Misconceptions

by zak194

AU post S07E14, Emily turns her back on Alison in order to pursue a relationship with Paige leaving Alison to find comfort in the arms of another.

2. My Misconception

Title: My Misconception

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction adapted and based on other works of fiction .I only hold the copyrights to my imagination

Characters: Alison Dilaurentis, Emily Fields, Spencer Hastings, Hanna Marin, Aria Montgomery

Pairings: Emison, Spalison

Summary: AU post S07E14- A Continuation of 'Your Misconception. Alison has difficulty coping with her recent loss.

Genre: Angst/ Drama/ Romance

Rating: M

Warnings: Character Death,

This work contains scenes depicting acts of a sexual nature so reader discretion is advised. The scene is in bold and marked off so feel free to skip it if it makes you uncomfortable.

Authors Note (A/N): This does not follow the Current Track, It is completely AU, Characters will be slightly OOC (out of Character)

I wrote this in a rush, all errors are mine, hope you enjoy it! Please review and let me know what you think!

People have asked for more 'Spencer and Alison' so here you go!

Please read 'Your Misconception' before you read this...otherwise, it will not make sense... You have been warned

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*Rosewood-Dilaurentis Home-The Living Room*

'As long as I'm alive...you'll never be alone...'

Those words and the husky voice of its speaker haunted Alison Dilaurentis. The pregnant blonde stared off into space, her arms wrapped around a blood stained teddy bear and her eyes filled with unshed tears. The blonde was dressed elegantly in black, mourning the loss of her best friend. It had been a week since the accident that had claimed the life of Spencer Jill Hastings but Alison still expected the brunette to waltz into the room bearing gifts and warm smiles.

Alison wiped at her eyes slowly and sniffed. Her grip tightened around the bear as she sobbed. Her voice cracking as she spoke to the night

Alison: "I had a doctor's appointment today Spence...the first one that you didn't come for...Dr Cochran asked me how I was...she conveyed her condolences...but I didn't say anything...I don't accept it, because...be-because...you're not gone...you-y-yo-you c-can't be..."

Alison cried bitterly as she held onto the stuffed animal hoping that the toy would comfort her in some way but alas, no such thing happened. Instead the, crimson stained toy fuelled a delusion within the blonde, a fallacy was created in her mind and the youngest Dilaurentis wanted nothing more than her misconception to be true. Her eyes fluttered closed as another life flashed before her

*Flash*

The shrill tone of the landline filled the Dilaurentis house, Alison was busy humming as she bustled about in the kitchen. She pulled off a bottle of CabernetSauvignon from her wine shelf and laid it to rest on the dining table. She dried her hands on a kitchen towel as she made her way through the empty house, her dining companion would be home soon and a hearty home cooked meal of spaghetti bolognaise for two awaited them.

Alison smiled as she thought of the past few months, at first she thought it would be difficult to adjust to living with someone after spending five years on her own, but ever since she found out she was pregnant she had been glad for the company. Household chores, doctor's appointments, odd-midnight cravings heck even driving to work became much easier with someone around and Alison couldn't wait to thank her companion for all they had done for her the past months.

She had finally reached the telephone and knowing who was on the other end, she sighed deeply as she answered.

Alison: "Spencer...Spencer you called five minutes ago!"

There was a husky laugh on the other end of the line as the youngest Hastings child spoke

Spencer: "I know! I'm sorry Ali...they were all out of chocolate macadamia, do you want me to go to Philly and get some for you?"

Alison's heart suddenly began to race.

Alison: "What? NO! Spencer don't be crazy! Dinner's ready and it looks like there's going to be a storm tonight, just come home! Don't worry about the ice cream..."

Spencer: "But...but you really wanted it..."

The blonde sighed at Spencer's guilty tone. Spencer had given in to her every whim and Alison knew that the brunette would move heaven and earth for her if asked but right now the blonde was more concerned about Spencer's safety than some frozen treat.

Alison: "There's chocolate ice cream in the fridge and some salted macadamias in the pantry... I'll make do...just please come home..."

She heard Spencer mumble a soft 'okay' before saying

Spencer: "I'll make it up to you Ali...I promise...Ali...I'm on my way home, love you"

The call clicked as it ended leaving Alison startled at the endearment that had been effortlessly spoken by the brunette, almost like it was second nature to Spencer to express her love for Alison.

The blonde smiled to herself and played those words on loop in her head as she put the finishing touches on their dinner. Soon thunder clapped loudly across the night sky and lightening flashed across the air as the heavens opened and cast the city of Rosewood in an unbearable downpour. Alison's heart clenched with worry for Spencer and slowly began to pace the length of her living room. Soon the rumbling of a car engine pulling into her driveway put her mind at ease. She raced towards the front door as footsteps scuffled around outside. Heart beating erratically, breath hitching and face flushed with worry, Alison threw open her front door and threw her arms around the person just outside it.

A grinning but extremely soaked Spencer Hastings held the pregnant blonde tightly.

Spencer: "I told you I was coming home didn't I?"

Alison, now completely overcome with emotion, kissed the woman chastely on the cheek and said

Alison: "I know...I just worry about you...and you know how I don't like being alone..."

Spencer smiled at this and pulled out an adorable, fluffy, mocha brown teddy bear. The brunette held the toy up to the blonde as a 'peace offering' and quipped

Spencer: "I come bearing gifts...hopefully this makes up for the lack of ice cream..."

The blonde smiled down at the bear in her hands and said

Alison: "It's perfect! Something to snuggle with when you leave me all alone..."

Spencer kissed the blonde's forehead gently, looked deep into the woman's cerulean orbs and said

Spencer: "As long as I'm alive...you'll never be alone..."

*End*

Those words leaving the brunette's lips were enough to pull Alison from her reverie. The blonde felt someone's hands on her and shivered. She was wrapped up in someone's arms, the hands were cold, yet familiar. She craved the touch but for some reason was also repulsed by it. It wasn't the touch she needed in that moment and for that reason she completely rejected it. She pushed off the person holding her, looked them in the eye and cried.

Alison: "GO!"

The person sighed deeply, ran their hands through their raven locks and straightened out their T-Shirt. The lean swimmer had watched Alison self destruct since Spencer had passed and was sick of it. Emily Fields watched her childhood crush and soul mate fall apart over another woman and her heart broke, not out of jealously but because her beloved was hurt.

Emily: "Ali...Ali you need to eat something!"

Alison growled at Emily's words and yelled

Alison: "Don't tell me what I need! I needed you and you weren't there! You left me! You were GONE and she stayed! I NEED HER! I NEED SPENCER! BRING HER BACK!"

Alison stopped yelling and began hugging herself, trying to hold herself together as she pleaded

Alison: "P-P-Pl-please...bring her b-back...Em-Emily...p-please..."

Emily wrapped her arms around Alison and cried with the blonde, both of them in mourning for their lost friend but Emily had cried for another reason. Even though she loved Spencer and was deeply saddened by the loss of the brunette, Emily wept for Alison. The swimmer wept for the blonde's pain and sent a silent prayer to the heavens.

'Look out for her Spence...I know you're watching...you protected her for so long...please...keep her safe...'

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*One Month Later*

Alison was now six months pregnant, she was slowly becoming uncomfortable with her growing belly and swelling fingers and ankles. She felt unattractive and no matter how many times Emily had called her beautiful, Alison would never believe it.

Since Spencer's passing, Emily had broken up with Paige and all but moved in to the Dilaurentis home with Alison and even though the blonde knew this was out of guilt, Alison couldn't bring herself to care. She was glad for the company, she had grown accustomed to having Spencer around and really didn't want to be alone in the huge house she lived in so now, with Spencer gone, Emily was the least objectionable substitute.

Alison stared at herself in the full length mirror of her master bedroom. Her eyes raking over her body, clad only in a red silk bra and matching underwear, Alison began massaging her protruding abdomen. She stared into the mirror and smiled lovingly as her mind created the image of an arm snaking around her abdomen, the sense of a person standing behind her was conjured and she almost felt hot breath against her neck as her companion's cleft chin rested against her shoulder.

She held their gaze through the mirror, blue eyes met brown and Alison moaned as the hand on her abdomen began wandering lower.

Alison: "Mmmh...Spence..."

The apparition of Spencer Hastings smirked, kissed the column of Alison's neck gently as she murmured

Spencer: "Beautiful..."

Her mind began to wander, a dangerous activity that she would often indulge in. She needed to lose herself in her fallacy once more, because her mind couldn't come to terms with the reality that she lived in. She preferred to live in her misconception, were platonic feelings became something more because in her fallacy she felt sexy, she felt attractive, she felt...loved.

*Flash*

Alison gently turned around and cupped Spencer's face in her trembling hands and kissed the brunette soundly. Slowly her arms rested atop Spencer's shoulders as Spencer snaked an arm around Alison's waist, pulling the pregnant woman closer to her. Spencer broke the kiss and in breathy tones spoke to the blonde

Spencer: "Ali...are you sure?"

Alison nodded fervently and reattached her lips to Spencer's, kissing the youngest Hastings passionately as she slowly began removing the woman's clothes. Spencer's hand had ventured beneath her protruding abdomen before wondering to her clothed sex. Spencer smirked against Alison's lips as she gently rubbed Alison through the fabric, causing the blonde to moan loudly in anticipation.

Alison: "mmmh...Spence...don't tease..."

The brunette removed her hand quickly and broke the embrace she shared with the blonde. Seconds later she stood beside the pregnant teacher and lifted the woman into her strong hold. Alison smiled shyly and admired Spencer's strength as she was carried bridal style to her king sized bed. She felt safe in Spencer's strong arms, she was content in the gentle grip and she felt protected as she rested her head against Spencer's chest.

Soon she felt her body hit the softness of her mattress and she grinned gleefully as Spencer discarded her shirt, giving the blonde a clear view of the lobbyist's toned body. Alison sighed deeply as Spencer gently settled herself on top of her, the brunette resuming their kiss as her hand made its way back to Alison's clothed sex.

(Mature content ahead)

Alison felt like a horny teenager, needing Spencer to give her release hard and fast but Spencer was gentle with Alison, the brunette's long fingers teasing her through the silk fabric of her underwear before pushing the garment aside and inserting a finger into Alison's dripping sex. Alison groaned as she felt a moist finger part her wet folds at the juncture between her legs and insert itself into her core moving in a gentle 'to-and-fro' movement to create a tempo that drove her crazy. The blonde was wet, ready and eager for release but the sensual torture was to last a little while longer when another finger was added into the sexual frenzy.

Alison moaned pleasurably at the intrusion and began to slowly buck into the brunette's hand, rocking herself gently as Spencer pumped into her. Slowly the brunette added another finger heightening the blonde's stimulation and if Alison's pants and moans were anything to go by, it was as clear as day that the blonde was enjoying herself. She wrapped her arms around Spencer's neck, turned the taller woman's head up and gazed longingly into Spencer's chocolate orbs as she faced her.

Alison: "Uhhhn...Spence...mmmh...please..."

Spencer began moving faster, increasing her tempo, driving Alison over the edge but just before the blonde could find her release, Spencer smirked evilly and had slowed down taunting the former queen bee, the brunette was asserting her dominance by making Alison beg for her satisfaction. Alison ground herself against Spencer's talented fingers eagerly trying to find her release but clearly Spencer had wanted to take her time. The brunette removed her fingers from Alison's folds and smirked at the blonde before sucking her digits clean. Alison groaned at the sensual sight before her and closed her eyes to calm herself, but Alison was not given any reprieve because just as the fingers were removed from her folds a feeling of wetness had began to stimulate her once more. Alison felt Spencer's strong jaw rest against her inner thighs as her core received a tongue lashing. Her body began to convulse in pleasure as she found her first release.

Alison's eyes rolled back into her head and as she moaned deeply

Alison: "God! Spencer!...Yesss...Just like that..."

Her eyes snapped open as her second climax hit her, she stared at the room's pristine white ceiling for a while as her sexual partner continued her oral assault on Alison's core causing the blonde to pant and writhe hotly against the soft bed sheets. Alison's heart raced as she found her bountiful release, the blonde was sure that the sheets beneath her was ruined but she couldn't bring herself to care. Finally once she had ridden out her orgasm did she look down to see the woman who had given her such pleasure and she gazed lovingly at Spencer, who was smiling proudly and punch-drunk on Alison's nectar

(End of Mature content)

Slowly Spencer kissed up the expanse of Alison's body before dropping to the blonde's side, grinning happily. Alison felt Spencer wrap her arms around her and the blonde snuggled closer to the brunette, resting her head against Spencer's chest in a post-coital cuddle as Spencer placed a gentle kiss on Alison's temple.

A voice filled the air as her name was called

Voice: "Ali?"

Alison knew that voice, her heart told her that the voice belonged to her soul mate, to her Emily but Alison ignored it, the blonde preferred the arms of the woman her mind had conjured up and refused to leave her fantasy.

Emily's voice called out to her again, gently pulling her away from the apparition of Spencer that was reclining against her

Emily: "Alison..."

Alison looked up at Spencer and pouted

Alison: "I don't want to leave..."

Spencer smiled down at her and gently addressed the blonde

Spencer: "You have to...you belong with her Alison..."

Alison stared at Spencer curiously

Alison: "I don't belong to anyone Spence...not anymore..."

Spencer kissed Alison's temple gently, a reassuring tone tinged her voice as the brunette spoke

Spencer: "You belong with Emily..."

*End Flash*

At the mention of the swimmer's name, Alison felt a sharp tug in her heart. Her world began to spin and her vision became unfocused. She shook her head to clear it and gasped in shock at what she saw.

Alison was standing in her bedroom before her full length mirror, clad in a red silk bra and matching underwear. She head Emily call her name from down the hall but she ignored the swimmer and quickly she turned around, gazed at the bed behind her and pinched herself to make sure that this was real.

The lack of an unkempt bed and the heady scent of sex in the air told Alison that she had once again lived in her fantasy. Doctor Sullivan had cautioned her about getting 'lost' in these day dreams but Alison couldn't help it, it was the only way she could see Spencer again and the blonde would rather be lost forever than face a world without the brunette by her side.

She heard Emily's voice call out to her again and Alison quickly grabbed the clothes that were strewn across the floor and hurriedly put them on. She had just smoothed down the front of her maternity dress when Emily walked into the bedroom with a smile.

Emily: "Breakfast is ready..."

Alison gave her a sullen smile and headed past the swimmer and towards the kitchen. Just as she passed the swimmer, her mind created a new way of torturing her when she heard the husky voice of her deceased friend whisper to her

Spencer: "She's trying Ali...forgive her..."

Alison growled out a harsh 'no' before stalking off to the kitchen, leaving a bewildered Emily behind.

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*Seven Months into Alison's pregnancy*

Alison sat beside Emily at the dinner table, pushing the food around her plate instead of just eating it. The visions of Spencer created by the blonde's mind became a regular occurrence now and currently the apparition of her dearly departed friend was sitting across from her and watching her with a pronounced frown.

Spencer: "Alison...you need to eat..."

Just as the words left the apparition's lips, Emily raised her head and turned to face Alison, the swimmer wore a concerned expression and her tone hitched with worry.

Emily: "Ali! You need to eat!"

Alison rolled her eyes at Emily's outburst and continued to stare at the 'ghost' of her brunette friend seated across from her

Spencer: "She's right you know...:

Emily sighed at Alison's actions and said

Emily: "Alison please...for me?"

Even though she still harboured a residual resentment towards the swimmer for abandoning her, Alison still brought a spoonful of food to her lips and proceeded to partake in the meal, her action causing the phantom across from her to chuckle deeply as the brunette teased her.

Spencer: "Of course you'd listen to Emily...I've been begging you to eat for the past half hour but all Emily needs to do is bat her eyelashes at you and you're a goner..."

Alison growled lowly at Spencer's words, the action caused Emily to worry about the blonde. So, purely out of concern for Alison's health the swimmer turned Alison to face her and asked

Emily: "Ali...Ali are you okay?"

Even though they had been living together for the past few months, Alison had not fully welcomed Emily into her life. She was still distant and often cold with the swimmer which resulted in the taller woman adopting a sense of hesitation every time she found herself in a room with Alison.

Alison stared up at Emily in anger. Alison didn't even know why she was angry, she didn't even know if it was Emily she was angry with but she needed to lash out.

Alison: "NO! No I'm not okay Emily!"

Emily looked taken aback by her sudden outburst but Alison didn't care that she was being harsh. Emily cleared her throat and tried to speak with Alison once more

Emily: "Ali...I'm worried about you..."

At Emily's words, the apparition of Spencer spoke up, causing Alison to stare at her

Spencer: "I'm worried about you too Ali..."

Alison growled in frustration and slammed her fists against the table

Alison: "I don't need a babysitter Emily!"

She stood up abruptly and growled at the apparition of her deceased friend

Alison: "And you...stop taking her side!"

Emily followed Alison's gaze to the empty chair across from them. Fearing for Alison's sanity, Emily asked

Emily: "umm...Ali? Who are you talking to?"

Alison turned to face Emily and stated, as though it was the most obvious thing in the world

Alison: "Spencer"

Emily stared up at Alison in shock and was contemplating what to say when Alison heard Spencer address her

Spencer: "Ali...you need to forgive her..."

Alison huffed at this and stubbornly grit out

Alison: "No...no I don't"

The apparition of Spencer sighed, pinched the bridge of her nose and spoke to the blonde

Spencer: "Ali...you need to let me go...you need to move on, this is not healthy...for you and your baby...Emily's baby...You love her and she loves you so please, let her be there for you..."

Tears filled Alison's eyes and slowly the woman began to silently cry. At the sight of tears pooling in Alison's eyes, Emily stood up and wrapped her arms around a weeping Alison but Alison paid no attention to the swimmer, she focused on the phantom in front of her and spoke, her voice small...defeated...

Alison: "I want you to be there for me Spence, Emily ran when I needed her the last time..."

Emily's heart sank at Alison's words which caused the apparition of Spencer to smile at the blonde sadly as she spoke

Spencer: "Ali...Emily's there now...she's trying but if you keep pushing her away she'll give up on you...forgive her Ali...she made a mistake, just like you did when you abandoned her in our junior year...but she forgave you for that...she loves you Ali and I know you love her...don't lose her over something so trivial..."

Alison sighed and contemplated Spencer's words before slowly nodding in agreement.

Alison: "You're right Spence..."

Spencer smiled at Alison cheerfully and quipped

Spencer: "I know...now that you've admitted it I can rest in peace..."

Alison watched as the apparition of her deceased friend vanished before her eyes, her heart clenched in fear and she called out frantically

Alison: "SPENCER! SPENCER COME BACK!"

Emily pulled Alison deeper into her embrace as Alison trashed against her. The swimmer knew that Alison was finally coming to terms with the brunette's passing and let the blonde cry in her arms.

Alison: "She's gone Em..."

Emily rubbed soothing circles on Alison's back as the woman bitterly sobbed against her

Emily: "I know Ali..."

Alison: "I miss her..."

Emily: "I miss her too..."

Alison: "She wants me to forgive you...I think I forgive you Em..."

Emily smiled at this and kissed Alison's temple gently

Emily: "Thank you Ali...I promise, I'll never abandon you again..."

Alison smiled sadly and hugged Emily tighter, the warmth from the swimmer's embrace filling her with a sense of optimism, she had been in the darkness for too long and she finally accepted Emily to be her guide back into the light

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*Five Years Later- Rosewood Cemetary*

Alison Dilaurentis rested against the cool granite of the exquisitely carved headstone. The fresh flowers she placed on the earth atop of the grave joined the large number of bouquets that huddled around Spencer Hastings' grave stone.

The blonde could tell who had come to visit the brunette by the flowers that were before. Spencer's parents had brought by the azaleas and Alison suspected that Veronica Hastings had created the arrangement from the flowers growing in the Hastings' backyard. Hanna and Caleb had brought by the multicoloured freesia arrangement, Aria had brought the sunflowers, the butter cups were from Jason and Mary, Melissa had given the peonies and Toby had obviously brought the Red Roses.

Alison smiled to herself as she laid the arrangement of pink and peach roses against Spencer's head stone and began to speak to the brunette

Alison: "I haven't seen you in a while...Sure I visit you every month but I haven't seen you...I miss you...I miss your smile, your fierce way of protecting me...I can't thank you enough for being there for me in the early days of my pregnancy. If it weren't for you, I would have eventually lost the baby because of some careless mistake and I would never have my baby boy... Aiden Wayne Dilaurentis...yeah I know 'Spencer' is a unisex name and I know you probably mad that I didn't name his after you but I'm saving the name for my next little one...yeah I know...I'm pregnant again! The IVF treatment I told you about last month worked and I hope we have a little girl...I already told Emily that I'm naming the child after you and she's thrilled with the idea."

Alison began to trace the engraving of Spencer's name, her fingers brushing against the cool stone as she traced the letters carved into it. She bit back a sob and wiped at the few tears gathering in her eyes as she pulled out a sheet of paper from her pocket and spoke

Alison: "...Aiden had to draw a family tree for his class project this week..."

Alison couldn't help the tears that fell from her eyes as she became lost in the memory of a late night whispered conversation between her now deceased friend and her then unborn child. She sniffed loudly and continued her story

Alison: "...when he told Emily and I that he needed to draw a family tree while we were having dinner I broke down...when he asked me why I was crying, I told him about you...about that night... he wanted me to thank you for taking care of his mummy..."

Alison wiped away the tears that were now streaming down her face and spoke

Alison: "...it doesn't feel right without you...sure we all meet up but it doesn't feel the same with you being gone. I know Aria told you all about the book tour she's going on with Ezra, that Hanna and Caleb visit you whenever they're back from New York and that Emily told you all about the promotion she received...we all still confide in you Spencer but you're not with us anymore...sure, we all get together for dinner whenever all of us are in Rosewood and even though it's a room full of smiles and laughs we're all hurt by your absence...you took care of us when we needed you to, when I was gone you stepped up and held our group together through all the drama that 'A' had put you through and then when I got pregnant you stood by me when I thought I had no one...I can't tell you how much I appreciate having you in my life Spence..."

Alison laid her palm to rest against the cool headstone and began to cry bitterly as she choked out a familiar quote.

Alison: "How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard?"

Authors Note (A/N):Well...what did you think?

Regarding the intimate Scene between Alison and Spencer, there have been some complaints (which I can't understand since something like it was alluded to in Chapter 1) so I just wanted to set the record straight. The mindset in which Alison was in at the time was one where she is:-

Highly hormonal (any horny) due to her pregnancy);

Grieving the person who stood by her (Spencer); and

Harbouring residual anger towards the person who she believes abandoned her (Emily).

This entire chapter was about how Alison felt guilty for Spencer's death and is grieving the loss of her close friend and because of her grief, she is unhealthily projecting certain feelings and emotions onto Spencer. I maintain that Spencer and Alison were platonic because they had never slept together while Spencer was alive. The scene in question was just to show that Alison needed to feel close to Spencer.