky, I had been completely resolved on killing her but I received shock at what I saw. It was hard to believe that this girl was human at all. How could she be?

I couldn't go back to school. That was all I knew. I would not go back to school. I would try to convince my family that we have to move. And that would be the end of it. Best to end it now while I can, than later when it would surely end badly. I was so shaken by this and so shocked that I was so impatient.

I got out and went into the woods to hunt but nothing quenched the thirst for her smell was still engraved in all of me. I came back just as people were beginning to go out of their classes. Not even three minutes later my family was hurriedly making their way to my car. I hurried across the parking lot to meet them.

"Edward" Alice said urgently "what happened what did you do?"

"I didn't do anything, you would have seen that" a said bitterly and I got into the drivers side and they all quickly got in. I needed to leave before I saw her. I didn't have much control and I do not think anything would stop me this time.

"I can't go back to school" I said angrily as I started the car. I revved it out of the parking

"Edward you cant do that" said Emmett "Edward she's just a human" I looked at him

"I'M GOING TO KILL HER!"

"Edward!" cried Alice just as I turned and put my foot on the break

She looked at the car that had almost runned her over. She had been running and hadn't paid attention to the cars. When she saw my car she stopped. I would have killed her if I hadn't sopped.

For a fraction of a second everything became still. Her eyes followed into the car and looked at the people in it. I was frozen already tensed and silently growling. Jasper tried to calm me down but nothing would work now. Her eyes finally rested in me. And the look that was in them could not belong to those of a teenage girl. The emotion in them was indescribable and it wasn't something easily forgotten. She looked on verge of tears. There was such desesperation in her gaze… it was as if she had committed murder. There was one more thing I her face…curiosity? As if to prove my suspicions she tilted her head to the side like a curious child.

The line of cars that had formed before me began honking and that seemed to bring her out of her trance. She turned and muttered "shit" and began running. I shook my head and drove out of the parking lot.

"Edward?" asked Alice tentatively I didn't answer

She put her hand on mine "let me drive" she said soothingly and I nodded we got out of the car and I met her in the front of the car I couldn't take it anymore. I collapsed to the floor, I began sobbing, this was all too much for me. I felt more alone, more helpless, more vulnerable than ever.

Alice got on her knees and embraced me. I hugged her tightly and sobbed into her shoulder.

"Why did she make me promise?" I whispered

"Maybe she thought that you could do so much better" she whispered.

The others came around to the front of the car and joined Alice and me.

"Like what Alice? Killing an innocent girl?" my tone was harsh

"But you don't want to kill her" said Emmett

"I don't know what it is I want anymore" I whispered

I reality I knew perfectly well what I wanted. I wanted her dead. I wanted to kill her. It wasn't only the monster in me, but also my whole being that wanted to kill her. I wanted that girl dead and I wanted to b e the one to kill her. I wanted to be the one to taste her blood. I did not want to meet her. I wanted to kill her for causing me this pain. I wanted to kill her for existing. I wanted to kill her for coming to live here. I wanted to kill her for making me remember that first day.

"Edward…" Rosalie hesitated "you can do it… your strong enough"

"You don't understand her smell is worse it too overwhelming. I would have killed her if I stayed. I didn't even have the control to make it through one lousy hour like last time. I can't do it, I'm not that strong"

"Edward we have to go" said jasper

"We can talk about this with Carlisle and Esme once were home" Alice suggested. I got up and headed to the passengers side as Alice got in the drivers side.

We were there in a matter of minutes. Carlisle was home his shift was at night.

"Carlisle" called Alice "we need to talk"

We all sat at the dinner table there was silence for a moment before Carlisle broke it.

"What's going on?"

I was the one to talk "I can't go back to school"

"Why not?" said Esme worried. I was beyond a wreck right now so I understood why I might be worrying my mother further that I do on a daily basis.

"Today at school a new student arrived. And…" I covered my face with my hand as I kept talking "she had last period in my class…she sits next to me. I'm going to kill her if I have to go anywhere near her."

"Edward… we know this is hard for you its only too familiar to last time-" Carlisle hesitated " but-"

"No Carlisle you don't understand! Her smell I won't resist and I won't think it twice because I have already decided to kill her. It's not only the hunger, I want her dead, I don't want he to be alive"

"She's hasn't done anything to you" said Emmett quietly

"It doesn't matter I don't care what she has or hasn't done to me. I just want her dead and I really don't even know why. The only reason why I want to stay away from school now is that she wouldn't have wanted me to do this. He would have wanted me to resist it."

No one had a response to this. Then finally Carlisle seemed to get one.

"If that is the situation Edward…then I guess we have to respect that. And if you're really sure that you won't stop next time then… its safer for all of us if you stop going to school."

I didn't want to listen to anyone's thoughts I just wanted to block it all out. I was slightly ashamed of what my family must think of me. I knew they were disappointed in me, Carlisle specially.

"Thank you Carlisle" I said then got up and left the room. The rest of the day everything was quiet.

At midnight Alice paid me a visit to my room.

She sat at my bed and we were both quite. After many minutes she broke the silence.

"She lives with her brother" she began "her parents died"

I had no reply for this

"She loves music by what I saw in my vision… she plays guitar-"

"Alice… why are you telling me this?" I asked impatiently

"I want you to see her more as someone normal. Like any other human maybe that will keep you from killing her. She has a life Edward, a life you want to take from her. You gave Bella a chanc-"

"Don't compare her to Bella" I hissed "she isn't anything like Bella she is no one"

She ignored me "if you gave Bella a chance to live then you should give her a chance too"

"For what she died because of me anyway" I closed my eyes as the pain overtook me.

"Give her a chance but keep your distance Edward. Keep going about your business like any other day. Make her just another unimportant human"

I said nothing. She was right, there was no doubt about that but I didn't want to reason with her. I was too stubborn for that. Nevertheless she was right.

Truth be told, I was really afraid of going back and killing her. It's not what she would have wanted. I was afraid about how similar the situation was and I was in great pain now.

"Her name is Alex" Alice whispered as she walked out the door.

When she was gone I succumbed to the pain and darkness...

what do you think?

i swear i tried my hardest to make this chapter sound like it was edwards thoughts

dont kill me if i didnt get it right im supposed to meet with a friend on saturday

and i have to clean my dogs crap and my mom wotn be happy if i suddenly die

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