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Chapter 4

Possible

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The sunset has never looked so beautiful in the sky as Jax leaves Tara's home. Jax realizes he is leaving his family behind. He does find comfort knowing anything is possible because Tara and Abel are reunited. If only he didn't have to leave. He feels so torn and angry; angry for having to go to jail, torn because he wants to stay with his family. Driving in his truck, Jax has just reached the end of Tara's street when his burner rings. Answering the phone he hears, "Jax," "Yeah, Tara, I'm here." "Jax, I have a lot to tell you. I wish I could talk to you in person but the phone will have to suffice." That's all Jax needs to hear to quickly turn back to Tara's home. While on route, Jax asks, "What do you want to tell me Tara?" "I have to begin by thanking you for giving me Abel. I never thought you would let me be with Abel outside of Charming. I am so sorry Jax...wait there is someone at my door." "I'll just wait, go answer the door, babe."

As I open my front door, Jax is standing there holding his cell phone to his ear. I am so surprised. "I thought you had to get back to Charming." Smiling his perfect smirk, "You did say you wanted to speak to me in person, right Tara?" With tears in my eyes, all I can say, "Oh, Jax." Tara hugs him tightly. "Come in Jax and sit down with me." Tara leads Jax to the couch, holding his hand. He can tell she is nervous. "Jax, I realized after everything you said tonight that it is important for me to tell you how I have felt, and how I feel now."

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"Before I begin, you need to know that pregnancy hormones are a bitch to control." "I get that babe, making you feel super sensitive and emotional." I can't help but smile now, Jax is being sweet and understanding. "Yes, Jax, but sometimes these hormones make me feel crazy and out of control." "It's okay, babe."

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"Do you remember the day you broke up with me?"

Jax, thinking to himself, if she only knew that was the hardest thing I have ever done. The pain of saying goodbye to the only woman I have ever loved is a memory I will never forget.

Jax responds, "Tara, of course I remember, but why does that matter now?" "It matters because, after you said that you were done with me I just couldn't believe it. I couldn't sleep that night. I felt like you were forcing yourself to end our relationship for my own good." Jax has to say, "It was for your own good at that time." Tara nods in agreement, but she still needs to explain, "We've loved each other for so long. After being gone from you for over ten years, our love still survived. I just couldn't believe we were really done. I guess you could accuse me of being delusional. I do blame my hormones for that craziness."

"It was five am and I just had to see you before you left for Ireland. I knew you were distraught and frightened about Abel. I wanted to support your efforts in finding Abel. I wanted to be strong and let you know how much I loved you and Abel. I didn't know if I would tell you I was pregnant."

"When I walked in on you and Ima, I felt like a fool. How stupid was I to think you still cared?" Jax interrupts, "No babe, you don't have to relive that horrible time." "Yes, Jax, I do, please let me finish." Jax says, "I will let you finish. But I have to say the look of shock on Ima, after you literally spit in her face, was priceless." Tara laughs as she says, "I felt like she deserved it. After I finally made it to the bathroom and finished being sick. I felt ashamed and I just wanted to disappear." "Babe, please stop torturing yourself it's over, I only love you." "No, Jax, I need you to understand why I brushed past you when you were checking on me in the bathroom." Jax remembers, "Yeah, you were in there for thirty minutes. I called out to you, but, when I got no response, I was worried." "I know Jax. As soon as you opened the bathroom door I started running out of there. But I stopped half way through the room. I decided it was time to stop running and be responsible for the sake of my child. I told you I was pregnant out of anger for not loving us. My point is, Jax, I really believed, at the time, you hated me. You had been so cold and mean towards me for weeks. You even told me I was not your family. You didn't break the deal breaker Jax. We were not together when you fucked Ima. I felt like you probably broke up with me to be with Ima. My insecurities were ripped open." "Tara, no babe, Ima was just a disposable receptacle for me to use." Tara nods her head in agreement. "I never stopped loving you Jax. The power of my love for you is a never ending feeling of happiness, joy, regret, and sadness." Jax's heart is filled with love. His mind is filled with relief. "Come to me, babe. Let me prove my never ending love for you."

After two hours of the most thrilling sex imaginable, Jax and Tara fall asleep in each other's arms. Two hours later, Abel is awake and crying. Jax says, "There's our little man, the master of perfect timing." Tara jumps out of bed to care for Abel. She can hardly wait to hold him in her arms. When Abel sees Tara, his face lights up and he reaches out to her. "Momma, he says." Tara's tears of joy are flowing as she picks him up and he snuggles into her arms. Jax is fascinated watching his son respond to Tara's care. She is Abel's mother. Jax realizes, sadly, he has to leave soon. "Babe, I have to get back to Charming." "I know baby, I just wish we had more time." Embracing Tara with Abel in her arms, Jax feels like his whole world is finally coming back together. He has his family and wants to stay here forever. Jax knows, "I do have several important issues to discuss before I leave." "Okay, Jax, you want to talk now?" Jax, feeling confident, says, "Now is our only choice, babe." "Okay, let me get Abel's bottle first."

Once Tara starts to feed Abel, Jax continues. "Tara, I want you to promise to call Opie or Chibs if you need help." "Jax, are you worried about our safety?" "I am only worried because I can't be here to protect you." Tara knows he is always her protector. "I promise to be careful. Jax, can we come to visit you in jail?" Jax thinks that is his biggest worry. "Tara, I don't want any of the club's enemies to know who you are or where you live. I will call you whenever I can. I expect daily letters, without return addresses and lots of pictures. I just don't want to risk your safety by your visiting me in jail." Tara knows he is right, it's just so hard to accept. "I will miss you so much Jax. Just don't forget us or how much we love you." Jax stares directly into her eyes, "I can assure you I will never forget how much I love you and Abel. You will always Own Your Place in my heart and soul."

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Watching Tara feed our son, Jax can't help thinking that Abel's bond to Tara is as strong as his own...once Tara grabs your heart...you never want to let her go. I thought I lost her and my life was dark. Now that she is mine again, my life is bright with a promise of a better future. My resolve is strengthened. I will survive in jail. I will marry Tara. I just hope I can leave SAMCRO behind me.

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