okay you guys i havent updated in a while so you desrved this nice long chapter
it was 40 pages i think i outdid myself
and i just got a beta today cuz i really need one lol
but i just had to put up this chapter i couldnt contain myelf so it may have many errors
enjoy
Edwards's pov
Once again I was doing my least favorite activity
Hunting
Still it was necessary, the thing is that it was now more necessary than ever. I went hunting every two days now because I wouldn't take any chances around Alex. Still it wouldn't matter how full of blood I was once I was close to her.
Today's conversation was still going around in my head but I was trying to not remember it, I really did need to hunt right now.
I was deep in the forest now and I had made sure there weren't any stray humans around. I took in a deep breath tasking in all the forest and giving in to my sense in the process.
There was a deer not to far from here, not very appetizing but it would do. I shifted my body onto a crouch then followed the scent at full speed.
I was very close now. I slowed down and saw that it was a small doe. She was drinking from a spring. I approached the doe, her head shot up. Her big eyes looking everywhere for the unknown danger.
She can feel my presence.
Then she takes off and starts running. I ran after it at a slow pace (well for a vampire). I easily pounced on her and she fell to the ground. I effortlessly pinned her to the ground as she struggled under me.
It was no use
I placed my hands on her neck and with a simple twist of my wrist I snapped its neck, the doe moved no longer.
I brought my lips to her throat; I opened my mouth against its skin and dug my teeth deep into her skin. I began to feel the warm flow of that red liquid I was condemned to drink for eternity. I could feel the blood soak my lips and I began to drink feeling how the fire in my throat gradually lessened.
Until I raised my head acknowledging a new scent.
The blood I wanted.
The blood I would kill for.
I whipped my head in the direction of that agonizing scent. But I barely noticed the girl that was standing before me. in my eyes there was no girl there.
There was only my prey
The thirst became overpowering and then the fire ripped through my throat like a million knives. It was so much that the fire seemed to take over my whole body. The flow of venom in my mouth…
That fire gave me the impulse to spring at her.
In that one second I forgot everything I couldn't even remember who I was nothing mattered, nothing except the blood of this creature touching my clod lips.
I was inches away from her, just as she was inches closer to death. I was inches away from the water that promised to put out the fire within me, and just as I was about to fall upon her something hard hit me and the force of it threw me back. But I was up as soon as I touched the ground. A string of growls and roars erupting from my mouth.
I looked towards her; there was nothing in front of her, nothing that could have protected her from my attack. There was nothing with sufficient force to keep me from reaching her.
And yet something was stopping me from getting at her
I was close to her in a flash, right in front. I began pacing back and forth desperate to get at her. I could feel the madness taking over me, her scent still taunting me and making me deranged.
The animal inside me taking more of me with every breath I took
I paced back and forth clawing at the invisible barrier between us every time I turned around to walk to the other side. The growls did not secede…
Stop Edward said the voice in the back of my head a voice of reason that I thought I had lost the moment I catched her scent. But I wasn't there anymore the monster inside of me had taken over me. I didn't know were Edward was anymore, nor did I care.
"Edward" a calm voice called to me. It was a lovely sound but it was as if I was hearing it coming from a long tunnel. I focused on the voice as best as I could I seemed to be able to find some part of myself.
I was aware that I had stopped pacing by now and I was breathing heavily, it was a big mistake for that only increased the fire. I immediately stopped breathing.
She stood right in front of me; she was dangerously close considering the state in which I was.
She looked at me through expressionless black eyes. I noticed a wooden stick that she held in her right arm.
Edward control yourself you can't hurt her
Of course I can I need her blood and I'm going to get it.
Think about your family your going to disappoint them!
It doesn't matter nothing matters anymore
Think what it will do to you! The voice was turning urgent
It will only bring joy to me the pain in my throat will be quenched.
YOU LOVE HER!
That last sentence made me resurface.
No… I couldn't- how did- but- NO!
Not again
I didn't love her… I couldn't…I wouldn't…
The horror took over me. This cant be happening again!
No it's not happening…
What is she doing here!?
"Alex" I managed to say though it sounded like I was choking. There were so many emotions running through me but the most that seemed to be the one buried more deep inside me seemed to be the one that I hated the most.
Joy?
Why did is she doing to me? Why did she come here tonight?
I was furious at her so that I couldn't escape the glare I gave her.
"Go away" I growled. I was starting to loose that little self control I had.
She seemed like she was debating something, before she could protest a loud and furious growl left my mouth and that seemed to bring some sense back into her.
She turned hesitantly and then walked away. I began shaking; she was leaving…her blood….
How I longed for that blood now as she left I only wanted it more.
I collapsed to the ground and put my face in my hands in shame. I was so weak I almost slipped today.
And no I did not love her. It was only Bella whom could ever have such an effect on me.
But Bella is gone
I couldn't get my thoughts straight. Darkness fell all around the forest in what seemed like a blink of an eye to me.
I felt a hand on my shoulder
Edward said Alice's quiet mental voice
"I almost killed her" I whispered without looking up. Felt her sit beside me
"What happened?" she asked
I saw your future disappear I thought maybe you were with her or something and then I saw you here and you wouldn't go home…I was worried she sounded anxious
"I was…hunting and…she came" just telling her made me more ashamed and disgusted with myself.
"Edward" gasped Alice.
Almost immediately she looked into the future and there I saw her. Alex was on the floor one cheek pressed against the floor and murmuring words now and then.
"You'd still be here" she sung quietly.
"Oh I thought…" Alice trailed off
"No…" and then I remembered
That barrier, Alex was there unafraid, that stick in her hand…
"Alice I think I know what she is"
Go on she encouraged
"I think…witch?"
"What?" said a confused Alice
"Alice I was going to kill her" I said desperately "that was the only thing it my mind there was no other way around I would have killed her but… Alice I didn't stop…she stopped me"
I'm not following you Edward
"When I saw her she was holding this wooden stick in her hand and…when I tried to attack her I crashed into something…invisible…right here" I stood up and ran to indicate her just the place where the barrier had been, there was nothing there anymore.
"I think…maybe just maybe… a witch…" I trailed off
Do witches exist?
"But if they didn't how do you explain that thing that stopped me from killing her?" I said she seemed to accept that
"I think maybe we should talk to the rest" she said
"Maybe Carlisle knows" I said, she nodded then he took my hand and we started running
My mind was racing with everything that had happened today, so much that I had forgotten –in that short time – that one thought that had comed to me in Alex's presence. It also helped that I knew I didn't love her so that it didn't bother me much.
Soon enough we were home and Alice and I dashed inside the house calling everyone to the dining room which was never used for its original purpose.
Everyone took their rightful seats and I took mines next to Carlisle and an empty chair beside me.
"What is going on" said Carlisle in his mellow voice
"Edward" Alice called indicating for me to talk
I took a deep unnecessary breath "today while I was hunting…Alex saw me"
Rosalie stood up furious
"Great Edward you're starting to grow into the habit aren't you!?"
"Rose" said Emmett standing up and trying to calm her
"No! Edward you're going down that same path again and then you will ruin this family! What the hell-"
"Rosalie" said Carlisle in a warning tone. She looked at him "lets let Edward finish with this and please keep calm" she huffed but obeyed she sat down again and glared at me.
"Edward" said Esme worriedly I looked at my mother her expression matched her tone
"You didn't kill her did you?" that made me more ashamed of myself, my family actually was insecure about me and they had reason enough to be.
"No…miraculously I didn't…which brings me back to what I was saying… I tried to kill her… I was going to but…she stopped me" everyone became confused both in expression and mind.
"What do you mean Edward?" said Carlisle
"Carlisle do witches exist?" I asked ignoring his question for now.
"Yes they do…I've never met one though we have to stay away from them"
"Why?" asked Emmett everyone was ow attentive upon hearing Carlisle say that witches did exist. Curiosity filled the air.
"I learned about them while I lived with the volturi their kind and ours don't mix. Centuries ago when the world was much much young- by what the volturi told me- there were many disputes between wizards an vampires we were a threat to each other and in time these differences drove our kind and theirs into war. Though we were stronger and faster the fight was equal because of their magic. The volturi realized that if the war kept going we would destroy each other so vampires went into hiding out of wizard's sight and they believe us to be extinct. While we know that they exist but don't really know when we come across one. It's for the best"
"So why do you think she is a witch Edward?" said jasper bringing us back to the present
"Because I was so close to killing her I was going to kill her but something stopped me it was like…an invisible barrier and I couldn't even touch her. Then when I came back to my senses I saw her holding a stick in her hand now that could mean nothing but the fact that she somehow stopped me makes me think that maybe she is something along those lines"
"Also" said Alice as we all looked at her "there are those times when her future it just disappears I cant see anything concerning her. It happens frequently sometimes for the whole day, and she is absent at least one Friday every month followed by the disappearance of her future during the weekends"
"So then that's why you can't see her future" I said as it all made sense "its like with the wolves you couldn't see their future either"
"Okay" interrupted Emmett "say maybe you guys are right and she is a witch but where does that leave the fact that she knows what we are"
"Lets think about it" added Rosalie in a reasonable voice she was obviously calm now but her thoughts enraged me.
"Lets not go there again Rosalie" I hissed at her
"no Edward listen, this time it is different its not like Bella when there was that big possibilitie that they wouldn't believe her if she had decided to talk, this is different, Edward what if this girl does decide to talk they are going to believe her and then there will be hell to pay for. I hope everyone sees the sense in here we cannot by any means let this one live we can't take such chances."
Yes she was right about this but it was unfair for Alex and that wouldn't happen.
"Rosalie" I said gritting my teeth "I see what you mean but it is not fair for her first of all we don't know if she will tell or not-"
"See there you go again like last time Edward what are you falling for her too?"
That was low even for Rosalie, how could she think that, I would never find myself in a situation like that again
What if he is Rosalie thought suddenly
As if on cue everyone's thoughts became similar.
Holy shit he's falling for her Emmett thought amused
Makes sense she has gotten him out of his zombie trance somewhat thought jasper
Maybe this is a second chance for him thought Carlisle
My son he has another chance at happiness with this girl she is what we have been waiting for a hundred years thought Esme being truly happy for the first time in a century
Edward it's going to happen maybe it already is but-
"Enough!" I growled at them. I blocked their thoughts "I will not go down the same road and no one will ever take Bella's place! That girl will never mean so much to me she doesn't mean anything to me" how could they ever think that I would have another chance that I would find someone else when I had given myself completely to Bella?
"Edward" said Alice in a calm voice "think about it, you say she doesn't mean a thing to you yet she was the person that brought a smile back to your face Edward she is the reason for why you are not as depressed the reason for why you actually talk a bit to your family"
I shook my head. It wasn't true
"Edward" spoke Esme "no one can ever take Bella's place and you know that but maybe just maybe this girl might make you happy again-"
"No Esme she wont please just stop, I don't want to talk about this please don't even think about it. It will never happen"
"All right then son we won't trouble you on that matter any longer" said Carlisle and I was grateful for that.
"Okay fine so if you don't and won't love her then why do you want t keep her alive you don't have to be the one to kill her you know"
"Rosalie listen we cannot do that" said Carlisle "its not right if Bella was spared then why not Alex"
"Because Alex is much more dangerous than Bella" hissed Rosalie
"Rosalie is right" said jasper of course he would be thinking of his wife's safety first.
"I see their point" said Emmett thoughtfully
"Please just…" I couldn't let them kill her and right now I was afraid that I might actually loose this discussion. "Let me talk to her tomorrow and after that we can decide just please don't do anything to her just now please"
"We won't touch her Edward" Alice assured me and I believed her.
Well who knows maybe she turns out to be good for him said Rosalie
Keep dreaming
I nodded
"Was she scared?" asked jasper
"No she was too calm" even Bella would have been afraid had she been that close to death
"But what could she have been doing so deep in the woods?" asked Esme
"Who knows" I answered
"It's settled then" said Carlisle "Edward try to convince her not to say anything I'm afraid this isn't like last time where we could have left. If we leave it won't stop her from talking and that could greatly alter both her world and ours"
"and what if she is going to say something?" said Esme, Carlisle looked at her and once again as I had done many times I was filled with awe at the love between them it was so full of emotion. Time seemed to only make the feeling bigger.
They had had a happy…forever…
Carlisle sighed
Then we can't put so many under such peril
"I can't see any other way around it. As much as I hate to say this, one live gone is better than millions of lives gone"
I knew this would be his final decision yet it filled me with despair. I had to convince her not to say anything I couldn't let her die…
Carlisle left to get ready for his shift in the hospital. Everyone returned to their days activities and I ran all the way to Portland and just walked around aimlessly.
I was annoyed at my family's thoughts when I left
They half expected me to go to the Alex's house tonight to watch her. But I had no reason to want to go to her house there was nothing to pull me to her at the moment sure she had intrigued me somehow before but her secret was out now. There was still the matter that there was something wrong with her attitude but I tried to not pay any more attention to her.
I was going to try to keep my distance from her just because I would not grow fond of her in any way. Things had changed again it enraged me that they could think that one day that girl could form part of the family in Bella's place that would not happen.
The next day was tense my siblings were worried about what would happen; they were ready to take action if she refused to keep silence. Well it was jasper Rosalie and Emmett. Alice couldn't see what would happen but she was worried for Alex and truth be told so was I.
Yeah I didn't want to be near her anymore but still I didn't want her to be killed at our hands. So it worried me what her decision would be.
Lunch would have been that best time to approach her but I didn't want it to be just yet. I waited till biology all the time she didn't seem to notice us though I knew she did. She went on with the usual.
The air around my siblings was tense I felt bad for jasper right there not only was he tense but the feeling was only bigger with the others emotions.
I was just leaving my last class and heading to biology. I was really anxious, I was almost running.
I was walking into the classroom acting as calm as I could when someone bumped into me and their body threatened to fall back. I grabbed her by her shoulders as I realized who she was. Alex had a hand on her forehead as if her head was hurting and she grimaced in pain. Her eyes were pitch black.
"Sorry, excuse me" she grunted
"Alex where are you going?" I said worry coloring my tone. What was wrong with her?
"Move" she half shouted shoving me I moved out of the way, her scent was so strong.
She fast walked as soon as I soon as I moved out of her way. I heard her running as soon as she turned around the corner.
Should I go after her?
As if on cue Alice's thoughts answered me.
Go Edward she's going to need your help
Almost reluctantly, I followed after her.
I followed her intoxicating scent to the parking lot and all the way to her car there she was passed out in the car she had her forehead pressed against the steering wheel.
"Alex?" I said running over to her, feeling impatient with the slow speed.
The only thing that indicated that she was still alive was her heartbeat
What do I do? Do I take her to Carlisle?
She's going to wake up soon but take her to the nurse Alice instructed me.
Very carefully I took Alex into my arms she seemed so frail I was afraid I would hurt her. I could feel her bones and had I been human, they would have dug into my skin and hurt. I hurried to the main office holding my breath. it was freezing cold outside and beginning to rain and she only wore a thin navy blue sweater.
Soon enough I was inside the main office.
"Mrs. Patterson" I called her and she looked up from her paperwork. Her eyes widened at the sight before her.
Oh dear what happened? She thought
"she fainted in her car" I explained. yes it might have sounded somewhat suspicious but I could care less I just wanted her to be alright and away from my body I didn't want her scent to make me do something stupid.
With a pang I realized that this scene was all too familiar and I didn't like it. The only thing was different was that a hundred years ago the girl in my arms had been half conscious and i had loved her.
"Right" said Mrs. Patterson and she hurried over to the nurse's room she opened the door for me and I hurriedly set Alex in the cot.
"What happened to her?" asked the nurse
"She fainted in her car" I said without taking my eyes of Alex.
Please let her be alright
The nurse checked her temperature
Dear lord this girl is freezing cold.
"We'll wait a bit and see if she wakes up do you know if she has eaten anything" she asked
"No she hasn't" I responded but she never eats so she couldn't have fainted because she didn't eat.
"Teens now a days" said the nurse disapprovingly "they come up with the craziest ways to loose weight" I doubt that's the reason for why she does not eat anything.
"You can go to class" the nurse told me, but there wasn't any way that I would leave unless I new she was alright
"No I want to make sure she is fine" I said with a note of finality on my voice. She argued no further.
She went into her office and I sat in a chair nearby. I stopped breathing then and watched Alex. Her expression was pained and her heartbeat uneven.
I still needed to talk to her about that situation and we would talk today…
Is she ill?
Maybe I should take her with Carlisle
She began stirring and that broke me out of my trance. Her eyes fluttered open to reveal icy blue eyes. She groaned and rubbed her forehead where she had a thin lightning bolt shaped scar. I slowly got up and walked towards her not wanting to scare her.
Would she be scared after what she saw last night?
"Hey" I said quietly she flinched when she heard me. She turned her head towards me.
"What happened" she said her voice showing exhaustion.
"You fainted in your car"
"Then how in Merlin's pants did-" then it seemed to click to her that I had brought her here. "Oh" she finished. I smiled at her
"The nurse will be coming in shortly" I announced "you might want to do something about your eyes their blue.
I frown appeared in her face. Almost instantly the nurse came bustling in to check up on Alex. Alex set her gaze on the floor.
"Oh your awake" said the nurse, "good good… now what happened?"
"Uhm" said Alex quietly. This would be interesting. "I got a bit dizzy, and then I passed out"
"Did you eat?" said the nurse
Ever so slowly Alex turned her eyes towards me, scrutinizing my expression. Then she let out a frustrated sigh and told the truth.
"No I didn't eat anything" she admitted. Good thing she knows when no to lie. She hung her red head in shame like a little kid when they are told to go to their room for being bad.
"Well that's why you fainted" the nurse scolded her. "I'll get you some food right now" Alex frowned at the floor and then she glared at it. It was my cue to step in.
"Actually" I began and the nurse turned towards me. "I was thinking she should go home she must be tired out by the fainting. Don't worry I'll make sure she eats something but I also think she needs some rest" there, the nurse couldn't argue with me, the girl looked like the living dead. Her eyes were sunken and she was all bones. Extraordinary how she still manages to look…exquisite….
"I would like to go home" said Alex raising her hand as if she were volunteering for something
"I will make sure she eats" I promised the nurse once again seeing in her mind that she was worried for Alex's bad diet. I gave the nurse a reassuring smile and that seemed to convince her. But she gave me a long stare…the type of stares that make you feel awkward
Her thoughts didn't help
"Right" she said then as she fluttered her eyelashes "all right then" she turned to Alex "now you go home and you eat something then you get some good sleep alright? Heaven knows you need it"
I had to suppress a laugh
"Right" muttered Alex as she jumped of the cot.
"Now you go tell Mrs. Patterson that you're leaving" she said patting Alex's shoulder.
I followed after Alex. I talked to her in a low voice
"I'll tell Mrs. Patterson" I told her without looking back she nodded and stood by the door
I walked over to the receptionist
"Mrs. Patterson?" I said using a smooth voice. She jumped slightly, startled.
Oh my…concentrate Gertrude concentrate
"Yes dear?" she said in a shaky voice
"Alex doesn't feel well I want to take her home so could you excuse us from biology?" I said politely and friendly
"All right I'll take care of it then" she said
"Thank you" I said she didn't trust herself to speak so she nodded
Ridiculous Gertrude he's just a boy
Only not really
"Hope you feel better Alex" she called over to Alex. Alex seemed to break out of a trance and looked at Mrs. Patterson confused. Then she seemed to decide to just go along with it.
"Yeah…. I'll try" she said then she walked out the door and I followed after her.
It was drizzling outside but the rain would become heavier. I easily kept pace with her and we both headed towards her car. Before we even reached the car she stopped and turned to me with a raised eyebrow.
"May I help you" she said in a formal tone. I smiled at her, her expression didn't change.
"No but I promised I would take you home and make sure you were alright" I responded. She should get out of the rain it was getting heavier…that would only increase the force of her scent...
"Yeah well I'm not leaving my car" she said, and this time she put her hands on her tiny hips.
"You don't have to I'll drive you to your house in your car"
"Then how-" she began, but I cut her off
"Don't worry, bottom part is your going to get home safely and so will your car."
She didn't argue. She merely turned on her heel and began jumping into the puddles of water, making her way to her car while doing so; she resembled a little girl so much.
We both stopped at the driver's side of the car. Now it was my turn to raise an eyebrow at her.
"I'm driving" I said firmly. She looked at me for some time "Alex hurry and give me the key you're getting drenched"
"So" she said but she put her hand into her sweater pockets and took out the key with the remote. She held it in the air then dropped it and I caught it before it fell into a puddle.
"The question is what you would have done if the remote had fallen into the water" I said and she smiled
"Something told me you would have catched it" she said then she walked over to the passengers side and climbed in.
The ride to her house was silent and the air tense. Not only that but the air was literally agonizing. I seemed to be getting a bit used to her scent though and that made me proud of myself. It was harder than last time, but finding out that I was just a bit more used to this scent made me a bit stronger.
"Park here" she instructed me pointing to her driveway "I'll ask Frankie to put in the garage later." I did as she said and then tuned off the car.
We were silent. I took deep breaths of her scent trying to make myself get used to the scent, trying to overcome the burning.
"Well thanks for bringing me now I am leaving" she made to get out but I grabbed the hood of her wet sweater and gently pulled her back.
"Not yet and you know it" I said and she sighed and turned around again.
"Okay…what?" she said crossing her arms across her chest
"You know what I want to talk about" I said
"Is there anything to talk about? I mean yeah sure I'm a witch you're a vampire. There you go its confirmed now what else do you want?"
I stared ahead looking at the garage door. "Have you told anyone?" I said in a rough voice
"Do you really think I'm an idiot?" she snapped she wasn't making things easier.
She sighed again "I'm sorry…about…everything for being such a git" I smiled at her choice of words. Was she bipolar or something?
"It's alright" I said.
"Tell me something?" she said as we both stared straight ahead of us.
"Okay" I said curiously
"I thought vampires drank human blood"
"Most of us do, but we don't have to…we wont die of starvation you know? But it's hard to resist if we are thirsty. My family…we chose to drink animal blood because…." How could I say this? "We don't want to be…monsters"
Being a monster was not something I could help however.
And just like that I began to explain everything about vampires to her. With Bella it had been different…I had been hesitant to tell her. I had been scared that I might scare her. It wasn't the case with Alex however; I had that feeling that she wouldn't be scared; after all she was familiar with the….unusual…right?
She seemed engrossed in everything I said. She made questions now and then, never had I heard her talk so much and I had never seen her show so much emotion. It was like I had broken through some of her barriers just in this small amount of time. This girl was so interesting.
But through all of this it was frustrating that I couldn't hear her thoughts, I wanted to hear all of her questions and I wanted to see what she really thought of us.
But what was more frustrating and painful was that damn scent. It assaulted me, it was as if it was pointing to me with a gun, one false move and it would shoot. One slip and I could kill her.
We fell into silence just after I had told her how we didn't age and I had told her old I was. She was thoughtful but seemed to get sadder as the seconds passed.
I had so many questions to ask her too but I decided to answer hers first. I didn't want to tell her anything about my past however and she, thankfully, didn't ask.
She looked up at the sky and then at the clock on the dashboard.
"You know I did promise to make sure you ate something" I reminded her. As much as her scent hurt I wanted to make sure she did eat.
For just a fraction of a second I saw the faint traces of a real smile. Usually her smiles seemed forced and though this one was brief I could see it wasn't forced.
"Yeah you did…do you want to come in?" she asked "that way you can make sure I do eat" she added sarcastically.
"Not a bad idea" I said I opened the door and relaxed a bit when I could smell and feel the fresh air. I took as much of it as I could. I got out before her and ran at vampire speed towards her side and opened the door for her. She jumped when she saw me.
"Don't do that" she said a she stepped out of the car.
"Do what?"
"Scare me like that did you know its bad for the heart" she said in a playfully reproaching tone. She seemed to be loosening up a little, she seemed more alive. Oddly enough it made me…. happy….to see her like this….
We went into her house and my mouth almost dropped to the floor. The house was too big. The house looked so small from the outside, and inside it was just about the size of my house.
"I'm guessing you like it" said Alex eyeing me as she removed her wet sweater to reveal a plain black t-shirt. It was a nice contrast with her pale skin.
"Yes you guys have good taste…it's only you and your brother right?"
"Yeah…my brother was the decorator actually, so he's the one with the good taste." She said shrugging. She led me to the kitchen just like the living room it was bigger than you would expect it to be.
"How is it that it is so big?" I said more to myself than her.
"Did you miss the part were I said I was a witch?" she said rolling her eyes.
She then began to look through the cupboards.
"I just wish I was actually hungry" she muttered impatiently.
"Yeah that would make eating easier" I said and she made a weird noise that indicated that she didn't think it was funny.
She then settled for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. She sat on a kitchen counter munching on that gross excuse for food. I sat on the kitchen at a safer distance from her smell.
"So" she said after swallowing "is that everything about vampires?"
"Yes I believe I told you everything" I said
"And your whole family are vampires"
"Yes but we are not actually related" she nodded in understating then she hoped off the counter.
"Can you wait a second I'm going to change, my shirt is still kind of wet" she said.
"Go on ahead" I said gesturing with my hand for her to go. She ran out of the kitchen and I heard her hurry up the stairs.
I knew she wouldn't say anything now, and that made me breathe more easily. Still I needed to hear her promise that she wouldn't say anything or my family would be mad at me.
Alex really was an intriguing person even more now than before. Because before it had been those mysteries around her that intrigued me. Now I knew she was a witch but I still didn't know why she was the she was….so cold and hollow.
And just today discovered a different side of her one that wasn't as hollow, it was a brighter side. It only intrigued me more and invited me into her.
I wanted to get to know her. I wanted to get closer to her…..
No Edward, it's not right…can't you see what's happening your falling into all those holes.
I don't love her and I can't get close to her because that just wouldn't do any good to any of us. The conversations and everything just had to end, after this I would not talk to her anymore. No matter what became of me I would not talk to her anymore.
If I wasn't interested in being close to her in any way why did those thoughts hurt?
"Okay" Alex said breaking me out of my thoughts.
She resumed her seat on the counter; she wore a grey v neck blouse that fit her loosely. She was skeletal.
The room was then filled with silence. Both of us lost in our own thoughts.
I just needed her to promise me that she wouldn't say anything and then I would be on my way.
"You know" she said breaking the silence. I held my breath; I had to get out now her scent was getting to me. I hadn't told her that one small part, I didn't tell her what her scent did to me. It didn't matter anymore; I wouldn't be talking with her again after this.
"Yes?" I said carefully breathing in and out, guarded.
"Last night when you almost killed me"
I winced when she said this; it wasn't something I wanted her to talk about.
"I couldn't bring myself to be scared though I knew I should"
"You didn't seem scared" I agreed with her "if I may ask…what were you thinking when that happened?" there had been this part where she seemed like she was considering something, what had she been thinking?
"I was thinking well considering whether I should let you kill me or not" my head shot up in her direction and for some time I forgot my thirst.
"What" I gasped, if I had a heartbeat I probably would have gotten a heart attack or something.
She shrugged
"Death doesn't sound so bad" she said indifferently
"You don't know what you're saying" I said my voice was hard. I was angry how could she even think of such a thing?
"And you do" she challenged.
"Why would you even consider that Alex?" i said ignoring her question
She shrugged
"We live in a sad world" she said
How true her words were.
"Yes but it is also a beautiful world, you have so much ahead of you Alex, why would you want to throw that away?"
"I'm not throwing anything away" she whispered "there's nothing left for me here"
"Alex" I said hesitantly "what happened to you?" what was her reason for thinking that she had no future? Why did she want to die?
She was hesitant, she wouldn't tell me. I would never know…
Just then we heard a knock on the door.
Hey bro come on time to go Emmett's thoughts shouted at me.
"That's Emmett" I said as we got up
"How did you know?" she asked and I tapped my head
"Right" she said
I made to get out of the kitchen, the burning in my throat had made me aware of its presence but a warm small hand grabbed my arm. I turned around and my eyes were met by Alex's pleading ones.
"Edward" she whispered "you wont stop being my friend will you? You'll still talk to me wont you?" her voice was urgent, scared, and pleading.
Her expression….she seemed so vulnerable…..so helpless.
I wouldn't dream of it love
That one simple thought made me realize so many things, it made me see so many things, it was a new world than the one I had been living in for so long. Though I had no change in body temperature I was filled with warmness. Though there was no sun outside the whole world seemed to be shining and my heart felt….alive. It wasn't beating but it still felt alive.
As I looked into her big black eyes I knew that I couldn't leave her. It wouldn't do neither of us any good.
Because none of us are the right person to help
I remembered franks words from that night. Maybe I wasn't necessarily the one to help her but I would definitely try, I wouldn't give up on her.
"I'll never leave you Alex" I said.
Her face broke out into a big smile, and in my eyes it was the biggest and brightest smile I had ever seen, that smile meant the world to me. And it made me happy to see that I was able to make her smile. I wasn't hurting her I was helping her.
She took two steps forward and engulfed me into a hug. The proximity caught me off guard and I didn't dare move. She looked up and it made me sad to see that her smile had been replaced by a frown.
"I'm sorry" she said letting go.
"Don't be…it caught me off guard and….you have a very nice scent" I said apologetically. "I'll explain some other time" I promised.
I know you're having a moment but hurry up boy Emmett's mental voice roared.
"Come on my brother's getting impatient" I said jokingly and her smile was back. We walked towards the door and I opened it to see a smirking Emmett.
"Hello Edward and Alex, you guys ditching?" he said raising his eyebrows in fake shock.
"What's it to you Emmett" responded Alex. I smiled she was really friendly when she wanted to be.
"I like you" said Emmett approvingly.
"Good to know" she said. We both looked at my Audi Alice jasper and Rosalie were in it.
What did she say Edward?
I turned to Alex "so I'll see you tomorrow?" I said
"Yes" she said
"sooo" began Emmett "witch huh?"
Alex looked at me I gave her an apologetic look
"It's hard to keep secrets in the family" I explained
"Right" she said "but I can count on you guys to keep my secret right? All of you guys?"
"Yes you can" I promised "and can we count on you to not say anything to anyone?"
"Yes you can" she promised I couldn't doubt her voice was full of sincerity and truth.
"Cool" said Emmett "now if you excuse us we need to get going"
"Bye Alex" I said I didn't want to go home but her brother would be getting home soon I assumed.
"Bye guys" she said.
Emmett and I walked down the porch steps. I got into the back seat of the car, jasper was driving. As soon as I got into the car he was able to feel my feelings, they were so strong, and suddenly he smirked.
"Interesting day Edward?" he said a smile in his voice.
"You have no idea" I said.
"Told you so" Alice said.
"About time I saw you happy" said Rosalie smiling as well.
As we left I caught a glimpse of Alex, she wasn't smiling anymore her face was expressionless once again and her hair wasn't short and red, it was long straight and deep black.
I was going to her room tonight without a doubt…..
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