A/N: This story is not true! None of it ESPECIALLY from this chapter forward. You'll understand later. Love you guys!

I cried a few times after Shawn left, but as he promised we facetimed every night. I wish I was with him face-to-face and not just through a screen.

Aaliyah would always keep me company and we got closer and closer. We decided to go to the mall today.

I grabbed $20 and went with her to the mall. We walked around the mall, bought a few things here and there.

I went into my bed after a long day. I heard crying in the room next to ..but that's Aaliyah's room.

I walk into her room and see her cuddled in a blanket crying.

"Aaliyah what's wrong?" I asked as I sat next to her on the bed.

"I-I just miss h-him," She answered as she pointed to a photo of her and Shawn.

I put my arms around her," I know. So do I."

"You don't understand," She said turning away a little.

"Yes I do. I lost a brother when I was a little younger than you. He was the best and he died in a car accident," I said.

She looked at me and hugged me tight. "Do you miss Shawn when he's on tour?" She asked.

I answered,"Oh yeah! I barely see him and it's the worst feeling in the world. Sometimes I wish we could…"

"…be in each other's arms," Aaliyah and I said it in unison. I nodded and hugged her tighter. Being with Aaliyah was just enough to feel the comfort of with Shawn.

*buzz buzz* Shawn was facetiming me. "Wanna facetime Shawn with me?" I asked.

Her face lit up and she nodded.

We answered and he saw us. "Hey there my princesses!" He said through the screen happily.

"Hey, Shawn!" Aaliyah said excited.

"We miss you!" I said to him.

"I miss you guys too. Stay strong guys! Just 5 more months!" He said.

We nodded. "Where are you right now?" I asked.

"Phoenix, Arizona," He said," We gotta go on a roadtrip, Auburn. It is beautiful everywhere!"

I smiled. I had never gone on a roadtrip. Especially with Shawn.

"I missed that smile." Shawn said.

A tear rolled down my cheek," I missed yours as well."

"Don't cry, Auburn." Shawn said," You'll make me cry and I have a show tomorrow night."

I laughed. I hated my laugh. It would either end or be full of snorts. My red hair covered my blue eyes as I was embarassed.

"Aw. Auburn! Don't be embarassed! I love your laugh," Shawn said reasurring,"I love everything about you. Your ginger hair, your blue eyes, your soft lips, your dimples, your EVERYTHING!"

"Stop it, Shawn. Youre making me more embarrased. Your sister is right here." I said.

Aaliyah was dying of laughter," Soft lips?! HAHAHAHHA!"

I hit her lightly," Stop hahahha."

"Awe you love him complimenting you," Aaliyah said.

I blushed.

"You're blushing, princess." Shawn said.

"Shaaaawn." I said.

"Priiiincessss,"He answered.

I put the facetime on mute. "Ugh! He's so cute! What did I do to deserve him?" I said.

"In my opinion, you're just as cute and I ask myself that question every day." Shawn said.

"Wait I thought the facetime was on mute!" I started to panic.

"You're blushing again," Shawn said.

I cover my face. He was so cute aghh.

It isn't okay. How am I so lucky? How was I so lucky to get a boyfriend and a best friend have the same role?

I wanted to hug him through the phone, but the next best thing was putting the phone next to my face and imagining him with me.

Aaliyah had drifted to sleep a while ago.

I imagined holding Shawn's hand tightly. I remembered every sweet memory.

-The next day was the worst day of my life-

"Auburn…" Mr. Manuel said my name softly.

"Yes Mr. Manuel?" I asked. He covered his mouth and handed me the phone. There was a long text from one of the tour managers.

The text read:

"I'm very sorry to inform you that last night there was an accident on the tour bus. I found out this morning that everyone on the bus died. I'm so very sorry again Manuel."

I put the phone on the table and fell to the ground. I broke down crying. I couldn't take it.

"I-It's not true…" I said softly. He nodded," I'm so so so sorry…"

He was gone now.

I imagined our hands intertwined. The memories slowly died. The love of my life was gone forever.

"I think that after the funeral I'm gonna go back home to my apartment," I said.

He nodded," I understand. The funeral is tomorrow."

"I loved him so much," I said between sobs. I looked at Mr. Manuel as he sat next to me. "What if I loved him too much?" I asked.

He shook his head. "Never….You loved him better than anyone could. I thank you for that," He said.

"He showed me how to love…" I said smiling softly. He nodded. "He showed us all how to love and what love felt like," He said," I'll give you some space."

I nodded. He stopped in his tracks and turned around," Things will get better, I promise."

I smiled. "I sure hope so…" I said.

He left me to mourn.

-The next day was the funeral-

I cried the whole time. Aaliyah and the rest of the family cried as well.

When we went to their house, I started to pack. Aaliyah asked her parents if she could stay with me for a little while. They said yes, so she was going to stay with me for about a month or two.

-On the plane-

Aaliyah was giddy. "My apartment isn't much," I said laughing.

"I know, but I'm just so excited!" She yelled throughout the plane.

"OK. Rule #1: Inside voices," I said whispering and laughing. She laughed and gave me thumbs up.

-At my apartment-

"Hey, so in a little while Aaron Carpenter is coming over to chill," I said to Aaliyah.

She started to fangirl. Oh boy! "THE Aaron Carpenter is coming HERE?" She asked with excitement.

I nodded," Do you know any other Aaron Carpenters?" She shook her head vigorously.

I laughed and got into a sweatshirt with leggings and a messy bun.

*Knock Knock* I answered the door," Aaron! Hey! Long time no see!"

He gave me a hug," Auburn! So good to see you! Sorry about…the accident."

I smiled and said," It's okay. I'm recovering." Aaliyah came around the corner and saw Aaron. She started to smile brightly and hugged him tight.

He looked at me laughing and said," This is mini Mendes?" I laughed and nodded. "The one and only," I answered.

Aaliyah had dinner with us and then went to bed because of jet lag. Personally, I was used to it.

Aaron and I rented a movie to watch. "Hey, so seriously how are you doing with the whole incident thing going on?" He asked.

"I'm doing fine," I said. He looked at me seriously," You're not fine, what's up?"

"The sky." I said sarcastically.

"No Auburn I'm serious, how are you?" He asked. Nobody has asked me that since the accident.

"Pretty awful to be honest," I said starting to cry," It's just hard to handle." The tears came and they wouldn't go away. I hid in my palms.

He lifted my face and wiped my tears. We stared into each other's eyes. He leaned in and kissed me. He kissed my softly, but passionate enough to beg for more. I real quick closed my bedroom door and locked the door, so Aaliyah wouldn't come in.

"Where were we?" I asked. Aaron looked surprised. "Are you sure?" He asked. I nodded. "I-I don't w-want to rush a-anything," He said stuttering. "Shut up and kiss me," I said. I kissed him. At first, he tried to stop, but his desire for me was greater. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I put my legs around his waist. His hands played with my hair. He picked me up and pinned me against the wall. I kissed him more. "I don't…want this…to end," He said between kisses. "Then…don't….let…it," I answered. I put my hands on his head and pulled him closer. He stopped for a second and we catch our breath. I get down from his waist and go to lay down on the bed.

He sat down next to me. I took his hand and started to play with the traces on his hand. He laid down on the bed next to me. I turned over and looked at him and he did the same. He said as he put his arms around my waist to pull me closer. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him in. I put my hands on the back of his neck and played with his hair taunting him to kiss me. "Oh stop already," He said. He kissed me one last time.

I know this isn't the best method to get over a dead boyfriend, but it took the pain away for a little bit. When he left, I sobbed. I felt so bad. I shouldn't have done that. UGH! I mess everything up.

A/N: I know, I'm awful. Comment what you think should happen next! (Running out of ideas)