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Alex's pov
As I was pulled out of my first peaceful sleep in months I was met by the most exquisite scent and something warm encompassing me. I stayed like that for a few minutes. Yesterdays events flooded my hand and I became aware of who was hugging me.
I smiled at the memory of yesterday's discovery.
"I love you" I whispered as I nuzzled my face into his chest. Those three words made the gray day seem bright.
"Those words make me the happiest man on earth. I never thought you would say them to me" he said in his smooth velvety words. He took one of my hands which were tucked in between him and me and interlaced it with his hand, he brought it up and I felt his lips on my knuckles.
I looked up at him. His eyes were closed as he inhaled.
"How are you holding on?" I said grinning.
"Spending the night here really helped" he said smiling back. Just then I noticed he had changed.
"Did you really stay?" I said eyeing his blue button up shirt.
"I left for a couple of minutes to change. But don't worry I was only away for ten minutes."
"Good" I said nodding. He chuckled and pulled me closer him.
"You have no idea how much I love you" he murmured.
"I do" I said.
"That's what you think"
A sudden thought came to my mind
"Is Frankie awake?" I asked as I turned to look at the alarm clock.
It was eight in the morning.
"He left to buy some things. He left not long ago actually"
"Okay" I tried to break out of his grasp but he wouldn't let go.
"Edward?" I said.
"No" he said stubbornly securing his hold on, making at tighter but still gentle.
"I really should be getting up now"
"You're not leaving are you?" he said playfully.
"I would never even dream of it. I love you too much….I'll never leave you" I said seriously
He took a look in my eyes finding answers to his questions. He nodded and let me go ever so slowly.
I got up and ran into the bathroom brushed my hair and teeth. I washed my face and ran out to the room without looking at Edward and took out a black t-shirt a grey sweater with black stripes on the sleeves and black skinny jeans.
I ran back into the bathroom and changed.
I got out quickly and saw that my bed was already made and Edward was sitting on the desk looking through my school books.
"This is really interesting you know?" he said as he flipped a page of my history of magic textbook.
"You sound like Hermione" I said as I picked up some of my stuff that were scattered.
"Frank is on his way back" he said looking at me. "I'll come in an hour all right?" he said getting up and he hugged me.
"All right" I said "take the book if you want you could learn a thing or two about my world"
"Yes I could" he said smiling. I stood on my toes and reached up him he understood what I was trying to do and he put his hands on my waist and leaned down to press his lips to mines. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him back. He pulled away gently.
"He's going to be here in two minutes" he whispered right next my ear.
"Fine" I muttered and he smiled and pecked me on the lips and was gone along with my textbook.
I sighed and walked over to my bedside table and took my wand. I put in my jeans back pocket and headed downstairs.
Frankie was just coming in as I was walking down the stairs.
"Morning Fra-ow!" I said jumping around and holding my foot.
"There's still glass there?" said Frankie amused.
I looked down and sure enough a huge shard of glass was on the floor.
"How do you possibly miss something that big?" I said as my foot began bleeding.
"Well why are you walking around the house barefoot?"
"Why should I not walk around the house barefoot?"
"This is ridiculous just come over here so I can fix it." I limped to the kitchen and sat on a chair as he worked over the big gash on my foot.
"What's for breakfast?" I asked.
He looked up at me shocked.
"You hungry?" he asked as if he couldn't believe it.
"Well I am a human being" I said rolling my eyes.
"Okay how about waffles?"
"Is there peanut butter?" I asked
"Yeah"
"Jelly?"
"Of course"
"Chocolate syrup?"
"Yes"
"Frank we have a deal"
Once he was done we began preparing breakfast. There was an awkward silence between us all the time. But hopefully that would all go away soon.
"So" he began as he ate and I smeared peanut butter on my waffles.
"When is your friend coming?" he said.
"A little less than an hour" I said as I tried to get the last of the peanut butter from the container.
"Why?" I asked
"Sirius is coming"
"Awesome they can meet then" I said and just then I accidentally flicked some peanut butter with the spoon and it hit Frankie in the cheek.
I couldn't help but laugh. Instantly I was met by something hot hitting my face and Frankies laugh. The waffle he threw at me fell right on my plate.
"You suck" I accused as I got up to wash the syrup of my face.
"Oh well, anyways so yeah. Who is it by the way?" he said.
"You'll see" I said drying my face with a kitchen towel.
Once we were done eating I helped him clean up.
All the while I was mentally preparing myself for Frankie's wrath when he got the big news. And now it had to be a double wrath. I wasn't counting with Sirius coming. I wasn't preparing myself for two angry men and that made me nervous. They wouldn't dare toying with Edwards's memory would they?
Just as that thought crossed my mind and I entered panic mode the doorbell rang.
"Your guest is here" said Frankie as he finished the last plate.
"At what time is Sirius coming?"
"Pretty soon"
Good then we won't have to repeat.
"Okay" I said as I walked to the living room.
"Alex he's not going to come here the muggle way" he told me just as I headed for the living room.
"Don't worry Frankie I've got a plan"
Boy did I have a plan
I quickly opened the door. Panicked and desperate to see Edward again I opened the door rather quickly. And there he stood smiling crookedly.
Why did I not discover my feeling for him sooner?
I smiled and got on my toes to kiss his cheek.
"Miss me much?" he asked amused.
"I'll always miss you when you're gone" I bowed.
"As flattering as that is I hope its not true"
"I'm telling you this now I'm nervous"
He gave me a reassuring smile his eyes gave him away though he was just as nervous as I.
"Don't be, what's the worst that could happen?"
"They can erase your memory"
His face fell. If I wasn't so panicked I would be laughing my face off.
"Lets pray they don't do that though" I said attempting, unsuccessfully, attempting to calm him down. I took his warm hand and pulled him inside. He followed quietly.
What is he thinking?
"Frankie" I called and he came out from the kitchen. He seemed surprised at first then his gaze turned towards our interlaced hand and a huge grin took over his face.
Let's hope that grin stays in place after we tell him the big news.
I could imagine his face literally falling off when he found out. I smiled at myself as I imagined that.
"Frankie this is Edward Cullen" his eyes flashed to my face with questioning eyes. The smile was still there though.
Oh so he remembered that I mentioned them.
"Edward this is Frankie" I said and suddenly I didn't want to say anything else.
"It's nice to finally meet you Mr. Parker" said Edward stepping forward to shake his hand. Frankie shook his hand.
"Merlin! You're freezing cold boy" he said half laughing. Edward gave an apologetic smile in turn.
"And call me frank or Frankie. I feel old when they call me Mr." Edward gave me a sideways glance and we smirked at each other. Edward should be saying that to Frankie.
"So what brings you here today?" asked Frankie pleasantly as he led us to the living room and we all took a seat.
"Well first of all Alex has told me about you and I really wanted to meet you and there are some things she and I want to talk to you about"
Frankie arched and eyebrow upon hearing this and gave me a short look before focusing on the both of us.
"And what would that be?"
Nervously I sought for Edwards and hand and I once I found it he it an encouraging squeeze.
I got ready to talk when suddenly the fireplace burst into emerald flames. I gave a slight screech of fright and then realized what was happening and laughed at my stupidity.
Frankie closed his eyes in dread.
Edward gave nothing away.
Sirius stumbled out the fireplace.
And I almost shitted my pants.
Merlin please let Edward get out of this house with all of his memory.
"I heard a shriek sorry if I scared you a-"he looked up as he dusted himself and paled when he looked at Edward.
"As cliché as this sounds I can explain" I said.
Frankie and Sirius looked at me expectantly.
"Where to begin" I said to myself.
Being straightforward would probably be the best.
"He knows what we are" I said
Fury took over both of their features at the same time. Would they dare to try and kill me?
"Alex" growled Frankie.
"I didn't tell him" I defended." he found it out on his own"
"Giving him a riddle or a clue does not count as him finding it out on his own melody Alexandra" said Sirius as I flinched at my hideous full name.
"I didn't" I said.
"Let me explain" Edward said talking for the first time since Sirius came.
"And what's your name?" said Sirius rudely.
"Sirius" I scolded. Before I could say anything else Edward took over.
"I'm Edward Cullen. Would it be appropriate of me If I referred to you as my girlfriend?" he said the last part to me.
"Very appropriate indeed" I said trying to match his tone. Sirius and Frankie exchanged a look of surprise.
"I think it will be more understandable if I was being truthful with you" he said looking back at Frankie and Sirius.
Had he being planning on telling them or what?
"Not long ago I placed Alex in a very dangerous position" he didn't like remembering this I could tell. The shame was definitely there in his eyes.
"And to defend herself she had to use magic. I'm glad she did or else she could have died that night." His hand tightened around mines in a protective manner.
"How was she in danger?" asked Frankie.
Out of all the questions this had to be the one he chose to ask?
"See my family and"
What the hell we weren't going to tell them this
"We are vampires" he said
Quiet
Did he talk about this with his family?
The silence was broken by Sirius
"Don't lie boy. Vampires don't exist" said Sirius.
"Yeah and neither do witches nor werewolves but that isn't stopping us is it?" I said half laughing.
When they didn't laugh I decided to make them believe this.
"It's obvious there not gone or else Edward wouldn't be here. He really isn't lying."
"Prove it" said Frankie speaking to Edward.
"He'd rather not" I spoke for him.
"Why not" Sirius said bluntly. I heard Edward give a slight hiss and I took his hand in both of mines. He looked at me and I gave him a reassuring look. He took a deep breath and looked towards them.
"Alex found out about me the hard way and you have no idea how ashamed I am about that incident. I almost killed her while I hunted." He admitted closing his eyes and taking deep breaths.
"We both knew there was something different about each other. It was a matter of time before we found out" I said.
"If you are a vampire then why is Alex still alive? You've had plenty of time to kill her. You had a chance to do so in that forest with no witnesses at all" accused Sirius.
"Sirius" I said in a warning tone. He better calm down.
Edward looked hurt for a moment and then his expression turned firm and determined.
"I would never harm Alex. I have very strong feeling for her and I wouldn't be able to live at all if anything was ever to happen to her. I love you goddaughter like you can't imagine" he said firmly never once leaving Sirius face, never once hesitating.
He really did love me.
"My family is different from other vampires. We only hunt on animals. We try to keep the little bit of human we have left this way. We don't think it is right to take the life of a human being-"
"Yet you would have killed melody if she hadn't stopped you" said Frankie.
"Yes it's our instinct. Over time we get better at ignoring a human's scent. But the thirst for a human is always there. And I have been denying my thirst for many years now I'm fairly good at ignoring a human's scent. Unfortunately there is a time for a vampire in which there is a human whose scent is just too…strong for us. It is called La Tua Cantate, or a singer. And it is nearly impossible to resist. For a vampire that preys on humans it would most likely be impossible. In that sense I'm stronger. Miraculously I was able to resist it. The longing is still there though and it will be there forever….that night in the forest…it is very dangerous for any human to come across us while we are hunting. Because we don't think, we just do. So it is even more dangerous for Alex. And that night she came across me at the wrong time. As you can see she was unharmed….not thanks to me though. But I can promise you that I will never put her in such danger again. She isn't like the other humans. I am extra careful around her. I love her and I will do anything in my power to make sure she is safe.
"How can she be safe around you if you continuously want to kill her" said Sirius.
"I know that and trust me that the moment she tells me to go I will leave her. Unfortunately I cannot bring myself to leave her on my own account. I have committed that mistake and it didn't end well. I don't want a repeat of it"
"He isn't going anywhere" I murmured. "At least if he does leave it won't be because I told him to it will be on his own account"
Both Frankie and Sirius looked at me, both with the same unasked question clearly displayed on their face.
"He's the only one who understands me" I said pleading them to understand. "He makes me happy. And he is what I want. I love him"
"Are you sure about this Alex?" said Frankie, he was worried about this.
"I can assure you I'm not being dramatic when I say that I'd rather die than be without him" I said with a small smile.
I felt Edwards arm snake its way around my waist and pulling me closer to him.
The gesture didn't go unnoticed by Sirius and Frankie.
"Alex this is dangerous" said Sirius.
"You've said it before Sirius, what's life without a little bit of danger?" I pointed out.
"You're in enough danger as it is" he argued
"I don't care"
"I don't want to see you hurt Alex"
"Then let me be with him"
"It's your choice Alex" he said defeated. And I felt like I could now breathe.
"I made my choice" I said confidently.
"Okay then….and since there wasn't a proper greeting can I get a hug?" he said.
I got up letting go of Edwards hand and almost ran to him and hugged him.
"Thank you" I whispered
"It's good to see you alive again" I let go of him and I felt Edward behind me. I turned and gave him a smile which he returned with a crooked one of his own. Then he looked at Sirius and held out a hand to him.
Sirius took flinching a bit at the cold touch. "Take care of my goddaughter"
"Trust me I will" promised Edward as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"So when did this start?" said Frankie signaling to the both of us.
"Yesterday we told each other everything" I said
"Everything?" said Sirius raising an eyebrow.
"Every-oh" I said.
Not everything…did I really want him to know more about my sorry life?
"I was kind of hoping I could leave that out" I said looking at the floor.
"What are you talking about?" said Edward
"Alex he deserves to know your situation" said Sirius gently.
"I don't want to drag him in this any further Sirius, I don't want anything to happen to him or his family"
"Melody we understand but you cant hide It forever."
"Edward you should sit down. A long story is on its way" said Frankie.
We all sat down again.
"Okay what are you all talking about?" said Edward. No one answered.
"Alex?" he asked.
I sighed and took a deep breath.
"My parents were murdered when my brother and I were one year old" I started. "They were murdered by a dark wizard named voldemort." I paused trying to think out my next words.
"Why?" asked Edward
The golden question
"Because he wanted to kill harry and me" his embrace tightened. It wasn't enough to hurt though.
"You were just a baby" he whispered.
I still can't understand that. But I remember that night all too well. It was last year that I had been getting the memories of my life as a baby with my parents and I remembered that night as If it were yesterday. Many times I have had nightmares thanks to that.
"I still don't know why he wanted to kill us….no one does."
"Then how come he didn't kill you?"
"He tried. But my mum didn't have to die. She could have lived, she had the choice but she died for us. Trying to protect us, supposedly that left some kind of magical protection on us. So strong that voldemort failed when he tried to kill us. And that was something big. He is one of the darkest wizards of this time. He was widely feared and no one stood a chance against him. However thanks to that protection he wasn't able to kill us. Instead the curse rebounded upon him and…he became just a…spirit. He was weak…so he fled and he left my brother and me there in the ruins of our house. With only this"
I raised my red bangs to reveal the scar on my forehead. Gently he touched it and gently added pressure to it. Many thoughts were going on in his head that was evident. Horror and disbelief were some of his emotions, anger was another one.
"So we were taken to my aunt and uncle as I have told you before. We never knew what we were until Hagrid arrived to the house on our eleventh birthday and told us everything. But you see one way or another every year since our eleventh birthday we manage to come face to face with voldemort and narrowly escape death. In our first two years he tried to get back to his body. Both times harry and I stopped him with the help of Ron and Hermione. In our third year we met Sirius" I nodded at him and we both smiled as we remembered that day.
"We also met my dads other two best friends. And one of them was the one that betrayed us and gave away our hiding place to voldemort. Sirius was put in Azkaban under the belief that he was a servant of voldemort. It wasn't true it was Pettigrew. But Sirius paid 12 years in Azkaban because of him, until he escaped prison. Pettigrew ran away though, we couldn't turn him in. so their still looking for Sirius and he can barely go out."
I stopped to give Edward time to take it all in. he was looking straight ahead. No emotion in his face.
"Go on" he said
"Last year things changed. Two other schools came to Hogwarts for some tournament. I got to know cedric better that year."
A knot formed in my throat.
"Only people that were 16 could enter the tournament. Harry and I were 14. Yet somehow we got in. and we didn't even want to be a part of it. But we couldn't go back anymore. So two of the contestants were from the other two schools and the other one was cedric. Harry and I were basically forced to participate. It was odd; we couldn't imagine who would put our names into the cup that would select the winners. Still we got through the first two tasks all right. The third task it was a maze, whoever got to the cup first would win. Weird things were happening in there. One of the contestants was possessed and he tried to attack cedric. And then harry cedric and I made it to the cup. As I'm sure you remember" I said my voice trembling as I spoke.
"Yes" said Edward softly
"It was a trap. It was done by one of the teachers who worked for voldemort. That teacher had submitted our names so that we would participate. It was planned all along. We got into this tournament to bring back voldemort. But only he knew this, he and voldemort. When we were at that graveyard they took some of harry's blood and then Pettigrew used that and other things to bring voldemort back to power."
I heard a sharp intake of breath. I looked up and Edward had his eyes closed in a pained grimace.
"Go on" he whispered.
"He came back. He was stronger and he can kill us now. He has the same protection that we have now. Yet once again we made it out alive. I still can't understand how my life has been pretty long. It seems all harry and I ever do is attract trouble and death."
"That's true" Edward said in a strained voice.
"This summer, harry and I were attacked by dementors. Dumbledore thinks they must have been sent by voldemort. And despite what harry and I said about seeing voldemort come back everyone refuses to believe it. There are only a few who actually do. The rest just says that harry and I are looking for attention. Anyways this year we were introduced to the order of the phoenix. It was created by Dumbledore. Many people are in it with the purpose of destroying voldemort. Sirius and Frankie are part of it. My parents were part of it too"
"I see"
"There's also this weird connection between harry's head voldemort's and mines. When he is really angry harry and I can feel it. Sometime we feel immense pain. And In December remember I left early?"
He nodded.
"I was sleeping and I had like a…vision"
Edward looked at me with a confused expression.
"There was a snake. It was voldemort snake. And…it bit Mr. Weasley, Ron's father. Harry the weasley and I were immediately sent to Sirius house that night. Harry had seen the exact same thing. And we were scared. It had actually happened. Mr. Weasley could have died that night had we not seen it. But this was a bad thing. That we could see into voldemort mind. He could find out about it and use it against us. Since then harry and I have been getting occlumency lessons with snape. It is supposedly to learn to close our minds to voldemort so he won't use this against us."
I tried to think of anything else.
"That's pretty much it" I said looking at Sirius and Frankie to see if I missed something.
"Edward voldemort is at the peak of his power right now and he is highly dangerous. He will stop at nothing to see both Alex and harry dead. They run great risk outside of Hogwarts and out of forks. Voldemort is aware that Alex isn't in the school. One of the teachers, snape is working as a supposedly double agent. And he is making voldemort believe that he is on his side and all of that. He has told voldemort that Dumbledore told no one were you would be going only Dumbledore knows. Nevertheless voldemort is looking. But he'll never think of the United States let alone Washington or a small town as forks. This was the perfect place to bring her for her to recover from her past. And we were right, for she has found you. And we could not be happier. Thank you" said Sirius.
Edward gave a small smile and nodded. He was still disturbed by what I told him.
"if ever I can be of any help my family and I are always willing to do so"
"NO!" I said as they gave me a look that said 'are you alright?'
"all you need to do is stay here and be there for me and that's all okay?" I said firmly. He smiled and kissed the top of my head.
"Ever since they were babies Alex and harry have become very famous amongst the wizarding world. Because of them voldemort left. And once people realize that he has come back I just know that they will think that it will be harry and Alex who will end him for once and for all" said Frankie. Thank you for the pressure.
"Well let's not get ahead of ourselves." I said "school is enough pressure without you telling me that"
"Speaking of school how's that studying going?" asked Sirius.
"All I know is I better get good grades" I said.
"Edward?" said Frankie
"Yes?" he said politely.
"You said you've been controlling you thirst for many years…how old are you?"
"About two hundred and ten years old. You loose track after a while."
"Wow so all of you family is about that age?" asked Sirius
"Were all from different time periods were adopted you could say. Carlisle our 'father' is the oldest he is about five hundred years old. We never age. We live forever"
Forever, should I tell him about my situation? How would he take it? I should give it time…
An hour later we were out of the house. We left Frankie and Sirius to talk alone. Now we were on our way to his house.
"It went better than I thought" I said as we sped down the road.
"I know" he said chuckling "I was half expecting to walk out of the house without my memory."
"I expected the same" I said laughing.
"I'm happy this went so well, we don't have to hide anything from them now"
"It will be much easier" I agreed.
"Your family isn't mad at me for what happened the last time I was at your house right?" I said cautiously.
"They love you Alex trust me all they care about is that I'm happy. They don't care about what is in the past. You've got nothing to be afraid of." He assured me as he parked right in front of his house.
"Hope your right" I muttered. He turned of the engine and turned towards me. Taking my face in his marble hands gently. He looked at me for some time.
"Your eyes are beautiful" he whispered his warm delicious breath hit my face and I blinked a couple of times trying to clear my head.
"Their black" I said rolling my eyes.
"Not anymore they are their original shade of green." He said. Kissing my nose. "I thought you would have noticed. You're hair is also redder." he whispered.
"Harry will be so happy." I said sarcastically.
"You party pooper Alex" he said chuckling before kissing me.
I kissed him back eagerly. Our lips moving in perfect rhythm. Melody and harmony.
He pulled back just then, with a peaceful smile on his face.
"Heaven knows I don't deserve someone like you" he said getting out of the car.
Isn't that what I should be saying?
Before I could open the door Edward was already there opening it for me.
"Thanks" I said taking his hand and then I followed him towards his house.
As we entered the house his family was there waiting to greet us. Everyone was in their place just like last time. It was as if we were actors and we had messed up the scene and now we were doing it all over again.
"Hello Alex" said esme pleasantly with a big smile in her face and bright happy eyes. "It's good to see you again we were afraid you wouldn't want to put a foot in here ever again" she walked over and gave me a hug while I returned it.
"I apologize for that incident" I said to everyone. "Especially to Edward I know it must have hurt him"
"You don't have to apologize for anything" he murmured hugging me from behind.
"Sure sure" I said waving a hand dismissively. Everyone chuckled.
"It's nice to see you all again" I said to everyone and they all said hi back.
"So how did it go?" asked Alice brightly. I didn't have to read minds to know what she was talking about.
"Are you sure you don't know that answer?" I asked as Edward led me to a couch and sat me on his lap. The rest took a seat as well.
Alice grinned. "Yes but the rest don't"
Everyone was watching me waiting to hear how it all went.
"It all went better than I expected. Edward still has his memory and Frankie and Sirius both will keep quiet." I said happily.
"What do you mean by Edward still having his memory?" asked Emmett.
"I guess panic hit me at the last minute and I thought of all the possible things Frankie and Sirius could do to Edward when they found out he knew our secret."
"And thankfully there was no memory erasing" said Edward. We all laughed.
"All in all everything went rather well" said Edward.
"Oh well that's good we have all been extremely nervous about it. Except Alice of course" said jasper poking his wife in the side playfully. She giggled.
"There's also one thing you should know, Alex" said Edward in a serious tone.
"You're a girl?" I asked. Emmett burst out laughing and the others jus smiled.
"No" said Edward smiling as well. "Yesterday while we had our little talk Alice couldn't stay out of it. And like I said before it's hard to keep secrets in this family. They all know everything you told me last night"
They all gave me rather apologetic looks. Yesterday or any other day it would have angered me. Now I was happy they knew me better. I had a feeling that I would be seeing a lot of them.
"That's okay. When I leave you should also tell them what we told you today" I said rather hesitantly. Was I making a mistake?
I hope not.
But I probably was.
What do I do then?
"I will" said Edward smiling.
"So Alex what do you have planned for this weekend?" asked Alice. What was she thinking?
"Uhm I have to go to school and get my evaluation done. Plus I promised my brother I would help him with a lesson on Saturday"
"What is he a teacher?" asked jasper
"He's just teaching this group of students how to defend themselves and all. Seeing as how the defense against the dark arts teacher refuses to do so"
"Oh yeah we heard something like that" said Emmett. I'm not surprised he did.
"Yeah well. It's going to be a busy weekend for me"
"Oh that sucks…the next weekend then" said Alice brightly. And they all gave me looks of pity.
"Next weekend what Alice?" I asked.
"I'll take you shopping with me!" she said excitedly.
Something told me I shouldn't feel excited.
"I'm guessing I have no say in this"
"No" she responded.
"Alice maybe it's too soon" said Edward. Bless him he was trying to get me out of this one. "Besides I want to spend a weekend with her too"
"No you already had her all of this weekend"
"Yeah but it-"
"What am I a toy?" I said over both of their voices. Everything went quiet.
"You're going" said Alice with a final tone. She sounded so funny but I couldn't bring myself to laugh.
We spent the rest of the day talking and I found I could connect well with everyone in the family. I got along just fine with everyone and I was having…fun.
Edward seemed to glow with happiness through the rest of the day.
If he was glowing with happiness then I was shining.
Too soon I had to go.
I was saying bye to everyone when esme came up to me and hugged me.
"Thank you for bringing my son back to us" she whispered sincerely. If she could cry then she would have been bawling her eyes right now.
"It's him I should be thanking right now" I responded. I felt Edward interlace his fingers with mine. I waved goodbye to everyone and followed him into the cloudy night into his Audi.
"So do you want to go eat somewhere or will you eat at your house? Normally I wouldn't ask, I would just take to out to eat but since you have company right now…" he said.
"Don't worry I'll have dinner with Sirius and Frankie, they might want to talk to me about some things." I said. He smiled and then drove to my house.
I looked at him as the light of the dashboard hit his face.
"Are you happy?" I asked noticing his smile.
"of course" he said as if it were obvious.
"About what?" I asked curiously.
"Well first that you are here with me second, you love me, third you got along with my family. I could keep going on and on you know" he said sending me a smile.
"I have a question" I said
"Go on"
"Why is your first reason that I am here with you rather than the fact that I love you" I said. Was that wrong to ask I felt like he would think that I wanted to be the first to him.
But I don't even think I'm making sense even in my own thoughts.
"Because I would do anything for you to be with even if you didn't love me. Well when I say anything I don't mean stealing you and forcing you to be with me." He said half laughing.
"But the fact that you would be here with me because you want to even without you loving me, that would make me infinitely happy"
I took hold of his hand and kissed it. He gave a peaceful sigh.
"I'm glad that's not the case though because I do love you….like you can't imagine" I said.
"I cannot put to words my feelings for you. They wouldn't do it justice"
"I'm glad I make you happy. Just like you make me happy. You deserve it" I said.
"As do you" he said raising our interlaced hands and putting the back of my hand to his granite cheek.
We got into a comfortable silence then. Both perfectly content in each others happiness. Then he stopped the car. It had been an incredibly short ride.
But neither one of us moved nor showed any sign of wanting to. But after about five minutes he broke the silence.
"I know what my limit is Alex, and it would be wise for you to stay longer." He whispered in shame.
"I understand don't feel bad. Hopefully you will overcome that soon" I said.
"I can give you a goodnight kiss however" he said and before I knew it his lips were on mines softly touching mines. I leaned forward and kissed him just as he pulled away.
"I'll go to your room later if you want me to" he said smiling.
"I do want you to come but only if you feel like you can" I wanted him to be comfortable in my presence not in agony.
"I'll be much better by then" he promised.
"See you, then" I said opening the door and getting out.
"I love you" he said and I smiled.
"The word love is not enough for me to tell you how I feel." I responded "but I guess I'll have to settle for that. I love you too." I pecked him on the lips and then got out and ran to my house shielding my head from the rain with my arms. Once I was under the shelter of the porch I turned and saw his pale figure waiting for me to in.
I opened the door and got in.
Sometimes patience is what one truly needs to heal. Patience, time, feelings, tears, family, friends, and a lot of strength.
Without it I hate to think of the hole I would still be in.