The Recombination Actuality
Penny's POV.
Penny lay on her bed, weeping and wondering why her date with Leonard went so wrong.
From the moment she had sat in the passenger seat of his car beside him it had reinforced the feeling she had had, that she belonged with Leonard. But during their meal she found him so restrained, leaving her to wonder if Bernadette had asked him to ask her for a date, as a favour to Bernadette.
While she herself although wanting to tell him she loved him and how much he meant to her, but she found she just couldn't get the words out, being terrified of it all going wrong, or her panicking and dumping him again,
She thought back to how earlier that evening she had mightily struggled with herself not to jump on his lap and hold him, never letting go and then getting angry with herself for her failure to tell the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with she loved him very much.
They had walked up the stairs together in a strained silence and parted with a chaste kiss on her cheek from Leonard, before she entered 4b and he went to 4a:
as soon as she closed her door, she threw herself on her bed and wept bitterly. "Why was true love so hard", she said to herself.
After recovering her composure she glanced at the time and groaned at the feeling of failure as it read 9:45 pm, "I should still be out there with him, having the time of my life, just being in his company, instead of lying on my bed in abject misery", she sniffed.
She turned on her Ipod dock for a little music just to distract herself from her thoughts, when an old favourite of her Mother's began to play.
Penny couldn't believe her ears, this song so accurately described how she felt about Leonard, how it said all the things she wanted to say.
Penny then excitedly getting an idea, reached for her phone and began texting Leonard.
Leonard's POV.
Leonard also fully clothed, lay on his bed and likewise felt so frustrated and miserable, over the failure of his date with Penny this evening, wondering if she had only said yes, so as not to hurt his feelings.
How he had longed to hold her tightly in his arms and declare his everlasting love for her.
But she had seemed tense and irritable with him and Leonard became afraid that if he came on too strong it would panic her, causing her to dump him again.
He wondered if he should have simply asked her what's wrong,. But he was too scared that the answer might be himself.
He was glad that it was only Sheldon that was present in the apartment as he entered, He could not have taken any of Howard's teasing over finishing the date early, and fortunately Sheldon's whole attention was on his text game of Zork, to even notice Leonard's return.
Leonard sighed and turned over onto his side hoping that sleep would remove his heartache for a while, when his phone beeped informing him he had a message.
Leonard would you please come to my apartment now, it's important, Penny.
Leonard's heart leapt in hope, but he calmed himself, not daring to believe that Penny would tell him she loved him in case his hopes were dashed. He got up put his shoes back on and passed Sheldon, who was still unaware that Leonard was even in the room and opened the front door before walking down the hallway towards 4b where Penny stood, her door already open, waiting for him.
"Penny I...", Leonard began before being silenced by Penny by her placing her finger to his lips.
She closed the door behind them and turning to Leonard said, "Leonard , I'm sorry but I still can't tell you how I feel, please understand, I really want to so much", she said her sad eyes full of regret.
"But I found a song that says what I want to say to you, and Honey, I want you to hold me while it plays". And she pressed play on her Ipod.
All Leonard heard was 'Honey' and 'hold me', and joyfully took her tenderly in his arms as the first strains began to play.
There's nothin' you can do to turn me away
Nothin' anyone can say
You're with me now and as long as you stay
Lovin' you's the right thing to do
Lovin' you's the right thing
I know you've had some bad luck with ladies before
They drove you or you drove them crazy
But more important is I know you're the one and I'm sure
Lovin' you's the right thing to do
Lovin' you's the right thing
And it used to be for a while
That the river flowed right to my door
Making me just a little too free
But now the river doesn't seem to stop here anymore
Hold me in your hands like a bunch of flowers
Set me movin' to your sweetest song
And I know what I think I've known all along
Lovin' you's the right thing to do
Lovin' you's the right thing
Lovin' you's the right thing to do
Is the right thing
Nothing you could ever do would turn me away from you
I love you now and I love you now
Even though you're ten thousand miles away
I'll love you tomorrow as I love you today
I'm in love babe
I'm in love with you babe
(Carly Simon - The Right Thing To Do )
as the song ended Leonard could not help himself and began to cry with relief in that Penny was in love with him, Penny likewise also began to shed tears, though more to do with the fact that she could see his love for her in his eyes, thence they cried and kissed together in relief that they were now reunited.
Penny then took Leonard's hand and led him to her bedroom where they spent the rest of the night tenderly and passionately loving each other, and in the afterglow Penny in joyful ecstasy at being held closely by Leonard thought to herself, "yes Leonard, loving you is the right thing to do, for always .