Cam ran into Shawn and I cuddling. "Auburn, I need your help. Something happened," Cam said hurriedly. I looked at Shawn and he nodded in approval. I gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Coffee Shop tonight? Maybe 7:30?" I said. "You know it, princess," He said smiling. "Ugh I love you," I said.

I walked out of the door and closed the door. "You don't know how much I want those lips right now," Cam said staring my lips down. "No, Cam! I have Shawn! Now, what do you want?" I asked.

He grabbed my hand and led me to the parking lot and I got in his car. We drove to the beach and I saw Aaron there. "Okay. What is it?" I said.

"Do you really love him?" Aaron asked me. "Shawn? Yes of course! I love him so much!" I answered.

"O-Okay," Aaron said with a sigh.

"Did you think I was going to ditch Shawn?" I asked.

"I was hoping..," Aaron answered.

"Ugh! It's 6:45! Cam, take me to the coffee shop," I said. "I'll take you," Aaron said.

"I was asking Cam," I said. "I can't. Sierra wants me to come home for the night," Cam answered. Aaron smiled.

"Fine, but we gotta go now," I said. The car ride was silent. We didn't speak.

"Soo Shawn is home?" He said. "Yea and I'm really happy," I answered with a giggle.

"As long as you're happy," He mumbled under his breath.

"What?" I asked. "What?" He said back.

"You said something," I said.

"N-no I didn't," He answered.

I laughed a little and said," You're a dork. You totally said something! I bet it was cheesy like something trying to come off as sweet but it failed and it's cheesy."

"Probably was really cheesy to be honest," He said blushing a little.

"Aha! You did say something! Tell me," I said punching his arm lightly.

"Oh look! We are here. Uh have fun with S-Shawn," He said with a fake smile.

I nodded," Fine, Carpenter. You win this time, but I will get you!"

"Oh trust me…you already got me," He said blushing.

"Stop trying, Romeo,"I said with a laugh. I closed the door and walked into the café.

SHAWN'S POV

I saw that Auburn get out of Aaron's car. Ugh! I get so jealous around Cam and Aaron when they're with Auburn.

MY Auburn. Speaking of her, she walked into the café. She smiled brightly and sat across from me.

"Hey Shawn," She said with her cute little smile.

"Auburn, do you feel safe around Aaron and Cameron?" I asked.

She looked kind of confused," Why are you asking?"

"N-No reason I was just wondering," I stuttered and blushed a little.

"Shawn, you're jealous aren't you?" she asked. At that moment I wished that I had never said a single word.

"Just forget I said that, please?" I said looking down at my hot chocolate.

"Shawn, what's going on?" She asked.

"I-I don't know. C-Can we please talk about something else and we'll bring it back up at home?" I asked. I was personally hoping that she would forget about the conversation. She didn't.

======Auburn's Apartment========

I stared at her. "Well? What was it that you wanted to tell me?" She said.

"Auburn, I feel like I can't measure up. Cam and Carpenter are great guys and you went to them when you thought I was dead. My question is do you love me?" I asked her.

"Shawn! What kind of question is that?" She answered.

"Auburn! I'm serious! Take me seriously! Do you love me?" I said it slowly so that it would get through her head. This was serious.

"Shawn. Yes. I love you. I'll say it a million times to get it in your head," She answered.

"I feel like every time you say those words, they become more empty and those words shouldn't be thrown around like an object. Auburn, can we have a break from each other?" I said. I regretted the words, but they were for my wellbeing. I needed space.

"Oh. Y-yea sure. Um where are you going to stay during this 'break' from each other," she asked.

"Probably Cam and Carpenter's place. I'll pack up and move in with them tomorrow," I answered.

"Okay. So um I'm gonna go to bed early. Goodnight," She said. Her life from her face looked drained. She closed the door and I heard her crying. Softly, but enough for me to here.

I went into my room and laid on the bed. Did I make a mistake? I didn't want to think about it. I just drifted to sleep.

=====Next Morning=====

I had texted Cam asking if I could stay at his place during the break and he said yes. I packed my things and Auburn came out of her room. She still looked lifeless. I knew that she would kiss at least Aaron or Cam sometime during this 'break.'

"B-Bye," She said trying to hold back tears.

"Bye," I said. I walked out and closed the door behind me. I drove to Cam's place. I knocked on the door and he opened up.

Cam smiled," So your 'girl' is off limits?" I nodded. I walked in and put down my stuff. I sat down on one of his bean bags.

I saw Aaron getting dressed. "Why are you getting dressed, Aaron?" Cam asked.

"O-Oh I uh am going to see Auburn. She asked for me to come over. Shawn, are you okay," Aaron asked.

I shook my head. " I just didn't notice how hard this 'break' is gonna be," I said," Especially if it involves you guys going to her house to 'comfort' her."

"Your loss my dude," Cam said with a cheesy smile.

AARON'S POV

"Okay. If she is okay with kissing you, don't be scared," I said to myself in the car," Give her everything you wanted to give her and more. Show her how much you want her."

If I could, I would kiss her until I couldn't feel my lips.

I got to her apartment. I knocked on the door. She had a tank top with some leggings. Was she trying to get me to kiss her?

I wanted to, but what if she didn't want that?

"Don't think too much, Carpenter," She said smiling.

I smiled and gave her a small kiss. She kept her eyes closed like she didn't want to let go of that moment. She opened her eyes and gave me a look.

"I know you can do better than that," She said with a small smirk.

I put my arms around her and kissed her. I kissed her more desperate and demanding.

AUBURN'S POV

I know it was wrong, but this was what I wanted, right? Yea! I wanted this. I think. I decided not to think too much. I kissed him back wrapping my arms around his neck.

He pulled back. "What?" I said looking at him.

"T-This doesn't feel right. I'm sorry," He said. He started to walk away, but I grabbed his hand and pulled him back in for more. He kissed me and pushed me against the wall, but again he noticed what he was doing. He pulled back once more. "NO! GET OFF OF ME! WHAT ABOUT SHAWN?!" He yelled.

I shook my head," Who cares?" I started to lean in again, but he pushed me away.

"I care! You should too! I don't know what's going on, but let me know when THIS Auburn stops messing with OTHER Auburn," He said.

He walked out and slammed the door. I sat on the couch of my empty apartment. I felt alone. I felt forgotten. I felt like nobody cared and nobody did anyways.

I heard a knock on the door. I walked over and opened it. It was Cam. "What do you want? Do you want to use me too?" I said sadly.

"The only person being used is Me, Shawn, and Aaron. Stop doing this. Stop thinking that no matter how much you will hurt us that we will come back. We are done being your new guy to kiss and take over," He said.

"Cam, those words hurt," I said as tears filled my eyes.

"They weren't meant to heal," He said. He closed the door and walked away.

Nobody loved me. I wasn't wanted. I didn't ask for this. I hated this feeling. This feeling of loneliness. This feeling that I'm not enough. This feeling was overwhelming. I sat in my apartment and cried uncontrollably.

SHAWN'S POV

"Did you make out with her again, Carpenter?" I asked.

"Uh no. I kind of rejected her. Cam went over later and told her that we were tired of being just another guy to make out with," Aaron said.

I shook my head. I knew how unstable Auburn was. I bolted to my car and drove to her house. I pounded on her door. No answer. I kept pounding until I saw her. Her face was red from crying. Tears were rolling down her face and her lip quivered. I hugged her tightly. She was wearing an oversized sweatshirt. I knew why. I pulled up the sleeves. I saw the marks. The blood staining her skin. I shook my head in disbelief. I couldn't believe what was going on.

"Why? Why can someone as perfect as you hate herself so much?" I asked. I meant every word. They weren't words of pity. They were true. I didn't understand.

"I'm not perfect, Shawn. I'm far from it. Too far. I don't deserve you or anyone. I should be asking you how you deal with me," She said tearing up. I traced the marks on her wrists. She winced at the pain.

"I don't want you to be hurting yourself," I said starting to cry. She fell to the ground crying. "What is it?" I asked concerned.

"T-T-The pain. Shawn, help me," She said in despair. She pointed to her wrists. I called an ambulance. They came and I went into the ambulance with her. I held her hand. I didn't want to let go.

She looked at me almost lifeless, but a small smile spread across her face.

We got to the hospital and they ran several tests. She had major blood loss. It was too much. She was dying. Nothing could save her. She was dying.

I walked into her hospital room. "S-S-Shawn p-please stay w-with m-me. I-I-I need you here. I l-love you a-and I m-mean it," She said weakly.

"I know you do," I said starting to cry. She meant it. She loved me. A few minutes later, she died. She died next to me. It was all because of me that she died. I wanted to hold her again.

I attended the funeral. I cried. Pain filled my heart. She loved me. I felt this sudden feeling of comfort. She loved ME. Not Aaron. Not Cameron. ME. She loved me. I was enough for her. I was enough. I closed my eyes as every memory. I was missing her, but I was okay.

I wrote a small letter to Auburn:

I want you back. I'm sorry for every mistake. Every hateful word. I'm sorry. You died knowing I loved you. That's enough. I love you. I'm missing you.

Sincerely, Your Prince