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Fixing MistakesChapter 3

The blonde girl looked very emotional as she took me in. "Mother?"

I only blinked as her and the boy next to her about rushed me. Peter and Char was there in less than a second, blocking them from coming closer.

Mother? I had children?

I shoved what emotions were threatening to rise up. Peter had turned back to me, locked eyes with me. Those familiar red eyes comforted me, calmed me.

I closed my eyes as I took a deep breath. When I opened them again, I steeled myself.

"You seem familiar, child, but I cannot place you. Not too long ago, I was attacked and my memories come and go," as I said this, Bella makes her way to me and grips my hands tight.

"I'm sorry. I was so useless," I titled my head at her, making myself emotionless as she started to cry. I sighed instead, pulling her into a hug.

"It is not your fault, sister. If I had killed those bastards when they attacked us the first time..."

My eyes widened as the memories came through. I remembered mother...they killed her, and Bella had been caught up in the attack. They hadn't intended to hurt her, so they saved her. But the cost? I had to chase after her for thirty-five hundred years. Finding her only to lose her when I tried to break her from them and the cycle.

That was how I was in the South in the first place when I met the Major. I had just lost her, again, and when I met Peter and heard about the wars, I needed some type of release. That and I had been drawn there...

My eyes went to the Major, who only had eyes for me...

I was drawn to the wars after I lost her again. Jasper gave me back myself.

How could I have forgotten that?

He was my mate...

But I left him...I left him because I had felt her come back...and he let me go.

My heart broke then...how could we do that?

I left my mate...maybe that is why I didn't want to remember...didn't want to feel.

But I needed him...she died again! If he had been with me, she wouldn't have died. I wouldn't have had to hunt her again.

Why did I leave him? Why did he let me go? Why did I not go find him after I lost her again?

I abandoned him...

Was it any wonder that he went after that boy? I hurt him...

I shoved all the emotions down, something I had gotten so good at these last few months.

I heard a few whimpers before the two nearest wolves nudged me. I sighed before leveling myself out. I pushed Bella away and focused on the four new vampires.

The girl didn't look hurt anymore; instead, she had steeled herself. Peter must have talked with her.

"I have taken care of the situation here. The laws have been fulfilled, so the Volutri is not needed. You can go home," I said. I needed to leave. Get away from all this; all the emotions the memories were giving me.

I still couldn't remember much after I left him, just vague impressions, and I wasn't keen on remembering more.

Not if it hurt.

Not if I felt like my soul was being ripped apart.

I turned around and started back the way I came.

Just like before, I could sense the wolves. One, Jacob, had stayed behind with Bella. She was leaning on him with all her strength as she stopped crying. She shouldn't be wasting her tears on me.

The rest of the wolves came with me, but I stopped not even five steps away when I heard growls.

Two vampires were trying to get near their charges.

One was Bella's vampire mate...Jacob was not keen on letting anyone near her again especially a vampire.

"Mother? We haven't seen you in three hundred years..." I heard a male voice, this time, call out to me.

Mother?

Mate?

That's a laugh. All I ever did was tear people apart. I interfered here because I was fixing some mistakes. Mistakes I made.

I was all about taking responsibility.

I had abandoned my mate. I gave him up and someone else took him. I had to live with that.

I was the reason why my sister had been tortured all these years...

I deserved to be alone.

I needed to cut ties with the lot of them. I had to free them...

I turned around, looking straight at the twins that I had found so many years ago. I found them abandoned themselves. I took them in, raised them, cared for them, loved them.

They didn't deserve...

Shut down those emotions...stupid girl. Haven't you learned from before?

But something first, "Jacob," I called his attention. "That one is Bella's mate; don't you dare kill him."

Jacob then gave a mournful howl and then snapped at me. The sandy wolf, Seth, stood between the two of us and bared his teeth back causing the female wolf, Leah to stand beside her brother incase Jacob attacked.

It confused me, but I ignored it as I snapped my fingers. "Enough. We are family; we are pack; there is no need to attack or bare your teeth at each other. Family is everything, and if we turn on family, what do we have left?"

The two male wolves looked down and I felt their shame at their display, but before I could think further on it, Bella took my attention.

"I don't understand. I thought Edward was my mate."

Her words caused the vampire that was a second away from claiming her to clench his teeth. Hard. It took all the control he had not to react to that.

"I never liked Edward. In fact, just thinking of him makes me want to kill him. Jane, do you want to kill your twin's mate?" I asked in a calm voice as I tried to prove a point, and the blonde girl just shook her head in reply.

Bella blinked. "Alec has a mate?"

I titled my head at her before raising an eyebrow. "You are not very observant, are you? That girl the blonde Cullen female is trying to hid is his mate. Which, if she was smart, she would let the girl go join her mate before he destroys the lot of you for keeping him away from her." I warned causing the big Cullen male to snatch his mate toward him and put a good distance between them and everyone else.

The newborn looked like she wanted to bolt until she actually looked at Alec. It only took a few seconds of looking into each other's eyes before she was by his side, trying to curl into him.

I had a feeling that while Jane was happy that her twin find his mate, she was feeling left out.

I knew what it felt like having people close to you surrounded by mates.

Caius...had been my first love, and I honestly thought he had been my mate. Until I saw him find Athenadora.

Maybe Jasper had found a mate in the little boy. Maybe what we had wasn't a real mating. It happened before.

I looked at the twins a few more moments before nodding to myself. "Come, little ones. I think it is time we made our way home. Do not inform Aro. I do not want him prepared for my arrival. The last time I told him I was coming, he threw a week long party before locking my in a room with Caius." I had been so annoyed by that.

I could handle my own problems, thank you very much.

Demetri chuckled. "I remember that. Master Caius ended up losing a hand, and Master Aro hasn't been the same since you punished him," he had a smirk on his face before he casually mentioned, "he still flinches every time someone mentions a baseball bat."

I grinned evilly. "Lovely," I replied before giving that group a follow me motion with my hand and turned about to leave but those stupid Cullens stopped me.

"My Lady," the leader said hesitantly, "What happens next?"

I turned and glared at him, burying my emotions again, before going blank. "You will stop involving yourself with humans. You lost a coven member because you try and play human. How many humans are dead because of your idiotic handling of a childe?"

Cullen's eyes widened before he argued back only for me to give him an unimpressed look. When he was done, I wanted to bash his hand in.

He clearly cared for his 'family,' but the idiot clearly didn't understand what it meant to be a vampire.

If he couldn't fix his mistakes, then I would fix them for him. After all, this was why I was here.

"Since you seem incapable of figuring out where you went wrong, I am going to have to do it for you. This animal diet seems to be fucking up your brain and the cause for all this death. You claim to want to protect humans, which is why you hunt animals, but all this death is on your hands. How many newborns were ripped from their lives? How many were murdered to feed them? What would have happened if they weren't stopped here? More death. You and your "family" are going to be punished. You will all report to Volterra to Aro and be educated on what exactly is a vampire and our laws. And, you will no longer feed from animals. Flex, Demetri, make sure the Cullens make their way to Volterra for reeducating." I ordered, the two of them before turning back to the Cullens. "If I find that any of your neglected your punishment and ran, we will chase, and I will burn you."

I heard the little boy gasp, his eyes going unfocused.

Nothing I need to be concerned about.

"Mother, allow me to accompany them. I will make sure that they return with us. I will see you at home," Jane asked of me, and who was I to deny her?

I agreed, and as soon as I did, one of the wolves, gray with black spots, nudged me. I looked at him and knew instantly what he wanted.

A small smile graced my lips and the rest of the wolves made howls to match. I chuckled before nudging him toward her.

My eyes went to Alec who only raised an eyebrow as he wondered what was happening but I only gave him an amused smile. He'd find out soon. I shooed him away with my hands next, "Connect with your mate, I will see you at home in a few days."

The rest of the wolves crowded around me, tried of the interruptions. I hadn't been this content in a long time. Being around the wolves made me feel...okay. I felt like I could feel around them. Steady. Solid. Grounded.

I gave Peter and Char a look, and they disappeared. They would find me when they wanted to. One of the wolves nudged me, bending down so I could climb on. The sandy one that I was afraid to look at...

I climbed on and let them lead me away from the battle. As the wolves ran, I smelt the fire and the burning of the newborns.

So, the Major was finally doing something, huh? About time.

I closed my eyes briefly, just letting the memories and the emotions I didn't want to feel settle over me.

I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep on the sandy wolf until I opened them again and found myself in a bed with a male human leaning up against the bed, asleep as well.

As if he was keeping watch over me but had fallen asleep too. It was adorable.

As I continued to look at him, a certain emotion started to feel me before I crushed it down.

Not again.

I wouldn't hurt anyone again like that.

As quietly as I could, I got up and exited the room, then the house, and when I came outside onto the porch of the house, it was night.

"You didn't sleep but half a day," a female voice spoke.

I turned to my right and knew it was Leah.

I nodded to her and returned my gaze to the sky.

"I didn't understand at first why all of us were connected, why even as wolves we could hear you, talking to you. Not to mention how protective we are of you," I hmmed to her words letting her know I was listening. "I realized it. You're one of us. Different, yes, older, but one of us. Did you never stop shifting?" she asked, curious.

I turned to her and gave her a bitter smile. "I've never shifted. That was not a gift I inherited from my mother. Bella, though, when she awakens will have that gift. I took more after our father. We are half-breeds, Leah. I can connect with all of you because my mother was a shifter, but my father was a vampire. Once Bella awakens, she will take all the gifts we inherited from mother. I've only been able to use them because the two of us connected to each other when we merged. They were trying to take Bella again, but I interfered, and the two of us mixed somewhat."

"What did they do to you?" Leah asked, trying not to get angry that we were attacked.

"The two vampires have gifts. One, from what I can tell, de-ages you, repressing your body. It's why Bella hasn't awakened yet and my body isn't at full strength. The other wipes your memories, but I was the one who got the full blast of that. Lucky for me, I'm strong enough to resist so everything wasn't lost. Though, if I'm honest, I would mind some of it leaving me forever."

Leah was quiet for a moment. "I can imagine living a long time, there might be things you've seen you wished you could unsee."

I nodded, "Or done things you wish never happened."

Like leaving my mate.

Worst mistake of my life, and I was going to pay for it until my eternity ended.

"I won't ask how a shift and a vampire can be mates considering Embry and Jane..." Leah trailed off, trying to come to terms with that.

I chuckled. "We only know about them because Embry looked into her eyes though she didn't look in his until later. You should try it sometime; you might find your imprint."

She looked freaked out at that; it made me wonder if she actually wanted to find her a mate.

Either way, that was her issue. I needed to leave my own shit came back to bit me.

As I took the necessary steps to get off the porch and away from the house, Leah got over her shock.

"Maybe you should take your own advice," the girl said quietly.

I stopped as the Major came to my mind. Caius.

"I did. Once upon a time, and what do you know? I fucked it up. But it doesn't matter. Nature fixes itself. There's a reason Bella has two mates, Leah," I hinted before I started to walk away again.

"So you believe you don't deserve a mate? That's bullshit. Look what you did today. You Avenged a mate wrong, probably saved the pack, got rid of that douceward, not to mention, the mates you—"

I cut her off. "Fixing mistakes is what I did. Don't make it as if I'm some Savior. I'm the reason all this shit happened, so I had to clean up my mess. That's all there was to it."

Leah didn't respond until I was almost at the edge of the woods which wasn't even fifty foot from the porch. "So just because you don't deserve a mate, does that mean your mate should be punished?"

I didn't understand why she was pushing this. Why did she give a damn about Jasper?

"He's better off without me. After all, what kind of mate abandons her mate? He's moved on which is his right. He deserves someone who can always put him first. I can't. I've spent three thousand years trying to...it's too late." I whispered the last part before I disappeared.

The howls that followed my escape haunted my steps and my heart.

~FM~

Peter and Char were waiting for me at the line that the wolves wouldn't cross.

Peter had his solider face on, but Char couldn't keep her face clear.

At this moment, I really didn't want to deal with her shit, but they had put up with me since the attack, so I felt I owed them something.

"What is it, Char?" I tried to keep my voice clear of any annoyance I felt, but when Peter titled his head, I knew it came out.

Char tried to calm herself, but it didn't help. "What about the Major?"

Four words and they made me want to rip her head off. "That is none of your business," I replied coldly before turning away from her and going north.

I would have thought she would know better than to mention him to me.

Why did she have to rub him in my face?

What did she expect me to do? Push myself back into his life, demanding he get rid of his mate, because if he was mine, then why would he have gained a new one?

Stupid whore.

I had run long enough to reach Seattle. My mind may have been a jumbled mess, but I still remembered a few things. Things like how to make my way to Volterra.

When I reached the private airstrip, Peter sans Char was waiting on me. I wonder if he knew that if she was around me, I'd rip her head off?

With most of my memories back, I had started to let my emotions slip. I was tired of holding them in.

Tired of losing...

Three thousand years on this earth, and what did I have to show for it?

Nothing but pain, so what was the point?

Bella was free. She had two mates who would protect her and see her through her awakening. Maybe said awakening was, in fact, waiting on her being mated?

Who the hell knew?

I would go to Volterra, mix and socialize, then I would leave. Leave to find father and ask him for my first and last favor. If he denied me, I'm sure Stefan and Vladmir would help me. They like me...

Peter gripped my hand to bring me back to the present. "The choice is yours..."

I know I looked confused causing him to chuckle and lead me to the plane that was mine.

"I'm not telling you what to do, just know that despite what you think, there are options," he told me quietly.

Peter was interfering just like Char, but I couldn't be annoyed or mad at him. He had been my rock all this time, and I knew he wouldn't mention it if he wasn't looking out for me. And it was the way Char was talking about this shit that made me mad. She had no right to talk to me about the Major, worrying for him. Peter was all about me. How the fuck were they mates? I had never really been close to Char, never really wanted to. But Peter? I liked Peter.

Always have and always would.

Maybe in another life he'd be my mate...

Doubtful. I'd probably have just as much horrible luck as I do now.

But was Peter right? Did I need to talk with Jasper?

I felt so fucking hollow right now...but I shouldn't be because Jasper couldn't be my mate.

If he was, I would have never left him and he wouldn't have let me. He wouldn't have found a mate in the little boy...

"Alice isn't my mate, darlin'," a quiet voice said behind me causing me to stiffen before just letting the 'tired' feeling sweep me up.

So the Major was actual doing shit now? Actually taking control of the situation? About damn time.

"Are the newborns burned?" I questioned, still facing away from him. "Your mess cleared up?"

Jasper immediately responded, "Everything taken care of. The bodies are gone, and their base of operations is cleared up. The humans are taken care of as well," he trailed off. His way of asking me if I wanted to know how the humans ended up writing this serial disappearance off.

But I didn't care. As long as there was no exposure, no humans still wondering what the fuck was going on, then I was good.

"Good. About time you took care of the situation. Tell me, did Edward and Victoria's death give you enough freedom to get your balls back?" I turned around them and gave him an unimpressed stare. "The Major I knew would have never let this happened. Hell, the moment he met the Cullens he would have set them straight. But you didn't. Instead, some little boy got your balls, tore away your entire self, replaced it with someone I don't recognize..."

Someone I didn't want anything to do with.

Jasper didn't show any emotion on his face, but I felt his anger. "What did you expect? You left me. You didn't want me to come with you," as he continued, his accent got stronger. "Maybe if I had, you wouldna got ya ass handed to ya and got your memories and body fucked with. But ya didn't want me with ya, so what was I supposed to think? Ya didn't want the Major helping, so ya left me thinkin' I was a monster ya were so eager to get away from. Ya didn't want me, so I didn't want to be me. What did you expect?"

I looked down at the ground. Did he really think I didn't want him? That I thought he was a monster? If he was a monster, then I was something much worse.

It made sense though, how he became some pussy pushover. Why he took up with someone who beat him down and made him into something that wasn't him.

I let out a bitter laugh as I turned to Peter. "See? This is why I shouldn't be here. I should have never listened to you, Peter. I should have just went Chile like I was going to. Nothing like this happens when I'm with Vladimir. None of this shit," I waved a hand a Jasper, "would have happened! Look what I did!" the last part was a whisper.

I shook my head, knowing that I what I did, unintentionally to Jasper, was unforgiveable. I hated myself so much.

I had hurt my mate.

This was why I didn't deserve anything.

I left Jasper, and it killed me. The other memories started coming back then. How I had met up with those bastards twice after Jasper and I parted. I was too late the first time, but I managed to keep her away from then before she awakened. Because that was what they were waiting for. They wanted her to awaken so they could mold her into what they wanted. Be her mentors. Gain her trust and turn her against our father.

I was weak being that far away from Jasper. The pain was too much, and I lost her. When the second time came around and she was Isabella Swan...a part of me was hoping that by taking the hit, taking their attack, that I would be put out of my misery.

Because if I was feeling like this, Jasper was feeling it too.

And in that moment, I hated myself more than I ever have. Enough to want to die. To not be the horrible, cruel woman I had become.

And that was why I lost my memories and my body regressed more than Bella's did.

Just as I was about to shove my emotions away again, the soul consuming pain and self-hatred, it was gone. Replaced my arms that held me tight, promising me that they would never let me go.

I never even noticed that Peter had run off.

I didn't notice anything other than Jasper holding me, his emotions washing over me, consuming me.

He was angry, hurt, betrayed, and so many other things I caused him, but I could feel his love for me.

His forgiveness.

"When you feel like that, I don't like it," he whispered in my ear as he squeezed me even tighter.

Feeling this cocktail of emotions, I knew we both hurt each other, we both made so many mistakes, but, well, didn't I say it before? I came back to fix them all. I'd start with Jasper, and then I'd make sure the others were okay too.

Besides, there was some howling that I need to take care of. After all, pack was family, and you didn't abandon family. Maybe, it was time for all of us to be happy. Maybe we all deserved a mate.