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Alex's pov

"Something is bothering me" Edward said as he stroked my hair. I was instantly alert.

"What?" I asked. I kept my gaze on my school books all piled on my desk.

"Voldemort" he said simply. Yet he said the name with so much hate and disdain you would think voldemort had done something to Edward.

"What about him?" I said.

"I can't get over the fact that he has not only tried to hurt you multiple times but he has also tried to kill you multiple times"

"That's the story of my life. I don't know I'm starting to think that's what he lives for. But how does that bother you?"

"He wants to kill you. Anyone who even dares to think of doing harm to you angers me" he growled.

"I got over it you know…it doesn't scare me anymore. Don't worry you'll get used to it." I assured him.

"And if I'm being truthful with myself. I'm a bit hesitant about you leaving my sight for the whole weekend."

I snickered. "I'm going to be alright. I'm perfectly safe in Hogwarts especially under the protection of Dumbledore" I said with pride.

"Yeah but have you noticed how everytime you come across voldemort it's while you're in school? Even if it is the safest place on earth?"

Oh he got me there.

"Well let's say that I'm under the best protection I can get. It's no ones fault that my brother and I just love to come across trouble. It runs in the family after all. And there is only so much a person or spell can do to keep us safe."

"Exactly, I'm going to be so paranoid this weekend. Especially because Alice can't see what's going on in your future. It disappears when you go to Hogwarts or use magic. Do you have any idea how worried I'm going to be?"

"You know I have to go" I tried to reason with him. The last thing I wanted was for him to be pulling his hair out in worry the whole weekend. "If it makes you feel better I promise to stay away from trouble"

He snorted when I said that.

"And yet you are going to help your brother with an illegal club that could result in your expulsion from the school. What do you call that?" he asked.

"Family curse?"

His quiet laughter shook the bed. I turned around and nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck.

"Okay then how about this, I promise to be careful so that I won't get caught and get into trouble"

"I reckon that's the best promise I'll get" he said sighing.

"You know this is important to me and all of the clubs members" I mumbled against his skin. I smiled as I heard his breath get slightly uneven. "It's for a good cause."

He gave a defeated sigh. "I know" he murmured and kissed my head.

"Don't think about the upcoming weekend" I said. "Think of something else" I said in a soothing voice. I looked up at him and stroked his hair.

"I can't think of anything with you sounding so…delicious" he smirked. I couldn't help but laugh when he said that.

Instantly his hand was on my mouth covering it.

"Alex I know he is in there!" called Frankie. My heart sped up as I heard him. "You two better be behaving" he scolded.

I looked up at Edward. "I thought you were watching out for his thoughts?" I hissed, damn he caught us! The thought made me blush with embarrassment, something I very rarely did.

"I was, but he jumped to conclusions too fast it took me by surprise." He sounded just as embarrassed at being caught.

I got off the bed and walked ever to the door. "Wait here" I told Edward, as I got out of the bed.

Quickly I walked barefoot towards Frankie's room. I was embarrassed I just wish I knew why? We weren't doing anything bad after all. I knocked on his door and Frankie's amused voice spoke.

"Come in"

I opened the door and blushed harder when I saw him staring straight at me. He was sitting in his bed holding a book that said creatures of the dark.

"Uhm" I began.

"Just make sure all you're clothes stay on" he said chuckling. And I almost matched my hair color.

He looked at me again and burst out laughing.

"What?" I almost wailed.

"You face almost matches your hair! Even your eyes turned red from embarrassment!" he laughed harder and I felt like the heat in my face was enough to instantly warm the house.

"We aren't even doing anything bad" I muttered looking down.

"But it's at your age when the hormones are raging mad" he said laughing slightly.

"Merlin!" I said and turned and left. I waked into my room as fast as I could and as soon as I closed the door I felt Edwards warm arms close around my waist.

"At least he wasn't mad and he didn't kick me out" he said trying to make the both of us less embarrassed.

"At least" I agreed.

"Goodnight alex! And you too Edward!" said Frankie followed by his maniac laugh.

I looked up at Edward and we both burst out laughing.

"Come on Alex there's school tomorrow and you need rest" said Edward once he calmed down. He cradled me in his arms easily as if I didn't weigh a thing and carried me to the bed where he laid me down gently.

"Ugh you sound like a dad" I complained as he slipped under the covers as well.

"I'm glad I'm not your dad or I wouldn't be able to do this"

Before I had time to take in his sentence his lips were on mine. Acting on instinct my hands went to his hair and began to massage his scalp as I kissed him back. He angled his body so that he was hovering over my body.

He moaned into my mouth and then pulled away.

"Frankie's right" he muttered as he rolled off of me, "it's at this age when the hormones are out of control."

I laughed at that.

Edwards pov

I needed to calm down.

As much as I despised myself for thinking this, the bad thing about having had a sexual relationship before was that it was hard to abstain from it later on.

As soon as I thought this I became disgusted at myself. I sounded like a hormonal teenager.

Alex's voice brought me back from my ungentlemanly and disgusting thoughts.

"Edward?" she said once her breathing was back to normal

"Yes?" I asked as I looked up at the ceiling.

"Sometimes when I go to sleep" she began. Her voice sounded unsure. "I…dream things…things that aren't normal" upon hearing this I turned my gaze towards her.

"Are these the visions you talked about earlier?" I asked.

"Yeah something like that. But I'm not supposed to be dreaming these things….Dumbledore says they could be bad and voldemort could take advantage of it. I'm supposed to be blocking these things from my head but it's so hard" she looked down and began to play with her hands.

"What can I do?" I asked putting my index finger under her chin and making her look up.

"If at any time, while I sleep, you see something odd about me. Anything that might mean I'm dreaming….wake me up"

"I will" I promised. She smiled and kissed my cheek. Then she buried her face in my chest tucking her hands in between us. I wrapped my arms around her and within seconds she was asleep.

I looked at her taking in every detail about her sleeping habits. The way she curled into a small ball. How when she moved she made odd noises in the back of her throat like the way babies do. The way her lips pouted and how her hand would stiffen at times as if they were claws or she was holding something and then relax again. At times she would grasp my finger tightly. She literally slept like a baby. At time's I could hear her slightly hum a song. I couldn't recognize the tune but it was beautiful all the same.

How could such a beautiful girl go through so much pain, so much loss.

Voldemort was brought back to my mind and my thoughts turned murderous. He was the reason behind her suffering. He was the reason for why she lost her parents and had to grow up with her uncles who she despised so much. He is the reason for why she had suffered so much these past months and I wanted nothing more than to see that man dead.

I couldn't even call him a man. He wasn't a man; he was a monster, a demon.

And yet this demon was the reason I met Alex…

As good as the day had been voldemort had been in the back of my mind all day long. I wouldn't allow myself to think too much of him for I didn't want it to reflect in my expression. I was for the most part happy. Alex got along great with all of my family and that made me immensely happy. They liked her too and Alex liked them too. I was sure there was no happier man on earth than me. But he was always there in the back of my head.

When I dropped Alex off at her house I went back to my family and explained to them her situation. They expressed concern for her and Emmett was angry.

"Just let him try and get near her" he said menacingly as he cracked his knuckles. I couldn't help but smile.

I truly didn't deserve this girl. I felt so unworthy of her and yet it made me happy to know that she chose me despite my unworthiness and that she claimed to need me. And she loved me.

But it also worried me that she seemed to believe that she needed me. What if this didn't last?

No I couldn't allow myself to think like this. The day I leave her it will be because she will tell me to, because she will know that she doesn't need me. I shouldn't worry about that.

"So close" I heard Alex say. Her face was frowning, and she gripped my index finger tighter. "Almost there" she breathed. There was so much longing in her voice.

"Alex" I said gently shaking her. She shook her head and tugged on my finger.

"Alex" I repeated shaking her again.

It was till the fourth time I shook her that her eyes shot open and she sat up.

She looked around and her eyes fell on me. They seemed to darken and she shoved me.

"Why the hell did you wake me up!" she said angrily. I could only give her a confused look. She hissed slightly then looked away; she took a few deep breaths then seemed to relax.

In truth I felt a little hurt at her reaction.

"I'm sorry" she said sounding ashamed. "I didn't mean to get mad at you. It's just I was so close to the door"

"Sorry I woke you" I said quietly.

"Don't be, you did exactly what I asked you to do. Thanks, I wasn't supposed to be dreaming about that. And you're not the first one I've gotten mad at for waking me up like this. Hermione used to do it too. I don't know I've been having weird mood swings this year, Dumbledore assumes it's because of the connection between harry's head mines and voldemort's. We can sense his moods sometimes." she seemed deep in thought. "It's scary" she added quietly.

"I can imagine" I said leaning forward and hugging her from the back. I pulled her against my chest and she turned around to face me.

"I really am sorry" she murmured.

"Its fine" I said how could I not forgive her? "You should go back to sleep" I suggested as I stroked her soft hair

"What time is it?" she asked looking at the alarm clock.

"It's four in the morning" I replied pressing my cheek to her head.

"Nah I won't be able to sleep I already slept four hours. Ever since last year I'm lucky if I sleep for five hours. I don't know why…I used to sleep a lot."

"That's odd" I murmured

She raised her head and placed her lips by my ear.

"You want to know a secret?" she whispered.

I was a little taken aback by her sudden change of mood but played along anyway.

"Okay" I said a smile building up on my mouth.

"I'm in love" she whispered. And my whole body tingled with happiness.

"Who's the lucky man" I murmured.

"I can't tell you but I can give you a clue."

"All right" I said grinning like a fool.

"He is tall, pale, handsome, amazing eyes, alluring voice…I could keep telling you things about him and I would never finish"

"I give up" I said. She giggled

"May I have another clue?" I asked.

"Yes" she said and she lunged at me, and glued her lips to mine. Her nimble fingers buried themselves in my hair and gently pulled at it.

Her warm intoxicating breath clouded every coherent thought I had. I kissed her back just as eagerly my tongue traced the outline of her lips and she moaned and granted my tongue access to her mouth.

I grasped her shoulders tightly, and pulled her closer.

Not good enough. I wanted more.

Our tongues seemed to be dancing as we fought for dominance. And after a while she tried to pull back.

Her efforts were futile. I only growled and slid my hands down to her waist, pulling her closer to me, wanting to get lost in her.

She tried once more to pull away and I only held her tighter, unaware of anything. The apocalypse could have arrived and I wouldn't have noticed.

Her hands left my hair and she put them on my cheeks. It only fueled me further and I held her in an incredibly tight hold well tight for her. I didn't notice that till much later.

And I wanted more.

How would her blood taste?

Her whimper brought me crashing back to earth.

I immediately released my grasp on her and she tumbled to the bed. She coughed and wheezed like an asthmatic person. She grasped her throat and tried to catch her breath and return her heartbeat to normal.

I backed away as much as the bed allowed and I buried my face in my hands regaining my breath and feeling like a terrible monster. I was trying to tame that horrible thing inside of me that was begging me to get just a taste of that delicious blood.

What was I thinking? No, why wasn't I thinking? I could have hurt her. I could have killed her.

"I'm sorry" I whispered "please forgive me" I pleaded.

"For what?" she said once she was able to breath normally again. "You did nothing wrong Edward" she said gently.

"How can you say that" I hissed.

"Because you didn't its fine really" she tried to assure me but I didn't listen.

"No Alex it's not fine, I could have seriously hurt you. I could have killed you" I cried.

"But you didn't Edward. Don't you dare blame this on yourself "she warned.

I quickly put on my shoes.

"You're leaving?" she asked sounding upset, much to my dismay.

"I need to clear my mind Alex" I explained. I need to get away from you as fast as possible to keep you safe

She didn't answer. I turned to her and raised my hand to stroke her cheek. She turned her head away.

"I'll see you at school" she said angrily and she got up and walked into her bathroom.

I felt awful and I considered waiting for her to get out. But I didn't want to push the limit. So I quickly left.

I would apologize for my carelessness at school.

Alex's pov

I gave him the impression that I was mad at him then good, because I was.

I was just mad at him for different reasons than he thought.

I didn't want him to blame himself for what happened, it wasn't his fault. Accidents happened right? Edward was too hard on himself.

But I did feel bad about being mean to him but he was gone already so I couldn't apologize.

Would it always be like this?

I sighed as the question popped into my head.

As a punishment for my actions I had an extremely cold shower. Yeah I was a masochist, so? My sides hurt a lot though.

And I saw the reason for it when I got out of the shower.

As I looked at my bare body I could see parts of my sides already bruising, mainly my shoulders and my waist, where Edward had held me.

Great it was going to be one hell of a day. I don't even want to imagine how Edward would react if he found out about this.

I put on my clothes very slowly. My teeth were still chattering as I dressed in a gray and black sweater with jeans and my chucks.

Dammit!

I still had time.

I settled for cleaning my room and bathroom. All while I cleaned I tried to move fast without wincing. I just hoped Edward wouldn't notice, he isn't exactly blind so him not noticing almost sounds impossible.

Almost

Still after a while I settled for a slow pace. I wasn't getting anywhere with my method.

I went down the stairs wincing at the movement. Incredible I wasn't bruised at my legs and yet it hurt to walk!

"Hey kid!" said Frankie as he made some eggs. "How did you sleep" he gave me pointed look.

"Hush" I said as I tried to reach a cereal box from the cupboard. I hissed at the movement. My efforts were futile I still couldn't reach it, it was too high up.

"Frankie help" I gasped.

"Sure, what's wrong?" he asked as he took down the box.

Crap if he noticed then Edward definitely will.

"I don't know I think I slept wrong" I said.

"Oh poor you. Where's Edward?"

"He left early I don't know why" I said shrugging and regretting it.

I drove extremely slow, slower than an old lady without glasses. I was trying to prolong the moment of seeing Edward. Then again if I made it late to school then I would have to walk quickly to class and I don't think I can handle that.

As soon as the thought crossed my mind I stepped harder on the gas pedal.

Once I parked I reached over to the passenger's side to get my big.

Major mistake.

"Holy mother fucking shit!" I yelped in pain. I sat up straight again and let out a low hiss.

"Alex?" Edward's worried voice said as he opened the car door.

Ah fuck my life!

I closed my eyes and put my head against the headrest.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"I….forgot my wand" I quickly lied.

"Alex" he said in a reproaching tone that told me that he knew that I was lying.

"What?" I said opening my eyes to see him. His exquisite face was much closer to mine than I expected.

"Tell me Alex?" he pleaded.

"Really I forgot my wand" I said. He shook his head in disbelief. I undid my seatbelt thankful he hadn't asked me anything else. He gave me his hand and I took it as he helped me out of the car.

"Alex" he said putting both arms against my car on either side of me. I looked up at him and saw his pleading expression. "I'm sorry about what happened earlier today, I'm sorry if I got you mad and I'm sorry for my thoughtless acts. I'm sorry for choking you-"

"You say sorry too much for you own good" I mumbled looking away.

"Please forgive me for putting you in danger" he said pleaded. "Sorry doesn't justify what I did I know but-"

"Edward you did nothing wrong, seriously. You have nothing to be sorry for I'm not complaining you know? Really you acted on impulse I completely understand that."

I put my hands in his waist and pulled him into a hug. People passing by looked at us amazed.

"You always find a way to justify even my less honorable acts melody" he said sighed as he hugged me back.

"You're just too harsh on yourself." I mumbled.

"I really am sorry though it was irresponsible of me"

"I'll kick you the next time you say that" I threatened and his eyes became bright with amusement.

He grabbed me by the waist and got my bag and walked me towards that school. Everyone stared at us as we walked by them. I could care less, right now I was trying to catch up with Edward's graceful steps and he held me by the waist which hurt a lot. My eyes watered in pain.

Once we stopped in front of my first class he turned me and his expression turned concerned as he saw my eyes.

"What's wrong Alex?" he asked holding me at arms length by the shoulder.

Cullen! Please move your hands!

"I don't know I'm an emotional person" I lied.

"When did you become such a bad liar?" he asked

"Liar, I'm not lying are you lying to me about me lying to you? Because if you are that makes you the liar not me" my weak attempts at causing him confusion were useless.

"I will figure out what's wrong Alex, you've acting weird"

"Try you won't find anything" I challenged. I rubbed my eyes clean of the tears that had formed.

"Do I get a goodbye kiss?" I asked. He smiled and kissed my cheek.

"You can't be serious right Edward?" I said raising an eyebrow. He chuckled and quickly pecked me on the lips.

"I will see you later" he told me before walking away.

Obviously avoiding him today would be impossible. He was outside of my classroom when I got out. And it was much the same the whole day. He didn't ask again about my odd behavior but he did seem to get impatient at my slow pace. He seemed pretty close to just picking me up and carry me around to my classes.

We sat with his family that day, Emmett was so entertaining.

And now Edward was driving my car. Alice and the rest had taken his and he was driving towards my house.

When he parked he turned to me a determined look on his face. I couldn't help but gaze at him and think of how nice that shirt looked on him. Everything looked nice on him anyways.

"What?" I said when his expression processed in my mind.

"Okay tell me what has been going on with you all day long?"

"Nothing has been going on with me" I said calmly. His determined expression turned to one of hurt.

"Don't you trust me?" he said quietly.

"I do" I said trying to sound reasonable.

"Then why wont you tell me?" he asked looking at me from under his eyelashes. This boy wants to kill me.

"There's nothing to tell" my uncertain tone gave away my lie.

"Alex" he breathed leaning closer to me. My breath caught, why does he have to be so irresistible? "You know I trust you?" he whispered.

"Yeah" I said gulping.

"Then why won't you trust me? You know you can tell me anything" his lips brushed against my cheekbone and I blinked four times trying to clear my head from his alluring scent.

"I know" I said sighing. He pulled back with a look of satisfaction. Sensing I was going to tell him.

I already had my bag in my hand. I opened the door and quickly got out grunting in pain at the sudden movement.

I took one step and he was already behind me holding me by the waist.

"Where do you think you're going?" he said playfully and he lifted me and threw me over hi shoulder. He ran over to the door gracefully and in one second we were in and he seated me in the couch. I couldn't help the howl of pain that erupted from me when he gently sat me down.

"Alex?" he said frightened.

I had my hands on my waist as I closed my eyes and tried to push away the pain.

I felt his hands move mines aside and he lifted my shirt.

I heard a horrified gasp and his hands left my shirt.

"No, no, no what did I do?" he moaned in pain.

"You did nothing" I said angrily.

"Look at yourself melody I hurt you. That's why you've been like this all day. Oh my god no" he put his hands on his face as he kept muttering profanities at himself.

"Edward" I said gently and I reached to move his hands away but he wouldn't move.

"Edward its fine really I'm just-"

"How can you say it's fine?" he growled angrily. "Can you not see what I did and I know I caused much more damage to you!"

"Calm down Edward trust me, I don't know what wrong with me right now I know the pain isn't much I'm just over reacting" I tried desperately to make him feel better. I didn't want to see him like this.

"Alex why are you tying to make me the good person here?" he said looking up at me, the anger and pain still evident in his eyes and expression.

"Because you did nothing wrong" I said as I slid myself off the couch. Trying my hardest not to wince, but nothing escapes Edward. He frowned upon seeing my grimace.

I took his face in both of my hands making him look at me.

"Edward I know things like these are going to happen; only time will make it get better. Edward it's not like you broke me or something you know? Their just bruises they will go away"

"The pain-" he began to argue but I cut him off.

"Edward I've gone trough worse pain. Once in my second year I lost all the bones in my right arm. It's nasty business regrowing them. This is nothing compared to that, I'm just being a sissy" I said.

He didn't look convinced at all. He just closed his eyes, pain and sadness etched into his face.

"I'm sorry Alex" he whispered shaking his head. "I am the most worthless, despicable-"

Though I knew it wouldn't hurt him I slapped him.

"It hurts more to hear you talk like this about yourself than the bruises" I scolded.

"Please Edward let's not talk about this." I whispered in a gentle tone I brushed aside the locks of hair that fell on his face. "Don't think about it forget it, for me" I wrapped hands around his neck and nuzzled my face in his neck.

"I can't ever forget something like this Alex" he said exhaling sharply.

I grunted in an annoyed tone.

"But I wont bring it up for your sake" he said as he sighed. Ever so gently wrapping his arms around me. "But now I'm much more afraid of holding you" he admitted miserably.

"Don't be" I murmured against the skin of his neck. "And don't worry time will help us perfect our impulses."

"This won't happen again" he vowed. I kissed him under his jaw.

"Thank you" he whispered.

"For what?" I asked.

"For loving me"

"You over react to much" I said rolling m eyes at him.

"I just don't want to hurt you" he tried to reason.

"Thank you" I said.

"For what?"

"Loving me"

as always feel free to tell me what you think

ih an by the way it was brought to my attention by the awesome bellacullen2312 that you had to be 17 to enter the triwizard tournament

she is so right i dont know what i was thinking lol

okay then....

-airali