February 2007
Pam couldn't honestly believe how amazing she felt at that exact moment. Laying beneath Ryan, her back began to arch and the most overwhelming orgasm took over. Her mouth opening, she cried out before digging her nails into his bag and letting her eyes roll back into her head. Ryan's weight pressed her down against the mattress before lifting his head and smiling down at her. Pam was completely losing control, the orgasm didn't seem to ever want to stop as she sunk herself down against the sheets and felt him move against her causing her to scream out in complete and utter pleasure. Ryan dully thrusted into her before slowing. Pam opened her eyes and stared up at him and was completely terrified at what she saw.
Ryan and her had sex earlier that evening, it was a spur of the moment thing that resulted in them stumbling backwards into her bedroom kissing like complete mad men. Pam just wanted to forget all her worries and Ryan just happened to be there. She forgot herself and within minutes they were undressed and becoming frantic as they fell back on her unmade bed.
Now that everything had a chance to set in, and Pam truly now knew what she was doing, she was allowing herself to truly see what was happening. Ryan was her co-worker, he had started off as a temp now had taken Jim's position and sat just a few feet away. Ryan had been working with her for only a little over three year and she still barley knew nothing about him. He was just a cute guy who sadly happened to become involved with Kelly. Ever since Jim had left and Ryan had taken his spot, she couldn't help but keep looking up, still finding herself surprised that her friend was no longer there. Her friend who had put everything on the line and had gotten rejected. The friend who for a while she had honestly begun to wonder if she had made the biggest mistake of her entire life. But with time, everything healed. Pam was now at a very strange point in her life…and Ryan just happened to be there.
He had been amazing in bed, Pam couldn't lie about that. Having only been with six men in her life, Ryan had a nice change of pace. Ryan was exciting, and almost as overwhelmed as she was. Now as she laid underneath him, beginning to have yet another orgasm, something she never honestly truly experienced with Roy…she saw he was a lot like her. Both were confused and kind of stuck in each other's lives. They needed something to distract them, and this was it.
Pam laid there, her legs slowly wrapping around Ryan's body before his hands went over and began to softly cup her breasts. Laying there, she allowed him to kiss her throat before entering her and making her hips move before slowing again. Their bodies moved again, rubbing together before she began to bit down on her bottom lip.
Staring up at him, she caught his beautiful blue eyes and finally got the chance to look at him up close.
He was perfect.
His lips were full, and continued to kiss her skin as he moved inside of her.
His skin was flawless and creamy colored, his hair hanging slightly in his face, a beautiful mix between dark brown and jet black. And finally those eyes…
The sensation of feeling as if there were pins and needles began to settle upon her. Opening her mouth she gasped before she clung onto him for dear life. Ryan kissed her tenderly before thrusting once, twice, and stiffening.
Pam couldn't believe they were going to come together, holding onto him she reached up and gently cupped the sides of his face. She wanted to look at him. At that exact moment she felt her body arch as she uttered a soft cry. Ryan stared down at her before snapping his eyes shut and moaning loudly.
She felt him finish, and it was one of the most amazing feelings in the entire world.
Ryan collapsed on top of her, trying his hardest to catch his breath as he laid down, resting his head on her breasts. Pam laid underneath him, her legs open on each side of him and feeling as if it was a million degrees in her bedroom. Her hair plastered against her pillow, she took a second before laughing. Ryan lifted his head and looked at her.
"What is it?"
Pam couldn't help her giggles, for the second time in less than an hour she had slept with her co-worker who she barely knew. Her life was one big mess, and here she was, laying there in her bedroom with him still inside of her. Smiling, she laid her head back.
"I feel for the first time ever…happy."
Ryan grinned at this before leaning over and kissing her lips.
"Weird isn't it?"
Pam smiled before kissing back.
"Wanna do it again?"
Ryan looked at her as if she were crazy.
Present
Pam nervously drove while Ryan sat in the passenger seat holding Teagan and gently stroking his hair. Glancing over, Pam saw Ryan holding the baby who had fallen asleep in his arms. Sighing, she shook her head.
"You can't talk to people like that Ryan, those are good people who have been looking after Teagan."
Ryan glared at her.
"Good people? Their idiots."
"Don't you think that's a little harsh?"
"Not when it comes to my son."
"You shouldn't have yelled though…their women, nice women who have been helpful to me. Teagan wasn't hurt, he's fine…you need to start learning that kids get hurt, it's part of being one. He isn't made out of glass."
"He's a baby Pam. Jesus…"
Pam looked over.
"Ryan, nothing is going to happen to him…you need to stop."
Ryan sighed deeply before kissing the top of Teagan's head. The baby stirred for a second before going back to sleep.
"I want you to go back to New York."
"What?"
Ryan nodded.
"Enough is enough, all this traveling back and forth is getting out of hand. I'll talk to David Wallace and I'll try to cut down my time here. Maybe Michael can stop being a complete jackass and I can stick around the city more."
"Ryan you don't have to…"
"No, we'll find a better daycare for Teagan and I'll stay home with you more often…"
"Ryan, I knew what I was getting into the second you asked me to marry you. I like our life, you shouldn't have to change it."
"You're my wife Pam, and Teagan's our baby…I promised you I would do anything to make this work, and right now this isn't working."
"Ryan, accidents happen. How are you going to feel when he goes off to school? Goes and gets his license, is off partying at college?"
Ryan stared at Pam a little annoyed.
"Pam, Teagan is special…he's our son and I think it's my job to worry about him."
"But you have so much stress in your life all ready. This has been so much lately, the last year seems like a complete blur, between Teagan being born, the promotion, the move…I just don't want you to regret us."
"I never would."
"I know that, and I know how hard you worked for this…it's just, this has been so much…"
"Pam, once you and Teagan are finally settled in the city for good think what you can do? We can afford for you to finally go to that art school you've been looking at."
Pam sighed; she knew that deep down Ryan honestly just wanted her to be happy. She knew he loved her with all his heart and she understood that trying to keep everything afloat and work while juggling this crazy lifestyle had become his number one goal. Pam couldn't believe how lucky she was, yet felt as if things honestly had moved far too fast for her. Scranton had been her home for so long, so hadn't Dunder Mifflin. Now the thought of honestly leaving it all behind scared her.
"That sounds great, but is that really where you want to raise Teagan?"
"Pam, like I said before, New York is one of the best places in the world to raise a child. We can send him to the best schools, have him enrolled in that private Elwood place I've been looking at, have him grow up with sense of culture. Trust me he isn't going to get it here in Scranton where Dwight's farm is only a few miles away."
Pam smirked, still thinking.
"What if David Wallace won't let you stay mainly in New York."
"He will, I'll work something out. Like I said, the Scranton branch is either going to sink or swim. My job is in the city, where you guys are, besides we can always visit our parents whenever we want…I just think it's time to move on."
Just then Teagan opened his big blue eyes, reaching out he put his arms around Ryan's neck and laid his head on his chest, a tiny bit of drool coming off into Ryan's silk tie. Pam glanced over and smiled. She really honestly just wanted to do what was best for the baby, but at this exact moment she wasn't sure about anything.
"When will you talk to David?"
"This weekend when we go back, just another day in this hell hole and then I'll start to figure stuff out."
"Can I come to the office with you tomorrow?"
"Pam…"
"Please, I'll bring the baby for a few hours. I know this might sound crazy but those people are my friends. If I won't really see them anymore I want to at least say goodbye."
"Nothing is set in stone, and it's not goodbye forever. I don't want those morons thinking the reason you're not coming around is because of some shitty daycare. It's going to be our choice. You're doing something most of them never will have the guts to do…and that's to move on and start living your life."
Pam glanced over.
"Ryan, if we're going to do this I want you with me, you're my husband and I love you. I don't want to do this alone."
Ryan reached over and gently began to rub her earlobe.
"I promise you Pam, you'll never be alone."
Smiling, Pam silently nodded and continued driving. She just wanted to get to her parent's house and give Teagan a bath. She was exhausted and needed time to think. Maybe Ryan was right…maybe she was stalling and refusing to truly let go of her past.
February 2007
Pam woke up a little after nine by the feeling of an arm laying across her chest. Taking a second and blinking the sleep out of her eyes, she stared up at her ceiling as sunlight poured in through her curtains. For a brief moment she honestly didn't know where she was until she glanced over and saw Ryan laying beside her. Reality setting in, a million feelings and emotions came crashing down around her as she stared at him.
He was laying beside her, his eyes open and smiling, one arm draped across her chest.
She had slept with Ryan.
Her thoughts went back to last night and suddenly her stomach twisted in knots. She usually wasn't like this, now laying beside her was her co-worker who she barely knew, nor expected to ever find in this position.
"Hi."
He said in a dry voice.
Pam blushed.
"Hi…"
"Sorry to have been creeping."
"Huh?"
"I was watching you sleep, you're really beautiful when you're like that."
Pam couldn't believe such words were coming from his mouth. For a split second she remembered hearing Jim tell her last year that Ryan was just a young guy looking for fun, that's the whole reason Kelly and himself had been a train wreck from the start. Laying there she really hoped he wasn't feeding her lines.
"Is that what you say to all the girls?"
Ryan smiled.
"Only the pretty ones."
Pam laughed before looking over at her alarm clock, smiling she rubbed her face a little embarrassed. Ryan watched her amused before gently squeezing one of her breasts and cupping it with his hand. Raising an eyebrow, Pam slid her hand off her face and looked down at herself.
"Just what do you think you're doing?"
Ryan smiled before leaning over and kissing her lips.
Laughing through the kiss, Pam playfully tugged on his dark hair. Rolling closer, his nose tickled hers before he began slowly and passionately began to kiss her. Their mouths opening and closing, Pam felt herself get dizzy before she felt something brush up against her thigh. Smiling, she looked at him.
"What's that?"
A little color came to Ryan's face as he kissed her again, this time his hands holding onto her as his tongue slipped in and teased her. Once the kiss broke he pulled back and laughed.
"Wanna do it again?"
Pam quickly nodded, feeling like a little kid. Right away Ryan deeply kissed her before slowly disappearing underneath the sheet. Pam, feeling a little embarrassed was about to say something when she gasped. Taking a second, she gripped the pillow and tried to focus on breathing. Suddenly her eyes snapped shut and she tried her hardest to just breath…
Later…
Pam was sitting up against the headboard, her arms over her head as Ryan knelt in-between her legs. Holding onto her sides, he thrusted away, causing the entire bed to creak. Pam arched her back, panting as he drove himself into her over and over again in a steady rhythm. His face flushed, he grabbed her hair and kissed her as he pumped away, making Pam shiver all over. Suddenly Ryan looked in her eyes and began to tease her as his thrusts were more drawn out and far apart. Pam felt herself getting close and dug her nails into his shoulders.
"Ryan, don't stop…don't…"
She gasped, suddenly everything tightened as she clutched onto him and began to cry out as loud as she could. Her eyes rolling back she let herself orgasm as he continued to go into her. A few minutes later, Pam had settled down and watched him as he gritted his teeth and thrusted twice more before roughly climaxing. Nearly collapsing against her chest, the two were covered in sweat, gasping for air. A minute or so passed before Pam looked down at Ryan and smiled. Softly she began to kiss his shoulder blades. Looking up, Ryan seemed exhausted.
Pam smiled.
"Come on again."
Ryan looked at her as if she was crazy.
"Pam, we've been doing this for hours, it's twelve thirty…I'm complete drained out. I don't have any fluids in me."
Pam laughed before slithering out of her arms and laying beside him. Both smiled before Pam gently began to kiss up and down his arms. Playfully, Pam bit Ryan's arm making him laugh.
"Hey!"
Pam nuzzled his chest.
"I'm sorry, just something about you I just want to eat up."
Ryan laughed, running a hand through his hair.
"Say…speaking of eating something up, want to go to breakfast with me?"
Pam laid beside him thinking before coyly smiling.
"All right, but a shower first."
Kissing his lips, Pam slid out of bed and stood up completely naked, her beautiful red hair falling to her shoulders. Smiling, she walked across her bedroom to the bathroom door before turning.
"Coming?"
Ryan laughed.
Later…
Pam and Ryan found themselves an hour later sitting in a back booth at a waffle house. It was late afternoon and barley anyone was there. Pam couldn't believe how hungry she was and inhaled her stack of mouth watering pancakes.
Ryan sat across from her eating and talking. The ride over had been nice, Ryan offered to drive and kept laughing at how weird Pam's car felt when he drove it. Pam, freshly dressed and her hair tied up in a bun kept laughing as she mocked sung along to some horrible 80's music making Ryan laugh to hard he nearly missed a stop sign.
Pam couldn't believe how comfortable she felt. She spent all of last night and a good portion of the morning having the best sex of her entire life. Now here she was sitting across from the guy who everyone nicked the temp and sat just a few feet away from her. Smiling, she noticed how nice he looked out of the office element. Dressed in his black slacks and white button up shirt from the day before, his jacket laid beside him. His hair was messy, but looked cute as he had attempted to pat it down after their shower adventure. His eyes were alert and bright, and Pam couldn't stop smiling at how full and perfect his lips were.
Both had laughed before going in on the hickeys and bite marks they had on each other's necks. Joking about feeling like a couple of teenagers before they went in. Pam couldn't help but smile when the waitress was taking them to their table, Ryan held her hand.
Now the two of them were laughing and joking about how horrible Michael had acted at the wedding the night before.
"So, how are we going to explain these tomorrow at work?"
Ryan said pointing to Pam's neck. Smiling, Pam shrugged before drinking her orange juice.
"I have great cover up, or a turtle neck."
Ryan grinned.
"I'm sure somebody saw us leave together."
"Maybe…"
"What if they did."
Pam shrugged.
"I tell them I drove you home."
Ryan nodded.
"Well…just saying, what if people begin to notice."
"Notice what?"
"How making of a couple we would make."
Pam laughed, a little confused.
"Couple?"
Ryan looked at her, right away his smile disappearing.
"Well I don't know, I mean last night was fun…trust me I needed it, but…maybe if you were interested, I don't know…maybe I could take you out to dinner tomorrow night?"
"Like a date?"
"Yeah."
"A date…a real date?"
"Yeah, could be a lot of fun."
"What about Kelly?"
Ryan rolled his eyes and shrugged.
"I'm done with that, she'll just have to understand. She wasn't what I wanted."
"And what do you want?"
Ryan nervously laughed.
"I don't know, someone who I like to be around. Someone fun, like you."
"So…wait, are you asking me out on a date?"
Ryan laughed.
"Yes, yes I am."
"Really?"
"Well yeah, it isn't a horrible idea…I mean I could see it working."
"What us going out?"
"Yeah, dating…we both like each other…"
Pam bit down on her bottom lip before playing with her fork.
"Um, I got the vibe you were just looking to have fun."
"Were you?"
"I don't know, things have been crazy lately. Last night was amazing but…I don't know, ever since I called things off with Roy…I'm not really looking for a relationship."
Ryan's face dropped before he stared down at his coffee.
"Oh…"
"I mean nothing against you. We can still go out, I mean you're awesome Ryan and I'm really glad I finally got to know that, I just don't really want to see anybody right now."
Ryan sat there in silence for a minute before lifting his eyes up.
"Hey, listen I need to get back and feed my dog…"
Ryan grabbed his wallet before Pam shook her head.
"No Ryan I got it…."
Ryan shook his head putting down the money.
"No, its fine…listen I don't live that far and I need some fresh air…I'm going to walk."
Ryan grabbed his jacket and began sliding out of the booth.
"Really?"
Ryan stood up.
"I'll see you tomorrow…"
"Ryan wait…"
Ryan ignored her, turning he quickly walked out leaving Pam sitting there alone and puzzled. Looking at her glass, Pam deeply sighed before shaking her head.
"Why am I such an idiot?"
Sighing, she looked out the window and wondered how things were going to be tomorrow…
Present
Pam and Ryan laid in Pam's old bed upstairs at her parent's house. Downstairs her parents were watching Teagan, who had drifted off after Pam fed him his dinner. Ryan had jumped in the shower, while Pam sat downstairs in the kitchen having coffee with her mother while Teagan laid in his car seat, chewing on his plastic foam rings.
Pam told her mother what Ryan wanted to do. Her mom asked her how she felt about it and Pam shrugged.
"I love him mom, so I guess maybe this won't be so bad after all. It's time to move on finally I guess…"
Smiling, her mom patted her shoulder before motioning to Teagan who wiggled his tiny feet.
"I'm sure whatever you decide, it will work out honey, trust me."
Later, Pam went upstairs after her mother insisted that she would watch the baby tonight so Ryan and her could get some sleep. The whole daycare thing had been brought up during dinner and Pam's father agreed completely with Ryan over how horrible those places were and they should sue them. Having heard enough of that, Pam looked forward to just relaxing and forgetting how horrible today was.
When she came into her bedroom Ryan was in basketball shorts and a black T-shirt. His hair was wet, and a towel was thrown over his shoulder. He was standing at the edge of the bed, digging through his suitcase for his contact stuff.
Pam shut the door behind her and smiled.
Her old bedroom had been slowly begun being turned into her mother's arts and crafts room. Boxes of her supplies was stacked up, along with things Pam never bothered to really store away. Framed on the wall were a few of Pam's paintings from high school, which now looking at, Pam remembered how badly she missed art.
"Hey you."
Ryan looked up.
"Hey, where's the baby?"
"My mom is going to watch him tonight."
"Is he okay?"
"Yeah, he's fine…how are you doing?"
Ryan sighed.
"Well, it was a stressful day to say the least, and tomorrow I need to go back to that nightmare and deal with Michael again."
Pam smiled.
"Shouldn't be too much longer, besides I'll be here with Teagan, we make you feel better right?
Ryan smiled before nodding.
"Right…listen I'm sorry again for today, just the second I got that call my heart went into my throat, I thought something had happened."
"I know, it's okay now though."
"Yeah…"
Pam walked over before sitting on the bed and looking up at him.
"I think trying to stay in the city more is going to be good for us."
Ryan raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah, you think?"
Pam nodded.
"Yeah…I mean, Scranton really has been a nightmare, it's time to finally move on. Besides I want you around more…not Michael."
Smiling, Ryan winked at her.
Later…
Pam and Ryan laid there in her bed with the lights off watching late night TV. Ryan's arm was around Pam as she slowly began to doze off laying against his chest.
"Ryan?"
"Yeah?"
"You haven't been having those nightmares again have you?"
There was silence for a little while before Ryan gently kissed the top of her head.
"No…of course not."
Pam laid there, wondering if he was telling the truth.