Why My Life? Chapter 2, a vampire diaries fanfic

Why My Life? Chapter 2

Every time I try to get something done… it doesn't happen.

A/N: Sorry for the long delay, it's life. Life happens. Thank God we are all still here. I hope everyone is doing great. If you're not, things will get better. Just believe in yourself(wait… is that a song lyric? Yes, yes it is, dang it Lena Horne! I love you!). By the way, my first chapter was not suppose to look like that, FF be doing things. I will try to do something about that. I do not own The Vampire Diaries, nor Sade. I wish I could. Sade is life, beside Prince, Nas, Rihanna, Rod Stewart, Kat Graham, Coldplay, Lauryn Hill, The Wu-Tang Clan(hell yeah!), B.B. King(R.i.p), and David Bowie(R.i.p). OH! And also, The Isley Brothers! I'm sorry, got off track there. Music is my life. (Starts to sing) Tiger style,Yo, huh, huh

Wu-Tang Clan Ain't Nuttin Ta Fuck Wit

There's noplace to hide once I step inside the room

Dr. Doom, prepare for the boom

BAM! Aw, MAN! I SLAM

JAM, now scream like Tarzan

*Gets hit upside the head* OWIE!

Dumbass, go on.

Sorry, ONWARD TO THE STORY!

Why me? Why does this have to happen to me? Why am I in this situation? All I am trying to do is live my life. But I can't even do that! I need to get out of here! My thoughts are interrupted when I hear a growl. "Come on Bonnie, I am getting very thirsty. Your wouldn't leave me hanging like this, would you?"

Is this guy serious? Is this muthafucka serious? He just fed off of 8 men, 16 women, 15 vampires, 4 werewolves & 5 witches! This bitch was practically given a damn feast and he wants something from me? He ripped off all of their heads, sucked them dry, probably fucked a few of them, and now he is saying that he is hungry?! AGAIN?! I am not feeding him SHIT! That reminds me… I'm hungry. I am eating for 2 now. Mom's Lasagna sounds great, add some yogurt with that, plus some banana on top of my steak. Some apple pie with some slices of dill pickle. Swallow all that down with some good ol' homemade grape juice. PAUSE! I seriously need to get the hell on outta here!

Before these events occurred…

Bonnie's p.o.v.

"Woooo, it's cold. I need my jacket." I put my arms around myself as I ran to my car. I put the key in the lock and opened the passenger door to get the jacket. I jumped as I see Midnight, one of our families black cat, jumps in the car seat, now on top of the jacket. Great. "Meow." Midnight says as he snuggles deeper into the jacket. I reach out to get him off, but he wouldn't budge. He looks at me like, 'You're not getting this today. Good luck.'

Now this is wonderful. My cat just got comfortable, on my jacket. I'm freezing my ass off. I see my parents getting it on earlier, not the first time but still traumatized for life, I shouldn't have had that pizza the other night, I am going to be late to Aunt Jasmine, I got homework due tomorrow, I got a biology test to study for, Jasmine gon' beat my ass, now I gotta go back in to get another jacket!

Now I gotta carry his little ass back to the house, put him in his cat bed, then get my other jacket, avoid cat hair getting everywhere & now I remember I forgot my bag with my workout gear. I hope we don't do it outside again, almost froze to death. My ASS cheeks felt half frozen! She is THAT MEAN! Good Lord, I need a break. I look down at Midnight, purring soundly. I pick him & the jacket up, saying, "Uh huh, enjoy yourself you little bastard. Imma get you back for that." I kicked the car door closed & run to the house. This is ridiculous.

Lord, help me. Now I can't even open the door because I got him in my hands!

Midnight: 2,

Me: 0.

I try to knock on the dang on door, but this is not going to work out. As I was about to try to knock again, the door opens revealing my sister Astrid. She looks down and says, "Midnight outside again huh?" I answer, "Yes, he's a pain sometimes." She agrees, then she suggests, "I know, I was having a problem with Inky, Winky & Slinky earlier. How about this, I'll take him to his cat bed, you lock your car up. Okay? It's about to snow." I turn around to see a few snowflakes started to fall. Wasn't it just sunny a few minutes ago? "Alright, now I gotta go and change my clothes."

I hand Midnight over to Astrid, run to the car, AGAIN, to lock the whole car up. I open the door and press the lock on the passenger side. Close the door & run up to the house while snow continues to fall into my hair. Great, now it's going to be a tangled mess! I enter the foyer, seeing my sister Amber feeding Evelyn happily. "Hey guys." I say as they both turn around to greet me at the same time. "Hi Bonnie! You're still here?" Evelyn gets out of the chair, runs to me for a hug.

I gave her a great big ol' hug, then I run up the steps to my room to change my clothes. I was near my room until I heard Sade's Love is Stronger than Pride from my parents room. Now I'm really going to be late. Hey, it's not my fault that Sade caught me off guard, she got the groove. I walk up to their door, crack it open to see them singing along with Sade while they were rubbing mom's currently 6 ½ months pregnant belly.

Jacqui: I won't pretend that I intend to stop living

I won't pretend I'm good at forgiving

But I can't hate you

Although I have tried

Aaa aa aa aahh aaaaaahhhh

I still really really love you

Love is stronger than pride

I still really really love you

Mmm mm mm mmm mmmmm

Dominic: I won't pretend that I intend to stop living

I won't pretend I'm good at forgiving

But I can't hate you

Although I have tried

Mmm mm mm aaa aaaaahhhh

I still really really love you

Love is stronger than pride

I still really really love you

Mmm mm mm mm mmm

Together: Sitting here wasting my time

Would be like

Waiting for the sun to rise

It's all too clear things come and go

Sitting here waiting for you

Would be like waiting for winter

It's gonna be cold

There may even

Be snow

I still really really love you

Love is stronger than pride

I still really really love you

Love is stronger

I still really love you

Love is stronger than pride

Oohhh yeaaa

Harmonizing together as the song ends…

They sound so beautiful together. That is so romantic, yet ironic. I wish that I could have had that with Jeremy. But mom & dad are right, fuck him!

A few weeks ago…

Running from the car, I enter the house through the back door, slamming it. Running to my mother's office at the middle of the long hallway. I enter without the courtesy of knocking. What I walk in on is my mom & dad on the long couch that the patient is supposed to sit on. Mom was humming softly while laid out on the couch, and dad was on his knees. Probably doing something else nasty. But they weren't, surprisingly. Dad's ear was on her stomach, listening to the babies move while mom's hands are in his dreads. They looked content, in their own little world. That served to make me even angrier.

Mom looks up, surprised and asks, "Bonnie, what are you doing here so early?" I didn't answer fast enough, I didn't really realize how early it was, I am usually either with my friends or with my boyfriend. The latter is part of the reason. "Why didn't she just read my mind? She's good at doing that!" I whispered angrily, then the room suddenly got cold, then mom interjected her answer. "Because I respect people's privacy young lady. I didn't have to read your mind for that. I can read your face and your stance. I can also hear. I may troll my family sometimes, but I do know when to stop. Don't look at us as if we were sticking in your craw all day. I am not like those stupid bitches out on the streets who don't care a thing about you. I don't stand for that stupid shit."

"Wait mom-" I say but she puts her hand up to stop me. She continues to speak. "Wait nothing. Don't ever come at me like that again, okay? Better know who to pick your battles with & how to pick your battles." I stand there for a second, thinking about my decision. Damn, I really messed up. I thought in surprise. "I'm sorry mom and dad, I was just in the motion. Didn't mean to come home and bust in like that." Dad gets up from his knees, sits beside mom & says, "You don't have to apologize to me. Just to your mother. That was not very smart. You know better than that. What's the problem?"

I didn't know what to tell them. That Jeremy broke up with me, or WHY he did it. "Can I come over and sit between you two?" I asked them both. "Yes, you can, you know that." They both said while looking at each other, smiling like they were thinking the same thing. This is not helping me at all. I go & sit between them like a little impudent child. "What has been actually sticking in your craw as your mother say?" Dad says as mom evilly side-eyed him. "Dominic, you got one more time." She says as she raises her left eyebrow (sign of impending death). How quaint mom. That's some Batman shit.

"Okay, I'm sorry, Jacques." Dad says as he holds his hands up as a sign of giving in. "Now, what is wrong with you child?" Mom asks as she softly starts rubbing my back. I started to cry. I just couldn't help it. It really hurt my heart. Mom rubs the tears from my eyes, pulls me to her as dad joins in as to show their love. "Jeremy broke up with me." I say while shaking in my parent's arms. Then mom let's me go, looks at me & says, "Why would he do that?" I sniffled a little, I just wanted to get it out and go to my room.

"He cheated on me, with Anna." I responded to them. Mom put my head on her shoulder, stroking my face. But I felt my dad shaking angrily. "IMMA KILL HIM!" He abruptly screams as he stands up. Mom calmly starts to speak as she strokes my hair. "Wait a minute Dominic. Don't do it, because I'm going to kill him." "Mom, dad, please don't hurt him." I pleaded with them. "Wait a second…" Mom says as she pats me on my left shoulder, asking me, "You don't want us to hurt him? That's some bullshit. Also, didn't the girl Anna die in a fire about a week ago?" I knew it would come to this. This will not be pleasant. "Yes, she did mom."

Mom & dad paused for a minute. Mom starts to laugh. Okay, now she has literally lost it. She breathes in & out, now saying, "I don't know about you, but I would be laughing my ass off. So the boy is fucking Casper now?" Dad turns his head to hide his snickering. Assholes. I thought, quite perturbed. Then I bit the bullet. "Why? Why would you be laughing?" Mom looks straight into my eyes, serious, saying, "Why would you trade the alive girl for the dead bitch? It's one thing to love someone who has passed on. You say you can't live without them. But even you have the right to love again. That boy takes the cake. He did some Ghost shit. He was fucking Casper while you said no. That boy didn't care about you, he was mad because you weren't putting out. Am I right or wrong?"

Unfortunately, she was right. I didn't know what to do or say. She hit it dead on the nail. I winced from that thought. Why did I use that wording? He said that I wasn't giving him 'the goods'. He hurt my feelings and I am not sure how to handle this. My dad interjects, "Simple enough, he was calling you a prude. Now I'm going to kill him." Mom now says with steel in her voice, "Stop. It's not even worth your time Donnie." Dad's ramrod straight back slumped a little bit after mom called him his pet name. Oh jeez. I thought while rolling my eyes. "Jacq, I am not going to let that hormonal kid say some shit like that. I know you feel the same about it." "Of course I do, that little boys dick is not going to be any good when he gets 20-something. All that fucking, sucking, & drugging is going to catch up with him. The more you know."

I turn my head to look at my mother, this woman was crazy. I could practically hear the music that was supposed to go behind it. I need to get out of here. "Bon-Bon, you seriously need to get over him." Mom says as she struggles to get up. Dad comes to help her out and walks her to her maternity chair. "Thank you Dom. Such a sweetheart." They kiss for a minute and it really does not help me. They are such saps. "Why I say this is because you are a beautiful young woman. Your brother & sisters are all beautiful. I don't want you hanging on to a pipe dream that will never be. I love all of you too much for you to end up like that."

I started to cry again. It's not like I haven't had any issues with past relationships. It's just that we connected and it felt great to connect with someone like that. It really does hurt me. "Baby, it is always good to cry, it eases your hurt. Just because you didn't do what he wanted of you does not mean that you should in the next relationship you have. That's not how this work. He has a lot of things to work out with himself. And so do you. Relationships do not revolve around sex. It revolves around the love, the trust & truth you both share for each other." Mom looks at me with sympathy. Dad walks up to me, sits next to me while handing me some more tissue & states, "Your mother is right. Not everyone is going to be 'the one' for you. Not everything is going to be just right neither. But there is someone that will complete you. Every one you meet is not a coincidence. They might mean something to you, your family, friends, possibly anything. If you're patient, the love of your life might find you. Dry those beautiful eyes. You are more strong and interesting than those uninteresting bitches." "Besides, the boy will pay for that in another way." Then mom sings a part of Lauryn Hill's Lost One's.

Jacques: Now don't you understand man universal law

What you throw out comes back to you, star

Never underestimate those who you scar

Cause karma, karma, karma comes back to you hard

You can't hold God's people back that long

The chain of Shatan wasn't made that strong

Trying to pretend like your word is your bond

But until you do right, all you do will go wrong

Now some might mistake this for just a simple song

And some don't know what they have 'til it's gone

Now even when you're gone you can still be reborn

And, from the night can arrive the sweet dawn

Now, some might listen and some might shun

And some may think that they've reached perfection

If you look closely you'll see what you've become

Cause you might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you really lost one

You just lost one, it's so silly how come

When it's all done did you really gain from

What you done done, it so silly how come

I wiped my eyes, hugged my dad. Then I go to hug my mom. But I paused, then asked. "Wait, what do I do if I see him next time?" Both my parents looked at each other, then looked at me. They say together. "Fuck him! Let him keep fucking Casper." I couldn't help but to laugh that time.

Back to present time…

Hmmm… I'm glad they told me that, but it is still a little unsettli- My thoughts are interrupted when I feel a little figure around my calf. I look down to see that it's our fluffy tortie Slinky. She looks up at me with her big machalite eyes and says "Meow..", then keeps on slinking around my calf(hence the name). "You're still here?" I hear my parents say. I look up and they were looking terrified. "Yeah, what's wrong?" Mom pointed to the clock on the back wall of their room. It read 9:59. "9:59?! I'm two hours late!" I ran to my room to get my Nike workout bag. I grabbed my green jacket & put it on as neat as i could. I don't have time to change my clothes. I'll change at her house if I even make it far enough.

I ran down the stairs like a bat out of hell. I open the front door and ran without closing it. I unlocked my car and opened the right side backdoor throwing my things back there. Closed the door and ran to close the front door. Almost slipped due to the fresh snow on the ground. Closed the door, then jogged back to the car. I opened my door, got in and started the engine. "Great, now I gotta wait for a few minutes." I huffed while leaning my head back. I opened the armrest compartment and grabbed my ponytail holder. I put my hair in a up-do and I heard a meow. I turned to see it was Slinky in the backseat. "Dammit Slinky! Oh well, I might as well take you along. She doesn't seem to mind you." I put the stick on drive and started on the street.

I started to really think about some things as I pass all of the block. Really nice neighborhood that I live in. Sometimes I really wonder how she is soooo mean! Even when pregnant, she hates being down for the count. She despises weakness, she doesn't care for it nor wants it. Her house comes into view, such a lovely home. She actually loves her solitude. Reminds me of my home, but my auntie likes to be outside of city limits. I thought while pouting. I get out of the car while Slinky follows me(deal with her later). I go around the house to the side kitchen door. I open the door, run into the kitchen and put my stuff down as quickly as I can. Slinky purrs and goes over to the dog bed & goes to sleep. "Killer must be on her walk. Quite odd that she always goes over there." I whispered while slipping on my exercise gear on. I finally finished and jogged quietly into the grand house's foyer with shoes and mat in my hands, hoping she didn't hear me.

"You're late." I hear on the left side of me. I turn to see my auntie Jasmine, seizing my attire while holding a horse whip & wearing a maternity dress. The woman almost looked like mom, but she has a smaller size bust(she does prefer that), a bit darker yet lovely shade of brown, a huge afro that for some reason smells like chocolate(mmmmm… when she actually acts like a human, I am able to hug her and know), has an ass that is out of this world(mom makes sure to remind her ALL of the time before attacking her, hehehe), and a more serious demeanor. Sometimes I wonder how can she always be so mean, but my mother is so sweet. Mom is the sympathizer, she is the executioner. More or less, she's a dick.

"Over two hours late. I don't understand how you were so late. All you have to do is wake up early and make it here. It's only a 45 minute drive. It's not like you're a stranger to this place." I didn't want to tell her that I got held up by Sade, the family cat that decided to sleep on my jacket, my parents and myself. Wait… it is my fault. Sort of... "Well, since you were late, CONCENTRATE ON THIS TABLE! While standing on one leg, on your tiptoes and arms up like a T." She screams as I got into the position. Dang bro, she didn't even give me a second to breathe. I struggle to keep the table up, I keep thinking about bad things. This is not helping me out. I thought bitterly while trying to keep the stance and the table up.

"You have too much on your mind. Concentrate!" Jasmine said as I stood on my left foot tip toes, barefoot. Well better than being on spikes like last week. I continued to try and balance myself, and the table, still a bit wobbly. Considering how long our family has been doing this since childhood, it is still a lot of things we need to work on. Jasmine still looking a little disappointed, she says, "Let's take a minute. What's on your mind?" I get off of that leg and sat on the rolled out mat. "Well…" "Is it because that boy fucked Casper?" Jasmine says as she looks at her stopwatch. I look up at her mortified. "Did mom tell you?" "One, she didn't tell me. We share a mental link but we respect each other's privacy. Two, I may speak to your mother slash my sister every other day, but she knows I am up close and personal type of person. Phone conversations can be trivial for my taste. And three, My son slash your cousin Richard told me." Jasmine says matter-of-factly.

Well damn, that was a mouthful. I thought a little dazed. "What did she say about it? Wait, lemme guess, she laughed her ass off?" She was definitely correct. "Yes, both mom & dad were there and they shared the same opinions. They said 'fuck him! Leave him with Casper.'" She snickered, then straightened back into training mode. "They're both right. The boy always seems to think fucking is the answer to all of the deaths he has had as of late. His dick is going to be dead once he reaches 20-something. All of that fucking every other thing that moves kills the penis. It is living thing, literally. See what I did there? Nobody can go like that unless you are of the supernatural. Even the supernatural get tired of that shit. You know what? That whole family is fucked up. All of them think that their problems can be either fucked, sucked, drunk and/or smoked away."

I look at her like she grew another head. Mom said almost the same thing. They sure are related. She points her horse whip at me, saying, "Back into position, concentrate on levitating the table. If you can, expand your horizons on what else you can lift with your mind." I stood up & concentrated on the table. "Instead of concerning yourself with that Ghost shit, even though I enjoyed the movie myself, the boy really needs some help. Your mother is not going to help him. It's already a problem that his sister is seeing her. Neither of us like that damn family." Well damn man, I didn't even know you could enjoy a movie.

"Ow! Can you not?" I say as I felt the horse whip hit my arms. "No, you are still busying yourself in your mind about that mess. Be thankful that it's me hitting you. Cause your enemies will have your head on a platter once your concentration fails." "Aww, you care." I smiled, then frowned & said, "For a second." "That's all you're getting from me. Now, clear your mind. Goood, let the hate flow through you." Jasmine states as she looked at the table. Really? A Star Wars reference? I try not to over exert myself, I feel my power oozing out, smoothly leaving my body to do my bidding. I lift the other materials that was in the vicinity with ease. Jasmine looked at the materials floating in the air, quietly impressed.

"Good, now we are getting something. Now, put all of my expensive things down or that's your ass!" She says as she continues to smack my ass with the horsewhip. Really woman?! I start to put the stuff down calmly until I heard Don and Jon say, "Hi Bon-Bon!" I lost concentration but my aunt put her hand up and everything breakable was still. Damnit! I turn around to see it was William(21), Richard(18, 2 months older than me) & the twins Don(10, 2 minutes older) and Jon(10) at the door. William is the one with beautiful dark chocolate skin, beautiful eyes, good looking nose, lovely straight teeth behind kissable lips, a very nice symmetrical face, neat haircut & a nice-looking little goatee. Put all of that with the build of a college football star, which he is alongside Jesse at Whitmore. Richard was a light shade of brown. A lean build, almost lanky, but not really. A big curly afro that is always looking perfect, a little mustache growing above kissable lips, nice boyish smile, good looking nose, lovely brown eyes, and a symmetrical face. Now the twins, I cannot tell which is which. The both have lovely bone structure, lovely shades of brown, adorable starry eyes, lovely smiles, and awesome brown hair. Plus, dimples! Our family is freaking handsome.

"That is something else that needs to be tackled. Losing concentration on the situation at hand." She lowered her hand down as the things descended down. Don and Jon ran up to me to squeeze the life out of me. I missed you both too, sure are strong for a 10 year olds. "Hey small portion. Sorry bout that." William says as he comes up to join in the hug. Man, I'm just getting all the love. Richard shakes his head as he walks around us, going into the kitchen. Ok, a dick move. "Nice to see you too Richard!" I scream to the side that was free. The three bodies let me go to greet their mother. "Hi momma!" the 3 boys say in a happy unison. Her face could not stay neutral, she was happy to see her family. Aww, so sweet. The door opens to reveal her husband Demetrius, a fine man. And I mean FINE! He looks like a football star that hasn't let the money get to his head. Strong arms, beautiful body, beautiful eyes, beautiful symmetrical face, his lips, my god, yes! A lovely smile, his hair is as soft as a sheep. A sexy goatee and just EVERYTHING about him screams YAAAAAAAASSS! He was walking in with the family dog Killer. It looked like they went jogging. Killer rubs against my hand to be petted, which I much obliged to her. "Hey, we're home. Hi Bonnie. It's nice to see you." Demetrius says as he hugs me while drenched in sweat. "Great to see you too, I'm drenched along with you. Thanks." I said as I hugged back. His hugs are bone-crushing and pleasant. Yay me. I thought as I take him in. "Sorry Bon. I'll get you a towel." He says as he lets go to see his wife. Her demeanor was breaking every minute.

"Hi Zhané." he says as his voice dropped an octave. "Hi Dimitri." My aunt says while looking embarrassed, but she sure loves this man as he loves her. Man, I thought mom & dad were bad. "How are you and our little girl?" He says as he puts his hand on her stomach. She puts her hand on top of his. "You are making me look bad in front of Bonnie. We're supposed to be training." Jasmine whispered to Demitri. Well, dang. Where the love go? "You are not supposed to be stressing yourself out. Please stop. Jacques would not like that either." Then they share a passionate kiss for a minute. Awkward. "Hey guys, there is still a teenager here. You're just as bad as Auntie Jacques & Uncle Dominic." Richard screams as he disturbs his parents intimate moment. Richard looks at me & says, "Hi Bon. Sorry bout that." "That's fine, use to it." I say as I go into the kitchen to hug him. I was beginning to think that you didn't care." "I do, just a lot on my mind." As I let go, we enter and greeted with Slinky licking Killer's nose. Killer & Slinky seems to be enjoying themselves. "Well, this will be an interesting day."

A/N: Hey, hope you enjoyed yourself. Please read & review. I will post the pics of what Jasmine's family looks like on Tumblr. Look for epicyaoibamonbear. Much love my sweet babies.