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Alice-I realize that they aren't that much different in age but I had to keep several things in mind. The fact that Kirito looks older with his face and height compared to Silica. The fact that he's grown maturity wise several years because of the SAO situation. And mostly the fact that sure, one or two years apart means little when your leaving highschool and after, but in middle school/starting high school it's a major faux pas. Plus she's always feeling like a little kid from crying in front of him so much.

Supershayming- I'll do my best to make you proud

Last, I apologize again to those waiting patiently for my other story. This one is just much easier to come up with ideas for and it's shorter. I will be writing more My Onii-Chan soon, I'm just not looking foreward to part of it.

Anyway, ive talked too much. Enjoy.

"So, you really thought I meant you? That I would attack and…kill… you?" Kirito asked, almost nervous for my answer. He looked down towards his lap and folded his hands together, then unfolded, then put them his side, then in his lap again. How could I have ever thought that? Just look at him… He's killing himself over my thoughts. I have to fix this.

"No no no Kirito-kun. I just, it's been a long night. My nights aren't usually this eventful. I couldn't see any other explanation… I still don't. You just looked so,,, resentful." I finished slowly, mouth drying out.

"I just… It was difficult enough to share that with you. Then I broke down, right in front of you. I don't do that ever…It's been years. I didn't mind it though, when I thought it was just you." I was touched at his words but confused as to what he was suggesting. It was just me.

"Then I heard it, very faintly, someone else eavesdropping. Their armor rustled slightly and the door had some pressure put on it. It was subtle, but it was enough." He can hear all that? "Knowing someone else was witnessing my emotional collapse, that put me over the edge. That's why I was so angry. I didn't mean to scare you…"

I wrapped my arms around his waist and put my head in the crook of his arm. "I understand now. I'm sorry for doubting you Kirito-kun." Slowly his arms circumvented me as he pulled me close. "I thought it wasn't even possible to listen to closed rooms. Don't you have to knock for that?"

"Nah. You just need to train it. Those who have it mainly are questionable characters, up to no good. This one was no different."

Pulling my head back, I met him face to face, "was? wait, so, just now. You caught the person who did it?"

"Yea, don't worry, I took care of him. We shouldn't have any more interruptions tonight." He smiled softly at this and kissed my forehead. I just sat there stiff and dumbstruck, eyes unmoving, barely feeling his lips touch my skin. What did he mean by that…

"Kirito-kun, I know what you said before you left but… you didn't…." It was my turn to be afraid of what his answer could be. "Did you?"

Sighing deeply he started fidgeting with his hands again, letting me go. "It's actually extremely hard to piss me off. This time though,,, I lost it. I found him. First I roughed him up a bit, scaring the bejesus out of him while I knocked him around. He quickly gave up but I held my sword against his throat, hoping to make him squirm. Then…" He clenched his hands tight and his face became hard, a hint of his anger glinting in his eyes.

I put my hand on his tightened ones, hoping to calm him down. It shook him out of his daze and he loosened his grip. "I don't think I've been that cross since the game started… but, no. I didn't kill him" I exhaled a large breath of relief, knowing that while I really liked him, I wasn't sure how I'd feel at the fact that he killed a defenseless person. "He won't be bothering us again."

A thought occurred to me, "You came back though, and your cursor is still green. How?" He smiled at this.

"Easy, I knew the type of player he was, that he would attack without mercy. I let him get in an easy swing on me, nothing fatal though," he quickly reassured me noticing my expression. "That put him instantly orange. Then, when you attack an orange or red player, it counts as self-defense. The system keeps you green." In all that rage he came up with such a plan? Impressive…

I felt myself being drawn towards him again. Why do I want to kiss him so badly? Stop it Silica, or hormones, whichever one of you it is, quit it. We are still talking. During this internal battle, Kirito relaxed and laid back against the bed.

"You know, Kirito-kun, before you left… It wasn't your fault." He looked at me surprise covering his face, then shame. "You tried to save them. You fought as hard as"

"I don't care," he cut me off. "I should have told them the truth from the start." He continued to lay there thoughtfully, seeming to contemplate something difficult. Suddenly, he rose up and walked towards the table, putting his hands on one of the chairs, keeping his back towards me.

"Silica-chan… I haven't been honest with you either." Not honest, with me? About what? "I came here for a specific reason, not to save and meet you. That was an added bonus." I could tell he smiled at that part. "I'm searching for someone, well actually I've found her."

Her… The thought lingered in my mind. So he does have someone else… "Oh. I see." After all this, he has someone else. "Well," fabricating what cheerfulness I could, "I'm sure you two will be very happy together. Make sure you treat her right, ok?"

Turning around quickly, he looked at me bewildered at my words. The thoughts 'are you mad?!' seemed to scream from his expression. Blinking several times, he burst out laughing, enough to make him fall to one knee and clutch his stomach. "Oh wow. No no no Silica-chan. You couldn't be further from the truth." He continued to laugh his ass off, barely getting those words out.

"Rosalia," he finally choked out as his laughing died down. Rosalia? Waa… "Silica-chan, what do you know about her?"

"Well," I said thinking, "she's a beautiful spear user with long red hair. She was in my party for a while until it was her antics that made me go alone in to the forest where you found me. She also seemed to have something hidden in her smile at times." Not to mention being a total bitch I added internally. "I don't know Kirito-kun. We didn't get along. Why?"

"She's a murderer." His words were simple, flat, and full of impact.

Taken aback, I thought back to earlier when we had run in to Rosalia. "But Kirito, that's impossible, isn't it? She's had a green cursor for as long as I've known her." With her attitude and manner of speaking, I wouldn't put it above her, but green is green.

He sat in the chair facing me, leaning over its back. "It's simple, she has orange players in wait while she brings her victims to their slaughter, and simply watches, staying green. You could say hers is the worst out of the whole murdering bunch." His face tensed but he continued, "I've been tracking her. I knew she was around here from a man looking for justice. Apparantly, recently, she caused the murder of an entire guild minus one member…" He quieted at this.

Don't tell me… He's comparing himself to that? Looking at him angrily, I reeled back and slapped him in his stupid face. Internally, I was shocked at what I just did, but I had to keep it going, or he would never let himself go. Feeling extremely defensive of him, I looked him dead in the eye to know I was serious. "Stop it Kirito-kun. You are an honorable person. I'll hurt anyone that thinks differently, including you. Okay?" He looked a bit startled that I had actually stuck and threatened him. Softening my face into a more encouraging one, I added on, "please, for me?"

Smiling, he nodded, then went on, "Anyway, I told him I would take care of them. He was very adamant though, not wanting them to die, but to go to prison. So that's what I'm going to do."

Going over his words in my head, I realized something. He's with me, not capturing them. "Why are you sticking around me then? Shouldn't you be going to take them out right now?"

He couldn't meet my gaze anymore at this question, but still he answered. "That's the difficult part, Silica-chan. I, well, while we got the pneuma flower for Pina, I was hoping they'd be so greedy as to attack us for it…"

Logically his words made sense, but they were still rolling in my head. They want the flower because it's rare, so they'll attack. I need the flower. They know to attack me because I need it. Then, I'm… "Bait… I'm your bait," I sighed dejectedly, looking at the floor. I could feel my voice becoming monotone and emotionless. "I understand, that's why we're here and why you were adamant about protecting me."

"Wrong. I promised to take you there because I wanted to. I didn't even know you knew Rosalia until after I said I'd take you, remember? The fact that you've interacted with her and let her know about our plan just makes it so I don't have to come up with some elaborate trap or search them out." I perked up at this. He really does care. Why do I always doubt him? Maybe it's because I feel like I don't deserve him…

Smiling again, I nodded. Now I knew he wasn't taking me for granted. "Hey, Kirito-kun, how exactly are we going to take on a murder guild? I don't know how I feel having to fight another player…"

Looking at me fiercely, he became serious. "No. Forget it. You," he said pointing at me, "will not even be close to them. Understand. You are not endangering yourself. I will take care of it. Say it!"

Taken back by his sudden intensity, I dully replied, "I won't fight." Hearing my words, Kirito went back to smiling. I didn't let that last, "but, why?"

He frowned frustrated, "I will not allow you to step in to harm's way. Not from mobs and not from Player Killers. I, I," he stumbled over his words now. "I couldn't forgive myself if I let something happen to you." His eyes glazed over, lost in his head, thoughts going rampant. He didn't really answer my question about how he would do it, but I'd let it go.

I considered slapping him again, but came up with a better alternative, grasping his chair and leaning in, brushing my lips against his. Damn it hormones, you win this one. Suddenly aware of what was going on, he held his lips to mine softly, unable to get closer because of his awkward seating.

After a few moments, I rested my forehead against his, breathing deeply. "Hey, Kirito-kun? Is there anything else you wanted to talk about?"

"Sadly, yes." Leaning back, he manipulated a menu and pulled an item out I had never seen before. "This," he said placing it in my hands, "is a mirage sphere." He tapped the top of it and I watched in amazement as it opened and expanded in to a giant holograph of different lights.

"So prettyyyy." Watching the lights spin slowly, I wondered what it would feel like if I touched them. Probably nothing.

Looking amused at my amazement, he got up and walked towards the bathroom door. "That's where we are headed tomorrow. I already marked monster spawns and the route we will take. Study it close. I'm going to take my first hot bath. After all I paid for it, right?" He chuckled at the last bit. "Oh yea, don't forget the time." Time?

Looking at my hud, I saw that it was much later in the night than I had thought, the 2:50 shining brightly. But why did time matter? OH! My room service! Thinking of more cheesecake, I opened a room specific window and ordered two servings, grateful that eating large amounts of junk food didn't actually affect weight.. The window acknowledged me with a ding, followed by a knock at the door. Well that was fast. Opening the door, an NPC man brought in a plate with two slices of cheesecake on it and a spoon, then left without a word.

Walking towards the bathroom, I knocked on the door, surprised when my force made it give way a few inches. Didn't he bother to close it? "Hey, Kirito-kun," I called, "I got you a slice of cake…" My voice died slowly as I saw Kirito in the bath, his upper body sticking out as he leaned against the back wall.

Kirito looked,,, really good. He was thin but had lines of muscles on his arms and down his abdomen. When I looked closely, the system assisted in showing specific detail as my eyes traced over his body. Swallowing, I began to back away, until I saw that he was looking directly at me, a smirk upon his lips and a laugh in his eyes. "So, we even then?" he asked playfully.

Without answering, I closed the door quickly, face flaming. Behind the door I heard a chuckle, until the click of the handle was in place, silencing the room. Sitting at the table, I began to eat the cake, busying myself with learning the path and mobs for tomorrow's quest. Engrossed in my task, I didn't notice the face leaning over my shoulder until the breathy laugh in my ear startled me. "Watching me without clothes and now eating my cake? Devious little thing," he teased.

Looking down, I realized I was just about to shovel the last piece of the second slice in to my mouth. I looked at him with scrunched eyes, and shoved the piece into his laughing mouth. "Shut it." He's always making fun of me. And why does he always make me so nervous. I got up and sat on the bed.

"Mmm, tasty," he said, licking his lips. Standing up straight and looking at me, he produced towel I hadn't noticed before, rubbing his hair with one hand. "So, I guess that's everything until tomorrow. You should get some rest." He started to walk towards the door. Wait, he's leaving? But it's only… 3:15… Still. I don't want him to go…

"You know," I started, fussing with my hands, "you don't have to leave…The bed here is pretty big… And you could make sure that no one else comes to bother us."

He stopped rubbing his hair, considering my words carefully. "I, well. I'd rather not be inappropriate with you. We have just met you know… I feel like it'd be rude of me to try something like that, even if I really like you…" He's afraid to, because of he thinks his intentions will be inappropriate, or rude?

Unsure of my own words, I softly asked, "would it be easier if I said I wanted you to…?" Always anxious because of him. I should start being more firm. Maybe then he'll get the message. "Kirito-kun, please stay. I want you here. Not for my safety, but because… well just because. Okay? No ifs, ands, or buts."

"It would be nice since there's a guy bound and gagged in my room at the moment," he chuckled. So that's what he did with the eavesdropper.

"Good." Could I continue being firm? I'm worried I'll scare him away. We'll it worked once, what's there to lose. "Good," I repeated. "Now, turn off the light, and, um, and come kiss me." Maybe that was a bit too much…

Kirito looked at me intensely, as if peering straight in to my thoughts. Then, surprisingly, he obeyed. First he turned towards the wall mounted light and clicked it, turning it off and leaving a dull blue light coming from the virtually fabricated moon. Then, sitting on the bed next to me he softly pressed his lips against my nose. Was that an accident? Or is he teasing me again? Hm. Bold and firm works with him it seems.

Grabbing his collar, I pulled his lips to mine, feeling a rush as we connected. His face melted in to mine quickly, leaving no resistance. Not having to hold him there anymore, I moved my hands to the back of his head, pulling at his already dried hair, That's a videogame for you. I felt his arms hold my waist lightly, as if afraid to touch me. Please don't get cold feet now. I finally got you to stop talking and kiss me.

Looking at short list of options, I tried to move my mouth against him, hesitantly, awkwardly aware of my lack of experience. I opened my lips slightly, sucking his upper one, then nibbled on it. That was weird of me. He probably thinks I want to eat him. Astonishingly, he responded the way I had hoped, and then some. His mouth began to move in unison with mine, sending a ripple through my back. So that's why they do it. I finally understand. Then when I was simply satisfied with enjoying a proper kiss, Kirito upped the ante, gripping my waist tightly and pulling me in to his lap, straddling him.

Woah, I didn't know… Mmmm. Kirito's hands trailed my back lightly, using only his fingernails, making me shiver all over. He seemed to finally let himself enjoy his time with me. Deepening the kiss, I felt him experiment, kissing only one side of my mouth, tilting his head more to the side to fit together, and more, all the while continuing to send electrical surges down my spine.

Reluctantly, I felt him break the kiss and breathe heavily. "I, I'm sorry. I don't want to do anything we'll regret or without your permission. I feel like I already crossed that line." He is always so worried about me. I want to be able to prove I'm not just a kid. Maybe then he'll kiss me without apologizing.

In response, I took my fingers and lightly pushed him backwards, falling on top of him. Then, looking in to his dimly lit eyes, I breathed into his mouth, "stop worrying. If I don't like it, you'll know. Trust me. Okay?" I put up a big smile for him, hoping to charm him in to relaxing. It took a moment, but eventually I felt his body stiffness decrease as he smiled back. "Good Kirito-kun," I purred.

Leaning down to kiss him again, I felt a new wave of passion flow through him, feeling his lips open to greet mine. Not expecting it, my lips were greeted by the slightest hint of his tongue, wetting my skin. Gasping slightly, I nodded against him, making sure to show my approval before he shrunk back in to his shell of self-loathing again. I didn't mind the tongue either, in fact it excited me.

It felt like it was dancing against my lips, touching them lightly, then hiding away, sending my mind whirling. Kirito's hand now had drifted downwards, lightly running his fingers against my bare legs. "Aww, you can't have all the fun," I laughed between kisses. Slowly, I took my hands and traced them across his shirt's hem, then snuck them inside and upwards, scratching against his naked skin. This earned me something I didn't expect, a moan. Wow. He really likes that. Tracing his abs with my fingernails, sometimes soft and sometimes harder, I continued to kiss him, determined to continue my rampage. Opening my mouth lightly, I tested the waters of his lips with my tongue. Somehow, I was more scared of trying this than feeling under his shirt. Well, we only live once, I thought. Realizing my mindset, I reeled back mentally, I don't want to like, have sex or anything. I just, you know, want to try this. That's all. Why am I trying to convince myself? Ug.

Underneath me, Kirito broke our kiss and looked at me worried, "you okay Silica-chan? You seem uncomfortable with this. We can stop right now. We have been rushing it quite a bit…" Oh no, he's getting doubtful again.

I quickly shook my head and responded, "it's nothing. Just, amazed. This is all new to me. It's a lot to take in at once. I do want to try one thing though, before we stop." He worries didn't appear gone but he nodded anyway, then closed his eyes and waited patiently. Sliding my tongue out a bit, I traced his lips with it, and then pushed, meeting teeth. Before I could worry about his own comfort, I felt his mouth relax and his teeth separate, granting me entrance. Gladly, I sought out his tongue with mine, met it, and played. I would push it around, reel back for it to find me, and at points simply ignore it to explore the rest of his mouth. I didn't really know how to describe the taste. I figured it didn't matter anyway, it was all virtual in the end. All I knew is that I liked it.

During the kiss, I felt Kirito continue to stroke the back of my thighs. Slowly, as we had deepened the kiss, I felt either his confidence or his passion grow, I wasn't sure which it was, until I felt his fingers brush the bottom of my underwear, close to my backside. I froze at this, mouth still connected to his and tongue being teased by his teeth. I couldn't do that. Not with someone I just met. I mean, I wanted to at some point, but not yet.

Feeling my sudden halt, Kirito too stopped all movement, except his hands, which he dropped immediately. Catching his breath for a second, he grabbed my waist and picked me up, sitting up, and placed me beside him, not even our legs touching. Refusing to look at me, he covered his eyes with his palm, fingers stretching to his temples. "I, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to… I didn't even realize that… I… I should go," he finished, standing up and fixing his shirt.

"Bu… but… Kirito-kun." What have I done. I just should have said something. Or laid ground rules beforehand. No, Silica has to try to be a grownup and tell him to just go for it when I barely know what It is. I'm such an idiot. Hearing him walk towards the door, I buried my face in my hands and felt my tears return, seeming to haunt me throughout this night. I listened as the handle was turned on the door, then released, footsteps coming back towards me.

Ripping my hands away, Kirito looked at me deeply and kissed me firmly, shocking me and interrupting my tear-flow. "I'll stay, okay? Just no more 'adventuring' tonight, okay?" I nodded and sniffed, trying my best to bring back my smile. Moving over, I laid down next to the wall, leaving Kirito room on the side facing the rest of the room. Slipping underneath the covers, I turned away from him, cowering from facing my earlier stupidity.

Feeling the bed shift beside me, I pulled the blanket over me more, covering my shoulders.

Behind me, I felt Kirito shifting to get comfortable. I closed my eyes. He's with me, I can find solace in that. I was wrong though, I soon found out, as an arm slipped over my waist and firmly pushed against my stomach, pulling me closer to him. I was met with a large wall of Kirito, his body encompassing my own, chest to back, legs to legs, and head kissing my neck lightly. Relaxing more, I leaned in to him, almost as happy as I had been kissing him. I smiled at the memory, as recent as it had been.

"This is okay, right Silica-chan? I mean, I could give you your space if you prefer…" Always worried about me. Silly. Though after what just happened, I can't blame him.

I turned my head and kissed him, letting my lips linger, wanting to return to our previous activities. "Just hold me and rest." Laying my head down, I felt his face nestle into my neck and his breath soft on my shoulder, content.

Holy shit that was long. I guess that makes up for me taking so long to update. I kinda did a bit of role reversal in the middle and if you think it, or anything else, was too OOC or you just didn't like it, I apologize. I hope you did though. Anyway, would love reviews, even to tell me that I just ruined the chaste and innocent romance they were having. Btw- I've never written a scene like that before, sex or otherwise. Howd I do?