I paced the floor of my apartment. Aaliyah walked in and said," Sooo how are you and Aaron."

"Uhh there isn't a Aaron and I," I said.

"Ohh, ok," She said smiling and she walked out.

I didn't know what I wanted to do. The guys both texted me nonstop. I had 12 missed calls and voicemails from Aaron and 20 texts from Cameron.

I was so stressed. I told them both that I didn't know what to do right now. They understood and stopped the flirting. I missed the flirting though. I wanted them to kiss me and hold me close anyways.

I just didn't know WHICH one I wanted holding me and kissing me. I still loved Shawn. If Shawn was in the picture, I would keep him and never let him go. I loved him. I guess I never noticed how much I missed him.

I started to cry on my bed. I wanted my baby back. I don't want Aaron or Cameron. I just want MY Shawn. MY wonderful and awesome boyfriend who loves me best.

I miss everything. I miss the little things I loved about him. Aaliyah walked in and hugged me. She knew what I was crying about.

"I'm not happy, Aaliyah. I'm the opposite of happy. I want Shawn back," I said bawling my eyes out.

"Auburn, you should go tell Aaron and Cameron what's going on. They should be able to help," Aaliyah said.

I nodded and texted each of them telling them that I was on my way.

=====Cam's apartment=====

I knocked on the door and they both answered. "H-hey, guys," I said with my red face from crying.

"Did you make your decision on who you want to date?" Aaron asked winking.

I shook my head," I just need a safe place."

We all three went to the beach. Aaron put down a blanket on the sand. I sat in between Aaron and Cam.

Right there I cried. I let all the tears I held in I let it all out.

I told them everything. Especially the part of making out with both of them.

They stared at each other giving a look of 'You did that too?'.

"I-I just don't know if I can go on like this," I said with tears still rolling down my face.

"Auburn, you're going to get through this, things will get better," Cam said with a soft smile.

"I know, but right now things aren't better. My life is falling apart. Torn between two guys and if I could have Shawn, I would have him here right now. I just miss him. He loved me more than anyone else. He taught me that it's okay to love. He helped me through what happened with you, Cam," I said," Cam, I don't want the same mistakes again. They hurt enough the first time. I just want to have Shawn longer. Shawn was the best thing that happened to me."

Aaron and Cam look at each other with their breath taken away. They didn't know I felt like this.

"What if you went to MAGCON with us? That might help," Aaron said.

"I don't know. I don't know what my role would be. I'd be the one girl backstage that no one notices," I said," Plus, good memories are there. They'll hit me too hard. I don't know if you want a crying girl on the tour bus."

"What do you mean by good memories?" Aaron asked.

"Well, Cam and I met at the studio. He was working on a song and I had to go in there for a sec and we hit it off. Then, we started dating and I went to MAGCON and that's where I met Shawn. MAGCON used to be my favorite place. It's where I met my best friend and boyfriend, but now that he's gone it's nothing but sadness there," I said looking at the ocean.

"I understand," Aaron said," Just wondering, but it's fine. We'll be gone next week, but don't hesitate to text or give us a call. We would love to hear the sound of your voice."

"Thank you guys for hearing me. I just needed somebody to listen," I said," Aaliyah is going home next week, so make sure you say bye to her."

They both nod. We packed up the blanket and got in Cam's car.

====Auburn's apartment=======

I looked at twitter for the first time since Shawn died. I went through them. It was people. Everyone.

They tweeted me all the things they loved about Shawn. They told me that it'll get better. I never noticed how much his fans cared. I smiled as happy tears rolled down my face.

He might be gone, but he was loved. Fans adored him. I adored him. He always talked to me about his fans. He loved the fans. He loved me. He is gone, but it's gonna be okay because these fans loved him and they're getting through it so why can't I?

I heard the door open. It was Mr. Manuel. Aaliyah stood up from the couch," Dad?"

I asked,"Mr. Manuel! What's going on?" He smiled.

"Shawn isn't dead, Auburn! He is just badly injured," Mr. Manuel said smiling.

"You mean he's still alive? He's still alive?!" I asked. He nodded. I fell to the ground and started crying tears of joy. Mr. Manuel went to me and gave me a hug. Aaliyah cried too.

"Where is he?" I asked through my tears.

"He is in the hospital with a broken leg, fractured rib, and his left arm is broken as well," He said.

"When can I see him?" I asked.

"He was transported to the hospital in Toronto. I'm going back to Toronto tomorrow if you wanna come," He said," I also can I spend the night here?"

I nodded," Yes of course! You can stay in the guest room."

====the Next morning=====

Mr. Manuel, Aaliyah, and I were all on a plane ready to go see Shawn. Shawn was okay. My Shawn was okay.

We landed and we all raced to their home.

The whole family(Plus Me) all went to the hospital. I stayed behind, so that they could have a chance to see their boy.

When they were done, it was my turn to go see him. I walked in and saw his face light up. I smiled and ran to him and sat next to his bed. "You're okay," I said crying tears of joy.

"The doctor said it was a miracle," he said smiling. I grabbed his hand," I'm so happy that you're okay."

He nodded. "I'm out of the hospital tomorrow and I'm going to go to our apartment about 2 days after I'm out of the hospital," He said.

"Wait. You aren't going back on tour?" I asked. He shook his head," I can't. I got to recover and I noticed that I'm away too much, so I'm staying home for 2 years before my next tour."

=====At our apartment in LA=========

I kissed Shawn. He smiled. I then remembered. I made out with two of his friends.

"Ummm, Shawn?" I said," You got a second." He nodded and sat next to me on the couch.

"When uh I thought you were dead, I kinda made out with Cam and Aaron," I said," I'm sorry."

He nodded," It's fine, Auburn. It was one time each, right? Just not again."

I smiled," Never again. You're my one and only Prince."

"I'm glad I have you, princess," He said with a kiss.

Cam and Aaron came over and saw Shawn. "He Au- ohh hey Shawn," They said in unison.

We stood up from the couch. I laughed a little," Shawn's okay! Isn't that exciting?" I wrapped my arms around Shawn's waist and smiled brightly.

"Oh. Hey Shawny boy," Cam said smiling nervously.

"Hey Cam," Shawn said laughing," I heard about your little make out session with ma girl. You too Carpenter." He put his arm around me. I laughed a little.

The boys both looked at each other Aaron said nervously," Yea we have to go to a-a place? Yea a place."

Shawn nodded," Have fun at a-a place."

They laughed nervously and walked out. "This is why I love you," I kissed him," You're jealous side is hot."

He laughed a little and pushed me onto the couch. He sat next to me and wrapped his arms around me. He kissed me passionately. I missed his kisses. He ran his fingers through my hair. I messed up his hair as I played with it. He held me tighter. I smiled a little. I couldn't stop kissing the perfect person in front of me. "I love you," he whispered in my ear and he kept kissing me. It ran chills through my body. I pulled him as close as he could. He picked me up and cornered me in a wall. He smirked and kept kissing me each kiss more passionate than the last. I put my legs around his waist. He spun me around and sat me on the countertop. I smiled a little and kept kissing him. I loved every second. I didn't want this adoration of him in my presence to end. He seemed to want me as much as I wanted him. He ran his fingers along my spine down to my butt. He gave it a small squeeze and I held onto him tight telling him I liked it. I tried to move as close as I could to him. His touch was gentle, but his lips demanded every kiss to lead to another. "Auburn, don't let this end," He said with a wink. He kissed me more demanding more passion. He wanted this forever. He pushed me back to the couch where he could be closer than ever. He was on top of me, but it was only for the closeness. Nothing like THAT. He held me tight. One hand on my butt and the other around my neck demanding our faces to devour each other. I kept my legs around his waist and my hands tangled in his hair. We finally stopped and he smiled at me.

He got off of me and helped me get up. "I love you," He said with a smirk. "I can tell," I said with a laugh. Everything was perfect. "That was a nice welcome home gift," he said. "Definitely not the last," I said with a wink," You're one heck of a kisser, Shawn."

He smiled and put his arm around me. I put my head on his shoulder. I loved every second with him.