Ch 78

"So, what happened with Goten in Rome?"

"All these feelings came back to me after I told my mom the reason for my conception. I hadn't talked to her yet to resolve what happened, but I was gong to. For the moment I just wanted to be with Goten. We were having sex and then at some point I felt something inside me snap. I attacked him and then I—disgust was written over his face—I raped him. I blocked everything but my own pleasure."

"Why do you think you attack Goten?"

"I thought it was because we were saiyans, but that's not all. I think I put all my unresolved issues on him when I beat him. He's been my light for so long and maybe I expected him to save me from the dark. I would never admit that to him. I'm suppose to be the strong, stable one but all along it was him."

"You say you block out everything else. Your pleasure is all that matters."

"There were times I spent without Goten. They were miserable and lonely for me and most of the time I did what I could to avoid people, even my family. It was the same time I was going through puberty, so I sought out women for sex, for my pleasure. I didn't care about them. I was using them. It wasn't right, and I used Goten the same way that night. The only difference is I didn't rape the women I slept with, and Goten meant more to me then all those women combined."

"You wonder why you violated Goten in the way you did."

"How—how can I do that to someone I love?"

"Is it possible that you're angry with Goten? You feel like he left you when you both came into puberty. You needed him the most during that time, but you feel like telling him would leave you open to being vulnerable. You don't like being vulnerable, do you Trunks? It makes you uncomfortable like it does your father. Maybe you resent Goten for being everything that you're not."

"A part of me might hold some resentment against Goten, but I was a teenager then. I was running on human and saiyan hormones. It wasn't his fault that he couldn't come around. His mom kept a tight leash on him at the time. He was still being homeschooled. I think his grandpa was making sure he didn't fly off to see me. At that point I didn't care because if he didn't want to see me then I didn't want to see him. I was so angry and my feelings for him only confused things."

"I know you may think that distance is what you two need from each other, but you need to talk to Goten. You need to tell him how you feel. In order for your relationship to survive you need to always be open and honest, even though you feel its leaving open to being vulnerable. You know him better then anyone. You claim this, so you should know he won't judge you, that he'll only accept you because he loves you," said Baba as she stood up. "Just think about it Trunks. You can stay for as long as you need to," she said before she left the room.

Trunks took a walk around the house to think about what he and Baba discussed. The fresh air felt good, and there was a peace about this place. It reminded him of Goten, who always had this peaceful air around him while he exuded calm on the outside but chaos on the inside.

"Trunks." Trunks came out of his thoughts to see a list in Baba's hand. "Would you pick up a few things at the store? Since you're staying here, I need more groceries."

"Sure thing Baba," said Trunks as he took the list as well as his phone to track the nearest grocery store.

The grocery store reminded him of Goten as well. 'God do I miss you chibi,' he sighed. 'I can't believe my resentment and jealousy of him is why I hurt him so badly. I don't deserve him, I never did.'

"Trunks, wow I can't believe it," said a female voice.

Coming out of his thoughts, he looked in the direction of the voice. "Marron, what are you doing here?"

"My parents have a vacation house nearby. I'm here with some of my girlfriends. They're back at the house. Of course my parents had to come. They don't trust me to be alone with my friends."

"That's great Marron. I have to go," said Trunks as he pushed his shopping cart passed her.

"Oh hey wait up Trunks. Why are you here?"

"I'm helping Baba around her house. I needed some time away from the city."

"So it's just you and Baba?"

"Yeah."

"Why didn't Goten come with you?"

"I think we're done talking," said Trunks as he made his way to the next aisle.

"You're having trouble again, aren't you?" asked Marron as she followed him.

"It's none of your business Marron so back off," Trunks warned as he took some things off the shelf and put them into his cart.

Trunks put the groceries in the car and drove off to Baba's. He couldn't believe he kept running into Marron. Hopefully that was the last time he'd see her. He needed his time away to figure things out and not to deal with other insignificant distractions.

Pulling up to the house, Trunks got out and carried the bags inside the house. He didn't notice the other car that pulled up behind his as he closed the door behind him. Putting the groceries away, he heard a knock on the door. "Hey Baba, can you get it?" he asked as he saw her going to the door. "Thanks."

"Marron, what a surprise," said Baba as she let her in the house. "What brings you by?"

"Well I wanted to talk to Trunks. We met at the grocery store, but he seemed like he was in a hurry."

"Yes well I had him do some shopping for me. He's staying for a while to help around the house."

"That's really sweet of him," Marron smiled.

Baba became suspicious of the tone in the girl's voice. "What did you want to talk to Trunks about?"

"That's between Trunks and I if you don't mind."

"Hey Baba, do you need—Marron I thought I told you to leave me alone."

"Can we just talk alone for a few minutes please?" asked Marron.

Trunks could see the look of hesitation on Baba's face. "It's fine Baba. We'll talk outside," said Trunks as he headed to the door with Marron right on his heals. He turned to her once the door was closed. "What do you want Marron?"

"I'm concerned about you. Goten is clearly not good for you if he isn't here with you now."

"As usual you don't have a clue about anything. Your concern for me doesn't move me. I'm not interested in you. I was never interested in you Marron. I don't know how many times I have to say this until it sticks in your mind. You also have no right to say what you think is good or bad for me."

"I know you're not here because you're happy Trunks. Goten is clearly not making you happy, but I know I can. I love you. All I'm asking is for a chance for me to show you how much I care."

"You don't know a damn thing!" exclaimed Trunks. "You want to know why I'm here? Well I'll tell you why. While I was in Italy with my family and friends, I did something I can't take back. I hurt Goten. I beat him up badly while we were having sex. I'm sure he yelled and even screamed for me to stop. I'm sure he even tried to stop me, but I didn't listen. No. When he was at his weakest after the beatings, I raped him. Now is that the kind of guy you want to be be your boyfriend?"

"I'm sure you didn't mean to do that to him Trunks. You're a good man. You just need help, and I can give that to you. Clearly your relationship is toxic and chaotic. It's better if you two remain friends."

"Get. Out," said Trunks as he was holding back his rage.

"Trunks. Please!" exclaimed Marron.

"GET OUT!" screamed Trunks as Marron rushed out of the house.