It had been two days since Jay came over to Dot's, declaring his 'undying' love to Abi. Even if what Jay was saying to her was true, Abi refused to go back there. She didn't want to spend a period of time with someone and committing herself to them to find that she would be dropped as soon as things got a bit tough. Her mother had always said that Jay wasn't really good enough for her and maybe, she was right all along. Abi considered herself to be a hardworking and independent woman, who intends to do well in life and not to be dragged down by people who are not worth her time. Those people included Jay, Lola and especially Ben. She fell into their trap and allowed them to walk all over her freely. Well not anymore, she thought as she pursued her lips after painting her lips scarlet red.

Abi decided that this was a new start for her. She was done with Ben, Jay and Lola and she was determined to move on with her life. Maybe she would find herself a new life in New Zealand. She had her whole life to meet her prince charming and it didn't just stop at Ben and Jay. Abi was stubborn and didn't want to admit it to anyone but she did still love Jay. If she was honest, she realised that she still was in love with him a couple of months ago. Even though she convinced herself that she was in a happy relationship with Ben, she was getting quite close to Jay again. Like, when they bumped into each other after a day's work, they would occasionally go and grab some chips before walking back home together. She just couldn't admit to anyone the strong feelings that she had for Jay. However, she believed that those feelings would fade away in time. She believed that she would meet the right one one day, someone really special, someone who would actually want her and be just as in love with her as she would be with them.

Abi smiled timidly to her reflection in the mirror as she took a step back and observed herself. Her blonde hair was straight and she was wearing a black lace long sleeved dress which went down to her knees along with black tights and black leather knee high boots. To finish it off, she was wearing a grey gillet. Tonight, she was meeting up with her friend Holly in the Vic. She hadn't seen her in a while so thought it would be nice to catch up and see her again before she jetted off to New Zealand, not knowing when she was going to return.

Abi grabbed her silver clutch and darted out of her bedroom, turning off her bedroom light in the process. She made her way down the stairs and into the living room to the sight of Dot and Fatboy who were sitting on the sofa watching the TV.

"Grandma, I'm off now," Abi announced.

Dot and Fatboy spun their heads round to face the young blonde. Fatboy stood up and faced her.

"Where are you off to dressed up like a queen?" Fatboy teased, "You going on a hot date, eh?"

"No, I'm just meeting up with a school friend," Abi giggled as she tucked a strand of her blonde hair behind her ear as she felt her cheeks start to heat up a little. "I'm meeting her in the Vic," she added.

"Oh well I might as well tag along with you if you don't mind," Fatboy wondered as he grabbed his mobile phone from the coffee table. "Tamwar's probably there!"

"Yeah, that's fine," Abi replied.

"That's it Arthur, make sure Abi's safe, I don't want her on her own, it's dark out there," Dot added, concerned.

"Don't worry Mrs B, I'll take good care of her!" Fatboy reassured, "See you later!"

Abi said her goodbyes before her and Fatboy left the house and headed over to the Vic.

It was tense in the Mitchell household. Ben was sitting on the sofa with his elbow resting on the arm of the sofa and biting his nails. His legs were crossed. Behind his specs, his eyes looked narrow and focused on the television in concentration. Jay, however, his legs were swung over the armchair as he slouched comfortably on the armchair as he did nothing but focus on the television.

It hadn't been the same since Ben found out that Jay slept with Abi the night that him and Abi broke up, to be honest, Jay didn't want things to be the same. He was done with the Mitchells. When push came to shove, Jay would go like he was nothing. Ben always complained how Jay was the son that Phil never had, but deep down, Jay couldn't beat Ben, no way. Phil would do anything for Ben in a heartbeat and he would do whatever it took to ensure that his son, his flesh and blood was safe and happy- even if it involved pulling Jay down.

Jay felt disgusted with Ben's behaviour. For months on end, Ben was going behind Abi's back and running off to Paul. It felt like he had used Abi just to hide his true sexuality, to convince his father that he was straight when Jay knew that he weren't, Ben's mum Kathy had only been back five minutes and she even knew. Abi used to be such a clever girl (she still is!) and Jay thought that she wouldn't be so silly to go out with an old friend who she knew full well was gay. Sexuality didn't just change and switch off like a tap. Maybe it was his fault, maybe he hurt her so much when he left that she clung onto the only thing that she felt was closest to her so she wouldn't be alone. Sadly, that person happened to be Ben.

He didn't necessarily feel guilty about sleeping with Abi either. Despite what Abi apparently now thinks of their night of passion in the Arches, he enjoyed it. He didn't care how things were with Ben now, he was fed up of being there for him and being forced to stick by his side. It made Jay's blood boil how Ben was raging and saying how hurt he was that Abi slept with him when for months he was doing the dirty with Paul behind his back.

This was it. He was done with the Mitchells. He was always second best. If they ditched him, he didn't care, not anymore.

"Come on you two," Phil's rusty voice echoed throughout the living room as him and Sharon entered. "I'm fed up of seeing the pair of you moping around. We're going for a drink at the Vic."

"I don't think that's a good idea dad," Ben stammered, feeling concerned for his father's drinking.

"Why not?" Phil began to raise his voice, "I just want to have a drink with my family, what's wrong with that?!" He demanded.

"It's alright Ben," Sharon reassured as she rubbed up and down Phil's shoulder soothingly. "It's all under control. It will be nice to get out of the house for a bit."

"And what about Denny?" Jay frowned.

"He's round Ian and Jane's," Sharon confirmed. "Now come on, get a move on. We're leaving in 5!"

"I still can't believe that you're moving to New Zealand," Holly whined as her and Abi sat in the comfy seats which were situated in the corner of the Vic with their drinks in their hands. "We've been friends for ages, it feels weird that you're moving away." She frowned as she used her straw to slowly stir her drink as she looked up at Abi sadly.

"I'm not moving away," Abi chuckled. "I'll just be staying in New Zealand for a while with Lauren and Peter."

"Well you don't know how long you'll be away for or when you'll be back," Holly argued. "So that's practically moving away!"

Abi laughed as she looked at her old friend. Holly had long brunette hair which rested neatly on her shoulders. She had big hazel green eyes and she had a golden earring hooked onto her nose. She had a good helping of eye mascara and her eyeliner was accurate which ended in a stylish flick and to finish off the look, she was wearing red lipstick. Holly was wearing a navy blue floral tunic dress with black Chelsea boots.

"Well I'll be back before you know it," Abi ensured, with an eye roll.

"So anyway, you and Ben, how are you bearing up?" Holly wondered, biting her lip gently due to the delicate subject that she had just brought up.

"You know what," Abi raised her eyebrow whilst grinning. "I'm absolutely fine!"

"Blimey Abs, how much have you had?" Holly giggled.

"I'm not drunk," Abi scoffed. "I'm serious- I'm fine about my breakup with Ben. I'm upset that he did this to me as we were such good friends before we started dating. Maybe I shouldn't have dated him. I should have known to be honest. Oh well, life goes on!"

"Wow," Holly smirked. "I must say, you are taking this much better than you did when you broke up with Jay."

"Yeah…" Abi dragged out the word awkwardly as she tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, hoping that her cheeks wouldn't suddenly start to burn up.

Just at that moment, the doors to the Queen Vic swung open and without hesitation, the Mitchells came bowling in- Phil Mitchell in front with Ben, Jay and Sharon dragging behind him. They stood at the bar and ordered their drinks and Abi swallowed some salvia as she watched them.

"Hey Abs, would you like to go somewhere else?" Holly suggested, softly.

"No it's alright," Abi smiled confidentially at her friend. "I can't hide away forever and I have nothing to hide or be ashamed of!"

"Too right," Holly smirked. She would admit, a couple of years ago, Holly did worry for Abi as she felt that she let people walk all over her and treat her like rubbish. Holly felt concerned for her friend back then, but now, she felt that she didn't need to worry. For some reason, Abi was a stronger person and wasn't afraid to speak her mind.

Abi turned her head when she noticed that the Mitchells were walking over to a nearby table. Jay clocked her from the corner of his eye and gave her a sweet smile. However, Abi just maintained a blank expression and turned back to Holly, stealing the odd glances of Jay during the process. When Abi was fully looking back at Holly, Holly was smirking at her.

"Something's happened between you and Jay," Holly licked her lips.

"What?" Abi laughed awkwardly. "No of course not, what on earth makes you think that?" She sipped her drink.

"Come on," Holly pleaded. "I saw the way you two looked at each other just then. You didn't look at each other like that when you were with Ben, so something must have happened. So come on, spill."

"Alright," Abi sighed. "But you must not say a word."

"I won't say anything I promise," she answered excitedly.

Abi sighed exasperatedly, "Alright, well, when I walked in on Ben and…Paul, Jay and I went for a drink and before the night ended, Jay and I…we slept together."

"You what!?" Holly exclaimed in surprise as she clasped her hands over her mouth. The Mitchells turned round to face their direction.

"Ssshh, keep it down," Abi hissed.

"How did it happen?" Holly wondered.

"Well you know, the manly parts enter the woman's parts," Abi mumbled, awkwardly.

"That's not what I mean," Holly rolled her eyes.

"We got slightly drunk and we went to the park. I started crying as the day's events had all built up and I just…I just remembered being with Jay in the park I guess and then we just started kissing, he said that there was no need to cry anymore. Then, it led us into the Arches and you know the rest…"

"Wow," Holly giggled. "So it wasn't in a bed…"

"It was in the back of a customer's car," Abi simply said.

Holly burst out laughing, "Abigail Branning, you saucy mare!" She let out a breath, "So have you and him spoken since then? What's happened? Please don't tell me that you two haven't talked, that's like the worst move especially with the history between the two of you!"

"Well he came round a couple of days ago and told me not to go to New Zealand. He also said that he loved me and wanted to be with me."

Holly gasped loudly, "Oh my god! What did you say?"

Abi shook her head sadly, "I couldn't. I...I said that I didn't love him back, I didn't feel the same way as he did. I couldn't go back Holly, not after everything that we went through, with Lola. How was I supposed to know that he wouldn't fall for another girl as soon as they flutter their eyelashes? How was I supposed to believe that I would be the only girl he would want? I couldn't put myself through that; I couldn't put myself through all that heartache, not again."

Holly sighed sadly as she gazed at her oldest friend. She knew how hurt Abi was when Jay ended things and she understood why she would feel this way. She was one of the people who comforted Abi when she suddenly burst into tears. She swore that if she ever saw Lola Pearce again, she would strangle her.

"You gonna get the next round in Jay?" Phil slurred as he gulped down the last of his scotch.

They had been in the Vic for an hour and a half and Phil was almost out of it- the beauty of being an alcoholic! Ben was eyeing his father up concerned for his wellbeing. Jay knew that Ben hated it when his dad drank; it was very hard to stick around when he was drinking and behaving so badly.

"Don't you think you've had enough darling?" Sharon wondered. "How about we go home, put our feet up and watch the telly?" She suggested eagerly, with a wide smile on her face.

Phil looked at his wife and took once glance at her before saying, "Boring!" in a slurred and dragged out tone. Sharon sighed sadly as she turned away, wishing that she could have her husband back and go back to the way things were.

"Same again?" Jay prompted as he rose off of the stool that he was sitting on. Phil, Sharon and Ben looked up at him and briefly nodded.

As Jay turned his back on the table, he could hear Phil bellow merrily, "That's the spirit!"

He sighed heavily as he strolled over to the bar and leant over it as he waited to be served. Stacey Branning and Martin Fowler suddenly entered the pub and stood beside him. Stacey let out an exasperated sigh as she rubbed her massive baby bump- she was due to give birth this month.

"Hey Stace, I noticed that you have a 'Sold' sign outside your old flat this morning," Jay mentioned briefly as he started to make conversation with the couple.

"Yeah, finally!" Stacey sighed with relief, "I think the couple are moving in tomorrow with their child." She turned to Martin as she supported the bottom of her back with one hand and rubbing her bump continuously and furiously with the other. "Oh Martin, I'm going to go and sit down," she announced exhaustedly. "My back is killing me!"

Just at that moment, without warning, Denise Fox entered the pub with a young man in his 20's following closely behind and wary of his surroundings. Jay frowned as he observed the scene closely- the bloke looked strangely familiar.

"Jordan!" Abi screeched. Jay's eyes immediately followed the sound of Abi's excited voice as he watched her race over to him with Holly following closely behind. Jay swallowed a lump in his throat as Abi wrapped her arms around Jordan's neck tightly as she embraced him in a hug. He heard Jordan chuckle as he watched him hold the one he loves close to him.

"Alright love, what can I get ya?" Linda asked happily as she stood in front of Jay from behind the bar and dragging him away from the sight of Jordan and Abi.

Abi was laughing happily as she continued to hug her oldest friend. The alcohol that she consumed was probably starting to get to her head a bit now. Eventually she pulled away. "Oh my god, what are you doing here?" Abi asked excitedly.

"Just a flying visit, y'know," Jordan responded. His eyes wandered up and down Abi's body, "You've changed since I last saw you."

"Well I've matured into a woman," Abi giggled. "I was a kid when you last saw me."

"You're actually Jordan from school!" Holly exclaimed in surprise. "I haven't seen you in yonks!"

"Yeah, that's me," Jordan confirmed, cheekily. Holly giggled as the two of them shared a quick hug. Jordan turned to Abi, "So, how have you been?"

"There you go," Linda put the drinks down on the bar in front of Jay.

"Cheers," Jay mumbled as he gave Linda the money before taking the ordered drinks back to his table, trying his hardest to drain the thought of Jordan and Abi together out of his head.

"That's all we need," Ben grumbled as he took a sip of his drink. "Jordan's back."

"Yeah guess so," Jay sighed as he sat back in his allocated seat and took a swig of his cloudy pint.

Phil concentrated on his son's expressions and rolled his eyes. Even though Phil despised Max Branning, he wanted Ben to have a woman, Abi Branning was good enough. He didn't really know what happened between the two of them but he just wanted things to be sorted. He wanted his son to have a woman on his arm, not exactly wanted, more like Phil needed Ben to have a woman on his arm. Phil wanted to keep the family name pure. He refused to let anyone go the wrong direction. He was scared for Ben to come out of the closest, announce that he's gay, and then be with a man. Who knew whether Ben would have had children? Even if he did, as far as Phil was concerned, the children wouldn't exactly be pure, the children wouldn't have come from a woman and a woman would not parent the child. Phil needed a woman to bear Ben children and he was determined for it to be Abi. Abi had been friends with Ben for years and she always seemed so willing in their relationship. He needed Ben to get back with Abi.

"For god sake son," Phil growled as he slammed his pint glass down. "You got one up on Jordan Johnson once, you can do it again."

"Phil!" Sharon exclaimed in disbelief.

"What? It's true, even if it involved whacking him over the head with a spanner!" Phil exclaimed.

Ben sighed, "What's the point? There's plenty more fish in the sea."

Phil leaned in closer to Ben. Ben got a waft of Phil's breath which reeked of alcohol. "Talk to her," Phil stated warningly.

Ben and Phil started to have a tense staring match with one another. Ben swallowed a lump in his throat as he watched him closely, watching as he made him feel timid and intimidated. Ben sighed heavily, "Fine!"

The sound of Ben's stool legs scraping across the floor was heard as he rose to his feet. He took a deep breath as he confidently walked over to where Jordan, Abi and Holly were gathered around deep in conversation.

Ben coughed behind them which made their heads turned.

"Ugh, what do you want?" Holly asked disgustedly as she rolled her eyes with her arms folded arrogantly across her chest.

"Abi," Ben said softly as he gazed at her, however Abi's eyes just stabbed daggers in his direction.

"What do you want Ben?" Abi demanded, "I have nothing to say to you."

"I just want to talk to you," Ben pleaded.

"Hold up, what's going on?" Jordan interrupted, trying his hardest not to smirk. "You two were joined to the hip five years ago."

"Yeah, well not anymore," Abi stated bitterly. "I want nothing to do with him."

"Oh yeah, why's that?" Jordan asked intriguingly, his eyes widening at his sudden interest.

"Why don't you mind your own business yeah?!" Ben commanded angrily.

"Erm, don't talk to him like that," Abi spat.

"Abi, please, just let me talk to you!" Ben begged, "I love you."

"You what?" Jordan smirked. He turned to Abi, "Did you two date?"

"Yeah," Abi said, feeling embarrassed.

"And I've come to get her back," Ben hissed.

"No chance," Holly scoffed. She glared at Ben, "Oh yeah sunshine, I've heard all about what happened. How you…"

"Holly, stop!" Abi commanded.

"What did he do?" Jordan raised his eyebrow.

"Why don't you just mind your own business Jordan?!" Ben bellowed, infuriatingly.

"Why? What you gonna do about it?" Jordan tormented, moving towards Ben.

Ben snarled, "Oh you really thought you were it back in the day didn't you. You were nothing but a bully you know that."

"Aw, are you going to cry?" Jordan whimpered. "Boo hoo! Don't worry Benny, I'm sure there's other girls out there, you know someone who will actually sink down to your level. Actually, to be honest, no one can really go down as low as you."

Ben was taking deep angry breaths and without thinking, his hand clenched into a fist and his arm swung right back before walloping Jordan straight across the jaw.

"Ben!" Jay and Abi shouted in unison with disbelief drawn across their faces. Jay quickly ran over to the scene.

"Well done son!" Phil laughed happily as he clapped his hands together loudly whilst coming over to the scene with Sharon following behind him and giving him a disapproving look.

"You never change do you eh, Jordan," Ben shouted angrily, going as red as a tomato in the face. He looked at Jordan closely as he watched him rub his jaw and staring darkly back at him.

"You're so going to regret what you just did," Jordan growled as he came back towards him but Ben just pushed him back. All that could be heard was the shrieking from Jay, Abi and Denise, telling them to stop fighting. Jay managed to pull Ben back and gripped hold of him tightly in order to prevent him from going back to Jordan.

"Maybe this was a bad idea," Denise said irritatedly as she pulled Jordan's arm to bring him closer to her. "Let's just go back to the house."

"You lot, out," Mick ordered, his index finger directing towards the pub doors and looking directly at the Mitchells.

"Don't argue, just go," Sharon said sternly as she led her family out of the pub.

"Hi Jay," Holly teased as Jay walked past them. At the corner of his eye, Jay noticed Abi try to hush her friend up. He turned back to face Abi to be presented with a small smile by herself. Jay couldn't help but return the smile before following after his so called family out of the pub.

"I guess I'm going now Abs," Jordan sighed sadly.

"Yeah sorry about Ben," Abi frowned.

"Don't worry about it," Jordan smiled genuinely. "How about you and I go for a drink sometime?" He suggested, "As friends."

"Yeah I'd like that," Abi smiled. "I'll see you later."

"See ya," Jordan smiled briefly before leaving the pub with Denise.

Abi sighed heavily as she turned to Holly, running her hand through her blonde locks, "I can't believe Ben!" She began to rant as she escorted herself back to the table with Holly walking beside her. "I mean, how dare he come over!? After everything he's done!"

Abi growled frustratedly as she sat back in her seat and took a large swig of her drink. Holly giggled as she sat down beside her friend.

"Don't worry about Ben, don't worry about Jordan, let's worry about Jay," Holly grinned as she took a swig of her drink.

Abi sighed, "Holly, I told you. I can't be with Jay. I just physically can't put myself through that again."

"Put yourself through what?" Holly raised her eyebrow.

"You know what!" Abi exclaimed, "Everything that happened between us, everything we built together and then he decides that that wasn't the life he really wanted and confesses that he likes Lola."

Holly rolled her eyes before looking at her good friend closely, "Fuck Lola, she's gone! This isn't about Lola. This is about you and Jay."

"There is no me and Jay," Abi rolled her eyes in annoyance.

"Just hear me out," Holly responded in a stern manner. "I'll tell you something right, Jay had not stopped looking at you the whole time he had been here."

"Yeah until the next girl who flutters her eyelashes comes along," Abi stated, with sarcasm dripping out of her vocals.

"Who says there's going to be another girl?!" Holly exclaimed. She reached for Abi's hand and gave it a squeeze, "It's okay to be scared you know hun. I've known you for years, I can tell that you still have strong feelings for him."

"I've never stopped," Abi admitted sadly. "Not really."

Holly smiled sympathetically, "It's not good to dwell on the past. Yes, you and Jay have been going your separate ways for over a year and your paths hadn't seemed to have crossed ever since then as you appeared to have moved on, but things do changed. Feelings do come back. It happens all the time like on TV shows, for example- Steve and Michelle from Corrie. They split up, went their separate ways, went with other people but they got back together somewhere, old feelings came back and they got married in the end. They're happy. They're not dwelling on the past."

Abi tutted, "I love how you're comparing my love life to a soap opera."

"Well that's just an example," Holly grinned. "It happens in real life too. The way Jay was looking at you tonight was like you were the only girl in his world, y'know like how he used to look at you when you two were dating- I saw the way he looked at you."

"I am scared Holly," Abi sighed sadly. "What if I get hurt again? I can't put myself through that, not again."

"You can't think like that, you may not get hurt, things may work out this time, you just have to take that chance."

"Jay and I broke up hundreds of times and then got back together."

Holly chuckled, "Don't I know it eh? But there must be a reason why you two just happen to find each other again…"

Abi sighed. She didn't know what to do. She loved Jay, she knew that she loved Jay. God, she loved him so much that it stung her heart that she wasn't with him. However, Abi considered that it was better that her heart stung instead of being shattered into a million pieces all over again.

However, she was starting to absorb what Holly was saying. Maybe Holly was right. Maybe things could be different now.

"Alright," Abi caved in. "I guess I'll talk to him tomorrow."

"That's my girl!" Holly grinned, "Just talk to him, see what he has to say for himself and you never know, things may really be different this time round."

The next day, Abi had decided to take the afternoon off of work. When she returned to Dot's, she quickly changed into navy blue denim jeans, a blue and white striped long sleeved jumper with her navy converse pumps. She tied her hair back into a neat high ponytail and applied an extra helping of mascara and some transparent pink lip gloss. She smiled at her reflection. She still couldn't believe that she was doing this. But she never knew, maybe it would all be worth it in the end. Despite the fear of being hurt again, she would really like things to go back to the way they were between her and Jay because she was the happiest when she was with him. Day or night, he was always there for her. She wanted that back.

She had texted Jay that morning asking whether they could meet in the afternoon and talk in which Jay replied to within five minutes. Unfortunately, Jay was on his own in the Arches that afternoon so couldn't exactly leave but they came to the arrangement for Abi to meet him in the Arches to talk. It wasn't the Ritz, but it would do.

Abi sighed happily as she grabbed her mobile phone and raced down the stairs. No one was in the house. She assumed that Dot was at the launderette whereas Fatboy was probably our running some errands. Abi slipped on her burgundy coat and left the house, ensuring that her keys and mobile phone was secure in her coat pocket.

Jay was concentrating on the engine of a car that he was instructed to finish. Phil was probably back at the house getting drunk whereas Ben was spending the afternoon with Kathy, so he was on his own. He didn't really want to be working. Abi was due to turn up any minute wanting to talk and he didn't really fancy it being in the Arches, with grubby hands and him wearing his overalls. However, it didn't really bother him because Abi wanted to meet him to talk. Now, that was something in Jay's books and he didn't really mind where it was, it could be in the sewers for all he cared, he wasn't going to miss the chance of meeting Abi. This was another chance for him to try and put things right. However, he didn't think that this would be a bad conversation as when Abi text him this morning asking to meet, she put a kiss at the end in which Jay was pretty happy about.

Jay suddenly heard soft and gentle footsteps approach him and he felt a figure lingering by the entrance of the Arches. Jay smiled to himself, "I can always trust you to be on time," he said cheekily as he turned round. His jaw dropped when someone unexpected was standing in the entrance, the last person that he wanted to see.

"Lola?" Jay gulped.

"Oh Jay!" Lola said with emotion and relief leaking out of her voice as she hurried over to him and wrapped her arms around him tightly.

Jay was slightly taken aback and just stuck his arms out at both sides of Lola. Little did he know that from a distance, the girl he was waiting for saw.

Abi held back the tears as she watched the scene from a distance. She swallowed a lump in her throat as she turned back round and walked away. This was it now. She made the attempt to try and talk to Jay, hear him out but she wished she hadn't now. She wished that she hadn't agreed to meet him now. Lola Pearce was back and there was no room for Abi Branning. She never came close to that bimbo. That's it- Jay had fallen for Lola again. It was only a matter of time now until he was going to go back to her. Everything that had happened between her and Jay would soon be forgotten. There was no point in fighting or even trying, Lola was always going to win.

Abi was going to go with her mind now and not listen to her heart or what anyone told her. She was going to walk away and close the door, for good.

A/N: Hi guys! I am so sorry for not updating in like over a month. I have been so busy with Christmas and New Year and , but I hope that I have made it up to you by presenting you with this pretty long chapter. Hopefully I won't take as long to update like before!

Anyway, please let me know what you think by favouriting, following and commenting because that is what really does motivate me to write more in the end!

Until the next time, much love! xx