Alive With You

by maria190

HEY GYUS HERE I AM.ONE MORE ALTERNATIVE ENDING FOR ME BEFORE YOU. THE STORY TAKES PLACE AFTER CHAPTER 26 IN WHICH WILL ASKS LOU TO CALL HIS PARENTS INSIDE THE ROOM IN SWITZERLAND.LETS SEE HOW THINGS WERE IN THAT ROOM AND WHAT SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED. I STRONGLY BELIEVE THEY HAVE TO BE TOGETHER. I STILL HOPE FOR A THIRD BOOK OR A MOVIE SEQUEL IN WHICH WILL IS BACK ALIVE

18. Chapter 18

So guys oh my God. This is the last chapter but of course not the last story about Will and Lou. The past seven months you were with me reading, reviewing and loving Will and Clark. And I am so thankful for that. So thanks again each one of you : ninewood, Gingerhairedbeauty, Kimmy123, Tammy Rios, Nicole Marie K, Craddock12, FanFicFan305, BookWorm039, Bumblebeetightsx, MonroesAudrey, oneoftheinvisibles, Lenaire Jean. Thanks and to all the guests who I cannot unfortunately reply to for their beautiful reviews as well. Chapter 18 is Will's point of view and one more thing: LIVE BOLDLY PEOPLE. But before we proceed to Chapter 18 I would like to say and express some thoughts that I have in my heart for Will Traynor and Louisa Clark. Our Will and Lou. My Will and Lou. My Will and Clark. I am sorry if this is too long for you to read but I have to say this because they are and they will always be scored on my heart. So there it is. My thoughts and feelings about Will and Louisa. Will and Clark and then comes chapter 18. My last chapter for this story but not my last story. Thank you all for supporting me so far. I am so touched and overwhelmed right now. I love them and I will always will.

Characters belong to Jojo Moyes!

A few words from the author maria190

I just wanted to say that Will is perfect and he must return in a second movie and in a third book. So these are my thoughts :

I can't even describe how deep in my heart I have Will and Clark. Because Me Before You is not just a movie to me. Me Before You is not just a book to me. And I strongly believe that Will shouldn't go to Dignitas after all. And even if he did go to Dignitas as described in the movie and in the book, he loves Clark so deeply and she loves him too. And their love is beyond physical death. Because their souls are one forever. And they will always be together. As Will said to her in the movie letter: "I'll be walking beside you every step of the way". Because even if Will did go to Dignitas his soul didn't die. He didn't die. And that's why these two will always be together. No matter what. They are soul mates.

And I write stories about them because I want to show how their life could be if Will didn't do what he planned in Switzerland. Because they are supposed and meant to be together. And they will always be together. And I truly hope that someday we will see Will returning in a third book and in a second movie. And his comeback can be explained: The fact that he did do what he planned in Switzerland as they showing in the end of the movie and in the end of the first book and the events in the second book could all be explained as Will's or Clark's or someone else's of the characters imagination of what would have happened if Will would do what he planned in Switzerland.

Come on guys we never saw a funeral, we never saw his body. We just read and saw that he just went to Swiss. Went. And that he was in that bed with Clark where they were both so in love in that bed and then he asked her to call his parents in. So when his parents came in we don't know what happened. Millions of things could have happened. And we never read his point of view in the book. I really wanted his point of view in the book. But even if there was a funeral scene and a body in the movie and in the book it could also be Will's imagination and his version of what would have happened if he would do what he planned in Switzerland. He could change his mind at any point even when they were on Mauritius with Clark, or before that , when they started to be close with Clark and do all that stuff together , or even the last minute the day they were in Switzerland. The point is that when he changes his mind he starts to imagine what could life be after Switzerland and that's how we can explain the events in the end of the first book and the end of the movie and the events of the second book. Or he first imagined how life could be after Switzerland and then he changed his mind. In any case the events from the end of the first book and the events from the end of the movie and the second book can be explained. I love Will. You see? This can happen. His future return.

But it can also be Lou's or someone else's of the characters version and imagination of what would have happened. Fine by me as long as it turns out that he didn't do it. And guys, the titles Me Before You and After You , both have the word You which refers to Will.

It's ALL about Lou and HIM. So some more examples of my imagination of how Will's return could be explained: The crown prosecution announcement before the epilogue in Me Before You book could easily written before Will go to Swiss with already an afterwards date after what would happen in Switzerland and was written according to Will's and his parents' wishes {his parents' wishes I mean the part where their separation and Camilla's resignation from her work is mentioned. They could have decided before Will would go there that if and when he would do that, Camilla would resign and they would separate}.

But considering that Will didn't do it after all we can leave out the crown prosecution service announcement as they left it out anyway in the first movie and it was mentioned only in the first book. And also other things that were in the book as well were not in the first movie. And now as for Clark reading his letter in Paris …. Well that letter was written by Will before the Switzerland date and it was supposed to be delivered to Clark as it was planned to, because no one knew that Will would change his mind. And the letter arrived to Clark and she reads it and she cries because it's a letter full of love for her from Will.

So she reads it and when she goes to buy Papillons Extreme then she could have gone meet Will afterwards in Paris where Will awaits for her to show her Paris and until he meets her he is somewhere in Paris with Nathan who is helping him with his wheelchair -I know Will said to Clark in the castle scene that his wheelchair won't charge in a French socket but they could find a way and a proper charging socket- or she could have gone in Paris and Will waited for her in London because he wanted for her to see Paris and she kept the letter when it arrived to her and opened it there in Paris because Will wanted to open it there in that cafe. Or another possibility is that after he changed his mind, Lou doesn't go to Paris at all but she stills reads the letter because it was already written for her. And the sure fact is that they will move in together. A million of examples that can explain Will's return. Bottom line: there are many ways to explain Will's return in a second movie and in a third book. And as I said before : Will or someone else could be imagining life if Will do what he plans in Switzerland.

In the movie Georgina, the scene where Will helps out Lou in the maze and then their talk after that when he tells her his fears and she told him holding his hand what happened that night with these men at the maze, the tattoo scene, the wine taste scene, the part where Lou moves in with Will, the part that Patrick tipped off the news to the reporters about Will's decision for Switzerland, the broader "right to die argument" when she refers to other "right to die cases" that where in the news and the message board that Lou joins for people with spinal injuries searching for ways to convince Will to change his mind about Switzerland, when Camilla goes to find Lou and asks her to come back at the annex, Will's mother perspective and Will's father mistress are scenes that were left out but they were in the book.

Also other changes were made. In the book Lou except from the shave she also gives Will a haircut but in the movie Clark doesn't give him a haircut. She comes at the annex while he is with Nathan and sees his new haircut. When she shaves him in the movie he says that his mother will be so happy but Lou says they won't let that put them off , but in the book before Lou cuts his hair she said that his mom will be happy and he said they won't let that put them off.

In the book Louisa listens the talk that Georgina and Camilla have and accidentally finds out about Switzerland, but in the movie Louisa listens Steven and Camilla talking and accidentally finds out about Switzerland. In the book Clark is changing clothes at the annex and Will and Nathan say their opinion on what she is going to wear to the concert that she and Will are going and Will picks the red dress and tells her to take off the jacket and the scarf . But in the movie Clark is already dressed and she comes to the annex with the red dress and Will tells her to take off the scarf. Also when they are in that bed in Switzerland in the movie Louisa asks Will to tell her something good and he sings to her the Molahonkey song as she did for him that night with the snow when he was ill and he asked her to tell him something good.

But in the book Will asked her in that bed in Switzerland to tell him something good and then she told him the story about two people, about them - she says two people that they shouldn't have met but all she means is that they didn't expect to meet each other because they were so different, but as it turns out they are the same because they are soul mates - and she says that they didn't like each other at first – well they thought they didn't like each other - and she said that they are the only people in the world that can understand each other. And they are. So as these changes made from book to movie and some scenes where left out completely from the movie, then this can happen in the future: Will's return in a third book and in a second movie. And his return can be explained.

Will can be brought back. I believe that and I will continue writing stories about them. About Will and Lou. Will and Clark as I like to call them more. Then maybe Will could meet his daughter that he didn't know he had. That is something that Will could find out in many ways. His daughter's existence is the only think that can be used from the second book . And he will marry Clark and they will have their kids and he can be a great father for the daughter he never knew he had and for his kids with his true love, Louisa Clark. As Clark can be a great mother for her kids with her true love, Will Traynor and for Will's daughter as well. Or Will's daughter that he never knew he had with an old girlfriend of his before his accident, can be left out. It's Will's and Louisa's story. Will is perfect. And even if Will and Clark could not make love or kids they can still get married and be happy in a third book and in a second movie.

And one other important thing: The fact that in both movie and book version we saw that Will went to Swiss and according to the movie and the book did what he planned –something that we didn't actually saw, we just saw him there - doesn't mean he wasn't happy with Clark. On the contrary. His happiness started the day he met her. The day that they both fell in love with each other. Clark is the love of his life and he is the love of her life.

The joy Will feels when he sees that she liked the movie with subtitles. That night in Will's room with the snow where he asked her to tell him something good and that's when he finds out about the bumblebee tights and he loves her so much that he makes her the bumblebee tights a present for her birthday. The scene where she is shaving him. He is so handsome. The scene where Clark shows up in front of Will in the movie with the red dress, the scene where they are in the concert and his face when he understands how much Clark loves the concert and then when they are in the car and they stay there because he just wants to be a man who's been to a concert with a girl in a red dress. His girl. His love. The picnic scene in the movie where he says that he'll come on her birthday dinner. The way Will is jealous in the book when Clark tells him that she decided to move in with Patrick and the way Will is jealous in the movie when Patrick kisses Lou in front of him on her birthday dinner. Will's and Lou's happiness when he gave Lou the bumblebee tights on her birthday. The castle scene when she tells her about Paris.

Oh the way he looks at her at the wedding reception while she is sitting on his lap and the way he tells her to move closer because she smells fantastic. The flirting and the words they exchange. The phrase: "You are pretty much the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning" . The way he looks at her and the way she looks at him telling him to go somewhere, anywhere in the world with her, just the two of them and the way he sighs looking at her. And the way he looks at her when he responds "ok" to her. The happiness they feel and the way Will laughs and Clark cheers when they run outside both on Will's wheelchair on the way to the hotel leaving Alicia and Rupert's wedding reception. The scene when he is in hospital with pneumonia and Clark is there for him.

The kiss scene in the movie that stormy night and the way he tells her to leave the shutters open because he wants to see the storm and the ocean outside. He says he wants to see it. The way he looks at her and he smiles while she is standing next to the shutter looking at the storm. The way he looks at her when she is making his bed position more comfortable and then he says to her not to go back to her room tonight . And they both smile and he is looking at her while she lies down next to him with her hand touching his arm and the way they are both looking at the storm and the way Will looks at her while she is looking outside next to him. Everything were perfect that stormy night with the ocean and the storm view in front of them. The way they are looking at each other and the way they are so close as they are about to start their kiss. With all the lightning and the atmosphere when the power is off while they are kissing, with Clark's hand now on Will's chest. The way they both smile after their kiss. That smile is the smile of true love.

The way he tells her that she can do anything after she tells him that she can't do scuba diving. His happiness when he sees afterwards how happy Clark is doing scuba diving. And let me mention that in his book version letter he says to Clark that her face after the scuba diving told him everything and that there's a hunger in her. A fearlessness that she kept buried. His smile when Clark dances in front of him that night on the beach under the stars and the way they are both in pain when they discuss about Switzerland. The love that they have in their eyes. They are meant for each other. Oh so many scenes from the movie and the book.

Will teaches Clark so many things. Even in his letter he shows how much he loves her. But when he tells her in that letter to don't think of him too often because he doesn't want her getting sad, - Getting sad is used in the movie letter version and I don't want to think of you getting all maudlin is used in the book version letter - well this isn't possible. Because it's impossible for her not to think of him every single day as it is impossible for him not to think of her every single day. So he gives us the fact by his words that as I said, his soul will watching Clark and he will be with her and she will be with him. Forever. Of course guys because when a body goes it doesn't mean that the person goes. He is alive. They did all that stuff together and he went to that trip with her and they had such a good time in that hotel that night after Alicia's and Rupert's wedding. And the job at the castle for Bernard … The bank account that Will set up for her with Michael Lawler. Will wanted for Clark to put herself first for once and not worry about her family. Because he wanted for her to live life. To live boldly. He did that, all of that for her. Because that's how much he loves her. And Clark did all that stuff with him, went to that trip with him, searched things that could made him want to live life again because she also wanted him to live life again. To change his mind about Swiss. That's how much she loves him.

And the description of the movie and the book that say that Will did what he planned to in Switzerland was because he was too exhausted and in pain and because he kept thinking of how he used to be before his accident and was athletic and he thought Clark would be trapped because of the wheelchair but Clark didn't care about the wheelchair and that chair shouldn't define Will.

So he didn't decide to go to Swiss because he wasn't happy with her. Because these six months were the best for him in his entire life and as for Clark too. The best months in her life. Oh and in his letter he says to her how much he loves her. And she loves him too. Because they are in love and their love is true and they will always be together. Because I will tell what he said in the movie letter: "I'll be walking beside you every step of the way". They will always be together. And the fact that in the movie and in the book he didn't change his mind about Swiss doesn't mean that Clark isn't the love of his life . Because she is. And Will is the love of her life. And they will always be together. And I wish he would change his mind. But even if he didn't they will always be together and he is alive even if his body gave in. His soul and Will as a person are still present.

Even if Clark would decide to get married –something I don't think she would do but even if she did Will is her love- someday years after Will did what he planned in Switzerland, no one would be like Will. He would be just a person that passed from Louisa's life. No one could replace the love of her life. Will Traynor. And no one could ever offer her more than Will Traynor can offer her because simply you only get one true love in your life. And for Clark, this love is Will Traynor. As for Will the only love of his life is Louisa Clark. And I would like to see them getting married and having kids and Will not let himself defined by this wheelchair. As he said to her in the book that what happened that night in the maze with these men, she shouldn't let that night define her. So I would really like to see him not let this chair define him. Because he is a real man. A perfect man despite the wheelchair.

And Clark loves his perfection. The man he is. And he loves Clark and the woman she is. He was uncomfortable eating in front of other people but he went to Lou's birthday and he ate in front of everyone with Clark feeding him. He did that for her and I think because he was feeling comfortable with her family. Because the sure thing is that he was feeling comfortable with Lou. He was a bitter man after his accident and when she came he began laughing. Really laughing and he became more social. So Will doesn't have to let that chair define him. He was uncomfortable eating in front of others and he was constantly thinking of how he used to be before the accident.

And he loves Clark so much that he worries about all the things she can't do when he is getting ill sometimes. But that's the point. He loves her so much that cares for that but what he has to understand is that Lou doesn't care about enjoying life without him. And she tries to change his mind about Switzerland because they can enjoy life despite the wheelchair. Because she wants him and she wants to be there in every difficulty in his health. She stands by him as he stands by her. Because enjoying life is being with the love of your life. She became a woman that showed her potential. The potential that Will saw in her. He said to Clark that we only get one life and it's actually our duty to live it as fully as possible. She became a whole new person because of him. The person she was hiding deep inside and that Will helped her stop hiding. And Will stopped being bitter because she makes him happy. And even in his letter he says that there's not much that makes him happy anymore but she does. So that's why Will should be brought back in a second movie and in a third book. Because he is so in love and happy with her as she is with him. And as he became happy from the moment she walked into his life he can also stop worrying about things that Clark won't be able to do if he gets ill, or worrying eating in front of others.

And if others make comments then these others have the problem. Like in the movie when they went to the dance floor in the wedding and some old people were making comments. Or in the horse riding when some girls were making comments for Will in the book version. They have the problem. Not Will. And let me mention that also the horse riding scene was different from book to movie. And also not all words from the letter in the book were said in the letter in the movie version. And the phrases "your sweet smile" and "I'll be walking beside you every step of the way" were only in the movie letter. But in the movie letter version we got how much he loves her as we got it in the book version letter and that is the important thing. So they can make one more change and bring Will back in the future. His return can be explained. So as he stopped being bitter and he ate before Lou's family then he can also stop worrying about Clark being trapped with him because of the wheelchair. On the contrary. Clark is liberated and happy because of him and his love for her. And he is liberated too and happy because of her and her love for him.

I would also like to mention that in the movie when Clark is devastated in her room after the trip in Mauritius, her dad tells her to call them. Because of course she wants to be there and he wants her there of course . They want each other more than anything. But in the book when Clark is devastated there's a message in the phone machine from Camilla telling that Clark must call her. And Clark does because she desperately wants to see Will and when she does Camilla tells her to be there and booked her a flight to go. And of course she does. She goes to her Will. Will is expecting his Clark.

So Will Traynor must not let that chair define him. Because he is perfect and he can give her everything as she can give him everything. As Mary Rawlinson said to Clark about Will in Alicia's and Rupert's wedding reception : "You take care of him. He's a good one". They are soul mates and that's why I hope and pray that someday Will's character will be brought back in a third book and in a second movie. And his comeback can be explained as I described above. Or they can come up with another explanation. It doesn't matter which one explanation of all of them. As long as they bring Will's character back. So …. Thank you all for this journey. I will keep up writing stories about Will and Clark. They will always be together and they will always be scored on my heart. So here comes the last chapter for this story. Chapter 18. Will's point of view. I hope you will enjoy! And I am so overwhelmed.

Will and Clark always scored on my heart. I cross my fingers and pray that Will's character will return in a third book and in a second movie. Sam Claflin and Emilia Clarke are great and I would like them to reprise their characters. The message for the readers and the viewers in the book and the movie was the right for someone's choice. For Will's choice. And Clark was there for him in Switzerland . Him, Will Traynor that gave Lou six magical months where she lived more than she ever lived in her whole life. And she managed to make him so happy. They give everything to each other and these six months is only the beginning for them. Because even in both cases, where Will don't or does change his mind about Switzerland, their love will never end. It started right that day when they met. I just hope and pray that Will's choice will turn out to be the one that he decides to change his mind about Switzerland in a second movie and in a third book. Because the movie and the book about Will and Lou have one other major message : Their love, their love that is epic and eternal . Forever . I love them so much. I hope you will enjoy this. True love never ends. Will and Lou will never end ! They will always be together !

Alive Together. Alive with each other!

Chapter 18

The good news that Dr. Coyle and Dr. Sneider told us couldn't have been better. We can have a child. Clark and I. Together. The treatment worked and it doesn't matter how long will take for us to have a kid. The only thing that we know for sure is that we can. We will have a child. But even if we couldn't have a child or even if we couldn't make love the thing that matters is that I have her and she has me. For better and for worse. Always.

So we told Nathan and Treena that the treatment worked and we also called Georgie to tell her. And we told our parents too because they didn't know about the treatment at all.

Three weeks have passed since we got the good news from Dr. Coyle and Dr. Sneider and as we are at the park with Clark who seemed very strange, and as we were having picnic I told her about a call I had from Georgie telling me that she was coming tomorrow for a week. But the weird is she wasn't speaking but all she was doing was smiling. Then I said :

"Ok Clark. What's the matter? You seem oddly quiet"

"Well, Mr. Traynor …." And then she stood up and sat on my lap and kissed me.

"Ok not that I am complaining … but will you tell me why are you being so weirdly cheerful?"

"Well, beside the fact that I love you Traynor, there is another reason"

"Clark, do you know something I don't?" and then I figured. She was about to tell me that:

"We're pregnant Will. I took a test this morning after a period delay I had these last days and it was positive"

Then I was so moved and she smiled at me and gently kissed me all over my face as I kissed her nose. And when she pressed her forehead on mine looking straight at her eyes I told her:

"You know how much I love you?"

"As much as I love you my heart. My Will"

And then we kissed and I told her:

"We should go to a doctor to be sure Clark"

"Yes ok. Oh our little sarcastic Traynor "

"Oh our little bumblebee Clark Traynor" and we both laughed and kissed passionately.

So the same morning we went to Dr. Smith, the ob that Dr. Coyle and Dr. Sneider suggested us, who both by the way were very happy about us. So the next morning the test results that Clark did came out. She is three weeks pregnant as Dr. Smith told us and when we left his office, we both figured it out:

"So husband that day when we were going to Dr. Sneider's office to find out about the results of your treatment that was when …. Our little one was conceived. I guess that's why I had a good feeling that day" and she smiled at me caressing my cheek and then I said playfully:

"Yes, Clark, but I guess I knew also better and I said that day that we should give one more try and see if that treatment worked before we go to Dr. Sneider's office"

"Yeah you couldn't be more right Traynor" and she jumped on my lap and we kissed.

"You are my world Clark"

"You are my world too Traynor"

We didn't tell anyone the news right away. We just wanted to wait for the right moment. And as we returned at the annex Georgie has already arrived from Australia but not for a week as she told me on the phone. She told us that she got engaged to Ben , a colleague of her in Australia and they decided to move here and open their own business in London. Ben would come a few days later because he has some things to close in Australia. And Georgie came earlier to search for their apartment in London. And when she said all of that she also said:

"Plus, I wanted to be close to my family. Close to Mom, Dad, Louisa. And close to you Will. You are my brother and I love you. I love all of you"

And as I was so moved I said:

"Come here you" and she sat on my lap and kissed my cheek and I said as my mother and father were hugging Clark:

"I love you too my baby sister" and Clark was so moved as my parents too.

The following night Nathan, Treena and Georgie came at the annex and we told them about the baby. They were so thrilled about us.

And as a few days passed by, Ben came from Australia and Georgina met him to all of us and we had a celebration dinner for their engagement. Ben moved with Georgina at their place in London and as a few more days passed we discussed with Clark that it was about time for our parents to know about their grandchild. And we told them and they couldn't be happier.

As we are in our bed with Clark now this night that the storm outside is quite strong, all I can do is ask her this:

"Put my hand on your belly Clark" and she did and then she smiled and said:

"Our miracle"

"Yes Clark"

"And I am so lucky because you Will Traynor will be the best dad ever"

"And you will be the best mom ever Clark"

We kissed and then she told me:

"You know I will get fat"

"Yes you will be my fat bumblebee girl" I said teasing her as she hit me gently on my arm.

"I'm just kidding Clark. You're going to be beautiful. You are always beautiful. The most beautiful woman to me. My wife. My Clark. My baby's mom. And I love you"

"And you are so handsome my husband and I love you and everything about you. Even your sarcasm. You are my only true family. You and our kid and I love you"

So we kissed and as the months were passing by Clark is now six months pregnant and she is able to manage with her studies quite well and of course she will take a break from her studies when she is going to be in labor. As for me, well I recently became a head department in Economy Sphere. I work from home mostly but I go there twice a week to check things and Nathan or my dad give me a lift with the van to the company. Clark wants to do that but I don't want her to get tired by driving me there. But I am also an advisor for my old company as well.

Tonight Clark and I and Treena and Nathan we are all invited to Georgie and Ben's apartment for dinner. The advertising company they have goes really well. The dinner was great and we have many dinners and nights like these.

Three more months have passed and Clark gave birth to our baby boy that we named William Clark Traynor. Clark insisted for Will and I insisted for Clark because I call my wife Clark and I wanted our child to have her name. Clark wanted our child to have my name as well so, we gave the little one Will and Clark both. Dr. Smith gave exquisite care to this pregnancy.

I am Will Traynor and ten years have passed by now, since William Clark Traynor has come in this world. Clark who has her degree from Manchester University opened her own store with crazy dresses and bumblebee tights and I with the help of Treena, Nathan, Ben , Georgie and my mother arranged for our guest room to be a workplace for Clark where she will be able to design her own clothes. I am still head department in Economy Sphere and I also run the economic department in my old company. Treena got married with Nathan seven years ago and they have a beautiful five year old girl named Annie . Thomas, Annie and our son are very close. Clark and I are also little Annie's god parents. And Georgie and Ben are our son's god parents. Georgie got married also with Ben seven years ago, the same year with Nathan and Treena and they have a son name Steven who is six years old and Treena and Nathan are his godparents.

Our parents are really well and Clark's Grandpa is really well too. Our parents are going to trips often and enjoy life as we do. And as Clark left our son at school this morning and came back to work from home as I was working from home today, she sat on my lap and kissed me and hugged me tight like she was scared:

"Hey Clark , hey you, not that I am complaining about the kiss, but you are shaking. What's wrong Clark?"

"Traynor I love you. You're great with our son, you are a great father and he is a great son. And I love our life"

"And I love you too. Both of you. So much. So what's wrong?"

"I had a dream last night Will about you going to Dignitas and I got scared and I lost. Because I am lost without you Will Traynor"

"I would never think to go to Dignitas again Clark. You know that. I have you and I have our son. I have everything"

"I know. I just can't stand the feeling I had when we were there and I thought you were going to do this"

"No, don't ever mention that place ever again Clark. You hear me? I am not going anywhere. I don't want you getting sad. I am not going there. Never. Not again. And yes I have the ups and downs in my health but I am still here. I am here now and I know that I will be here for many years to come"

"Yes you are here and you are great in everything. A great husband, a great father and great at your job. See? That wheelchair doesn't define you"

"That wheelchair is nothing Clark. We are everything"

"You are everything Will to me and I love you and I am so proud of you"

"And you are everything to me Clark and I love you too and I am so proud of you too. You are doing great with your job , with our son and with me. Come here"

And she pressed her lips to mine as I deepened our kiss.

"I love you now Will and I will love you always"

"Me too Clark. I will always love you"

"You will love me even more because I have something to tell you"

"What?" I said looking at her waiting.

"Will Traynor Jr. is expecting a sibling. We will be parents for second time. Dr. Smith informed me right before I come to you. So I want you here for me and our kids"

I was speechless because I had to take the treatment a few times for the past years but we didn't manage to have a second child. Dr Sneider and Dr Coyle both told us that it would be difficult for a second time but not impossible. And three months ago we said we would do one last treatment attempt. And it worked.

"You are my life. I am alive with you Clark. Because of you. And I am not going anywhere. I am too stubborn for that. Come here"

And we kissed and as she put my hand on her belly she told me:

"And I am alive with you Traynor. Because of you Traynor. I love you"

"And I love you" and then we went to our bed and made love. And now she is sleeping and I look at her next to me with her head on my chest. I think of her and all of our moments together from the day, from the second she walked into my life, until today that we are in our bed. And all I can say is this:

Will Traynor and Louisa Clark will be always together no matter what. Alive together. Alive because we are together.

I am Will Traynor and despite the ups and downs in my health I am here. Louisa Clark and Will Traynor are one. And I intend to be here for many years to come. For her and for our kids. And even if one day my health will get so bad that I …. Well even if my body will give in someday, - a day that I know it will come in many years from now - even then, our love with Clark will never end. Because we are soul mates. And scored on each other's hearts forever. But I am here now next to the love of my life and I look at her and I know that we will always be together. Alive together. No matter what.

Louisa Clark and I happy with our two kids

Louisa Clark and Will Traynor

Our love …. ALIVE ALWAYSSSS