damonika2009: he knows he needs to work hard to get her back. Rei isn't the only one who needs to go through a transition. Now Mamoru needs to learn to.

Guest (1): yes there will be more chapters, I am working on 11 now.

kera69love: mamoru is going to go through a mental awareness. Having found out that his best friend of so many years used their friendship for her own gain has him suffering to as he needs to learn how to be himself without her influence. Rei's last visit was the last time we see her.

OrientalDanceGirl: for mamoru to find out that rei was so evil in her own right he has to not only deal with that but win usagi's everything at this point back. She trusts him but not enough to let him back fully into her heart or her bed. As for my ex, I doubt he'd have the balls to come back…and if he did I'd let him talk, just to hear whatever sap story he had to give me then kick him out. his only way of seeing me now is if I visit up with his sister which still do or if he comes to my work. I doubt he would though. He'd have to have bottomed out of whatever girl he's with and be desperate enough to do so. He even blocked his former friend on facebook…not that it matters, said friend told me that if he comes back he's essentially going to hand him his own ass.

Mercedes1312: Rei's mental issues are something that very few saw coming. It was a last minute decision on my part as I knew there had to be a good reason for what she was doing so I got initial inspiration from the documentary series 'deadly women' before I got further inspired. True her love for mamoru is born from her need to be loved. Her father wasn't there and her mother died early on. mamoru when they first met treated her kindly and was protective but she mistook his brotherly love for a lover's love and as their friendship evolved so did her feelings for him but his never changed. sadly this is her fate and she won't ever stop loving him.

TropicalRemix: being on meds could have helped curb it but some people whom feel that strongly about their obsession ditch the meds to focus more on the obsession rather than their own mental health.

SMSM92: rei's intentions were purely for herself. she could have enlisted people to aid her but your right deep down she knew that people would favor Usagi over her all the way and she hated that Usagi gained such love and friendship so fast while she felt she was having it taken from her. as for mamoru's pain of being rei's bitch for all the years was actually pretty easy to write down. To get into that mind set. Past knowledge for this was a great help to get the emotions and perspectives right. He had Rei in his head for so long that it was hard for him to hear anyone else but her voice telling him what to do. So when she started to make those mistakes her voice was lessened his Usagi's voice prevailed.

Silverfaerie91: I'm working on that oh so intense sex scene now. After all its going to be explosive since its been a minute. Lol

Minniemousechick: will do! Lol

Pikachugirl1992: yep, Rei is locked away and hot sex is coming in soon.

Partyangel91: date night will be interesting for them both and as soon as I'm done with this one I'll be starting up the vampire fic. I've even been watching the underworld movies to brush up on my vampire and lycan knowledge. Lol

Witchoftheforest: atonement will happen along with the hot sex, but all in due time.

12 review so sweet. We are coming to an end, I'm on the next chapter right now. But the end is coming within the next chapter or two. Depends on making sure I've tide up the loose ends. So please read and review!

Shattered pieces ch.10

Usagi POV

Knowing that Rei was locked up in a mental ward for her disturbing actions left us all feeling that much safer and better. In the end nobody wanted to believe that she was evil. Well I knew something was off and wrong with her but I could never put my finger on it. Mental disorders was not high up on my list but made sense. So when I brought the girls in on the loop everyone was left shocked.

Ami decided to use a friend over at the hospital to monitor Rei's progress. So far it had been slow as any time they tried to talk some sense into her she demanded to speak to Mamo – chan which wasn't going to happen. Apparently it was like hearing a 'psycho and their greatest hits' in the beginning. The doctors said it could be years before she'd recover from her delusions of her and Mamo – chan together.

She ended up building this inner fantasy of them being together to the point where she lost touch with reality in the end when he confronted her about it. When he did that it shattered her illusion into pieces and forced her to come to terms and when she couldn't she tried to kill herself believing it would convince him to be with her. Now she's in 'involuntary care' over at the asylum. Grandpa Hino is now running the temple with his helper as his helper continues his training into being a priest for the temple.

As for the rest of the girls, Makoto and Minako want to go out shopping soon to catch up. They both also want to see Chibi Usa to. I felt bad for not trying to be more involved but with my crazy schedule as a single mom before this I wasn't able to be to social. My daughter became my life next to work and school. To which I had to take make up exams on thanks to the craziness that happened.

Thankfully I was able to do so and as a result am one step closer to my degree. I was happy about that. I did lose the apartment though. Not as in I didn't get it but as in I let it go. Once Rei was out of the picture I didn't feel such a need to leave the house. I told the man I wouldn't be needing to move after all but he didn't seem to surprised by it. In fact he chuckled and said to be happy with 'my man'.

I wasn't up for dissecting that so I instead told Mamo – chan that we would be staying but that until things changed around for him that nothing would be happening between us. I loved the man but he needed to own up to his own shit and do what was needed. The first thing he did was remove many of Rei's things from the house that I hadn't seen before. It wasn't a lot but little trinkets here and there.

I clamped a hand around his wrist as the only picture he had left of her was near the trash, "You should keep one." he looked stunned at me, "A remind of the good in her. She did care and love you. As warped and twisted as it was she did." I told him. He looked stunned by my words, "I may not be the best person to say this but she was a big part of your life for a long time. As much as you may want to pretend that all you feel is hate you don't." I told him. he went to protest when I stopped him.

"Listen to me. Rei in the end was a malicious person. She was, but she also did care for you and love you. Don't let the hate that she put in you from these past few years spoil the person you are now. Don't let it consume you. Don't let it fester. She was a cancer and now she's gone. She's in 'remission' and ISNT coming back." I expressed. He looked at the picture one last time, "but she caused so much pain." He said. His voice thick.

"That she did but for you she felt love and trust and desire. You were the only real, other than Grandpa Hino, solid things in her life. She maintained a well-balanced life. Well as well as she could make happen." I rectified. "Listen my point is keep a small token from her. a trinket. A photo. That way you have something positive to reflect back on with her and its not just the most recent evil atrocities. Let her have at least one good memory in your heart." He looked to me oddly now.

"Why?" he asked, "Why are you of all people telling me this?" I knew he'd ask that. I sighed, "Because…" I began, "I don't want her negativity to spread and effect you differently. I want my husband back, not the man she created and that will take time. You're still that man but now you know. I just want to make sure that you don't lose yourself because of this and if you feel nothing but pure anger and pain when you think on it she will have never truly been let go." I knew it was hard to hear but it was harder to say.

"She'll have that control over your life. Without knowing it she will. You'll think on the anger and pain continuously until it eats away at your own heart." Its why I am had to keep him at a distance for now. To make him work his way back into my heart fully again. "I don't want a shell of the man I loved I want him period." I placed my hands on his chest as the photo fell from his fingers and dropped to the ground.

The frame didn't break nor did the glass, "She put us all through so much…" he began, "I know that." I tried but he shushed me with his fingers to my mouth, "You do and you don't." now I was confused. "She manipulated me our whole life together. Our friendship meant nothing more to her than a means to get into my life." I sighed as he continued, "She was my best friend ever and she twisted it into a dark entity."

He held onto me tightly, "For over fifteen years she cast this web over my eyes. I blindly did things that I should have questioned. Bullies that I beat up because she said they hurt her. Now I wonder how much of that was true. How many people did I hurt for her that didn't need to be?" he asked me. truly worried how far he had gone because of what she told him. "When we met, I felt something shift inside of me." he stated.

"It wasn't the veil being lifted so to speak it was more like I had a right light that showed me a different path that I wanted to be on. I got on it and went with you but she didn't want to let go." He looked back at the photo on the ground, "She stayed around. I thought she was just being a good friend, not wanting to loose connection since we were growing older and apart but all this time it was so she could continue her manipulations." He was really taking this hard.

To have someone that you loved and cared about as family do something so treacherous to you and do it for years on end without any remorse for their actions would be utterly devastating to a person. For Mamo – chan he felt it deeper than usual. She worked him over since the day they met. Probably fell in love at first sight but as she didn't know what to do she just used her tricks to keep him tethered to her. Used their friendship to her advantage to control him in some way or another all these years.

"She hurt me so much…and she hurt you…us…" he said, refocusing his eyes back on me. "She tore away at us. chipped away until she saw an opening and slammed her foot on the gas to destroy us." he looked so frustrated and angered by it. To have someone that he trusted so implicitly betray him in such a manner can turn anybody's world upside down. She twisted things so deeply that he honestly didn't know how to feel.

"Listen I know what she did to us both…to everyone..." our friendships with the girls…Chibi Usa not knowing her father all this time due to her. "It's not something that can be erased or tossed out. you think it can, the less of her around the better I get that but if you dismiss everything in a blinding anger you're only serving to let her have control. You need to get rid of a lot but to keep at least something." I bent down to pick up the photo.

"Here…" I gave it to him. the photo was of them together years ago. They looked happy together and no doubt she had it to but that was besides the point. "Keep it for the next few months. A momento of sorts. Then once your back to being the you we all know and love with all of our hearts decide then what to do with it as the last piece. If you truly want to be rid of it do so but don't do it now." I told him.

"Don't do now, not out of anger. Do it because you've let go of the anger and want to do it because that part of your life is done with." he gripped the photo tightly. "Who knows you might decide to keep it and say 'I know now what woman to NOT let in my life'. A reminder of sorts that you don't want her back in our lives. Just wait until after a few months have passed. Be yourself again." I explained.

"What about you?" he asked. He knew that I was being temperamental myself. I had slept in the guest room next to his last night and I don't think either of us got any sleep. My mind was just going onto to many subjects to allow myself a full nights sleep. I honestly missed the nights I had spent in bed with him already. And that was just sleeping. I truly missed the having his form on me or under me as we made love or fucked one another.

I even ended up using my vibrator to help alleviate some stress that built up recently but I wanted our first time back together to be purely us and not some rebounding feeling of discontent. I loved him dearly but I wanted to be sure that MY man was back and not this man. The one that was being manipulated by her. Mamo – chan was – is an amazing guy but in the end he has to not only atone for his mistakes but to also show me that he's in the for the long haul. People may say they want to but actions speak louder than words.

His first action was to try to destroy everything that she had there. Trash cans were filled to the brim what the stuff she had left there. When he started to grab clothing she had left there and looked like he wanted to burn it even I had to draw the line. While to get rid of most is good and therapeutic to get rid of everything is more or less done in a fit of anger. To try to erase that person from your life as if they never existed isn't the answer.

Because the thing is they did exist. They existed for a long time and no matter what you throw away, burn or whatever else you use as a way to dispose of the items that person's memory lives on within you. And when that burning pain in the heart eventually dulls out, extinguishing and the anger fades away as you relearn how to be you again you're going to want to have some semblance of a memory of that person.

I know it may sound unreasonable but you're going to want to. It's going to be something that you're going to want to reflect back on. Look at as 'we did have good times…it wasn't all bad' no matter what bad they did there's always something to look back on positively that can help you to be a stronger person. To allow you to grow and move past the anger and the hate they made you feel so strongly.

You're going to want to have at least one positive memory of them to serve as a reminder that not everything was horrible. That while you did suffer at the hands through lies and manipulations you didn't lose yourself to the point of living in the past and not moving on into the future. I didn't want him to be so hung up on the anger and pain that he lost a part of himself to her hold forever. I wanted him to live past that and be free from her grasp. I didn't want him to hold onto the pain or the anger.

"I wanted him to be free of it eventually but to learn from it and grow from it. that which doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and while he didn't receive physical pain from her he receives a shit ton of mental pain from her. Physical wounds can heal and usually at a faster pace than mental ones. If skin gets cut, it has healing capabilities that can work its magic to ensure its going to close up and stay closed as long as its given proper care and not picked at like a scabbing wound.

Mental pain however, the heal process can take longer. There's no anti biotic to put on the wound. There's no magic healing that can be done. There's only strength of will, the love and support of those closest to you and your own determination to ensure you don't fall down your own rabbit hole of pain and despair. I didn't want him to fall down that hole and lose who he was in his own anger and hatred of her actions.

I hated her to. A great deal but I refused to let the anger and pain consume me to the point where it would affect my other relationships most importantly the one I held with Chibi Usa. in all those year's I refused to let her actions and words take anything further away. I focused my strength on being a good mother. To be the best at what I had to NOT fall down that rabbit hole of despair and anger. I didn't want to be that mom that let her emotions overcome her judgement and hurt others in retaliation.

I wanted to support my daughter and show her all the love and support I held for her. She kept me grounded when I needed her even though she never knew or understood. When she get's older I would tell her the truth. Let her know what happened. I want her to understand the purpose of why things are the way they are. But while she's a young child seeing this Mamo – chan as the adult needs to see it and understand it to move on from her betrayal of both of us, "I feel like I need a drink." He commented.

"Alcohol isn't the solution." I avoided sounding like I was berating him, "It'll numb you but you have to get past this sober and with a clear mind. It'll hurt and take time but to numb it out isn't the way to go about it." I explained. "The easy way out." he finished. I nodded. "Then do me a favor." He near asked. "Hai?" I replied. "Let me take you out for dinner. Just to chat." I recalled how I told him to woe me so this should be interesting. "Okay, tomorrow night at eight. You pick the place." I told him.

Mamoru POV

She was right. In every sense of the words. I was angry and I wanted to take it out on everything that was Rei. I wanted to abolish her from my life and throw out any reminders that she even existed. However, as she said before doing that is not the solution. What I needed was to do things with a clear head. I felt so deceived and betrayed by Rei that even my happy memories of her were being tainted by my hate.

I was falling into a rabbit hole of despair and once again my loving wife pulled me out of it. I wanted so badly to show her how I felt for her. Make love to her endlessly. Show her that I was there with her one hundred percent but truth was I wasn't. My anger was still very palpable. It was still so fresh in my head and to go into making love to her now when that was there wasn't a good idea.

Believe me I wanted to feel Usako's smooth skin. Feel her silky golden hair brush against my hands as I ran my fingers through it. Kiss those plump, plush lips of hers that always tasted somehow of vanilla and strawberries. Look deeply into those beautiful blue eyes as I made love to her. Watched the emotions pass through them. See the love and passion in her orbs as I shoved my length deep inside of her till we were no longer two people but one whole person. I wanted to spill myself deeply inside and claim her in every way imaginable.

I wanted to do all of that but she was right. I had to get myself back to me first before I could do so otherwise there was no real me to give to her. Only a fragmented version that would hold that pain and anger deep down inside of me till I snapped. It would be a fresh wound until I healed it by letting go. Not to forgive – oh no there wouldn't be forgiveness but there would be healing and then forging on into a new life with Usako.

She needed me to be me again and not this shell that I became one Rei got her clutches near fully into me. I was her bitch and she knew it. I lost friends and family and years over her. I didn't want that to continue on even after she was gone. I wanted to move past it and get on with my life but I could only do that if I got myself together. The first few steps would be to do these dinner dates with Usako.

Anything I had to do to get her back would be worth it. Besides it was the least I could do after everything I put her through. The things I said to her…the harsh treatment at times. I was a fool hardy jackass. I deserved worse from her and yet what she was asking from me felt like mercy and I would take it and anything else she gave me. So when I walked back inside and found her sitting on the couch watching tv I forced myself to calmly sit next to her and present myself as open with my arms if she so choose to snuggle by me.

Within moments she testily came over and allowed my arm to wrap around her. We didn't say to much that night. Just enjoyed each other's presence as we drifted off to sleep. Chibi Usa came down an hour later with her night clothes on, "Daddy came you read me to sleep?" she asked. I couldn't say no as I gently removed Usako from my shoulder and let her snuggle next to the couch pillow.

I walked up stairs and into her room as she picked out her story. I sat on the bed next to her and with her snuggled into my side much like her mother, read her, her favorite story and watched our baby girl drift off to sleep. It was a beautiful moment. I couldn't have been happier to have this and as much as I wanted to be upset that Rei took years of this from me I had to let it go or else let the anger destroy the moment.

So instead I forced those thoughts away and gently removed myself from her bed before tucking her in under the covers with that stuffed cat head near her. Turning out the only light in the room I gently shut the door nearly all the way before walking back down stairs. I saw Usako still on the couch sleeping and picked up her form. Still so light weight. She only ever gained any weight when she was pregnant.

Remembering what she looked like all big with my baby, with Chibi Usa, had been a time in our lives that I loved. I had never been more proud to be her husband. Knowing that I had a family to take care of, to love…to protect. I forced myself to avoid becoming over-come with emotions as I carried her up-stairs and almost into our room. I gripped her a tad harder wanting so badly to take her to our room and NOT to the guest room that she'd been sleeping in for the past few nights. Before I could take a step further I heard her mumble.

"Just go to the bed. One night only." She managed as I felt relieved. I took her into our room and held her close before depositing her on the bed. Luckily the bed was still a bit haphazard so getting her under the covers was less difficult than expected. She slid under them with ease as I went to shower. Turning the water on I stripped naked then got in. I let the water pour and pound on me as I closed my eyes and made myself think of the positive times with Rei.

There were many but it would take a little bit of time before my anger would be gone. Although I don't honestly believe I'd ever forgive her for what she's done. Mental illness or not she hurt a lot of people and I wasn't to big on the forgiving side of things. I honestly as much as I loved my wife didn't even have it in me mentally right now to do anything with her. My mind was to scattered and focused at the same time.

So even if Usako wanted to have sex, not that I would normally deny it, but I now got a better idea of why she said none until we had progressed along. She knew my head would be to convoluted to properly make love to her. Not without putting my own pain and anger into the act and then it would be about that. pain and anger. No I wanted our next bout to be about love and passion. I didn't want Rei to be an influence any longer on us. So as I walked out of the bathroom and put on some clean boxers I looked over at her form.

My Usako looked a vision of beauty and innocence. I laid her down on my side of the bed as from how I picked her up from the couch. I walked over and caressed her face. Memorizing all the little nuances and feeling her smooth skin. She slept soundly as I got into bed next to her and held her closely. I needed to feel a part of her. I needed to feel connected to her in a way that wasn't sexual.

She turned around in her sleep and cuddled up in my embrace. I stayed awake and held her as long as I could before sleep took me away from her. Though her warmth throughout the night never waned nor diminished. So when I woke up naturally at my given time frame I got up, placed a gently kiss on her forehead and got ready for work. I left before either of them did for my job so I didn't bother to wake them up this time. I walked out of the quiet house and hoped it wouldn't be quiet for to long.

Usagi POV

When I woke up I felt the warmth that had been there the night before from him gone. I looked about to find him gone but figured it had to be due to work. getting up myself I showered and changed and was grateful that my phone was louder than a jackhammer to wake me up from all the way down stairs. I woke Chibi Usa up and got her ready for school and me for work. Taking a bus to get this accomplished.

One I was at work, with Chibi Usa in school, I threw myself into my job and for once felt the dregs of life not slowing me down or screwing with my head. I felt so relieved about so much that I passed hardly a thought into the drama that had happened. I was still upset over what Rei had done but now that she was literally locked up for her actions I felt relief. I no longer worried that she would do anything to us.

I felt free and happy. Though I also felt sadness to. Sadness that Mamo – chan had to figure out how to get past this. I would be there with him to help out but I wanted him to be fully him again in order for us to move forward as a couple then as a family. I loved him so deeply that I couldn't fathom not working with him through this. I hated Rei for what she did, there was no forgiveness for her but that didn't mean that her hatred had to be spread around. It didn't mean that her negative influence had to linger around.

Like a cancer of sorts. I didn't want her legacy of hate and jealousy to put a hole into him so deeply, into us so deeply that we couldn't come back from it. So when I began to receive these cutie texts from him during the day I felt a sense of giddiness wash over me. It was like being renewed and for the first time in weeks I felt the vestiges of happiness reappear again. When Rei came in it was like a bucket of ice water had been poured on us.

The happiness that we had had as a family and as a couple was put back into place as the contract stated and we hadn't even noticed that we'd become so much more than that till she jumped back in. then the cold water came on. It put fear and anger into my heart. Fear that Rei would pull another stunt only this time something that could hurt Chibi Usa and anger because of all the shit she did to Mamo – chan and I over the years. We weren't a perfect couple not by far but we also weren't the worst either.

She brought out the worst in us and now we had the positive back. When my shift ended, I went to pick up Chibi Usa. for the first time since before Rei barged in on our dinner together I felt elated that things were getting back into a norm. So when I got the text for a dinner date out at five I texted Minako to come over and babysit so I could make this happen. I'll be there by 7:30 to pick you up for our dinner date. He had texted me. I felt giddy as I put on very nice but casual clothing to wear.

Being a very punctual man he showed up right on the dot as I walked out of the house leaving our daughter in the hands of my friend as I slipped into the car and we drove off, "So where are we going?" I asked. He merely smiled in my direction before gently caressing my knee and paying attention to the road. Five minutes later he asked, "What do you remember about our first date?" I had to think on that one.

"If I remember correctly we had gone to a hotdog stand before taking a walk to the park where there's an ice cream vendor…" I looked over to him in the car, "Is that where we're going?" I asked. I was honestly curious if he was going to try to re-create our first date and as sweet as it was I really wasn't in the mood for hot dogs. Instead he laughed is it in a jovial spirited mood, "No we're not."

I hated to admit it but I was glad. The only good thing about the first date had been the fact that we have been together and he was sweet and loving. The hotdogs we had gotten were overcooked and were even thinner than his own 'hotdog' was, and if I also remember correctly the ice cream vendor was overpriced the ice cream was more soupy than ice creamy. I reflected back on it as the first time we kissed.

Now I'm sure that they had different people and both of those stands but still I'd rather re-create the night we got engaged than to re-create our first date. At least on the night we got engaged we ended it with celebratory sex. Not that sex will be happening tonight but still if I was to re-create a night it would be that one. "I'm taking you to the place I wanted to actually go on our first date." That had me shoot a looked over at him.

I hadn't known that he had alternative plans for our very first date, "You see I wanted to take you out someplace special but I couldn't afford to at the time…" which was true what little money he was making from his part time gig after school he was trying to save it. He told me it was for our school dances that way he could take me like a proper gentleman could. I think it's one of the reasons why we wound up becoming more physical in the beginning faster because there were so few things to do with so few funds.

However, that didn't make a difference to us, we were still happy with the time that we spent together. It was beautiful every time and even when we weren't having sec we spent time in a meadow near the park sitting in the grass just talking about every and anything under the sun, "So where is this place that we're going to then?" I asked. I was curious now as I looked around at the city lights.

He merely smirked before saying, "You'll see." And all boy did I see you're right. He took us to this quaint little joint called club Beson. I had to laugh as I was surprised that him as a teenager granite an older teenager had wanted to take me to this particular club restaurant when we're both still in high school. "I wanted to impress you, show you that I could get into one of these clubs but I honestly at the point couldn't get us in without fake ID's." He explained. I had to admit I was shocked he actually was going to do that.

"You were going to get us fake IDs to get into the club when we were teens?" I asked as we parked in the lot and went up to the front entrance door. Showing proof of our ID's that we were over the age of 21 we walked inside. "I almost had them but the guy who I was going to pay got picked up by police for issuing out fake IDs to teenagers." I looked at him shocked that he's gotten that far.

"Wow… all this time I never knew…" I stated in amazement as we got up to the bar. Before I could sit down he gestured me over to where a table was near the corner of the establishment, "Right over here. I want us to have a little time to ourselves first before we have any drinks in our system." I agreed as I walked with confidence over to the booth he had directed me to. "I am glad that you're giving me this second chance." He said, moments after we sat down. I watched as a waitress came by to give us two small glass of water.

"I told you I would. I want to give this a chance because I know that if there was nothing truly left between us you never would have made that stupid contract up." I told him as I took a sip of my water. "You know I made that contract up because I had to find some way of being able to still be with you physically even though at that point my head was just not in the right place." He said. I nodded my agreement.

"Neither of us were in a great place at the time." I admitted. "I had been stressed over the lawyers constantly calling me. My job, my schooling plus being a single mother wasn't easy to do. Then you presented that contract and I was so headstrong against it." I told him in earnest. He rose a brow at it, "Not because I didn't want you, I did – do…but I didn't want to admit to defeat nor did I want to subject Chibi Usa's or my own heart to whatever you had on your mind." I told him.

"I'll admit I was intending on just fucking your brains out consistently. That first night we had together was great." He smiled at that, "But was more out of anger and pain. It was hot but the love and the passion was buried under the anger and pain and I just…" I could tell it was hard for him, "I just wanted you to feel my own pain. But then again I was still under the impression of betrayal." I heard him say as the waitress came by.

Once I noticed that she was flirting with him I spoke up, "My husband and I will have two screw drivers." She noted it down and left quickly, "Husband?" he noted. "You still are technically my husband." I said flippantly. "True…" he agreed, "It's just nice to hear you say it is all." He smiled a boyish smile before taking a sip of his own water. "That time was difficult for us both but I had to admit the sex even though it was different than usual I kinda liked the rougher stuff." I shyly admitted to him.

I could tell he was stunned, "Really?" I asked. "Yeah. That first night of sex once the contract was done was rough and edgy and full of passion. It was also hard and powerful…I…" how do I explain this? I looked into his eyes, "It was how you felt. I felt your pain and loneliness in your movements that night. I felt your need to connect with me again but on your terms and I accepted what you needed and wanted from me in those moments." I finished.

Mamoru POV

Kami – sama did I have a beautiful wife. Inside and out. She knew how I was feeling and she took in the anger and the pain and gave me what I needed in those moments. Something I'm sure any other woman would have complained on. "I'm a lucky man to have you in my life but I'm also the world's biggest moron for how I treated you." memories of all the things I had said and done to her.

"You didn't deserve it. Any of it. I don't think I could ever possibly show you in a mere few months of how much I regret my words or anything else bad that I did out of my anger and pain but I would love to spend the rest of our lives doing so. Know that I have you by my side giving me that chance is a blessing as it is." I was honestly counting on her agreeing with me. It would indicate that even if there wasn't any physicality for a while at least I had her by my side and that right there meant more to me than sex.

"Mamo – chan…I've always been there…you just needed to reach out to me." I nodded knowing she was right. I had my lawyers reach out to her. I never made that step, "I made the error by not doing so then, I WON'T be making that same mistake ever again." I promised her. taking her hand in mine and holding it dear to me when the waitress brought our drinks to us, "You ready to order your food?" that's when we both looked down and found the menus she had left us. we both started to bust out laughing. "Give us a minute." I chuckled.

Usagi POV

By the end of the evening we were giddy and having a lot of fun. We ended up leaving the bar restaurant two hours later and since he did have two drinks in him we decided to walk around a bit enjoying the city life. Tokyo was grand and expansive. It was so bright and colorful at night time that we couldn't help ourselves. We ended up visiting a few tourist attractions and poked fun at the outrageous prices on the goods before leaving.

We eventually found ourselves in the park where we did have our first date. The car was only a few blocks down and away. We made sure not to travel to far as we made sure to pick up along the way some water as both of us were getting parched. So once we hit the park I ran to the pond where a few ducks still were. I got right up to the edge and watched the baby ducklings waddle after their mama and papa.

It was so stupidly adorable. I wanted to take a picture of it but it was to dark out to get a good shot. So when Mamo – chan sat next to me on the ground we felt the calm of the night catch up to us. "Wow…" he sat back and looked up at the night sky. There were a few stars out now. We couldn't hardly see then in the city as there were to many city lights but here in the park a few blocks down the trees blocked most of the city lights giving this small section of the area a calming nature feel to it.

"Yeah…" I agreed as I leaned back on the grass and looked up at the night sky. I laid there flat on my back, hands to my side and just breathed in the air of the night. It had been an awesome night out. we hadn't had this in so long. Even when we got married we had tried to keep this up but once Chibi Usa had been born our world shifted to her. Then the rest of the crap happened so this was a welcome reprieve.

I felt his hand cover my own on the grass so I looked over to him. He had a genuine loving smile on his face. I felt like our hearts were going to be in sync once again when I turned my head just slightly and saw a shooting star. I sat up. "WOW! did you see that?" I exclaimed. Shocked to have seen one in person. That stuff only happens on t.v. "Yeah I did." He stated calmly. I turned to look down at him, "Did you make a wish?" I asked.

I turned over to lean on my left elbow and try to give him a sultry look, but he was just looking at me with such love and affection that I faltered on the sultry end. "I already had my wish come true." He remarked casually. I furrowed my brows, "How so?" I asked. "Kami put you in my life and even with the bad that happened there's nothing more in this that I want than to be with you for the rest of my days Usako." His words touched me deeply.

I felt tears prickling at my eyes, "Mamo – chan…" he just looked at me, his loving gaze felt like it could penetrate my soul. I felt my heart skip a beat. "To this day I've never regretted having only ever been with you…in my heart, my body and my soul. You've ruined me for anyone else that comes along. No one could take me from you." I promised. Cause even though Rei had tried to separate us in the end she didn't destroy us.

If that were the case we wouldn't be right here right now enjoying this simple moment together. I watched as he took my right hand from right around my waist and brought it to his lips, kissing each finger before kissing my hand. "Usako…I would never let anyone take you from me. The past is the past and I want us to focus on our future." He said as he gently pulled me in for a sweet kiss. I accepted it with a note of happiness.

So when we returned back home an hour later it was midnight when we got in. Minako was asleep on the couch until we closed the door then she woke up. "Usagi – chan…Mamoru – san…" it had been a while she Minako had seen him, "Date night go well?" she asked, still on the fence when it came to him, "It was great Minako – chan…perfect gentleman." I added thinking it would help.

She quirked a brow at me, "Seriously you didn't give her any?" she asked. I face planted, "I'll explain it to you later Minako – chan thanks for watching Chibi Usa." I ushered her out the door before locking it up. Mamo – chan didn't say anything, just smiled and waited for me to get done walking around turning off the one and only lamp I the room before making my way up the stairs with him.

We checked on Chibi Usa and found her snuggling with her stuffed cat head sound asleep. As we left out quietly I debated on the rooms. "I would love to sleep with you tonight but…" I had to tell him the truth. even as he looked hopeful but not expectant. "I know me…and I'm going to want sex at some point and that's not what this night is about." He nodded, "When you're ready we'll take that step together." He said.

I nodded and walked into my own room. Even though my body missed him that night and had trouble sleeping to certain points I also couldn't help how happy I was that we were doing things from scratch again. Getting to know the people we had become while being separated. We needed to do that before going further. It was difficult but it would be worth it. I just had to make sure we both stuck to this for a little while. He still had some mental recovering to do as well. I wanted my husband back. Till then our hormones were on a leash.