I considered writing her name, but I was a bit afraid to in case Rem found out and killed me for it. I was still working on figuring out when exactly I want to die. So, now that I just decided to watch one of those lame gossip shows, I found myself choking on my cookies at the "Kira" written on the screen. I have now found myself out of time and without a plan.
"-the last thing I want to do is kill the innocent. I hate evil and love justice. I've always thought of the police as allies, not as enemies." The modified voice was saying when I stopped coughing.
"Dammit, why did you have to do this?" I grumbled, smacking a hand to my forehead.
"I intend to create a new world. A perfect world that is free from evil. If you agree to join me in my mission, I know we can make it happen. And as long as no one tries to challenge me, I promise that the innocent will not die. Even if you don't agree with me, all I ask is that you not publicize your views in the media. If you can do that, you will be spared. All you have to do now is be patient. I will create a better world that we can all enjoy. Say goodbye to the world as you know it. Soon, we'll have a new world ruled by benevolence and habituated by kind-hearted, honest people. Try to imagine it, a world where the police and I will-"
I couldn't take it, changing the channel and turning away from the T.V.
"What? Don't want to-" Ryuk was interrupted by the news reporter and I turned back to the T.V. to see someone collapsed in front of the Sakura T.V. station.
"Ukita…" I muttered, my hand going to clutch a fist-full of the fabric of my shirt over the left side of my chest.
Staring at the T.V. but not really watching or listening, I felt my conscience tugging at me like it had when I had to kill the FBI. Not wanting to see the bus or the police officers, I turned off the T.V. and pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapping my arms around them and resting my forehead on them. Now, I was caught between writing her name and risking Rem coming after me or even that it won't work for one reason or another. If I could, I would've just written that stalker's name that Gelus died writing, but I don't remember if it was even mentioned or how it's spelled or anything. However, it's too late now and I have no idea what I should do.
"Dammit!" I yelled, slamming my fists on my desk at the same time I uncurled myself. The entire situation was frustrating.
So, when they aired the video asking for the director general or L to appear on T.V., I decided to ignore it as well as the shinigami. I also knew I would need to join the Task Force very soon.