Puffgirl1952 the 2nd: yeah that was one of my most FAVORITE parts to write! Lol
damonika2009: everyone will. Lol this will be one of the most intense chapters to date for this story. Seiya's little story line was cutie for me to write. I had to admit that.
LoveInTheBattleField: will do.
MarSofTheGalaxies: Rei will get such an ass chewing! And yes you are correct! Underworld inspired.
jessielee14: yep now its about confrontation and acceptance. The vampire fic will start a few weeks once this one is done.
kera69love: mamoru will come to terms with a lot of things. Rei will have a little bit more time before its up.
OursSparksFly13: now that he knows the truth it's a matter now of what to do with it.
TropicalRemix: yup!
Guest (1): just wait and see.
Justareader: nothing physically bad will happen.
Mercedes1312: your absolutely right. Its hard to imagine people like her exist but they do. My ex turned out to be one of them…I just found out he's taking his new GF to vegas…I hope that police report we filed gets situated before he goes. So selfish people like that do exist and its sickening that they do…but it also makes for great drama in the realm of stories.
Guest (2): I can't wait for you guys to read it either.
mryann: that's good…the emotions being displayed and that are coming up are intense and heart pounding.
SMSM92: glad you liked it! I was going to do a cliffy with him confronting Rei and then the talking in the next one but there was to much to be discussed to do that so I added the key part in wanting to express his anger in those moments. The moment when she tells him I truly did feel nauseous as I was channeling my own inner pain that I imagined Usagi was feeling then the sidelining feeling that Mamoru was emanating at the moment. Good to know it was understood. and yeah the leap from moment was a nice little bit of humor to put in there. Lol
OrientalDanceGirl: Mamoru has issues that he needs to deal with right now…first and foremost is Rei.
Minniemousechick: will do and thanks.
Silverfaerie91: you'll soon find out.
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Shattered pieces ch.8
Mamoru POV
Knowing how her schedule worked I know she was just waiting for customers to come in. Siting inside sipping a half a glass of merlot. Her favorite. Catching her half way in I knocked on the door being casual as possible. "Mamoru I didn't expect to see you here." She jumped up, her cheeks a little pink form the wine she was drinking. A mid-afternoon pleasure of hers once a week. "I thought it was needed after our discussion on the phone." I commented. I wanted to see her unarmed first.
It was the least she could do once she realized what I had in store for her. "Oh really? Like what?" she asked, the flirtations seemed so obvious now I wondered how I didn't see this for years on end. I almost scolded myself for not seeing it before. I truly was under a guise of ignorance when it came to her and I never knew. Seiya was right the scales fell from my eyes and now I saw her for what she was.
A lying, manipulative succubus that did the ultimate wrong…at least to me. She took things from me I can't get back. Things that I can only beg Usako to let me have back. I just hoped that she would accept my apologies and take me back after this. Because after today Rei would be gone from our lives. I would put up with no more. I walked further in, "Like how I had a long talk with Usako about our future." I stated.
Her face dropped. She almost looked perturbed. If she only knew…but she was also probably upset that I also referred to Usagi as Usako, my pet name for her. "Mamoru I - " I cut her off, "Shut up." now she looked stunned. She had to be. "Excu - " again I cut her off. I had never before said that to her. "Listen to me very clearly and closely because I'm only saying this once. I know what you're going to say and it's not going to work. I know you lied to me. Have been lying for years to me." she looked like a deer in head lights.
"What are you talking about? Is that what she said?!" Rei blurted out. Sounding desperate and pretty solid to. She knew she was getting caught up but didn't know how. Her mind I could tell was working any angle right now to paint Usako once more as the instigator and liar and cover her own tracks but I knew the truth now. It was painful and hard but I knew it now. "Cause that lying whore will say anything to get you back."
Her attempts fell on deaf ears. "Both she AND Seiya did." Now she truly looked lost. I knew the feeling. I was right there not to long ago. "You believe that? Seiya's her lover. He'd do anything she'd say." Rei contested. I laughed now. Sounding a bit charming and maniacal at the same time. I knew it gave Rei chills as I watched her flinch from the sound it made. I've been told it was sex and evil.
"You truly think her 'lover' would cover for her rather than tell me the truth to keep her after all of these years apart?" that made very little sense. A lover would want to steal the spouse from the other NOT give them up. "Why not?" she tried countering. I'll give it to her she was really trying. And the nomination for best actress of the year goes to… "Yeah here's where your story falls through. Where even you can't refute it." I looked at her fully confident and cocky now. She looked scared…and was trying to cover for it.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." She tried. Put her hands on her hips she spoke, "I'm telling you she filled your head with lies." I chuckled my response, "Seiya is into men Rei. He's gay." Her eyes went wide as saucers. The shock was mutually felt. She went to refute it. "Trust me I saw it…and yeah not a preferred scene for me." I admitted. Not that I was against it, to each their own but not me personally. Now she looked just as spun as I remember feeling when I heard the news. Glad to see it on her face now.
"Face it Rei you've been caught as the one responsible for the destruction of my marriage. All so you could get me to yourself." She looked to be mentally scrambling for a way out, "That's not true! Perhaps I was wrong it had to be Motoki then!" her desperation was to strong in her tone of voice for there to be validity to her statement. Besides I knew Motoki. He was a good friend to Usako but he also was in a dedicated relationship with Reika.
He didn't have it in him to do something like that. My own jealous issues confirmed that recently, "Was it worth it?" I asked her. Something gravely dangerous in my voice. I was beyond upset and saddened by this. I couldn't believe that she did this to me. To us all. Realizing she had nowhere to turn to she said, "I was saving you from that bitch!" she said it with so much malice that I felt for Usako. Then it hit me as not only I had suffered a great deal thanks to this but so had my wife.
"You stole so much from me." I began. Rei looked at me pensively. "Mamoru she isn't the one for you. I am. I always have been. The future we could have is so grand. I can make that happen I just need the chance. Usagi coming back was unfortunate but we can make an us happen." She tried. She sounded deluded. I was seriously considering calling a psych ward to see if they had any openings. Her delusions of there being an us together was down-right scary to what she did and was willing to still do to keep me to herself.
"Rei you were my best friend. My childhood friend. You were like a sister to me." I began. She cringed on the sister part but it was the truth. It's how I saw her. "You ruined my marriage and took from me things I can never get back." I told her. The tears of anger building up again. I was so unbelievably upset and hurt that the pain was nearly all consuming. I almost leaned against the door of the place to gain stability.
Her own desperate tears coming forward, "You missed out on nothing. What a few times of sex with that whore? A few moments with that mini her?! That's nothing to what I can give you. I am all you need." she walked forward and it sickened me how she was. All this time I had no clue. "I know she whored herself out to you all those years ago to trap you to her. I know you just enjoyed the cheap sex but I can give you something she couldn't. A virgin bride." She said it with such malice and intent that I looked at her crazed.
As far as I saw it she was beyond my words. She felt she could do whatever she wanted to me and my family fuck that. There are ways around bitches like you. "Call my WIFE a whore again especially after everything you've done and said and I will knock your ass out. I don't care if you're a girl or not." I know she was stunned by the threat, "Mamoru!" she was now taking the acting to being afraid but I knew she wasn't.
"Mamoru how could you say such things?" she tried, playing the victim card. Oh no you don't, not after what you've done. "What you did Rei was steal years away from me." I walked forward a step. "You stole precious moments I can't get back. You stole memories from me. You stole experiences from me. FUCK REI! Any memories I had in pictures and you TOSSED THEM AWAY!" I shouted.
She flinched. A real one but I didn't care if I was starting to scare her. What she did to me over the course of these last few years is nothing short of despicable. "I trusted you with everything. I had you there for so much and you used our friendship against me and turned the person I love more than anything in this world into a monster just to gain more access into my life. Just to kick her out and seep into it yourself." I was beyond pissed off.
"Mamoru please!" she begged. "I know she had you under some type of spell but I did this to get you out of it. See you've been so much better these last few years without her." Rei attempted as she now clung to my shirt in a desperate attempt to salvage what had been said. "Better?" I asked her, a deadly calm washed over me. "I lost my wife and daughter and you think I'm better?" she still looked pissed that I was mentioning her.
"Must you keep bringing that bitch - " I know she was shocked when I pushed her away. Hard enough to have her stumbling back into the chair she had been sitting in. "Mamoru!" she tried to scold. The time for that was done. I was done with her and all of her deluded ideas and lies to bring us together for this illusion of a fantasy life. That's all it would be was an allusion. Nothing would ever have happened between us.
Usako or not nothing would have happened. I never saw her like that. I always saw her as a little sister. Someone to protect. To love as family. Usako I fell for her. head over heels. She was it to me. I walked forward a step more, "That bitch's name is Chiba, Usagi." that I knew made her mad. "OUR daughters name is Chiba, Usagi and you took them from me. Don't think I will EVER get over that." I shouted.
My rage so intense I knew I needed to calm down or else I would hit her, "Mamoru! Please I can explain!" she tried. I arched a brow at her, "Please Rei explain to me why you destroyed everything." I encouraged scathingly. I saw the anger burning in her own eyes now, "That conniving BITCH stole you from ME! you were MINE! NOT HERS!" she raged. Her own courage building back up due to her own anger and hatred for Usako. I watched the flames dance in her eyes.
She truly hated Usako and who knows for how long. "She thought she was so great when you two were together. Thought that you two would last. Thought we were friends. Friends don't fucking steal the loves of other friends! Not to mention I HATED That WHORE!" she yelled, her rage was dripping from her now. The amount she held in was far greater than anything I felt for Usako when I believed she had cheated on me.
"She took you from me and then even bragged about your bedroom antics! And you only encouraged it! Thought it was awesome that you were great in bed! She was a whiney little bratty cry baby that deserved to be tossed out and worse for entering our lives and ruining our future together. I have loved you from the start. You were supposed to be MINE!" her rage and hatred knew no bounds and for once I wondered how she kept it all in.
"I never knew you have such anger and rage in you towards her." I stated sullenly. I felt sorry for her in a way but not enough to not do and say what needed to be said and done next. "She thought she was better than me when I was the one BETTER than HER! I was so much better of a person and could have made a fabulous wife for you and good mom but she got in the way and took that from us!" she looked truly evil in these moments. I honestly wanted to be far from her as possible.
"She slept with who knows how many guys before you and - " I stopped her. "Fuck off Rei." She stopped talking. "You've had your anger rant now here's mine." She seethed. "Usako was a virgin when we first slept together. It was one of the most beautiful and most magical moments of my life and I could never regret it. When we got married I felt like nothing could touch us." I admitted happily.
She looked pissed. "When Chibi Usa was born I felt ecstatic that we had created a life to be raised and loved." Tears of pain and joy started to come. "Then all that went away the second you opened your mouth and lied. Rei I don't know specifically when you began the lies to me but it's done. I could never trust you again in our lives. When you breath these days the air turns crooked because I could never believe a word you say." She had tears of anger and pain going down her face.
"You ever contact me, come near me, go to the house again, see her at all or try to talk to us and I'll have you arrested for harassment and trespassing." I told her as I began to leave, "You can't go!" she raged. I continued to walk out, "Mamoru!" she grabbed onto me I shook her off my arm and pushed her back inside, "And furthermore - " I stopped talking once I saw a photo. One that made me look at her completely deranged.
The photo was of my wedding day with Usako. Only instead of her face was a carefully cut out version of Rei's in place. She was wearing the pearl barrette that Usako had lost at some point during the reception. She searched all over the place for it as it had been a gift from the girls to her. Rei had obviously taken it so she could do this picture adjustment. She had primped her hair up it in, took a selfie then carefully cut her face out of her own back-round and placed it over the carefully cut out of Usako's head.
I looked to Rei's scared form. She looked back from the image and to me, "I love you." she told me. I felt so sick to my stomach that she had been holding onto this illusion as if it were possible or even real. I started to back up and out of the area. Rei obviously had mental problems that I couldn't help her with. "You are sick and need help. Please seek it." I left the temple. The wind at my heels as I darted out of there and out of her life for good.
Rei POV
I couldn't believe it. "This isn't happening…" I muttered. Falling back near the chair, "This can't be happening…" I sat in the chair as if in a trace before the rage that had previously come forward hit me all at once. "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!" I blasted. I stood up steadfast and screamed out the window of temple uncaring if people heard me or saw me, "THIS ISNT THE LAST OF ME MAMORU!" before shutting the doors for the day down. I was in no mood to sell anything for the temple now.
I began to pace around the fire. "He doesn't get to do this!" I muttered angrily. "Not after everything I went through to ensure he was free from her and to be MINE!" I was beyond enraged by this. "ITS HER!" I concluded. I threw the bottle of merlot into the fire and watched the bottle bust open and the flames rage higher than ever before. "I HATE YOU USAGI!" I screamed as loud as my vocals would carry.
"You creeped in as a teenager…" I began as I watched the flames rise higher. For once I was thankful that the temple fire was in the center of the room as I managed to avoid the curtains from catching fire. The merlot creating small and medium sized streaks of fire that slowly simmered out as the alcohol percentage wasn't that strong. "She stole the love of my life…" I continued as I walked an angered path to my bedroom.
My feet pounding on the way there, "Had his child…" I walked inside and slammed the door shut. I was so upset that I couldn't think straight. I had to do something but I was so furious that I couldn't think of anything right now to do. "I hate her so damned much!" I gripped my fists till I could feel them turning white from lack of blood before screaming in rage again and throwing items in the room around. I couldn't let this happen and yet it had. "Of all the things to be my down fall…" I uttered once I found my letter opener.
"Seiya was gay…" I was confused and baffled enough to calm down my rage allowing me to think properly. Looking at the letter opener I wondered, "If I fake a suicide maybe he'll be guilted into being with me." the prospect sounded hopeful until I realized I'd actually have to attempt it pretty damned close to ensure it looked real enough and I didn't really want to die, "How do I do that and avoid accidentally killing myself?"
I knew I had to think on it and come up with a way to make it work. it wouldn't make a difference if I actually died. I grabbed the letter opener and envisioned how I could do it when a memory popped in. Usagi got this silver letter opener for me as a gift many years ago. I only kept it around because any time Mamoru was over it would bring him that tiny amount of pain that seeing it created and made him hate her all the more.
It wasn't sharp enough to do the damage needed but it did serve one purpose now. I looked around and found the only picture with her still in it and that was only because of the angles. It would have looked ridiculous to try and cut her out. She was also third to last in the group picture so I would have had to cut out Minako and myself to. I didn't have the heart to cut her out at the time but now…as I remember my friends fondly before the treacherous bitches sided with her…I saw the look that I was now able to decipher from Mamoru.
He was looking at her fondly and now as I looked more closely at it I saw the love he held for her then. I always assumed he looked at me in the picture as we were right next to each other but it was clear as day now. He had looked at her then to. I was just so consumed with my own feelings I hadn't seen it form then. Malice like I never knew consumed me and in a fit of rage I hurled the letter opener at the photo on the tac board. It went straight through the picture, in particular through her face.
I walked up to the photo. "As much as you deserve to suffer for what you've done I am above assault. No the other option is better. Can't be spotted easily." I muttered as I paced about in my destroyed room. "Should have thought that over better but whatever." I conceded to the mess I made. "Rei…" I looked to the entrance of my room and found my grandpa there. "Hai?" I asked, he was the only person who truly loved and cared for me…I knew Mamoru was the one he just needed to be away from HER!
"Was that Mamoru – san that was just here?" he asked. I put on a smile, "Hai, he was just - " he put his hand up. "Was all that screaming between the two of you? I thought it was the t.v. but it sounded like him." I had to cover fast, "It was the t.v. grandpa." I smiled, "Then why were you talking about 'deserve to suffer?' these walls are literally paper thin granddaughter." He stated, looking at me oddly.
I couldn't tell him, he wouldn't understand. "We just had an argument. It'll blow over soon." I will make sure of it. "Rei…I'm old not senile." His tone was no longer gentle, more as if he was now in reprimanding mode. My smile dropped, "I didn't say that." I explained. "No you didn't but by lying to me you implied it." I acted aghast at his accusation. "I never meant to I - " he cut me off.
"My darling granddaughter what happened? Is what he said true? Please tell your grandfather that it isn't true. That he's mistaken." He pleaded with me. He walked further in, "I found your merlot bottle broken all over the floor by the sacred fire. Please tell me what he said isn't true." I heard his plea and was prepared to tell him what he needed to hear when he said, "I know he and his lovely wife were having some issues but did you really do as he accused? Did you lie and manipulate him?" he asked.
"I was SAVING HIM!" I bellowed. "That treacherous bitch doesn't deserve him! I do! So don't call her lovely! She doesn't deserve it…" I ended as I calmed my breathing down. He looked stunned before anger crossed his features, "These are NOT the teachings of a priestess! Please tell me you didn't dirty your soul with such malicious lies and intent to merely win a man over and take him from his truest love…his family." I rolled my eyes.
"Grandpa she isn't his family I AM!" I shouted at the end. "Then it is true…" he stated in shock and pain…wait pain? "Nani?" I asked, now confused. He looked back up to me as my height towered over his smaller frame, "Rei you've always been like siblings to me. People have always asked if you were brother and sister due to his brotherly affections towards you. After a while I told them you were like brother and sister because even I felt that way about him. As if he were a brother to you." I couldn't believe my ears.
"Are you kidding me?" I asked, stunned now myself. He shook his head. "Rei these matters you have caused are not that of a priestess. I am so very sorry to say that your training as a priestess ends here." I was outraged. "NANI?!" I snapped at him. "You are acting with malicious intent to people whom have never hurt you. If you had feelings for him in such a manner you never said anything to him. How was he supposed to know?" I had always assumed he'd figure it out eventually… "But he didn't…" I muttered.
"Still everything I did was for him!" grandpa held his hand up to silence me, "No my dear child it was for yourself. Your training ends here…as a miko…I'm sorry but I cannot continue this with you if your heart is not fully into it nor is full of malice. That is not the way of a priestess. I understand anger and pain but this is deeper than that. you've let it corrupt your soul and fester like a cancer inside of you."
I watched as he walked away as if it pained him to look at me, "Grandpa!" I called out. "Do as he instructed and then I will consider resuming your training." It was all he said as he walked away. He didn't even bother to look back at me. "I'm not sick! I'm in love and I will win him back…if it's the last thing I do…" I just had to figure out how to safely. "Now what can I use…" I wondered.
Mamoru POV
I couldn't believe how stupid I was to trust Rei so implicitly. I got back into my car and stayed there, trying to get a control over my emotions. The tears just fell down my eyes in rivers. I couldn't have cared less though as I felt my heart break. Finding out that my best friend was the reason why my marriage truly failed and I was also responsible because I wouldn't listen. I hit my steering wheel in my anger.
The pounding sound was dulled out by the sound of my own sobs. I stayed there in the car for several minutes unable to see past my own angry and sad tears. Everything that she took from me made me want to hit her and make her feel as miserable as I did but what I was feeling was also what Usako had been dealing with for years. I had just been introduced to this feeling and it was all so fresh and new. Usako however dealt with the pain and loneliness for all this time and it was time that I faced her and the consequences.
Rei wasn't the only one at fault here. I should have listened to Usako but I didn't because Rei was constantly in my ear. I kept listening to her and not anyone else…not even my own wife. I felt ashamed of my actions. Of not being there. Of letting things get this far and NOT trying to correct it or talk sooner. I hit my head to the steering wheel and cried out more before wiping the tears on my palms.
"How could you do this to me Rei?" I mumbled. "How could you take this from me? How could you hurt me in such a manner?" Such a selfish bitch! I slammed my hand against the steering wheel again. "How could you be so selfish to do such a thing? Did you not ever see how much I loved her? Still love her?" I started to calm down a bit but I knew my face had to look a wreck, "Usako is my everything and I lost so much with her over this…" I felt depleted now. My energy gone and my emotions in a torrent of highs and lows.
I could only imagine how Usako had felt. She had been through this with our daughter and still maintained being a good person. She wasn't spiteful or hateful. She was overly cautious and hardened by it. "She deserves a better man than me." I sighed regretfully. I began to cry again realizing that no matter how bad I felt Usako had dealt with these hardships for much longer than I had. Feeling more cleared up in my mind I put the key in the ignition and drove off back to our home…I had some serious groveling to do.
When I got back once I got through with the traffic, Usako was making dinner for us three again, "How was going to Seiya's?" she asked. Chibi Usa I noticed was in the living room watching my little pony again. I saw how entrapped she was by it and resolved to make sure she wouldn't ever be without her father again. Rei wouldn't be able to steal any more time from me when it came to my family.
I walked into the kitchen where Usako was making beef and noodles. The pot was large ensuring that there would be enough for several nights. "I don't think there are words that can express how sorry I am." I told her truthfully. She turned around. A new light to her face along with an expression I wasn't familiar with on her. "So I gather you know that Rei lied about everything under the sun and that I never once hurt you." she stated.
The food continuing to cook. "Yeah…Seiya…I had no idea that he was gay…I confronted Rei about it and she buckled under the pressure." I told her. I felt emotionally exhausted from this now. I leaned against the counter as she spoke, "So she finally confessed…what are you going to do about it?" I looked to her form. She looked serious about this. "I don't trust her to not come back here and do something or say something more." She sounded worried.
"I'm taking care of it tomorrow. Rei will NOT be able to come back into our lives…she's finished." She looked at me skeptically. "How?" she demanded. Her attention on me fully, "I'll be putting out a restraining order out on her tomorrow. I have enough evidence to do so." I explained. She nodded her head and turned back to the beef and noodles. I reached out to touch her and she stepped away from it.
I felt a pang of rejection hit me square in the chest. "Usako?" I asked, feeling confused now. I didn't understand, "Usako?" I asked again…she gripped the pasta scooper hard in her hand as she stirred the noodles up, "Noodles are done." Her voice a range of several emotions that I couldn't decipher. None sounded good. It sounded like she was trying to keep in control of her emotions as I was earlier.
She grabbed oven mit's, turned the faucet to the sink on to cold, then went to grab the handles of the pot to pour the hot water down the drain. I looked down in the sink and found that a colander was already in there to catch the noodles while the boiling water was mixing with the cold down the drain. She put the noodles back on the stove and turned off the heat for it as she took the top off the meat and said, "Dinner is done." I didn't know what to say.
"Usako…" I tried to touch her again but I could tell she was a range of emotions that felt ready to burst. "Mamo – chan…I loved you…love you…more than anything…" she looked to me. I saw the tears that were ready to pour from her eyes. My heart sank in my chest. Please no…don't let me loose her again… "But I love our daughter a great deal to. She's my world and I refuse to let her get sucked into this drama." I was curious as to what she meant.
"At least any more than she already is…" I touched her arm and this time took it in my hand not letting her pull away from me, "What are you saying Usako?" I asked. "I'm saying that I need some time to think things over. I love you so damned much but all this time I tried to tell you the truth and all this time you refused to listen to reason. But the moment you talked to Seiya and listened for a change all of a sudden you've had this epiphany?" she sounded skeptical of me. I hated to say it but she had every right to.
Lowering my head down I said, "I've fucked up." there was no excuse for me. I truly messed up by NOT listening to anyone but Rei. The emotional chaos that I put Usako through by not letting her talk, by not listening to her earlier. "Fucked up is mildly put." She stated with a dry tone to her voice. "You threw us away instead of talking about it like a man would." her own anger was coming out.
I watched as she was beginning to shake with her own repressed emotions. "You hide behind Rei like a kid would behind their parents in the face of problems." I swallowed hard knowing the truth of it, "You didn't deal with it as I did." She gripped the pasta scooper with enough force to make her knuckles become dramatically outlined. I felt horrendous for the pain and suffering she had gone through not just from Rei at this point but me too.
Everything I've ever said to her and everything I accused her of yelled at her for all of that was senseless and pointless now and all I could feel was this insurmountable guilt over the pain that even I have inflicted on her. Why didn't I just listen? "Usa…" I barely got out, "You gave up on us before even trying to figure out a solution to the problem." Tears were beginning to well up in my own eyes…again.
"You choose instead to run to her for answers when all she ever did was lie to you. You never tried to talk to our friends about it, you never tried to be civil with me." her face was that of pain and anger. I couldn't help but feel like the kicked dick that I was. "You never tried to do anything because all you kept doing was whatever Rei told you to do. How could I truly bear my heart with you with all that has happened?"
I lowered my head and listened to her rant. "I want to trust you and love you explicitly and in many ways I do but I can't help this nagging fear that all it's gonna take us a few manipulative words from Rei and then you're her bitch again." I wanted to deny and to tell her that that would never happen not after everything I had found out and especially not after the conversation I had with Rei… instead I bit my lip and let her talk. She needed to get this out.
"I love you more than anything…" I watched her tear stricken face look at me. "But the thought of going through that pain and heartache even once more…" the pain was ebbing from her in waves, "It would destroy me I just know it." I deserved everything she had to say about me and yet I couldn't help but feel a bit like how she felt. Pained. Hurt. Angry. I knew her feelings now but that didn't mean I could fully understand.
After all I caused some of that pain to. I was at fault to…granted not to the degree Rei was but still. "I can't be with a man that can't own up to his errors or mistakes. You can't keep hiding and I need to know that the man that I'm gonna be spending the rest of my life with and raising our daughter with, is gonna be the type of man they can handle and own up to his faults and take care of them." She conceded.
I heard the sound of defeat in her voice and felt panic encase me. I knew that sound. It sent to chill down my spine and place panic within my heart. She was planning to leave me…for good this time if I didn't do the right thing. "Your right…" I accepted. I needed to do whatever it took at this moment and further on to ensure that she stayed. She was my future and I couldn't live without her.
"I fucked up…royally…" I stepped closer to her. I needed her to see that I was serious as a heart attack on this. I couldn't – I refused to lose her again. Not after all of this. Not after all the pain and suffering we've both been through. She and our daughter were and are my world. I would die if I lost her…my heart would be shattered beyond pieces…yet I knew in the end her heart had already been shattered.
I did that…Rei did that…she deserved better than me but I was going to do everything in my power to win her back over. I had to. "And I will spend the rest of our lives making up for it I promise." I pleaded. I saw tears forming in her eyes, "Rei needs to be dealt with first and foremost." I nodded in agreement. Hoping that this was her giving me a way in. "Mamo – chan she has access to this house…" she sounded fearful.
"Not that I can't handle her but I don't want her to do or say something in front of Chibi Usa. Not again." her voice was a mix of order and confidence as she had an angry front on her. I couldn't help but want to envelope her in my arms and never let go. All the lies and manipulations wouldn't take her from me again. I wouldn't let that sick, twisted bitch take her from me now.
"I won't let that happen. I'll get the locks changed tomorrow. I'll take care of it. I'll take care of her." I promised. Her tears now coming down her face, "I don't trust one bit of how she'll act now Mamo – chan." I could understand her fears now. Rei has proved to be a volatile person with no care to whom she hurts. I didn't want to think she was capable of doing such a thing to another person but I also didn't think she could do other things that she had confessed to. So right then and there I couldn't dispute that she could do something else.
"But you can't promise that she won't try do something." She tried to pull away but I held on, "I can't your right but I can promise that I won't let anything happen to you or Chibi Usa. I'm not letting that bitch hurt my family again." I vowed to her. "I believe that you'll try but until you do, this…" she pointed between us, "Is not happening any further." She told me. Effectively shutting down our sex lives until I came correct on matters.
"Understood." I couldn't even argue against it. She had every right to take sex off the table until I put in effect what I said I would. "While you take care of your end I need to make sure that Chibi Usa eats." She moved away from me. I felt in all honesty my form shake with anxiety, fear and anger. I wanted to act out but Chibi Usa walked in with Usako. So instead I walked out and out the front door. I needed to cool down and the night air was cooler than the house at that moment, "I won't let you down Usako…not this time."
The rest of the evening went by relative peace. Usako put Chibi Usa bed as I pulled her with me so that we could at least lay down together in bed ourselves. She let me hold her as I kept her close to me all night long. I kept treasuring each moment that I was able to stay awake in case things didn't go as smoothly tomorrow as I hoped they would. I was already planning to take the day off so I could take care of matters.
So when the next day came around, Usako got Chibi Usa up and ready for school as she went to her own work right afterwards. I called up my boss and explained him that I had personal issues to take care of but that I would be in by noon. He accepted it and with that I left out the front door heading to the police station. I went through the doors and talk to the gentleman at the reception desk, "Hai, I'm looking to talk to somebody about filing restraining order." The gentleman looked at me oddly.
I sighed, "Look my ex best friend decided that it would be in her best interest to ruin my marriage and continually lied to me and sabotage everything. She's mentally sick in the head and I need to have a restraining order filed against her." I wasn't about to let some stupid manly pride get in the way of ensuring Rei no longer having any means of getting into my life again. She's already stolen too much for me already.
"You'll have to forgive me we don't normally gain restraining orders against women by men." I could understand that. For starters for some men that can be incredibly humiliating. The idea that you can't handle a woman in that regard could be embarrassing. Secondly, depending on who you are as man, you could decide that you don't believe it would escalate anything further and try to ignore it. But doing that normally doesn't have good results and I'm not preferred to having Rei go all Glenn Close on me.
I needed this to end so if that means taking a dip in my manly pride to insure the safety and future for my family then I'm not going to hesitate to do it. "I do understand that but mainly pride or not, I have more important things to worry about." The officer accepted my explanation and signaled for another officer to come up and help me. I did as instructed and went with that officer to their desk to ensure that the appropriate paperwork forms were filled out.
"So just go ahead and start by telling me everything starting from the beginning." The officer told me. Nearly an hour later we were finally getting to the forms as my little sordid tale had even the cop looking at me shocked. "I will give it to her…" I look at the officer, "It sounds like she's gone through a lot of trouble to make you hers but we'll definitely make sure she's unable to be a problem for you and your family in the future." Grateful for the assistance I gave my final signatures to what was required and left the station with my copies.
Feeling better already I pulled my phone out to text Usako what I had done and even sent her some pictures of the restraining order. The phone rang, "Hai?" I responded. She was silent for several moments before she said, "When will Rei receive her paperwork?" As far as I knew it would take a few days for it to go to the court systems before she would receive it, "I think she'll be getting it by this coming Saturday… Which is only a few days away." I explained to her. The cops had made sure the paperwork got submitted today.
"Good…Mamo – chan…" I heard her ask, "Hai?" I hope this meant we were getting back to being us again. "Before Chibi Usa and I come back you need to get the locks on the doors changed. I don't trust that she won't try to do something before she received that paperwork." I couldn't argue against her worries. "Hai… I'll take care of that next… When you come home tonight I'll make sure to leave the door unlocked as I plan to stay home the rest of the day now." I would have to if I was going to be changing these locks.
Ending the call I hit my bosses number and explain to him situation I was taking care of. He was shocked that one of his most prominent doctors had a situation such as mine but allowed me to take the remainder of the day off as long as I work that coming Saturday. I complied to his wishes as I needed to make sure that Rei would not be able to gain access into our home ever again, "You brought this on yourself Rei."