Life As We Know It
Chapter 9
Karma's P.O.V.
I wake up to someone banging on our front door. At first I was going to ignore them because I didn't want to move off of the bed.
The light from the window is hitting Amy perfectly. We are both wrapped in our white silk bed sheets and her arms are around my waist. I can lay in bed here forever. I feel something I have never felt before. Last night when we were kissing I got this bulb of energy in me. I wanted to taste and feel more of Amy. She was my addiction. I know the caseworker told us to keep things between Amy and I platonically but there has been so much tension between us since we first met.
I think I am actually falling for Amy. She is loving, caring and a great mom to Emma. But knowing Amy she will move on to the next women tomorrow. She might love Emma but she just wont ever see me as a partner to her.
I hear more bangs on the front door and realize it is Lauren with Emma. We left Emma with Lauren last night to get some "alone time". I quickly put some clothes on and run down the stairs.
I open the door and see Frankie at our front door. Shit!
"Hi Ms. Ashcroft I am here to give a second interview. May I come in?" Frankie says walking into my home before I could respond.
I start to panic thinking that Amy and I are defiantly going to lose Emma.
"Where is Ms. Raudenfeld?"
"Oh, let me get her" I say turning around running up the stairs.
I open the door to Amy's bedroom.
"Amy, get your ass up!" I yell at her.
Amy quickly sits up looking around the room confused
She finally spots be standing in front of her.
"Why are you up?" She says confused then looking at her right side of the bed where I slept last night. Amy just realized what we did last night.
"Amy, listen. Frankie is downstairs about to do a second interview. You need to get ready in less then five minutes."
I turn around and walk out the door.
Five minutes later Amy comes downstairs. She is wearing a v neck white t shirt and some shorts. She quickly looks at me then to Frankie.
I take a deep breath as my nerves are escalating. I give Amy a look that says "Don't fuck this up".
"Ladies, lets sit down." Frankie says as she motions us to sit on our couch.
Amy and I sit down on the couch and wait patiently for Frankie to speak.
She looks at both of us multiple times. The tension is getting awkward.
"Where's Emma?" Frankie asks.
Amy and I look at each other both of our eyes are big.
"Well, uh" Amy starts to speak.
"She is at my step- sisters house. Uh Lauren loves Emma and begged us to keep her throughout the night."
Frankie looks from Amy to me. "Is that true Ms. Ashcroft?"
"Yea, yes, Si, absolutely" I say consecutively.
Frankie is just looking at both of us.
"You two had sex last night?" She said bluntly.
"No, no we didn't have sex" Amy said.
"Yea, you think Amy and I would have sex? Ha! No, why would I have sex with her?" I said looking at Amy. We stared each other a little too long and Frankie seemed to notice.
"Listen, Karma and Amy. I am going to be blunt. Your first priority is Emma. She is your daughter and I know both of you will do anything for her. Now this situation is sticky. Lets say you two continue to have intercourse, what will happen if one of you cheats or move on? Will you two be able to be parents to Emma and communicate?"
I look down at my hands, Frankie has a point, my feelings for Amy are real and I truly think this can work. Amy, Emma and I could be a family. It could happen!"
"I suggest you both stop this and pretend like this never happened."
"We understand Frankie. Nothing is happening between Karma and I. Emma is top priority, Karma is just my partner in raising Emma." Amy says.
I look at Amy and she is keeping her focus on Frankie in front of her.
"Good, Ms. Ashcroft?" Frankie says.
"Yes, nothing is going on." I say looking down.
This day truly sucked. The last twelve hours I was in heaven and now I feel like my heart was ripped out.
Amy's P.O.V.
I know that what I said broke Karma's heart. The look on her face when I said nothing was going on between us broke my heart also. I never wanted to say what I said, but Frankie is right.
I need to keep Emma safe and I need to make Karma stays with us.
Now my reason might be lame but it''s all I got. If Karma and I would to breakup she will be so furious. She will be so mad she will probably take Emma away from me. That would be the worst thing on the planet. I would lose both Karma and Emma. I can't have that. Karma is important to me and I would do anything to keep her safe.
A coupe of days have passed by since Frankie's interview and things are awkward between Karma and I.
The awkwardness started right after the interview. Frankie showed herself out and left Karma and I in silence. I noticed that Karma was avoiding eye contact with me, when Lauren dropped Emma off she made a comment on the tension between us.
"What happened with you two? Did you finally taste Amy's cooking?" Lauren would say sarcastically.
Then Lauren will look between Karma and Karma and I would awkwardly laugh.
Lauren then handed Emma to Karma and then took the backpack off her shoulder. Both Karma and I reached for the backpack and our hands touched. I felt a little spark. We looked at each other then she pulled back. She mumbled something about making Emma a little snack.
Once Karma was out of the room Lauren smacked me on the shoulder.
"Hey! What was that for?" I exclaim.
"What did you do Amy? You two were fine when we went to Corpus and when I picked up Emma yesterday. What did you do?" Lauren stared at me giving the death stare. Lauren is so tiny but she is pretty scary. I learned the hard way. In high school we had a class together and I had no clue what was going on. That was the time period when I realized my sexuality and I was sort of a player. Well anyways I would busy my time with other activities and not do my homework. So one day when she was with her boyfriend I snuck into her room and copied her homework. Some how she found out (probably by Shane) and told the teacher and my mother. I failed the assignment and got dentition for a month. My mom also grounded me and didn't let me have donuts. If Lauren did that for something small like copying her homework, I have no clue what she would do for something more major.
"I didn't know anything! And I am offended that you think I would do anything to hurt Karma and Emma!" I said as I held my shoulder. She is a tough women.
"Yes, I do believe you would do something to hurt Karma. Sorry Amy but you are a player. You have ad how many girlfriends in the last year? What was your longer relationship? Name 2 girls that you have slept with this year?" Lauren angry whispers at me.
I am silent for a second. First I was very offended but I start to realize Lauren's point.
"Listen Lauren" I say as I brush my hand over my hair moving some strays out of my face, "Karma is important to me. More important then the girls I slept with. And Emma is my top priority. You think I would risk my life with them and sleep with some random girl?" I ask Lauren and also ask my self. I want to believe I have self control.
Lauren just stares at me with her narrow eyes.
"Amy, you love Karma don't you?" She says. Her eyes soften.
I look back at Lauren for a few seconds trying to process what she just asked.
Love, love is a strong word. I've only been in love once and she completely broke my heart. Her name was Reagan and I thought I loved this girl. She was 3 years older then me which was a problem of itself. We dated for a year and a half. She introduced me to so much in the world. She was a DJ and Cater/Host. She would get me into awesome clubs and bring me delicious left overs after her gigs as a cater/host. We had some trouble with the age difference. My family also told me to go to college, get a good degree and do well for myself. Reagan never went to College and she was getting along. I told my parents one day that I didn't want to go to school anymore and my mom nearly blew up. She started to name everything she hated about me. She hated my sexuality, my girlfriend, what I wear (wasn't lady like) and then my decision to no go to college. My mom actually kicked me out of the house and I moved in with Reagan. Lauren helped me a lot during that time. She would comfort me and let me talk about my problems. That was when we learned a lot about ourselves and each other, I am forever thankful to have Lauren in my life.
When I lived with Reagan, it was great for the first two months. Night after night of amazing sex, going to clubs on school nights and eating what ever you wanted. But those two months went downhill fast. Apparently Reagan realized I didn't have a job and my mom cut me off. She started to complain about not having enough money for rent, or the electricity or water bill. I finally got a job at a local movie theater where I worked weekends and two times during the week. One night after I got home from work I caught Reagan in bed with another girl. I was so hurt and upset that I started breaking her stuff and yelling at the top of my lungs.
I walked out that night form Reagan and Lauren helped my mom let me come back home. I promised her I would go to college but said liking girls is who I am and I am sorry you cant understand but you have to accept it. It took her several years but she finally did.
Lauren and I went to the same college and were roommates. This is when she was refereeing to me as being a player. I had a new girl almost every weekend. I would bring her home Friday night after partying at the club, then kick them out Saturday morning. The I would study for the rest of Saturday and Sunday and try to ignore them throughout the week at school. If they tried to contact me again I would make Lauren tell them I changed my number. Lauren got annoyed by it and stopped it.
Lauren actually knew Shane very well, she was there when Shane insisted I met Dukes best friend. She described Karma (he really missed out on the detail) during coffee one day.
"Amy, you would love Karma. She is smart, beautiful with her red hair and green eyes, and wont put up with your bull shit" she says smirking at the last statement.
"I don't know Shane…" I say as I try to get the image of Karma out of my head. This girl is gorgeous.
"Yea Amy is just scared that she might fall for this one and be committed" Lauren said as she air quoted the committed part of the sentence.
"Your right Lauren, I can see Karma being the one! And I bet you two will get along, and hopefully she puts you out of your player mode and get ready to be committed". Shane said in air quotes.
Lauren and Shane had some truth to their words. I am scared to be committed. To be in a relationship with someone that you are so vulnerable with, knowing that your partner can break you heart at any second. Also you would have to, if God forbids, live life without them if you separate or pass away. I don't know if I could do that. Be so involved in someone's life and then have her be taken away from you in a second.
I think that was the main reason why I initially ruined Karma and mine first date. I was late to pick her up because I was so nervous and nothing seemed to fit right. But once she opened the door my breath was taken away and I swear I saw a bight light behind her with little blue birds flying up into the light. It was magical! I got scared and Shane prepped me a little before the interview of what not to do, so I did exactly that. I did everything Shane told me not to.
That night I got a call from Shane yelling at me saying how I missed the perfect opportunity.
"I'm not in love with Karma. She is my partner is raising Emma and I would like to respect her and we are living together, it isn't easy. You can't expect up to like each other every day" I say.
"Your so weird Amy" Lauren says and heads towards the kitchen.
I follow her.
Karma's P.O.V:
After Lauren handed me Emma I thought she was going to give me the bag, but I guess Amy thought of the same thing as she reached for the bag. Our hands touched and I swear I felt a spark.
Lauren eyed us and I excused myself. I am having a small panic attack.
I went to the kitchen to grab Emma a snack. After I pour Emma some gram crackers for babies my phone ring.
"Hello?" I answer.
"Darling! How are you? How is Emma? How is Amy? Have you gone to the store and got those pills I told you about? They will help you so much." My moms voice comes through the phone.
"Mom, yes Amy and Emma are good and no I haven't gone to the store, too busy. " I reply casually. My mom can go on forever.
"Listen darling, I need you to take Emma to a class. It is called Mommy and Me. I took you and Zen when you were babies and it help so much. It makes you one with your family. You need to take Emma and have Amy go with you. I read that it will help you bond and her grow." My moms said excitedly.
"Mom, Mommy and Me? That sounds… so old" I say.
"Karma! It is not… old!" my mom says annoyed.
"What do you do at Mommy and Me?" I ask.
"You are in a group with an instructor and about 10 others kids. You do small activities together and learn to trust and love one another. I already signed you and Amy up. The class is on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 6 p.m. I already paid for them so you better go Karma. I will call Amy and let her know, since I know you wont since yo don't want to go." My mom says.
"Wait what?"
"Yes, I signed you up for Mommy and Me with Amy. You better go. I will text her." My moms say's as she hangs up.
"Why is my mom so weird?" I say under my breath and Emma turns her head and smiles at me like she is saying, "I know".
A/N: Next chapter is going to be a bit longer, as this is a filter chapter. I hope you enjoyed some back ground and Amy and Lauren. We got to see how Amy came to be. I am excited for what is coming next stay tuned.