Faith looked at the pregnancy stick her sister just handed her in silence. She knew what it meant, but her mind wouldn't let her process it. As she looked from the test to Buffy, back and forth a couple times, Buffy started back at her, waiting for her to say something. After a few minutes of silence, Buffy decided to be the one to speak.

"Are you gonna say something?" she asked the brunette and Faith continued to stare at the test, still not saying a word. "Faith?"

"Uh…" Faith said, trying to wrap her mind around the news her sister just threw at her. "I... I don't…what the hell?"

"Yeah, I know" Buffy stated quietly. Faith finally handed her back the pregnancy test and Buffy put it back in the drawer.

"How the hell did this happen, B?" Buffy looked at her, obviously she knew how it happened. Faith shook her head, as if trying to shake her thoughts free. "Yeah, I know how it happened, I just don't get how you let this happen."

"I didn't plan this" Buffy said defensively.

"Well I would hope not" Faith told her, getting up and walking over to her own bed and sitting down. "What are you gonna do? Have you told Spike? Spike's the father, right?"

"Of course he is, what do you think I do, screw every guy I meet?" Buffy asked sarcastically.

"Of course not, B, I'm just…shocked" Faith told her.

"Yeah, me too. And no, I haven't told Spike, I don't know how."

"How about, 'hey, Spike, you knocked me up. Congratulations!'' Faith joked and got a glare from her sister. "Come on, I'm just trying to lighten the mood."

"Well, the mood's not light, it's very, very dark" Buffy said and Faith got up and joined her back on her bed.

"Are you keeping it?"

"Huh?"

"The baby? Are you keeping the baby?" Faith repeated her question and Buffy sighed.

"Yeah" Faith nodded. "I couldn't imagine having an abortion or giving my baby up for adoption so…"

"How far along are you?" Faith asked her.

"Not sure, I just took the test. I haven't even gone to the dr. yet."

"Well, you need to make an appointment ASAP so you can make sure everything's okay" Faith told her.

"Yeah, I know" Buffy said with a sigh. She was terrified thinking about having to tell Spike and her mother. What would they say? How would they react? She honestly didn't know who she was more nervous to tell. She could feel tears forming in her eyes and tried to keep them at bay, but it was no use. As she tried to blink them away, they began to trickle down her cheeks. Faith put her arm around her sister and Buffy laid her head on Faith's shoulder as the tears continued to fall.

"It's gonna be okay, Buff" Faith told her.

"How?"

"I don't know, but it will be – eventually… You just have to tell mom and Spike."

"I knew you were gonna say that" Buffy joked as she sat back up. Faith gave her a reassuring smile.

Buffy looked herself over in the full-length mirror in her and Faith's room. It had been a couple days since she told Faith about her pregnancy and she still hadn't gathered the nerve to tell Spike or her mother. She looked herself over carefully. In just a few short months she would start to show and then it wouldn't be long until everyone knew after that. She hated that Spike wasn't the first one she told about all of this, but, in all honestly, she had no idea how he was going to take it and, having to tell someone, she figured Faith would be not only the easiest to tell, but she knew she'd be supportive. As her hands went over her still flat stomach, she heard the door open and turned around to see Faith.

"Hey, sis" Faith greeted her. She had just come back from a study group with Willow and a couple other friends.

"Hey."

"Will was asking about you" Faith told her as she sat on her bed. Buffy sat on her own bed and sighed.

"What'd she say?"

"She just wanted to know why you haven't been around in the past few days." Faith told her.

"What'd you tell her?"

"I just told her you've been busy screwin Spike" Faith said, smirking at her sister's reaction. "I'm kidding, jeez." Buffy sighed with relief.

"Don't do that!"

"I can't help it, you're too easy." Faith smiled. "But in all seriousness, the guys are gonna freak when they find out you're pregnant; they don't even know about Spike. You havin bouncy time with him I mean."

"Yeah, I know" Buffy said and then buried her head in her hands. "Ugh, this is all so complicated."

"Glad it isn't me" Faith joked. Buffy looked up, giving her a look of death. "I'm sorry, you know what I mean."

"Yeah, I know, Fai" Buffy said.

Later that day, Buffy got a text from Spike, asking her to come over. She decided that this would be as good of a time as any to tell him her secret. Once she clued him in she wouldn't have to go through this alone, or at least she hoped.

Buffy arrived at Spike's around 6:30pm and knocked on the door of his apartment. A few seconds later he answered, smirking at her.

"Hey, sexy."

"Hey" she said quietly as he took her hand and pulled her into the apartment, shutting the door and kissing her hard on the mouth. After a few seconds, Buffy pulled away.

"Somethin' wrong, luv?"

"Umm…we have to talk" Buffy said, grabbing a hold of his hand and leading him to the couch.

"Nothing good ever starts with that phrase" he told her. She just looked at him, giving him a weak smile. "What's wrong, pet?"

Buffy took a deep breath. She could feel her heart racing and her body start to tremble; she so did not want to have this conversation. After a few beats of silence, he looked at her with confusion.

"Okay, you're freakin me out, Goldilocks."

"Look, I don't know how to say this, to soften the blow, so I guess I'm just gonna come right out and—"

"Buffy." She looked him in the eyes again and took another breath. It was now or never. Even though never sounded like a better plan, she spoke anyway.

"Spike…" She paused again.

"What? What? What?" he asked, growing very impatient.

"I'm pregnant" she blurted. He looked at her with a blank expression at first, as if he didn't hear what she had just said. His expression quickly changed to shock though, but he remained quiet. He looked away from her, staring down at the ground, as if he was in deep thought. Buffy looked at him for a few moments. "Are you okay? Spike?"

"Huh? Uh…" he said, trying to gather his thoughts. "A—are you sure about this?" She nodded, going into her purse and pulling out the pregnancy test she had taken and handed it to him. He just stared at it for what seemed like forever and then looked back at her. "I, uh…I—I don't, I don't know what to say."

Buffy nodded again, staying quiet to try to let him wrap his head around what she had just told him. After a couple minutes of silence, he stood up and walked a few steps forward and then turned to face her. Buffy sat on the couch, starting at him. After a few seconds he spoke again.

"I... look, I don't know if I can deal with this right now." He handed her back the pregnancy test and Buffy looked at him with shock and hurt in her eyes.

"What the hell does that mean?"

"I just need some time okay…alone."

"Are you saying you want me to leave?" she asked, astonished. Spike just nodded. Tears starting to fill her eyes, she stood up, looked at him for a brief moment and then stormed out of his apartment.

Buffy arrived home shortly after leaving Spike's apartment and walked in through the front door, still hurt about how Spike reacted. She hung up her jacket and walked into the living room where Faith and Dawn were sitting and watching TV.

"Hey, Buffy" Dawn smiled at her big sister. Buffy gave her a weak smile in return.

"Hey, Dawnie." Faith saw the look on Buffy's face and knew she needed to talk, knowing where she had just come from.

"Uh, B, let's go upstairs and talk."

"Can I come?" Dawn asked.

"No, it's private, kid" Faith told her.

Dawn crossed her arms over her chest and pouted at her twin teenage sisters. "Why do you guys always leave me out of everything?"

"Because, one; you're too young, and two: you can't keep a secret" Faith told her as she grabbed Buffy's hand and lead her upstairs. Dawn just slumped back on the couch and continued to pout. As Faith and Buffy headed upstairs, Joyce came through the front door and Dawn ran over to her.

"Mommy, Buffy and Faith have a secret and they won't tell me" she whined at her mother. Buffy and Faith rolled their eyes, it was so typical of their little sister to be a tattle tale.

"A secret, huh?" Joyce humored her youngest. "Well, well."

"And they won't let me in on it" Dawn reminded her, still whining.

"Well, sweetie, your sisters are older and they talk about different things than you do. Plus, everyone is entitled to secrets. I'm sure you have secrets that you don't tell your sisters."

"And with that, goodbye" Buffy said, following Faith up to their room.

Once Buffy and Faith were in their room, they shut the door, but could still hear Dawn protesting to their mother about why she should be able to know their secret.

"So, what happened? What did Spike say?"

Buffy scoffed, sitting down on her bed and burying her head in her hands. "He took it horribly, basically kicked me out of his apartment." Faith looked at her, shocked and a little angered.

"Are you fuckin kidding me? He kicked you out?"

"Well, not literally, but technically" Buffy told her.

"What exactly did he say?"

"He got all quiet for a while and then told me he didn't know if he could handle it and said he needed time to think."

"Well, maybe he's just scared shitless like I figured he'd be" Faith offered. Buffy scoffed again, looking up at Faith.

"And what, he doesn't think I am? Like I'm just like 'la di da, no big fuckin deal'?" Faith shrugged.

"Give him the benefit of the doubt, B, I'm sure he'll come around."

"Well, I hope he does it quick because I can't do this alone" Buffy told her, getting teary-eyed. Faith joined her on her bed, putting a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"Buff, whether or not Spike comes to his senses, you're never gonna be alone, not ever. You have me and you have mom, and you even have the little squirt. We're all here for you" she assured her.

"Mom doesn't even know yet, Fai. How am I gonna tell her?"

"If you want I'll be there with you" Faith said, putting her arm around Buffy. Buffy laid her head on her twin's shoulder and Faith kissed her on the head.

Buffy decided she wanted to lay down, to clear her head and rest for a while. As she laid, back turned to the door, she heard someone enter her room, but didn't turn to face whoever it was, which she assumed was her sister. She heard someone breathing by her bed, but stayed still, waiting for whoever it was to say something. Finally, after a couple minutes, she turned to see who was standing there and found Spike looking at her.

"I thought you were Faith" she said quietly.

"I thought you were sleepin" Spike told her. "Can we talk?

"I think you already made yourself clear" Buffy said, turning away from him again.

"Come on, luv, look, I was just shocked, okay. And scared out of my bleeding bird." Buffy said nothing. Spike sighed, going over and crawling into bed with her, wrapping his arm around her waist and snuggling into her. Buffy remained tense. "I'm sorry, baby" he said quietly. "I admit, I handled it badly, and I'm ashamed of that, but I'm here for you…if you want me, we're in this together. He could feel her relax into him and kissed her cheek. Suddenly he felt her body shaking a bit as she began to cry. "Hey, shhh, it's gonna be okay."

Buffy turned to face him, both of them still laying in her bed. "I'm so scared, Spike, terrified." He kissed her forehead, pulling her over to him. She laid her head on his chest and he began to stroke her hair.

"Everything's gonna be okay, luv, I promise. We'll get through this. Have you decided what you're gonna do?

"Do?" Buffy asked, not understanding at first.

"Do you wanna keep it? I mean, do you want us to keep it?" Spike asked her.

"Yeah, I want us to keep the baby… is that okay?" she asked him and he gave her a smile.

"Of course it is, luv" he told her and she smiled back at him, snuggling into him more.

"Have you told your mum?" Spike asked her and Buffy could feel that horrible feeling of dread hit her again.

"No" she said plainly.

"Well, we should probably do that, don't you think?" he asked her, she sat up slightly so she could look at him.

"I know" she told him quietly. "I just have no idea how."

"Pretty straight forward, luv. I'll be there with you if you want."

Buffy smiled at that. She was so happy that Spike was supporting her and that he promised to be there for and with her.

"Okay… we'll tell her tonight" Buffy sighed. This was definitely not a conversation she wanted to have, but she knew she had to do it. Spike nodded, giving her a light kiss on the lips.

"I can't believe we're having a baby" he said after she laid her head back down on him.

"Trust me" she said. "Me either."