damonika2009: yeah I cant wait to write that part. I kept trying to find a suitable character for the person that was a means to an end for our couple in the beginning but I honestly couldn't see Setsuna as the type to do such things. It was to OCC for even this, for what I had planned that is. Rei was the one with the more aggressive personality…at least the character we received during the original anime in the first few seasons…and Beryl is to over used along with Ann at some points.
Freakangel: HA! Hilarious. I love those ones to. I read a few that I could find for inspiration that way I could get a better feel of what I could stretch her character to do within reason.
MarSofTheGalaxies: lol good to hear! Mamoru is going to be completely lost when the shit hits the fan. Especially with their back round.
kera69love: soon it is.
Xoreese: thanks, I tried to catch all the errors but I guess some slipped through. Check this one out and see how it fairs.
fantasy4luvr: its going to be a treacherous journey for them…but full of sex. Lol
SMSM92: the seiya thing will be revealed later on but first our couple has to go through a few more things. She has to be able to explain herself to him but at any point she will try he won't hear it…to that end I can't wait to write that moment to! lol she just sees Chibi Usa as a mini Usagi. she's civil but otherwise not trustworthy. As for you're a & B system yes she's been planning this since ever…she just didn't think she'd have to use it. as for Mamoru its not really insecurity but more along the lines of so trusting in her that it blinds him to other facts that he missed and has lead to this.
OrientalDanceGirl: I actually had to add on for my notes regarding the ending because I had realized I didn't tie Rei's end of so she'll be dealt with. as for my earlier 'Usako' fic, I got the idea from the t.v. show 'Nikita'…only I revamped it and changed a lot around, I didn't think about Mamoru for it being in reverse. Nice idea.
mryann: thanks!
Guest (10): Drama and romance along with action are my specialty. lol
Wow 10 reviews on the first chapter! Pretty awesome! Now things will be building up to how things go along and like I said in the first one I'm not very well knowledgeable on the laws of Japan so any inaccuracies are really needed to further advance the story. Sorry for the late update, my BF's sister had another asthma attack that rendered her unconscious…she's just now woken up so we've all been a bit stressed out. Please read and review!
Shattered Pieces ch.2
Mamoru POV
I was thankful to Rei for cooking dinner tonight. I just needed to relax a bit before going into the details of the divorce packet. Seeing Usagi today brought up things I hadn't expected to be brought up. I'd forgotten how stubborn she could be and how much she could affect me. Hell seeing her there today…I closed my eyes willing away the want and need that I felt. It didn't obey and instead reminded me of how things used to be.
Without the circumstances involved I would have had her bent over the table in the conference room. That's how much she still affects me. I opened my eyes, anger and lust in them. Anger that she still had this power over me even after this amount of time had passed and lust because I still desired her above anyone else. I licked my lips remembering with crystal clear clarity our last time together.
We had been in the kitchen much like Rei and I had been only Usagi was in her little apron. I remember beneath it was a skirt and a t shirt. She had changed once she got home to cook dinner without getting her work clothes dirty. The apron reached past her shorts making me feel urges that a stupid frilly apron shouldn't make anybody feel. It really was a stupid looking apron. Pink with white bunnies on it.
But she had looked as delectable as she did innocent. I remembered pulling her skirt up over her hips and unzipping myself to push into her from behind. I had even snaked a hand up under her shirt and bra to grasp at her succulent breasts. She moaned for me in a manner than was only befitting a woman of her nature. Kind, caring, loving…apparently to anybody. I clenched my eyes closed and felt the nausea rise again.
I hated it when I remembered Usagi and Seiya. Rei's expressive words on that day made me feel sick to my stomach. It made me feel ill even now. I stood up and got out a bottle of bourbon from the cabinet I had in the office. Getting my Cibi double blade runner whisky glass out, a very nice gift from Usagi, I poured the bourbon into it as it aired it out to perfection and took a swig of the burning liquid.
Taking a swing made me remember when she got it for me and the blow job that accompanied it, "Kami – sama!" I almost threw the glass into the nearby wall. "Why can't I get you out of my head?" I moaned in agitation. Then something hit me. I knew it had been a while…in fact the last time I had had sex was with Usagi three years ago. I couldn't fathom sleeping with anyone else since then. I had had other women prior to her but she was special.
I had to do something regarding this need of mine. Seeing her only made me realize how much I still wanted her. Needed her. My soon to be ex-wife, the mother of our daughter. I even remember the night we figured out when we conceived Chibi Usa. The couch never looked the same after that. I shouldn't want her but the heart and body will desire whom they want to desire and damn everyone else.
It was whether or not you choose to accept it and head into it bearing the consequences or fought against it like hell cat. Usako was a hell cat, she'd never willingly jump back into bed with me, not after the things I've said to her. Didn't make me want her any less though. I pondered on it for a moment. Maybe there was a way…make her pay for her betrayals against me. She was still probably fucking that Seiya friend of hers.
Maybe if I made it a stipulation she was have to sleep with me and then I'd be rid of her from my system and make her feel as she made me feel. Like getting a song stuck in your head so you listen to it so you get sick of it and never want to hear it again. So I came up with a new game plan and finally felt like I was back in charge of my emotions. The anger dissipated and soon I found myself grinning.
Maybe now that I'm working this angle she'll be forced to deal with not just me but also suffer the humiliation of her crimes. Seiya wouldn't want her after I've had her…again. He may have stolen her from me before but this time I'll make it so he wouldn't dare to touch her again. I'll make her pay for cheating on me by making her unable to do anything but what she has to legally do. I had some calls to make.
Usagi POV
Getting off of my late shift at the arcade was tiring but at least it afforded me a little bit extra time to pay off more of my student loans but to also get some online homework done. The benefit of online courses. We wound up getting so dead on some nights that my boss didn't mind me being on my phone for the courses. Of course the moment a customer came in they were my first priority.
After that ended I went to pick up Chibi Usa at the daycare center. I had to be precise in my timing if I wanted to pick her up before they started to charge double for the same amount of time. Midnight was the latest before they charged double so getting off work at 11:30 pm and hitching a ride on the bus in time to get there before midnight was tough but manageable. I just had to wait for the next bus to come which would be the last one of the night so I could take Chibi Usa home.
I had been ignoring Mamoru's calls since seven pm that night. Mostly so I could work on schooling and work at work but also because I really needed to keep my mind off of him. I hated how he still made me feel. He had this way of centering in on me and making me feel like the spotlight was right there. This divorce should have been settled by now. Done with but our continued rejection of each other's propositions kept that from happening.
Not to mention any time we would try to settle out of the presence of our lawyers Rei's presence would send us both into hissing cat territory. I demanded last time that she not be there but she refused stating she was the mediator for us. Bull shit. She was there for her own purposes and he wouldn't schedule one without her there so I refused to come to them anymore until she was not present. Which puts us in this precarious position of ignoring calls, texts and going through lawyers that try to coordinate as well.
Three years later we were finally done with trying and actually making action happen. I just wish this hadn't had to have happened. Fine so Rei wanted Mamoru but to the cost of his family? She lied and manipulated him and it broke us all up. Though there was the fact that he didn't believe his wife of two years nor gave the chance to explain. Rei would always tell him that anything from me was a lie and it wasn't worth his time. He was so blinded by his loyalty to her he failed as a husband to me.
So as I laid Chibi Usa down in her bed I walked back into the living room and shed my uniform off leaving only my bra and panties on. The dull worn out and now very light set were once a precious gift from Mamoru. They were his favorite shade of hunter green. Of course now they resembled more of a faded coloring. Much like our marriage. Faded. I took the baby monitor by the couch and into the bathroom with me.
Leaving it on the counter I took a shower to wash off the day's dirt and grim. It felt good to do this every night. I felt renewed every time. However every time I left the shower and bathroom I was reminded of my situation. I cried and wept once more as I thought of my soon to be ex-husband. I still cared so much for him, still loved him and desired him. Seeing him today reminded me that he still looks like the same man I fell in love with and have had a hard time falling out of love with.
He looked like our failed marriage hadn't done him any harm. Like he was fine as anything and I was the one that sizzled out. It was as if time stood still for him. From his hair to his impeccably dressed suit. It sucked to see him doing so well while I looked like I walked out of a hot sweaty mess. My skin even looked dull and pasty. My ankles looked like they had permanent sock marks on them.
"I miss how we used to be…" I muttered in the living room. Only a lamp on to give off light, the towel around me still wet but not wet enough to get the couch wet. So I dropped it off and put my undergarments back on just as I heard my phone going off again. I ignored it at first, preferring to check in on Chibi Usa instead. I felt bad for taking her away from Mamoru but with Rei around I couldn't afford to lose her even more so.
I knew Rei would either sour her against me to possibly even mistreat her just to spit me. It hurt to take our daughter away but I couldn't let Chibi Usa get manipulated either. I knew I'd have to pay for the sins of removing her from him but I did it for Chibi Usa…she was my daughter I had to do something. Even if I still sometimes regretted taking her with me. Not because I didn't love her but because it hurt Mamoru so deeply. Funny thing is despite me taking her he never once called the agency for that type of thing to have her brought back to him.
He knew I'd do everything I could to provide a home for her. I knew he loved her beyond anything. I also knew that the guilt I felt wouldn't go away. She needed her father in her life and he and I needed to work this out so that she could have him there. The phone was still ringing so as tired as I was I answered it, "What do you want? Its late." I already knew who it was. I never deleted his number from my phone. There was no point since we hadn't officially divorced yet. I pulled a blanket over me on the couch.
"We need to talk. In person. No one else just me and you." he stated. He sounded different. He sounded full of authority and I hated to admit it but he also sounded alluring. Like he wasn't taking no for an answer and he KNEW how his dominating nature made me feel. At the same time we needed to talk. I couldn't take Chibi Usa from her father away anymore. He deserved to see his daughter, so I responded. "Agreed."
"Sunday evening. My place." He demanded. It wasn't unreasonable. "After I get off work. I can have one of the girls watch Chibi Usa for an extra hour or two." I told him. "JUST as long as Rei isn't there." I made a demand of my own, "Fine. This is just between us anyways. Then maybe we can finally settle on this matter once and for all." He stated. "Hopefully. See you then." I hung up before he could retort.
It was two days away and I felt like things were spinning for me. My gut was tumbling and I felt nauseous. I began to softly cry. I truly didn't want to be away from him. I loved him still so much that I worked myself to exhaustion not simply to pay off loans and Chibi Usa's schooling but to also avoid feeling like this. The feeling that accompanied me whenever I thought about him for more than a few minutes. Regret. Pain. Hate.
Regret because I should have tried harder to make him see the truth, that I didn't cheat. Even if I did bring it up he wouldn't believe me. He didn't the first dozen times I tried why believe me now? Pain, because the man I loved since I was a teenager, the man that I gave my virginity to, the man that even after being separated from made me feel alive and passionate for gave up and choose to listen to someone else and not even give my words a try.
He didn't even check out my word, he didn't talk to Seiya. Only punched him in the face. He'd much rather believe his 'sister' than believe anything from his own wife and that truly hurt me deep to my core. Lastly hate. Because I hated that he couldn't see things from where I stood. He couldn't see how flawed his thinking was. Hate because deep down inside I hated myself for still wanting him. For still loving a man that no longer loved me. I quieted my sobs down and set my alarm to wake me up in the morning. I had a long day ahead of me.
Mamoru POV
My wi – sorry soon to be ex-wife, had a problem with being on time so I fully expected her to be late to this meeting. I was pleasantly surprised when she arrived on time and this time in regular street clothes. Well if jeans and t shirt are street clothes. "Let's get this over with. I'd rather not have to deal with Minako – chan buying Chibi Usa to many pink frilly things. She already has enough." I presumed her friend was taking our daughter out shopping.
"At this time of night?" I asked, "Hai, Chibi Usa knows what time her bed is. Minako – chan promised her a small shopping trip so at eight pm they will leave and she will be ready for bed passed out from the trip." She answered. I didn't agree with it but hell what did I know, I hadn't seen my daughter in years by this point. "Let's get this over with." I recite her earlier words and pull out the papers that I had re-written with my lawyer over the past two days.
He managed to find a legal way to put what I wanted into the decree I was elated. It wasn't easy though but I do have the best lawyer in the city of Tokyo at my back so this was challenging but not impossible for him. She started to go through the papers. Sitting down on the couch as the papers were on the coffee table. I closed my eyes trying to focus on that matter at hand. It was difficult however when your still very desirable ex was looking very much like a prompt business woman.
It shouldn't have been enticing but it was. She didn't lean back and cross her legs as if she were to stay, she kept leant forward as she reviewed over the papers. "Petition for dissolution of marriage." She read out loud. Her voice held a touch of hate in it. As if she truly hated the idea of being divorced or separated from me. I knew how she felt but she was the one who caused this not me.
"The first few pages are the standard legal crap." I began, wanting her to understand the legal jargon that lawyers are wanting to be present for but in this case aren't needed. "Spousal support isn't needed." She tells me. "It isn't for you. Read further." I reply back. She looks further into it, "Spousal support will be converted into a bank account for Chiba, Usagi, daughter of Usagi and Mamoru." She looked up to me, "Bank account?" she asked.
"Hai, meaning when our daughter reaches the age of eighteen she'll have it as her own bank account for college." I explained. She smiled, "That I can accept." She initialed in the appropriate area for that one. It was the next part that I knew would throw her for a loop but she would have no choice. "The hell is this?" she demanded. Grabbing the paper up as if holding it would make the words go away.
"You want to only be separated during this time not divorced?!" she was confused. "Read on." I tell her. She continues to read on and her eyes bug out of her head almost, "Are you – why would you put that in there?!" she demanded. I grinned, "Which part?" I asked, wanting her to say it out loud. "Party of the – seriously? You want sex?!" she snapped and rose to her full height. I was wondering when she'd get to that part.
"Hai. I want for you to do as it states in that decree." I walked forward. Feeling more confident and in control of the situation than I did before. In fact, the idea was making me near giddy with pleasure. "You can't be serious?" I smiled, "This can't be legal!" she yelped. Her face red with a mix of embarrassment and anger. Good now she'll start to know how things feel. "It's true, read it and weep." She glanced back down at the papers. "I don't believe this." She slammed them down on the coffee table.
"This can't be legal to have me follow your every sexual desire. And there's not even a time limit." She pouts towards the end. "For as long as I deem it necessary." I near ordered, wanting to express the need for her now. However, seeing her anger made me upset to. I walked forward to where she was, "My lawyer found every legal loophole there was to make this happen." I explained. "Why?" she looked back up to me.
"You gave yourself away to another man years ago…" she rolled her eyes and it pissed me off. I got up in her face, "Don't roll your eyes at me!" I shouted at her. "You're a complete baka!" she screeched. This is why Rei was needed to stop this screaming match. "You fucked another man years ago don't think I'll ever forget that!" she opened her mouth to talk again but I didn't want to hear her excuses.
"And stop trying to lie about Seiya." I nearly spat his name at her. "You whored yourself to him ears ago so STOP lying! No more! I'm sick of it!" I snapped at her. "I'm not lying I never slept with him he's - " I cut her off, "Fuck your excuses!" her fists were clenched. She was writhing in her anger it was so strong. "Rei lied to you. How can you NOT see that?!" She ground out. "Rei – chan wouldn't lie to me. I know her. You however…" I couldn't even finish my sentence I was so pissed off.
"I couldn't ever fathom being with any other than you." she tells me, her emotions in her voice. I almost believed her words…almost. Rei wouldn't lie though. "I want that time with you in the sac back for as long as I feel like it. When I'm done then you're done." She slapped me. Hard. Harder than I thought she could. "You're a fucking bastard for this." She walked around the coffee table to get away from me.
"This can't be legal." She snaps walking towards the door. "Oh it is very legal." I turned around as she turned back to me, her back now to the door she was about to walk out of. "In fact if you don't agree to it I'll seek sole custody of our daughter." I could see how pissed off she was getting, "You wouldn't dare." I changed my mood, "You broke our vows and betrayed me, trust me I WOULD dare." She stiffened and went to talk. I needed her to hear me, "And before you try to say anything hear this." I would get what I wanted.
"What?" she demanded, "That I listen to more of this bullshit?" she was trying to keep her emotions in check, "I want you both to move back in." her eyes widened. "Are you insane? I'm not living under the same roof that Rei visits in a regular basis. That woman hates me and me her!" she shouted. "No choice. Besides Rei – chan's going on a business trip in a few days, she won't have a need to stop by." I tell her.
"I do have a choice. I can choose no." she said, acting haughty. I rose my brow at her, "I have an apartment…besides I can't break the lease. To do that I'd have to pay at least three months in advance and I don't have that type of yen to do that so forget it." she grabbed the door handle and made to leave. So I hit her one last time, "When you decide to do it call me. That ISN'T changing." The door slammed shut. "She'll be back." I knew it.
Usagi POV
The nerve of that man! I put it all to the back of my mind as I went to pick up Chibi Usa from Minako's. "Hey how was she?" I asked her. "She was great, passed out twenty minutes ago." I knew Minako would be great to watch over her. Those two were like peas in a pod at times. "I'm glad." I picked her up. "So how did it go?" she asked. "Not as expected. I'll explain later. I need to get her into her bed." I tell her.
I got on the bus and took Chibi Usa back to our place. I rushed to place her gently on the bed before leaving out and looking around. Being back at my old home felt nostalgic. He hadn't changed it one bit since I left. It still felt warm and comfortable. Like home. This apartment felt like a means to an end. But I wasn't about to give in to his ridiculous demands. Not that I would mind sharing a bed with him again but – "What is wrong with you to think that way?!" I chided myself on that.
He accused you of cheating, didn't listen and still won't! I knew I was right but I couldn't help but feel desire towards the man. I still loved him very much I just hated what Rei did to him and what her LET her do to him. "I won't give in." I promised myself…yet…I looked at the bedroom door, "Why do I feel like I really won't have a choice?" I muttered to myself. He was right on a lot of things though, he held more power and a better attorney than I did.
"Question is would he really seek sole custody just to spite me?" I wondered. I remember that look in his face. He was still upset. "Hai…" I blinked the tears away. "He would. I have to figure out a way to stop him." but that would have to come tomorrow. Tonight I needed sleep and I would get it. Stripping from my clothes I took a shower, baby monitor inside as well making sure that I could hear her if she needed me.
That night I couldn't sleep well. I didn't usually toss and turn so much but these stipulations were bothering me. It was almost as if I didn't mind what he was asking for. Don't get me wrong I missed Mamoru in bed, very much but I was still angry with him for his actions regarding our divorce and how he treated me and Seiya with it. It was five am now and I was still unable to sleep so I paced the living room hoping to tire myself out but only revved myself up. So when time came to get Chibi Usa to work I got her in and was on my way to work.
"Hey – why the strange look?" I asked my boss Motoki. He'd been like an older brother to me since I was a young teenager. His friendship with Mamoru had been the best till things between Mamoru and I soured. I explained things to him but once he tried to talk to Mamoru he got the same cold shoulder. I felt bad and we became closer for it ever since. "You don't work today." He answered.
I sighed, "Wow, I've been going for so long I forgot when my off days were." in truth I had been running around so much that I had problems keeping up with my flexing work schedule. Its why I showed up today. "Its fine but go on, go home and enjoy your day off." He assured me. Smiling in relief I made to leave when I thought of something, "What about an extra shift?" I asked. The hope in my voice.
"Gomen, not enough hours for that." he replied. "Worth a shot." I said and walked out. I thought about what to do till the next bus came, I wasn't staying here till Chibi Usa's school let out. So I decided to try to clear the air due to this divorce issue was dealt with. Making a decision I took the bus to a familiar place. The temple. I hadn't been here since my first year of marriage with Mamoru. I smiled recalling how he sometimes couldn't wait for us to be alone with one another and would make up an excuse for us to leave.
That was then and this is now. I walked up the steps and found Rei there sweeping the last few, "Been a while." I got her attention. She rose her head up and gave me those hateful eyes, "What do you want? This is sacred grounds." Her tone broke no argument. I wasn't welcome here. I wasn't in the mood for pleasantries anyways so I would make this quick. "Listen lets skip the I hate you, you hate me thing and cut to the chase." I told her.
She looked to me pensively. Oh goodie looks like she's actually willing to hear me out. Shocking on that one. "Talk." She ordered. She had a thing for doing that. Enjoyed giving me orders even when we were teenagers. I followed to a certain extent but she wasn't always right and the girls soon realized this and followed suit. She didn't like that. I was hoping she was more reasonable now than when we last talked.
"Cause if it's to try and reason your whoring tendencies think again." she snapped. Yep still clearly hating me. You'd think by now she'd have let this all go. She had me and Mamoru apart what more did she want? For a moment I wondered if she ever told Mamoru how she felt about him. I looked at her with a somber expression. "I never knew you had so much rage in you towards me." I noted.
She held true loathe for me and I was stunned by it. I had never been so hated by anyone in my life until she entered it so before she could talk I said, "This isn't about either of us it's about Mamoru." She stopped sweeping. I had to get her to understand my reason for being here or else I'd have no way to convince Mamoru to leave that sex part out of the decree. It killed me to try and stop it but I had to.
As much as I wanted him back I knew I wouldn't be able to handle being intimate with him again and not feel emotionally connected. Perhaps that was the point though. Get me to fall for him all over again, not that I ever fell out of love, sleep with me then dump me when I was of no more use. When I was fully fallen for him. "You leave him out of this. He doesn't have time to play your stupid games." She continued on.
Unbelievable. Here I was trying to get her help on matters and she was doing everything in her power to NOT listen to me. Kami – sama this woman didn't listen when I was younger and she STILL won't listen. Now I know where Mamoru got it from. He was around her so much then and even now that neither liked to let people talk. I think the only people he listens to are her and his patients. Who Rei listened to, him and herself.
It's like trying to talk to a brick wall only you're on mute while the wall talks…if that makes sense. "Listen Mamoru is - " she cut me off, "And stop calling him Mamoru like you two are familiar enough for that. He's got better things to do than to talk to a whore like you." I pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration, "Rei - " I tried, "So don't talk about him like you two are intimate." Man was I getting tired of this.
"Oh for the love of – Rei you need to let me talk!" I snapped. "Don't you talk down to ME!" she snapped. Nearly dropping her broom in the process. I put my hands up as if in defense, "Rei I'm trying to explain this to you. I just need you to hear me out so I can explain this matter to you. In relation to intimate talk Mamoru - " again I was cut off by her fowl temper. How she ever held a relationship for long than a minute was beyond me.
"He doesn't want you anymore. He's through with you!" The rage in her eye was immeasurable, had she actually have been correct about my infidelity then she was truly a great and best friend to him to be so over protective. I would have truly understood and even been grateful to an extent that he had someone like her in his corner. But, in this case however she was a class A bitch because she knew as well as I did that it was untrue.
I couldn't fathom hurting him in any way yet he did by believing her over me. It still hurt so badly, "He hates you for what you did to him. Hell you never deserved to have him to begin with." her jealousy was plain as day and I could help after all the jibes she gave me to through one back at her, "Your still so ridiculously jealous it's embarrassing." I tell her. She seethes at my bringing that up, "Jealous of you whoring yourself to him? I think not." She snaps back.
I'd had enough, "Stop calling me a whore! I've only ever slept with one man ever!" she scoffed at me. "You're so damned jealous that we had something stronger than anything you two ever had and it kills you every day that he gave himself to me and me to him." her lips curled in hatred and I couldn't help but fuel the fire burning in her eyes. For to long I tolerated her words and actions to destroy us. I needed to stop playing in the backseat and take control of the wheels of this car we were all in.
"He's the ONLY man I've EVER loved and slept with. You knew that. You know that I never slept with anyone else and you still choose to ruined it. To break us up for your own selfish gain in his life." I was getting teary eyed now. "You took my family – OUR family, you broke OUR family up because of your petty jealousies. That is the truth and we both know it." I was beyond pissed off and now wondering if asking for her help had been a colossal mistake.
"Pissed that you lost your V card to him years ago. Not likely. Your just another whore looking to have an easy life from those of us that work our asses off. It just so happens that fate intervened and made sure you got what you had coming to you." she smarted off. Her smirk told me whom 'fate' really was. I got up into her face, "You're just trying to be his protective princess aren't you." I stated.
"The one he always referred me to whenever someone would make a remark about a member of our group when we were teenagers." She pursed her lips together, "I defended our group because I loved everyone, including you." I told her, "But you broke that when you broke us up and now - " she got right up into my own face nearly making me back down, "What broke things up was when you came in. Things weren't the same after you arrived. Then you took my Mamoru and hurt him." like I said I almost backed down.
I shook my head a bit, "You hate that he picked me over you. That he found love with my quirky and loveable demeanor less abrasive than your tacky bitch self." She slapped me. I did push her but didn't get her the right do that, "Can't take the heat then leave. Cause were done here." I huffed in a bit of mirth at her words, "Really and here I thought it was because you had no witty rejoinder to hit me back with." she seethed once more at my words.
"You loved Mamoru but never had the guts to do anything about it. I did and I'm to blame for your sad self? I'm to blame for you ruining my marriage? I'm to blame for you not confessing your feelings? No I just confessed things to Mamoru and gain him as a husband and a loving father to our child. Oh yeah then you came in said 'fuck you' to the beautiful life we had and decided to destroy it." I shook my head in disapproval.
"Rei you are so pathetic its sad." She sneered at me in retaliation, "You want to know what's sad? You and Mamoru weren't meant to be like in some modern day fairy tale. If that were the case then lie or no lie you'd be together." And the hurt just went on from her words yet again, "And here I was coming for help on something you would have loved to help me on. You know what forget it. I can take care of it myself." I always do anyways.
"So leave. And leave him alone to. And never come up here again. A whore like you isn't welcome here." She stated, her snotty attitude was ridiculous. She proceeded to act like I was gone already so I had to make one last retreating truthful comment, "You know I never cheated." She gave the tiniest hint of a smile before saying, "I know of no such thing. Your probably still whoring it with Seiya as we speak."
Before I could deny anything with Seiya she said, "Now leave before I have you removed." She turned her back to me again as I walked back down the stairs, "Well that screws up any chance of talking Mamoru out of the intimate parts of the agreement." I muttered to myself. If she would have just listened to me instead of firing off at me like usual I might have had a chance. And why did I want that chance…? To spare my heart and my daughters feelings to.
Rei POV
That little bitch thinks she can worm her way back in to our lives fat chance. I swept up the temple grounds and looked over to find the crows cawing at me. "Nani? She's bad news." I stated gruffly. Sometimes I felt those crows knew something I didn't and couldn't communicate due to the language barrier. Still…she hadn't come here in years why now all of a sudden? I looked down to find her gone from the steps.
I sighed, "It's not worth it." besides she was probably making trouble again. Just like when she first started out. Trying to counter my words with her own. She lost me my friends and my true love…well maybe not him. I smiled. I have a chance to make him mine now. I just had to start making that happen when I got back from my trip. I had to help keep the temple afloat now that grandpa had passed.
I loved that old man dearly but his declining health didn't help pay the bills. We still had property taxes and – "Rei – chan. I looked up to find the only helping hand I could afford coming towards me. "Hai." I answered. "I got the choirs you gave me all done." He let me know, "Fine go on and cut out from work. It's going to be to slow anyways." He nodded and walked away. He was a nice guy but he wasn't my Mamoru. "I'll make you happier than you could have ever have been with her." I promised.
Usagi POV
After leaving Rei's I went home and took a long nap since I couldn't find any sleep the previous night. I gained about five hours before my body naturally woke me up so I left for a cup of hot chocolate and one for Chibi Usa on the way to the bus station. As drama filled as it was at least I had my little girl to have a home with. She was my pride and joy. My most precious – "Miss?" I looked up to find the bus driver looking at me oddly, "Hai, arigato." I stepped up on the bus and gave my change before finding a seat.
I gazed out at the city lights as they were starting to come on. I decided to pick her up a bit earlier this time. As much as I enjoyed time alone to just be me I needed the comfort of my daughter nearby. Sometimes it felt like we just existed in each other's worlds. I wanted to do things with her that mothers could do with their daughters. Share an ice cream. Go to an amusement park. A kid's movie. Kami…I held the tears back.
These were things that I couldn't afford to do or give her. She deserved the most basic of bonding trips and I was to proud to take anything from her father. I didn't want her to be corrupted but now I couldn't even give her anything beyond schooling and food and a roof with clothes. A growing child needed more than that to survive. That was necessary but still…Maybe I did make a mistake after all.
"Here's your stop miss." The driver told me. I nodded and left the bus. I walked the few blocks to where Chibi Usa was. I watched her playing with her few friends and smiled as she seemed so happy to be there. "Your daughter is quite the social butterfly." I looked over to see one of the staff. "Hai, she's incredibly sweet." I agreed. "Where is the father?" this had been asked to me several times. "He's complicated." It was the first time I had given an answer besides 'it's not relevant'. "A child doesn't just need a mother." She stated softly.
I couldn't disagree. "I know…I just…I'm working on how to make things happen. She deserves to know her father." I don't know what about what I said made her relent but I was shocked she didn't try to pry further. "I just ask because she will start to ask about her father. Where he is and why he's not around." I feared the day that would happen. I honestly didn't know what to say that would be enough for a child's ears to hear and accept.
So when Chibi Usa came out I picked her up along with her small school bag and walked to the bus station and waited the twenty minutes till the next one came. She chattered aimlessly on about her friends and I was to happy listening to think about the drama going on. It was nice to hear about something that wasn't tied into negativity that I smiled for the first time in days. "Oh yeah?" I asked her.
She kept going on even after we got off the bus to the apartment complex. It was beat up and run down but it was affordable and worked for our needs. We used the stairs to get up since the old elevator was broken down…still. It gave me a nice little wake up work out in the morning and a tiresome one for the night time. I stopped cold in my tracks however when I went to put the key in the key hole of the door knob and it creaked open.
"Chibi Usa stay here okay. Mama needs to make sure that things are fine." I tell her reassuringly as I put her down on the ground. "Mama what's wrong?" she asks, hugging her school bag to her chest now. "Nothing. I just want to make sure it's nothing." I tell her and walk inside. I left the door open so she could see me and I could still see her as I walked in. Our place was trashed. My items thrown all around and about. I was in shock, "Moshi?" I called out, hoping no one was still inside. The bat for protection by the door wasn't there so I had only the tiny bit of training Mamoru had taught me years ago as self-defense.
"Mama?" Chibi Usa called by the front door…the only door. "It's okay baby, I think whoever was here is gone now." I checked all the rooms which meant I looked past the living room into Chibi Usa's room then the bathroom and found nothing. Then dread hit me. I rushed to the freezer, a place where my secret stash of yen was at. I opened the door to find it gone. I felt ice cold dread buzz into a new found heat of panic.
My stomach churned and threatened to push back out the meal I had eaten earlier today. I had been saving that up on the side to get a vehicle again. My regular savings was only for rent and food. Anything extra was for bus fare. That tiny bit of yen was my only cushion to fall back on and now I had nothing. Well I did have one thing…I raced to my secret jewelry place. Hidden in the vent near the couch.
Perhaps I should have put the cash in there instead but I always feared that the change in temperatures would somehow do damage to the cash. Making the ink melt off or something. I now saw that as an irrational fear compared to now. "Mama what happened?" Chibi Usa walked in and asked. So innocent. I was at a loose for words as she looked at the trashed apartment. She couldn't move to much further inside, fear mounting her in her steps.
How do you explain to your only child that bad guys came in and robbed you both? How do you explain that the only home she can remember now has been broken into and is no longer safe? I don't know how to express this without scaring her. "What happen is were going to be staying at a friend's house tonight while mama calls the police." I answered. "Demo, why is the place so messy?" I couldn't figure out a way to explain it without frightening her.
"I'll explain it later darling let me call the cops." I grabbed my little cheap government phone, it held poor reception but it only cost three thousand yen a month. I called the police and within five minutes they were there. I filed the report and they took pictures. "What all was taken?" the officer asked, "I had a small stash of yen in the freezer. It was about 101,000 in yen." I began. I go to the vent again and find that it too was gone.
"The vent did stick out a little bit so it wasn't to shocking that they found that stash of jewels to, "And my old jewelry. They found that to." I gave him the yen worth on the jewelry. He looked a bit surprised by the amount, "It was my emergency stash in case anything happened. Job loose that type of thing." I explained. "It just seems a bit out of place for a place like this." I nodded understanding where he was coming from. "Long story regarding her father." I explained. I made sure Chibi Usa was packing a bag of her clothes for a temporary stay.
"I see. If we hear anything we'll let you know, in the meantime do you have someplace to stay? I wouldn't recommend staying here tonight. That door knob won't be fixed till the landlord returns tomorrow morning." He asked. "I have a friends place I can go." I assure him. "Arigato." I nod as he walked out. "Come on Chibi Usa." I call for her. "We going to stay at Auntie Minako's?" she asked. "No. Another friends." I assure as I grab my backpack and pull clothes as well as a charger and toiletries. I lead her out the door as I call said friend.