Chapter 10 End to Begin

Dean blinked and they were back in the bunker. He drug his hand over his face and sighed. "Well what the hell am I supposed to do now?"

Cas shrugged his shoulders. "It's your choice."

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Carrie Beth was sitting at the long table in the bunker with a book in front of her when she heard the footsteps. She glanced up to see Dean walking towards the table and she grinned before she remembered he had disappeared two days ago. "And just where the hell have you been?" she asked seriously.

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you," he said before sitting down on the edge of the table.

She watched him quietly for a moment. "Did I convince you one way or the other?" she asked softly.

"What?"

"Castiel took you somewhere right? Somewhere to show you what things could be like."

Dean nodded but didn't speak.

"What… what did you see?"

Dean sighed and sat down in the chair next to her. "I saw us, happy with a family and a future. I saw Sam and… Jessica together and happy. It's a whole new world and if we make the right decision we can have that for ourselves."

She shook her head incredulously. "Why wouldn't we want that? What is there to think about?"

"I'm still not sure it's real."

"So I didn't convince you? The other version of me didn't make you believe."

"I want to believe Carrie Beth, I really do… but I don't like the idea of doing what those dickheads want us too," he leaned forward so that they were inches apart, "and I don't like the fact that the world will have to start over."

"But we won't know the difference Dean! Think about how different everything could be! Our parents would still be alive, my sister would still be alive! We… we could be normal! Why wouldn't you want that?"

"You just don't understand Carrie Beth…"

"No I don't Dean! I don't understand at all!"

Carrie Beth pushed away from the table and stalked away from Dean. "You sure have a way with women," Sam said from behind him.

"Yeah well we all can't be perfect like you… oh wait you are lonely and miserable I forgot."

"Jerk."

"Bitch."

"Where have you been?"

"Cas took me to see what things could be like if we follow the plan."

"You mean if you and Carrie Beth make a baby?"

"And birth said baby to be the light that destroys the atrocities and allows the world to start over and exist as was planned before some asshole opened the portal to purgatory… yeah he showed me what things would be like."

"And?"

"And what?"

"What was it like Dean?"

Dean sighed again and leaned back in his chair eyeing Sam who had pulled out a chair across from him and sat down. "It was fucking awesome," Dean said. "Carrie Beth and I had a family, a future. You were happy with… Jessica."

"She was alive? I didn't… I didn't lose her?"

Dean shook his head. "It was great."

"So, what's the hold up Dean? Go knock up your girlfriend so we can get this show on the road!"

"It's not that simple Sammy!"
"To hell it isn't! We could be happy Dean! This shitty life that we have been living could be happy and healthy! What is there to think about?"

"If its real ok… is what Cas showed me the real deal or are this sugar coating shit to make it look good so that I make the easy decision. I mean come on Sam when have those dickheads with wings ever been completely upfront with us about anything! I don't want to jump headfirst into this and not have the whole story laid out in front of me."

Dean pushed away from the table and started to pace. "We don't get a happy ending Sam. That was never in the cards for either of us."

"Why can't it be?" Sam asked. "Why can't we have the positive outlook for a change? Why can't we be the ones to finally be saved?"

"Because it's not fucking possible!" Dean yelled at him. "We are damaged goods! We… I break everything I touch and I don't deserve the happiness that Cas showed me. You do, but I… I don't."

"Why don't you deserve it Dean? Huh? Why after all the sacrifices we have made, that you have made, don't you deserve to be happy?"

"It's not me Sam! Ok! The… the house, the kids, the white picket fences… it's not me. I'm a screw up with a GED and a no guts no glory attitude. I'm a delinquent and I… I don't deserve any of this. If there was a way to get you the happiness you deserve and leave me out of it then I would be all for taking care of business."

"You have got to be the dumbest son of a bitch alive," Ellen said walking into the room. "Nobody deserves anything, but you have been blessed with the opportunity to change the world Dean! You can redo everything! Every wrong that all those monsters have done can be righted. It's not just about happiness Dean because I promise you that the version of yourself you met has not had a completely happy life. It's about doing what's right… and this… what you and Carrie Beth can accomplish… it's what's right."

Cas chose that moment to appear in the room beside Ellen. "Is it all true Cas?" Sam asked. "What you showed Dean?"

Cas nodded. "It is the truth."

"But what's the catch huh?" Dean asked angrily. "There has to be a catch. Otherwise why in the hell didn't we already know about this as an option?"

Cas stared at the floor and didn't speak. "Cas? Cas what are you not telling us?"

Cas began to stare at the ceiling and still didn't speak. "Damn it Cas you better tell me what the hell is going on!"

"It was all our fault," Cas said quietly.

"What?" Dean asked.

"God banished Lucifer, but he should have banished us all. My entire species deserves to be rotting in hell!"
Dean crossed his arms and waited for the rest of the explanation. Cas sighed and rolled his eyes before he continued. "This… this option is a redeeming opportunity for all angels. We all knew that God favored humans, his creation, and we were all jealous… but… but only Lucifer was punished."

"But God knew how you felt, he knows everything right?"

"He did know, but he could see that most of us were loyal to him and would not harm his creation. He gave us guardianship over humans and it was our job to protect them from destruction. But he gave you all free will and it made our jobs so hard! You were self-destructive from the beginning of time. When Naomi open the portal to purgatory she was trying to speed up the demise of your kind."

"Naomi?" Dean said. "But the texts say that it was a group of pagans."

"The texts are false," Cas said with a sigh, "Naomi and a group of her close followers opened the portal and released the atrocities onto Earth. But God was ever wiser and Naomi should have known better than to try to destroy mankind. God created hunters and gave them the ability to stop the atrocities from the mischief they could create. He then created the solution in the one true pairing and the child that would light the Earth and remove the darkness."

"You kept this a secret because you didn't want mankind to lose trust in you, didn't you?" Sam asked.

"We aren't… proud of it," Cas said. "Some of us tried to stop it but Naomi, Zachariah, Uriel, and others… they were too strong and then some of us were… blind to what they were doing."

"What about God?" Ellen asked. "Why didn't he stop them?"

"The atrocities kept getting in the way," Castiel said. "God cleansed the Earth of them several times, Noah's flood, the plagues, he put mankind at risk to destroy them but they always came back. Like the darkness once they were released there was only one way to destroy them all and that was with the light of the one true pair. He almost scrapped the whole Idea of man entirely but he loved you too much to destroy you."

Dean was glaring at Cas now with an intense frown. "I always knew that you had an agenda. That angels were not all fluffy helpers working to save man… but this Cas? This is unforgiveable."

"Dean…"

"No! You do not get to speak! You left us, all of us, to die because you were jealous? What kind of sixth grade mean girl shit is that Castiel?"

"It wasn't me…"

"But you allowed it to happen," Sam said standing next to Dean. "You blinded yourself to the evil that your siblings created and you left us to suffer!"

"Just as you have been blinded to Dean's evil and he to yours Sam!" Castiel yelled back. "Do not pretend that we are not all blinded in some way!"

"Enough!" Ellen shouted. "This ends now! The solution exists and we have to deal with what we can fix now, not the past. Go talk to Carrie Beth Dean, smooth it over so that you can get married and get started on that baby. That's the only way to solve this now."

"Get out Cas," Dean growled. "Don't come back until we call you."

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"Viktor," Simon said from his position at the barn door, "there's a woman standing in the clearing."

"I can't smell her," Viktor not looking away from the youngling that was dancing provocatively for him.

"She's not human."

Viktor turned his face towards Simon. "What is she?"

"I believe she's an angel brother."

He snapped his fingers at the youngling and she immediately disappeared from his lap. "Well by all means brother, let us go and find out what she wants."

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Carrie Beth was sitting on her bed with her back leaned against the wall. She heard footsteps coming up the hallway and waited for Dean to knock. She was kind of shocked when he just opened the door and came inside. "Hey," he said softly.

She nodded at him but didn't speak. "So, I know what the catch is… to happily ever after."

She stared at him and waited. "You aren't talking?"

She shook her head no and waited. "Fine. Ok. The angels caused all of this drama."

"What?"

"That got you to talk."

She threw a pillow at him but he caught it and tossed it back to her. "The texts say that pagans opened the portal and let out all the monsters, but that isn't true. The angels, all of them, have always been jealous of mankind so they opened the portal to hurry along the end but God created hunters to stop the monsters and the one true pair to end them completely."

She bit her lip and stared at him. "So what does this mean you ask?" he said speaking for her. "This means that we have the option to turn back time and it falls to you and me."

She sat crossed legged on the bed and patted the spot next to her for him to join her. He sat down and smirked at her and she couldn't help but grin back at those adorable dimples. "You're adorable," she said.

"And don't I know it," he replied.

Dean leaned to the side and reached into his pocket for something. "If we are going to do this Carrie Beth, we are going to do it right."

"What do you mean?"

He took her hand into his and slipped something onto her left ring finger. "Carrie Beth Singer I'm screwed up beyond repair. I break everything I touch and I don't deserve you, but would you consider becoming my wife and having my child."

She frowned at him. "You are such a stupid man," she said causing his mouth to drop open. "You have touched me and I'm not broken. I'll be your wife in this time and the next because no matter how broken we are we can heal each other."

He wrapped his arms around her and crushed her lips to his. The kiss was passionate and filled with want and need. Her arms went around his neck and she slipped into his lap trying to get closer to him. His hands slipped beneath her shirt and the moan she made against his mouth made him rock hard and ready.

"Carrie Beth Singer!" Ellen yelled slamming the door open. "Lord help me we better get you two to the JP now before you screw up."

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The ceremony was simple. She wore a floral patterned dress that Ellen had conjured up from somewhere and she carried a simple bouquet of wild flowers that Dean had gathered from outside the bunker. Dean and Sam were dressed in suits they probably used for cases but she couldn't take her eyes off of him. She may have been getting married in an untraditional manner but she was marrying the love of her life and she knew it was true. The JP in town hadn't asked for anything but signatures thanks to some well-placed hundred dollar bills and suddenly she was Mrs. Dean Winchester.

The left Sam standing on the steps of the small town city hall. "Cas is coming to get him," Dean said at her questioning glance.

"Then where are we going?" she asked.

"Well Mrs. Winchester, I think you deserve a wedding night away from your parents and my brother don't you?"

She grinned at him and reached for his hand. "I have to say I was worried about that just a little bit," she said shyly. "I mean they know we have been together, but it would be uncomfortable waking up in the morning knowing my parents are right there, even in ghost form."

Dean kissed her knuckles and growled loudly when she ran her other hand up his pants leg to settle just below his crotch. "Besides, I don't want to keep quiet tonight," she cooed at him and he pressed the gas pedal down and sped towards their destination.

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The hotel wasn't the typical dive that he and Sam usually stayed in when they were on the road. He parked the car and ran around to open Carrie Beth's door for her. She kissed him gently when she exited the Impala and he grinned at her. She was his and no one else could claim her. His chest puffed out with pride at that thought. "Hang on a second and let me grab the bags," he said closing her car door.

He opened the trunk and removed a couple of duffle bags and he looked up to find her staring at him curiously. "Ask Ellen," he said, "she got you some things together and packed you a bag."

She briefly wondered how a ghost get some things together and as if reading her thoughts Dean said, "Cas helped her."

The young lady at the front desk obnoxiously eyed Dean up and down as they approached. Can I help you?" she said breathily.

"Reservation for Mr. and Mrs. Dean Winchester," he said smoothly causing Carrie Beth to grin.

"Married, figures," the young woman said rudely as she typed into her computer. She reached beneath the desk and pulled out a small envelope with two plastic key cards inside. "Just staying the one night?" she asked and Dean nodded. "Ok then you are in room 417 enjoy your stay."

Dean took the cards and handed them to Carrie Beth who led the way to the elevator. Their room was at the end of the hall and she smiled when the key card caused the lock to click open. "Wait," Dean said as she pushed the door open. He tossed the duffel bags through the door and picked her up bridal style. "I have to carry you across the threshold," he said kissing her softly.

"You just better not drop me," she said with a giggle.

"Oh I'm going to drop you, right in the middle of that king sized bed!"

She laughed loudly when he did just that and watched him walk back to close and lock the door and bring the bags further into the room. "Man you have a nice ass," she said out loud and covered her mouth quickly.

"Thank you beautiful," Dean said with a chuckle. "You have quite a nice ass yourself. And nice breasts, a beautiful smile, and hips that go wild when I am near them." He was staring at her now. "And did I mention how sweet that blush is as it spreads across your cheeks."

His words made her blush harder. She moved onto her knees and met him at the edge of the bed. Grabbing the lapel of his suit jacket she pulled him to her and gave him a deep passionate kiss. "I'm going to freshen up and I'll be right back," she said as she kissed him again causing him to growl at her.

She pushed off the bed and grabbed the duffle bag that she had previously used. She winked at him over her shoulder before disappearing into the bathroom. Dean shrugged out of his suit jacket and sat down to remove his shoes and socks. He was a married man. He glanced down at the simple gold band on his left ring finger and smiled. He really couldn't believe that she was his.

He glanced up when heard the bathroom door open and his jaw slacked at the site of her. "Damn Ellen has good taste," he said staring at her hungrily.

Carrie Beth had been a little surprised to find the lingerie in the bag, but she had been happy her mother had thought about something special for her to wear. She knew it was worth the moment of embarrassment that her mother had picked out her wedding night lingerie when she saw Dean's eyes on her. The top was a simple white halter neck that split into a V shape just below her breasts. The bottoms were a pair of ruffled boy shorts with a sweet pink bow at the waist. "You are so fucking sexy," Dean said as she walked towards him. She settled herself standing in between his legs and shivered as he ran his fingers over her exposed skin.

Dean made a mental note to thank Ellen later before he pulled Carrie Beth into his lap and wrapped her legs around his waist. He ran his hands through her hair and gripped the sides of her face as he kissed her mouth and neck. She moaned as he hit a sensitive spot along her collar bone and that simple sound caused an intense physical reaction in him that she was immediately aware of against her core.

He stood, lifting her in the process and pushed her back onto the bed. She helped him unbutton his shirt and went to work on his belt while he pulled shirt off and tossed it on the floor. When his belt was undone she unzipped him and slipped her hand inside to grip him through his boxers. He groaned at her touch and gently bucked his hips against her hand. He pulled back from her and finished undoing his pants and kicking them off onto the floor before he joined her on the bed. He covered her with his body and she reveled in the sudden heat he created from touching her.

He kissed her neck and down into the valley between her breasts while she moved her hands in a steady rhythm up and down his back. He reached for the simple bow that held the top of her lingerie together and with a quick tug pushed the sides back to reveal her beautiful, full breasts. He kissed a hot line across both breasts and she arched against him when he took one nipple into his mouth[DJ1] to suckle.

He lapped at her breasts until both nipples were intense, pink peaks and then he covered her again and she gasped at the feel of his naked chest against hers. "Dean," she moaned against his mouth allowing him to slip his tongue inside to mate with hers.

He broke the kiss to dispose of the top of her lingerie set and hooked his thumbs into the band of her bottoms before slowly sliding them down her legs. "Fuck me," he whispered.

"That's the general idea," she said with a giggle and he smirked at her.

"Draw your knees up baby," he said and groaned as she complied.

He could see the moisture glistening along her nether lips and he slid a finger along her slit causing her to quickly inhale. "You are so beautiful Carrie Beth," he leaned over and breathed in her heady scent and was mesmerized for a moment because her smell was intoxicating.

She watched him anxiously. "Dean?" she said questioningly. "What are you…"

She didn't finish her question because it turned into a gasp and then a moan as his mouth made contact with her center. She began mewling softly and arching her hips against his tongue. He took the opportunity to slip two fingers inside of her soft, wet folds and it was only moments before her walls began to tighten around his fingers. He backed away from her slowly and pulled his boxers down and tossed them away before climbing back on the bed. "No condom right?" he asked before he advanced towards her.

"No condom," she agreed and grinned as he crawled up her body towards her mouth.

His kiss was passionate and she naturally opened her mouth to him. She drew her knees up again and he edged his bare member inside of her slowly, relishing the feel of her warmth against him. When he was fully sheathed inside of her she wrapped her legs around his waist to pull him even deeper. "Dean," she moaned out as he began to move in and out of her slowly.

He grunted with each thrust and she dug her nails into his back without realizing because she was trying to hold on to what dignity she could muster as her body began to undulate by itself beneath him. She panted quickly and cried out as she reached the precipice and fell off into an amazing orgasm. When he felt her muscles squeeze him he thrust again and poured his seed deep within her. He thrust quickly several more times behind his orgasm and allowed her walls to milk every last drop from him before he collapsed on top of her.

They both were breathing heavily as he moved his weight off of her and kissed her shoulder. "I'm going to be pissed if we get pregnant straight off," she said to the ceiling.

"Why?" he asked kissing her mouth. "I've heard that pregnant sex is beyond amazing for both partners."

"But I'll be fat and swollen and ugly and you won't want me anymore."

He smirked at her. "Carrie Beth Winchester you will be carrying our baby and that is the damn sexiest thing I can think of right now." He didn't add that he had already seen her pregnant and she was beyond beautiful.

"I love you Dean," she said rubbing lazy circles at the base of his back.

Those simple words made him react physically. "I love you too Carrie Beth," he said moving back on top of her.

"Again?" she asked.

"And again and again and again," he said slipping back inside of her.

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Simon sniffed the air. "They smell like sex," he said turning his nose up.

"It's too bad Carrie Beth didn't wait for me," Viktor said with a grimace. "Her first time would have been amazing had she waited for me to turn her."

"You still plan to turn her?"

Viktor nodded. "She will be my new mate."

"She will never replace Marla."

"No, but she will help me to forget Marla."

"Do we kill the hunter?"

"Yes Simon, he has married her and mated her. He has to die or we will be forever chased by him."

"What about his brother?"

"He will come eventually to find out what happened but there will be no trace of either of them. He will assume they ran off together and left him behind."

"Do you trust the angel? The one named Naomi?"

"No Simon, I do not trust her or the knowledge she has shared. I trust that Carrie Beth is supposed to be mine and I will make that happen."

"But what of this one true pairing…"

"Nonsense, humans always think they have a soul mate, but they do not possess the 6th sense to grasp a soul mate."

"When?"

"We will move in once the sun has set. If they are asleep that is good but if not it will be a fair fight and I will enjoy it immensely."

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Carrie Beth woke up screaming from the horrible nightmare. Dean immediately bolted upright in the bed in search of the danger. When he realized they were safe he pulled the sobbing Carrie Beth into his arms and rocked her back and forth. "It was just a dream baby, just a nightmare."

He kissed her forehead and rubbed her back as she fought to regain control. Once she seemed somewhat settled he got up from their bed and went to the bathroom to turn on the shower. When it was steamy he went back to the bed and pulled Carrie Beth to him. "Let's take a shower," he murmured close to her ear and she nodded her agreement.

The hot water and Dean's hands on her shoulders and back and breasts soothed her. "Was it about Viktor?" he asked while he was kissing her back and running his hands up and down her ribs.

She shook her head yes. "It was awful Dean. He was… he was here watching us. He and Simon… they…" she choked back a sob, "they broke into the room and… you were fighting Simon to get to me and I was trying to get away from Viktor…"

"Fuck," Dean said angrily.

"It was just a dream," Carrie Beth reassured him.

"I'm a fucking idiot Carrie Beth."

"What?"

"I was so focused on getting you to bed that I didn't lay down any wards to protect the room. I'm a fucking idiot and I have probably put is both in danger!"

She turned in his arms intent on distracting him from beating himself up but he wouldn't let her. "We aren't protected by the bunker anymore and this would be the perfect time for them to get to you. I'm lethal when cornered but I don't know that I can handle both of them by myself and keep you safe. We have got to get out of here now."

"Dean don't you think you are over reacting? How would they even know we are here?"

"My gut says they know and I've learned to trust it over the years. Get dressed we have got to get out of here now."

Carrie Beth turned off the shower and grabbed a towel to dry off. Dean didn't even bother with a towel but stalked out of the bathroom naked. She heard the click of a gun and she bolted out of the bathroom with a towel halfway around her. "Dean? Do you have a gun?"

"I have several," he answered.

"I didn't think you could kill a vampire that way."

"You can't but it will slow them down enough for us to get in the car and get the out of here."

Carrie Beth grabbed some underwear and a pair of denim shorts out of her bag. She dressed quickly, pulling a t-shirt over her head before she started looking for shoes. "I still think you are overreacting," she muttered before a loud knock sounded at the door.

Dean had pulled on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and was just about to grab some socks and his boots when the knock occurred. He grabbed Carrie Beth and pulled her behind him. "Who is it?" he yelled.

There was no answer but the hair on Carrie Beth's neck stood on end. "Bathroom, now," he said to her keeping her shielded behind him. Dean managed to just close the door before the door to the room flew open leaving a gaping hole in the wall. "Get under the counter," Dean told her and she watched the gentle man she had come to know change into a hardened hunter before her eyes.

"Oh Carrie Beth," came a sing song voice from outside the bathroom door. "Don't you just smell delicious? That innocent scent is gone because that asshole took what belong to me, but don't worry he'll pay for being your first. And once he's dead, I'll be the only one to have you for the rest of eternity."

"Do you have your phone?" Dean asked her without looking back.

"Shit… no it's on the table next to the bed."

"Fuck, mine is too." Dean squatted down next to her and she noticed he was barefooted. "Cas," he said softly into the bathroom, "if you can hear me we are in trouble… I didn't lay down any wards and Viktor is here."

"Do you think that will work?"

"I hope," Dean said taking aim at the bathroom door.

A low growl emitted from the other side of the door. "I smell the blood of a dead man. This hunter's got balls," came another male voice.

"Silence Simon. He is just another stupid hunter like the rest who think they are superior to our kind. We will teach him differently. Do you hear me hunter? You can fire your silly weapon all you want but you will not cause us harm. If you are a good boy I might kill you before we change Carrie Beth, but if you are naughty like I sense you to be then you will watch as I change her into one of us."

"You won't touch her," Dean growled at the door.

"Ah, your feelings are strong. Much stronger than I anticipated." Viktor said outside the door. "But it doesn't matter, it just means your blood will taste so much sweeter."

"Don't think you can call for help either hunter," Simon said. "Our younglings have taken care of the staff and other guests and are making themselves quite useful right now."

"Damn it, Cas if you can hear me it's an ambush waiting to happen."

Carrie Beth lay a hand on Dean's shoulder. "Let me go Dean. Don't fight them."

He stared at her incuriously. "What? What the hell? You don't know what you are saying Carrie Beth."

"It's the only chance we have," she swallowed. "Let me go, but you sure as hell better come save me because if you let them turn me into one of those things… I'm not sure what I'll do but it will be bad."

Dean stared at her and back at the bathroom door. "No! There has to be another way!"

Carrie Beth pulled him to her for a deep kiss. "There isn't Dean, but I know you'll save me. You don't have a choice. Now move and let me go."

"Her plan is sound hunter, let her come to us and you will be spared. We don't want you, we want her."

Dean sat back on the floor and watched Carrie Beth move out from under the counter and towards the bathroom door. "Viktor," she said softly, "I'm coming out." Dean heard the fear in her voice and had to hold back the vomit.

"This is wrong," he said, but she ignored him.

She opened the door to see Viktor and Simon grinning. "Look Simon, we have a new pet. Isn't she lovely?"

"Too bad she has been soiled," Simon said.

"We will overcome that problem. I have heard of a method to sew the hymen back together so that it can be broken again. Maybe we should try that for our little pet."

Carrie Beth let out a sob but quickly regained control. "Just take me already," she whispered and suddenly the world went black.