Hello my angels and demons (no discrimination here). I would like to thank CaptianAckles, Little Cinch and Tie-Dyed Broadway for the wonderful reviews. I would also like to thank all you lovely people who have followed and favoured since my last update.

So here we are the next chapter. This is a short chapter I know, but I felt it was time for a time for a level head. Or maybe not, we'll see. (Evil cackling ensues.)

Enjoy.

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It was five o'clock Sunday afternoon when Sam finally tracked his brother down to the Roadhouse's bar drinking copious amounts of alcohol. Of course had Dean told him what was going on it would have been the first place he looked, but considering he was under the belief that Dean and Cas had gone on a date (and as Dean hadn't told him otherwise) he had assumed it had gone well. He did not think to look for his brother trying to drown his sorrows.

But now he had found him doing just that. As such the first thing he did was remove him from the bar and drag him back to his place in the hopes that Dean would be able to sober up a bit and explain what in hell had happened now. Cos honestly, Sam was fast coming to the decision that the Novak brothers and Dean were like a bad soap opera.

"What happened Dean?" He asked handing his brother a cup of black coffee, which taking a sip of Dean scrunched his nose at.

"I might have got drunk and told Cas about what Gabe and I were truly up too." Dean responded putting his head in his hands as he realised once again what a major mess he had made, of well, just about everything really.

"Oh crap." Sam replied. There wasn't much else he could say to that really. All he could do was try to help his brother feel better.

"You're telling me. Now I have no way of contacting the guy to apologise cos he's quit the business and everything. It seems I've not just screwed up my life but everyone else's as well. Cheers." Dean said in a self-deprecating tone as he picked up the strong black coffee and raised it in a toast before taking another gulp.

"Dean. Don't be stupid-" Sam started to say, trying to look on the bright side and cheer his brother up.

"What? I'm telling the truth." Dean interrupted. He didn't need his brother trying to put a spin on what he had done.

"No I mean it was Cas' decision to leave the business. Gabriel's decision to lie to his brother. It's not all your fault." Sam explained hoping, though not believing, that it was getting through Dean's head.

"No just that bit that's breaks my heart. Thanks for the pep talk." Dean replied sarcasm heavy on his tongue. He didn't need the perk up 'you never know' talk right now thank you very much. Now was time for wallowing.

"Wait, what? Breaks your heart? Dean? Were you … serious about Cas?" Sam asked incredulous, cos really? He really liked Cas that much? They barely knew each other for god's sake.

"Sammy, if given the chance I'm firmly in the belief I could have loved him as you love Jess." Dean replied with a completely serious tone making Sam's eyes widen. Okay, the situation was completely different to the one he thought he was dealing with. Time to change gears here.

"Wow, okay. That does change things somewhat." He said stunned by his brother's revelation.

"How? Situations still the same, bro. I messed up. I'll deal, just as I always do." Dean responded with a shrug of his shoulders. He didn't see the difference.

"Dean." Sam said in that voice which said talk to me about your feelings, which let's be honest as this was Dean, it really was the last thing he wanted to do, like ever.

"No, I'm fine Sam. just… wallowing. You'd do best to ignore me right now." He said hoping to deflect his brother from the things he may have let slip. Hmm, maybe he should stop drinking, it seemed he told all sorts of things he really wouldn't say when he did.

"Yeah okay, like that's gonna happen." Sam replied with a derisive laugh. Because really? Did Dean really believe he would let go of his brother confessing serious feelings for someone?

"Sam please, just let's talk of something else. How's the wedding planning coming on?" Dean asked trying really hard to change the subject, even though it was no doubt going to fail miserably, just like everything else in his life.

"Its fine and I would prefer to talk about this." Sam answered with a sympathetic expression on his face that just made Dean really want to punch him.

"Well I wouldn't okay? I'm not doing this chick-flick crap. I got myself in this mess. I'm getting what I deserve." Dean replied with venom. It was better that than getting into a punch up when he was drunk. His brother would so kick his ass right now.

"Fine. The wedding…" And with that Sam went on and gave Dean a rundown of all he and Jess had planned since last they discussed it. But at the back of his mind he was trying to think of a way to help his brother get Cas back into his life. The only problem was he could come up with only one solution. And that required him talking to Gabriel. And a junior at a law firm did not get to speak to Gabriel Novak, no matter what the problem. But he would do it, for Dean he would find a way.