My past is a complicated life.

As a kid, I was never really loved. I never felt like I'm at home. I'd see other kids happy and I would question why I don't have that.

As a kid, my parents gave me up to foster care. I only had my brother growing up. I went from house to house with no place to call home. I never got attatched.

One day, a single woman about 25 years old came and said she would take care of my brother and I. She took us out of foster care, but never really adopted us. That was already a red flag.

She was never home. She was on business trips or she was just out with friends leaving us to count on each other.

I learned a long time ago how to take care of myself, but I never understood happiness.

One day, my brother got into a car accident leaving me by myself. I cried myself to sleep almost every night. I had hit rock bottom. No friends, real family, or even happiness anymore. My life revolved around me brother until he passed. My life fell apart.

Soon when I was old enough I owned my own apartment and FINALLY got out of the care of that witch.

She was like the evil stepmother drom Cinderella, but this stepmother was never home. Aaaanyways.

I owned my own apartment with an internship with a record label. I've always loved music. Music helped me through my tough times.

One day in the studio, I met a really hot boy named Cameron. Yep. Cameron Dallas. He was soo cute and we clicked right away. He was like the PERFECT guy and I thought we would be together forever.

One day, he just kinda stopped loving me I guess. He acted weird until I confronted him. He admitted that he had stopped loving me.

I was heartbroken and convinced that I would never give my heart to anyone ever again. I had given my heart to my brother, he died. I had given bits and pieces of my heart to Cameron, he left me in the dust.

Then, Shawn came along. He always stayed with me after Cameron and I's breakup. He would have his shirt get soaked by my tears. One day, he got the courage to ask me out. I said yes because I knew nothing could be better than my best friend being my boyfriend. I loved him.

He is amazing and I'm so glad that we found each other or I wouldn't be here.

*****************back at the skating rink*************************

I spent every moment I could with Shawn . I held one arm on his waist and the other hand was intertwined in his hand tightly.

He knew I was scared, but he used it as an excuse to hold me. It was sweet though.

Aaliyah would bolt pass us overlapping us several times.

When we finally were done we decided to head to a café. We had some coffee, but Shawn got a hot chocolate because he doesn't like coffee.

We headed home and Shawn cuddled on the bed with me while watching Frozen. This is why I love him.

I fell asleep for a little bit. I had an awful nightmare about my brother. These happened often, but Shawn has never experienced it. I woke up and pulled Shawn close. I woke up Shawn and he held me not knowing was going on.

"Baby, what's going on?" He asked while very tired.

"M-M-My b-br-brother.." I said. I could barely get the words out.

He wrapped his arms around me as I cried and cried.

SHAWN'S P.O.V-

I didn't know what was happening. I heard something about her brother.

I pulled her as close as I could. This wasn't her first cry about him, but I hadn't seen a nightmare.

This was the worst I've seen her. I almost called my parents, but she looked up at me and gave me a look.

She said very weak," Please don't. I'll be okay here in your arms." I smiled and wrapped her up in a blanket and cuddled with her until she fell asleep and longer. I knew this was our last night in each other's arms and I didn't want a single moment to be lost.

Auburn's P.O.V

I fell asleep again after my breakdown. I woke up in his arms still and smiled. A tear rolled down my cheek. He was leaving today. I couldn't do anything. All I did was hold him tighter like a teddy bear.

He woke up and returned my hug with a kiss on the cheek. He saw the tear and he put up my chin, so we were face-to-face. He wiped the tear and he serenaded me with kisses all over my face. I laughed and kissed him. We didn't part.

It felt like it was me and him. That's it. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he pulled my waist closer. I put my arms around his neck. We parted for a spit second to look in each other's eyes.

"I never want this to end," Shawn said in between kisses.

"Then don't let it," I answered.

He smiled and kissed me more. Sparks were flying through my body like crazy. I couldn't get enough of this boy.

Soon we finally parted for good. I let out a little giggle and put my head in his chest.

"I don't want this to be over," I said pointing to us two. He nodded and shed a tear. Wow! I had never seen Shawn cry.

"Shawn. A-are you okay?" I asked.

"Of course." He said, but I knew he wasn't okay.

"This isnt over, Shawn. Please," I said.

"Of course it isn't," He tried to smile a little," I'll see you before you can say 'I miss you.' I'll facetime you every night and I'll make sure that you'll stay here for as long as you need."

I nodded," Make those fans happy Shawn. Make me proud my muffin."

He kissed my nose," Don't worry, princess. I'll make you the proudest girlfriend in the world."

I hugged him tight and he buried his face in my(his) hoodie and started to cry.

I cried too. He was leaving for…. 10 MONTHS.

******************at the tour bus to drop him off********************************

A gave him a kiss and a gigantic hug. He got on the bus and his family saw me crying. They were so used to it, why?

They gave me a hug. My muffin was gone.

HE WAS GONE FOR 10 MONTHS!