Hurt me with the truth
but never
comfort me with a lie.
*bold print is in the characters head his or her thoughts *
regular print is monologue or actions*
John POV
It's been two years since Kazuya Shibuya revealed his true identity and left for England, it's also been two years since I left the priesthood and went back to Australia.
I miss the team.
To tell you the truth they were the first real friends I had. I always had Rosi though. And my brother but he's dead so he doesn't count anymore. Sebby? No. I have Sarah but she's six and mother is always taking care of her. I'm now 23 about to be 24. I have kept in touch with Monk and Mai and I've also kept in touch with Yasuhara.
It's just not the same anymore. I'm not the same.
I've reverted back to my old habits. I've quit eating regularly and I rarely get a wink of sleep. I'm falling apart and I'm loosing control of myself. I'm not sure what to do anymore and the phone call I got today made it worse.
I can't face them after I let myself fall apart! They will hate me!
They don't even know me. Three years and they still think my name is John Brown. Yeah my name is John technically Jonathan but my last names not Brown.
It's my fathers last name and I hate being associated with that bastard, but after I learned who I'd be working with I couldn't let them know my last name.
I don't know what I'm gonna do. I shouldn't have agreed to go!
And why did I let Rosi come with me! I'm so stupid! Well enough of that I might as well try and get some rest for tomorrow. Hopefully the plane will crash before then or I'll just magically die because I'm pretty sure I'm about to start hyperventilating.
"John calm down. Please. It's going to be alright they're not going to hate you and seeing them again is not going to kill you! You'll be alright." Rosi said from beside me.
I guess I am overthinking things.
"Alright I'll try. I think I'm gonna take a nap sister. Goodnight." I said as I drifted into darkness.
Only to be confronted by a nightmare.