Buffy laid in Spike's bed trying to sleep. It had been a few days since they found out they were having twins and the shock had yet to ware off. Buffy had decided to stay the night at Spike's that night because Dawn was having a sleepover and she wasn't in the mood to deal with a bunch of preteen girls shrieking and carrying on. Faith, feeling the same way, decided to stay at Willow's. As Buffy turned to face Spike's side of the bed, she realized he wasn't there and sat up slightly to look around the dark room.
"Spike?"
A few moments later, Spike came into the bedroom. "What is it, luv? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, just can't sleep" Buffy told him, leaning back on to her pillows. Spike crawled back into bed next to her and rubbed her belly.
"Yeah, me either" he admitted. "Just doin some thinkin."
"About?" she asked.
"Us" he told her. She looked at him, a little confused.
"You mean us having twins?"
"I mean us having a relationship" he told her. Her expression changed from confusion to surprise.
"A relationship? You want a relationship?"
"Don't you?"
"I... I don't know" she said. "I mean, if you want this just because I'm pregnant—"
"I want this because I'm in love with you" he blurted, cutting her off. The look on her face made him regret his outburst.
"You…"
"Yeah, I love you" he repeated, there was no going back now. It wasn't that he was lying, he did love her, a great deal in fact. He just didn't want to scare her off and the look on her face made him wonder if he had done just that. "Look, we don't have to make a thing out of it… If you don't feel the same, then it's okay. I just… I had to tell you." She looked at him for a few moments. Just as he thought she was going to get up and walk out of the room, she leaned over and kissed his lips fervently. His surprise quickly turned to happiness as he pulled her closer to him, returning the kiss. His tongue crept into her mouth and she welcomed it, touching her tongue to his. After a few moments, she broke the kiss so they could breathe. "Does that mean…"
"I love you too" she whispered. "I kept telling myself that we were just gonna parent together and that there was nothing between us… but I was just scared that you didn't want anything more. I was scared that I was gonna get hurt again like with my last two relationships, but I can't keep running from happiness because of fear."
"I've wanted more even before you got pregnant. I've been in love with you for so long now that… I can't remember not being in love with you" he told her. She smiled at him, snuggling into him as he held her.
"Why didn't you ever say anything?" she asked once she was comfortable.
"I was afraid you didn't want anything more. You were so adamant before about just wanting to be friends with benefits that I was afraid I'd scare you off or something if I told you how I felt about you" he told her and they chuckled. "See what lack of communication gets us?" She looked up at him and smiled.
"I can't believe this is happening."
"You happy?" he asked and she nodded.
"So happy" she told him, laying he head back on his chest. He kissed her forehead.
"Go to sleep now" he whispered when he heard her yawn. It didn't take long before they were both sound asleep.
Buffy arrived back home around 11am the next morning and walked in through the front door. She hung up her jacket and purse and walked into the kitchen. Thankfully all Dawn's little friends had left and it was just Dawn and their mother sitting at the island having a late breakfast.
"Hi, sweetheart. Did you sleep well at Spike's last night?" Joyce asked. She wasn't too thrilled about her sixteen-year-old daughter staying the night at a boy's apartment, but she figured nothing worse could happen now that Buffy was pregnant. Plus, she knew how stressed out dealing with all those little girls would be for her and wanted her to remain as stress-free as possible since she was 5 months along—and with twins. When Joyce, Faith and Dawn had found out Buffy was having twins they were both shocked and excited. Joyce was worried for her daughter and Spike, knowing how much harder taking care of twins was for her at a young age. She had promised to be as much help as they needed and they graciously accepted.
"Yeah, I slept better than I have in a while actually" Buffy told her, going to the fridge and getting out the orange juice. She poured herself a glass and joined them at the island. "Where's Faith?"
"Still at Willow's" Joyce told her and Buffy nodded.
"So, Buffy" Dawn said. "Have you thought of any names for the babies, since you know they're both girls?"
"We've thought of a few, but haven't settled on any yet" Buffy told her. Ever since they found out they were having twin girls a few days ago, they had started talking about names and Buffy had complied a small list of the ones they liked, but they hadn't made any decisions yet.
"What are some you like?" Joyce asked.
"Well, I don't have the list right now, but, I know we like Amber, Haylee, Olivia and… that's all I can remember right now" Buffy told them.
"Those are pretty" Dawn said.
"Very pretty" Joyce agreed.
"Did they say if the babies are identical?" Dawn asked and Buffy shook her head.
"Nope, they're fraternal like Faith and me" Buffy told her and Joyce smiled.
"I can't believe my baby's having twins" she said, pulling her oldest daughter into a hug. "I remember how I reacted when they told me I was having you and Faith. I was so scared, but extremely happy as well."
"Yeah, I'm definitely scared" Buffy admitted. "But, the more I think about it the happier I get. I know I've always loved having a twin. Faith's my best friend in the whole world and I hope my baby girls are that close."
"I'm sure they will be, sweetie" Joyce assured her.
Buffy got up, drinking the rest of her orange juice and putting the empty glass in the sink. "I'm gonna go take a shower."
"Okay, sweetie" Joyce told her and she went upstairs.
Buffy took a long, hot shower, hoping the hot water would wash away some of the tension she had in her back from carrying all the extra weight. After getting out, she put on her robe, wrapped her hair up in her towel and went into her and Faith's room to get dressed. When she walked in, Faith was there at her desk on her laptop.
"Hey" Buffy greeted her sister and Faith turned around to face her.
"Hey, B. How was it sleepin at Spike's last night?" Faith asked with a twinge of a smirk. Buffy knew what she meant and rolled her eyes.
"We didn't do anything if that's what you're wondering. We haven't really done anything since I got bigger. I think Spike's afraid he'll hurt the babies or something" Buffy told her with a chuckle.
"And how are you two?"
Buffy smiled, she realized that she hadn't told anyone about her and Spike's recent declaration of love for one another. Of course, it had only happened the night before.
"Umm… he loves me" she said, continuing to smile.
"Well, duh" Faith said, rolling her eyes. Buffy glared playfully at her sister.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You're like the only one who didn't know how in love with you he's been since forever" Faith told her.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Buffy whined. Faith rolled her eyes at her sister again.
"That's not something you can exactly tell someone, B. You had to figure it out on your own. So, you're gonna raise my nieces together? Like, as a couple?" Faith asked.
"Yep" Buffy said. Faith got up from her desk and hugged her sister.
"I'm so happy for you two. I was hoping this would happen."
"Really? Why?"
"Because I've known for a while that you loved Spike too" Faith told her.
"How? I just realized it myself" Buffy asked.
"Well, I guess I know you better than you know yourself" Faith said as Buffy got dressed. "Are you gonna move in with him?"
"I'm only sixteen, Fai" Buffy told her, as if Faith had forgotten how old she was.
"Yeah, and you're pregnant" Faith reminded her.
"That doesn't mean Spike and I are getting married or anything."
"You don't have to get married to live together" Faith told her, going back over to her desk.
"What are you doing?" Buffy asked, trying to change the subject.
"Stupid English assignment" Faith told her, starting to type. After Buffy finished putting on a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie, she went over to see what Faith was writing. Faith quickly closed her laptop before Buffy could read anything.
"Hey, what'd you do that for?" Buffy asked.
"I don't want anyone to see. I suck at writing and am just trying to get this paper over with and get my lousy grade" Faith told her.
"Since when do you hide things from me?"
"Not things, just this" Faith said and Buffy rolled her eyes, going over to her bed and carefully sitting herself down. After she was seated, she carefully laid herself back on her pillows.
"Fine, whatever you say" Buffy told her and picked up the book she'd been reading.
"You're in this class too, have you finished your paper?" Faith asked, turning around to face Buffy.
"Not yet" Buffy said, not taking her eyes off her book until she felt Faith still staring at her and looked up at her sister. "What?"
"Nothing, it's just… your grades have slipped a little since you've gotten pregnant and I don't want you to fail" Faith said and Buffy rolled her eyes playfully at her.
"I'm not gonna fail" Buffy assured her. "The paper's not due till Monday, I'll get it done before that. Writing's easy for me."
"Okay" Faith said, giving up and turning her attention to her own paper.
Buffy suddenly woke up. Looking around her room, she realized she had fallen asleep while reading her book. She was still in a seated position and her neck was quite sore from the way she'd fallen asleep. As she worked herself out of bed and stood up, she looked at the alarm clock on her nightstand and it read 4:23pm.
"Jeez, I slept for hours" Buffy said to herself as she cradled her back, making her way out of her bedroom and downstairs. As she got to the stairs, she heard the familiar voice of her now boyfriend and smiled, descending the stairs carefully.
"Oh, you're awake" Faith said as Buffy came into the living room. Spike stood up, going over to her and helping her over to the oversized chair. She sat down, one hand cradling her back and the other holding on to Spike as she did so.
"Yeah" she said. "I didn't even realize how tired I was."
"How are you feelin, luv?" Spike asked, sitting on the arm of the chair.
"Okay, my neck's a bit sore from the way I was sleeping, but other than that I'm fine."
"I think we should discuss baby names" Dawn chimed in; she was reading a baby name book.
"We?" Buffy asked with a smile. "Since when did naming our daughters become a family event?"
"We can't help at all?" Dawn asked with a bit of a pout.
"You can give suggestions I guess, but Spike and I are gonna be the ones who pick their names" Buffy told her.
"Well" Dawn said, getting up and bringing the baby name book over to Buffy. "I've found quite a few cute ones. I've highlighted them for you."
"How nice of you" Buffy smiled at her baby sister, taking the book and looking at some of the names she had highlighted.
"Okay, let's see, Nibblet…" Spike said, looking at the book as well.
"Jasmine, no" Buffy vetoed the first highlighted name as her and Spike looked at the pages.
"I'd say no to Talia as well" Spike said.
"And no to Hillary" Buffy said, turning the page.
"Is there any ones you like that I highlighted?" Dawn asked with a pout.
"I kinda like Makaila" Buffy said.
"Eh, I don't think I do, luv" Spike told her.
"Okay, then that's vetoed" Buffy said.
"What names are on your list then?" Dawn asked, crossing her arms over her chest and slumping down in the couch.
"Spike, get my purse over there, please" Buffy told her boyfriend, pointing to the coat rack. Spike did as she asked, bringing the purse over to her. Buffy retrieved the list she had complied and placed the purse on the floor beside the chair. "Okay…Olivia, Haylee, Arianna, Amber, Kaydence, Aliyah and Averianna."
"Are you each picking a name?" Joyce asked.
"Yeah, that's what I want to do" Buffy told her. "Spike's not been much help though." Buffy looked over at Spike with a playful glare and he rolled his eyes at her.
"Not that good at girl names, luv" he told her.
"Well, you better start thinking. We're having two daughters who both need names and you're picking one of them" Buffy said.
"Well, when you tell me the name you've picked I'll come up with one that goes with that one" Spike promised. "So, I came over here to see if you wanted to come over to my pace for a bit. I have something to show you."
"Okay, sure" Buffy said, getting out of the chair with Spike's help. "I'll be home later tonight, ma."
"Okay, honey. Have a good time, you two" Joyce the two blondes as Spike helped Buffy put on her jacket and they left.
Spike barely said a word on the short drive to his apartment. Buffy kept eyeing him, wondering what he was thinking.
"You okay?" she asked, taking his hand. He glanced over, smiling softly at her and kissing her hand, which he held securely in his.
"Fine, pet" he told her as he pulled into his apartment complex parking lot and parked the car. He got out, going over to her side of the car and opening her door for her, helping her out as well. He took her hand, leading her up to his apartment and only let go long enough to unlock the door. Once opened, he led her inside the house and shut the door. Buffy looked at him, wondering what was going on. She was becoming nervous.
"Why are you so quiet?" she asked as he took her hand again and began to lead her to the back rooms. "Are you sure nothing's wrong?"
Spike shook his head. "Nope, unless you don't like it" he told her and she looked at him with confusion as he opened the door to the spare room.
"Like wha—" she began, but stopped when she saw what he was talking about. The walls of the room were painted pink. There were two white cribs in the room on either side; in the middle, against the parallel wall, was a white changing table. Buffy's mouth dropped open as her eyes filled with tears; it was their daughters' nursery. "How… what…" she looked at him in awe. "When did you do this?"
Spike gave her a small smile. "Been workin on it for about a week now" he told her as she let go of his hand to venture further into the room, looking around. "It's still not completely done. We gotta get clothes and other things. Once we decide on their names I wanna put them above their beds in those wooden letters." Buffy looked back at him with a beaming grin, tears starting to trickle down her cheeks. "Do you like it, luv?"
"Are you kidding?" she asked, astonished. "It's incredible, I love it."
"I'm glad" he told her, his smile becoming big and proud. "I was hoping you wouldn't be upset with me."
"Why would I be upset with you?"
"Because I didn't let you help" he chuckled, she chuckled as well.
"Well, normally I would have been upset not to get to help, but…" she looked around the room again, running her hand over one of the cribs. "This is… Thank you so much." She went back over to him, hugging him tightly. He held on to her like his life depended on it, pulling away a bit to kiss her lips. "I love you."
"I love you, too" he told her, kneeling down to talk to her stomach like it was an intercom. "And I love both of you as well, more than you'll ever know." After kissing her swollen belly, he got back to his feet, kissing Buffy's lips once more. "So, do you wanna go relax and watch a movie or something?"
"Or something" she smirked at him, kissing him again. As her tongue slid into his mouth, he broke the kiss; she looked at him, a little confused. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, baby" he told her, taking her hand to lead her out of the room. "I just think we shouldn't do anything that could potentially harm our babies."
"Spike, sex isn't gonna harm the babies" Buffy smiled at him.
"How do you know?" he asked her. "Is that something you've talked to your doctor about?" Buffy shook her head.
"No…"
"Well, until you do I think it best to be safe rather than sorry, don't you?" he asked, kissing her on her forehead before leading her to the living room. "I just love you and these babies so much. If anything were to happen… I just wanna make sure."
"Okay" she sighed, feeling a little hurt, although she'd never admit it.
"So, a movie?" he asked again, sitting on the couch and gently pulling her down with him.
"Sure" she said as he picked the remote off the coffee table and turned on the tv. She snuggled into him and he put his arm around her, pulling him close to him protectively.
"I love you, Goldilocks" he told her and she looked up at him and smiled.
"I love you too, William."
