I started getting to work on attempting to modify Light's original plan. Rem came phasing through my wall three days after they took Misa in.
"What's the matter, Rem?" Ryuk asked her.
"Light Yagami. Misa has refused my offer to help her escape. No doubt because she knows it will cause you trouble, since the police would then have proof of her powers. When her suffering became more than she could bear, she started begging me to kill her. All of this because she wants you to accept her. I could not possibly let it go on like that. I couldn't bring myself to do it. There was only one way to save her from her suffering."
"Forfeiting ownership of the Death Note." I said, my expression a hard mask of nothing as I thought about what to do.
"Yes. If Misa forfeits ownership of the Death Note, all her memories related to it would disappear. All the murders she committed with it. The fact that you are Kira. All those memories would be gone. Your secret would be safe. Also, Misa would no longer be able to see Ryuk or me either."
I know I have to do something, but I think I'm going to do it differently, but still similar.
"And so, Misa is no longer the owner of a Death Note."
"You did the right thing, Rem. They'll have to release her eventually if she can't remember anything about the Death Note."
"Light Yagami, I preposed this to Misa knowing it was exactly what you wanted and it would serve your purposes, but I did so on one condition." She lifted a bony finger to point at my forehead. "And that is if you don't save Misa, I will kill you."
I stared back at the shinigami until her hand lowered, then I smiled. "No worries, Rem. That was my intention anyway. Now, since I start deviating from the way things are supposed to go at this point, please bear with me." I turned to my own shinigami. "This is goodbye, Ryuk."
"Huh?" The shinigami looked shocked.
. . .
I ended up taking the two shinigami out to the middle of nowhere. I gave Rem one of the Death Notes, then relinquished my ownership of it. I buried the other one. Rem left and Ryuk followed me back to where I met up with the Task Force. I used the same key words for relinquishing ownership of that one as the original Light had. "Get rid of it." I planned to use the same muttering as he did too. I'm not exactly sure what'll happen when I lose my memory, but hopefully I can get through being detained. It's scary, but I gathered all the willpower and channelled whatever was left of the original Light to get up the courage to call L. Getting myself to the hotel was a bit difficult as well. Matsuda let me in.
"Ryuzaki, like I said over the phone, I could be Kira." I said reluctantly.
Of course, Dad freaked out and grabbed my shoulders. "No, Light! What're you talking about?! Why would you even say something like that?! Why!?"
I just kept my eyes closed as he shook me by my shoulders. When I did open them, I just looked at the floor.
"Look, Dad, if Ryuzaki is L, then it's safe to say he's the world's best detective. And right now, he seems pretty sure that I'm Kira. We know L's never been wrong before."
"Wh-What're you saying, Light?! Stop this!"
"What about that FBI agent, Raye Penber? If it was me he was investigating immediately before he died, and I was in Aoyama on May twenty-second. Also, I'm the first person in the Kanto region that Misa, the alleged second Kira, approached. It's all been me. If I were in L's place, even I would've come to the same conclusion. You see, subconsciously, I might be Kira. If that were the case, I could be and not even know it."
"No, Light."
"I…I'm not sure of anything anymore. I'd never kill someone, but unconsciously, who knows what I'm capable of? Another me could be killing people as I sleep."
"I'm afraid that's not possible." L said.
"Not possible? What do you mean?"
"Well, I never mentioned this to you, but at one point I had hidden surveillance cameras installed in your room for five days."
"What!? What are you, a pervert?!" I yelled, feeling my face starting to burn at being reminded of that.
"Every single night, you slept normally." He ignored my outburst. "Criminals whose names were broadcast were still dying even though you would've had no way of knowing about them. But this didn't prove your innocence to me. All it proved was that if you were Kira, no amount of camera surveillance would reveal that fact."
"Wouldn't reveal that fact huh? I…I don't know, it could be true. I have to admit, I've found myself thinking that some criminals deserve to die. If I can think like Kira, then how can I be sure that I'm not actually…"
"Hold on, Light." Matsuda spoke up. "I feel exactly the same way. I found myself thinking before that some people would be better off dead, but still, that doesn't mean we're going to go out and kill people! Isn't that right? Besides, criminals were still being killed even when you had no knowledge of them. I mean, the surveillance cameras proved it, didn't they?"
"Well, no." Aizawa spoke up. "Because we were short of investigators then, we only watched her when she was at home. Truth is, we weren't able to watch her every hour of the day. It's possible she could've found some way to kill those criminals while she wasn't at home."
It was silent for a second before L spoke up.
"Honestly, I don't like the way this is going at all, but what choice to I have? Let's do it. I need you to fully restrain Light Yagami and place her in solitary confinement."
"What!? You can't!" Dad protested.
"You want us to confine her, seriously?" Matsuda asked.
"If we're gonna do this then it has to happen immediately. From this point on, you can't be allowed to go anywhere where I can't see you."
"This is crazy! There's no way my daughter could be Kira! My daughter's not capable of-"
"It's okay, Dad." I cut him off.
"Stop this, Light."
"Listen. Something has to be done about this. As long as I'm having these doubts, I can't work with you to catch Kira. But, Ryuzaki, promise me this, until you can say with absolute certainty that I'm not Kira, you cannot set me free. No matter what I might say or what condition I might be in."
"You have my word. Mr Yagami, can you come up with some sort of excuse for Light's absence? Something to tell your family. And please do it now." L said.
"But, this is all so sudden, what should I say? And I see no reason why she should be imprisoned."
"Let it go, Dad." I said, getting his attention before looking him in the eye. "If I don't do this, I won't be able to live with myself. Even if I wasn't having these doubts, I'd still want to do this for Misa's sake."
"But, do you really mean that?"
"Yes. I believe that by giving up my very freedom, I'll defeat this fear that Kira lurks within me."
And so, I was cuffed and blindfolded.
"Aizawa, please take her away." L said.
"Right." Aizawa sounded reluctant as he started leading me away.
"So, I guess apples are out of the question." Ryuk spoke up once we were in the cell.
"Sorry, everyone." I breathed out so quietly I hoped they wouldn't catch it.