Ch 58

Trunks was looking at his watch, looked to the therapist, and then looked towards the door. The silence was making him uneasy, but he wouldn't show it.

"Is he usually late?" asked Dr. Hazen.

"Not for the important things in life. He must have gotten held up at the bakery. It does get busy."

"Sorry, sorry I'm late," said Goten as he rushed into the office to see the amused face of his mate. "What?"

"I guess there was not time to clean up before you got here," said Dr. Hazen.

"Oh, sorry," he blushed. "I didn't want to be later then I all ready was, so I ran straight here," Goten said as he spotted a body length mirror in the room. "Whoa! I look like a storm hit me."

"A baking storm," Trunks chuckled as he took his long jacket and placed it over the love seat space.

"Thanks Trunks," Goten smiled as he sat down beside him while the therapist handed him a tissue. "Thank you doctor."

"Now Trunks I would like to start with you first. What unresolved issues do you have?"

"That's a fairly loaded question," said Trunks. "Well my relationship with my father has been a distant one right from the start. Over the years I've come to understand him better through my mother and living with him. Our relationship is better then it has been in years. There's always been one thing that bothered me. He's never told me he loves me, and I know through actions that he does but it would be nice to hear, even just once."

"Those three words that you've never heard from your father, do you think they somehow shaped the way you live your life?" asked the doctor.

"It did through my childhood, especially my adolescence. I started gaining popularity because of my name, and people would tell me they love me when they didn't know a thing about me. It made me wonder if my dad really loved me. I became guarded, even today I don't love or trust that many people. Love is not a word that should be thrown around."

"Have you talked to your father about this?"

"No. A part of me thinks he would just think I was being foolish. He's a hard man to read sometimes, unpredictable."

"You need to talk to him about this Trunks. You say he's unpredictable, so he might not react the way you expect."

"It's going to take some courage, but you can do it Trunks," said Goten.

Trunks sighed. "I guess I can't argue with both of you. Anyway I regret willingly giving myself to strangers. I'm angry that I could so easily just give into my saiyan instincts and have sex for all the wrong reasons. At the time I didn't care. I didn't stop to think how what I was doing was hurting the people I slept with and even then there was distance between me and them. There was never satisfaction, just going through the motions, not feeling anything at all."

"You're afraid of becoming like your father," said Dr. Hazen.

"He use to be a bad man, and that's not who he is today. My father worked really hard to conquer his demons with my mother, he still his to this very day, and that's admirable. I wouldn't say I was afraid I was becoming him. I was afraid I was becoming someone I wouldn't recognize anymore, someone my parents and grandparents would be ashamed of."

"Would you say you grew up to fast?"

"With my intellect and environment I would say yes. I knew I was in love with Goten the moment I sensed his ki, and I was just a baby myself. I couldn't really explain that to anyone. Who I am has always kept me at a distance from others. It wasn't really until Goten came along that I felt like I wasn't so alone."

"It seems Goten is connected to your happiness. This isn't always a good thing Trunks. We can't depend on people to be happy. You must find happiness within yourself and be happy for who you are today. Your issues stem from how you were raised. You give the world this cool, confident, arrogant face but alone you're not happy with the things you've done in your past. There were things out of your control, and that makes you angry, it makes you channel that anger onto Goten."

"So I should tell my parents what I've just told you?" said Trunks.

"They may be able to give you the answers you require to move on and find happiness with who you are now," said Dr. Hazen.

"Ok," said Trunks as he felt Goten's hand squeeze his shoulder in reassurance. Trunks smiled.

"Well it seems like Goten's nothing but supportive of this endeavor. That's a good thing, to know your partner is on your side completely," Dr. Hazen smiled.

"I want him to be happy, not just because of me. I know I was there for him for a lot of the darkest days in his life, but I always believed he would find his happiness."

"It's quite refreshing to see two people so in love. You don't see that much in my line of work these days."

"That's very nice of you to say," said Goten.

"Well our time is up for today. Goten we'll focus on you in your next session," Dr. Hazen said as she saw the couple out the door.

"See you later," said Trunks.