Chapter 10: My Love Has Got the Strength to Take It (Song chapter, POVs)
(A/N: Another song chapter, this time the song is: "The Wall" by the 'Jackson 5'. Why was Michael singing about heartbreak at such a young age though? Who knows. It's better if you listen to the song while reading this, but if you're not, of course I'll have the lyrics within. You should check out the song though, pretty good! =) MJ is my favorite.
Disclaimer: I don't in any way, own Naruto or Naruto Shippuden.
"Naruto?" Hinata said. She wanted to know what answer he was going to choose. But it is true, if he continues to be with her, she will get hurt. Hinata couldn't stop crying, it was way too much! "I'll leave the two of you to make your decision." Lady Tsunade said as she got up slowly, walked to the door and left. Naruto just continued to stare at nothing.
(You hold me close to you my baby, but somehow it doesn't feel the same.)
(Naruto's P.O.V.)
I was staring at my cast on my left arm and realized, I did that to myself, no one else and I was also thinking about my life without Hinata. She's been there for me longer than anyone else. Yeah, I'm only 18, I shouldn't have to endure this. She kept calling my name, but I didn't answer, purposefully. Just in that moment, I really didn't want to talk. I didn't know what to do. I moved my right arm towards her hand instead. It was bruised but I didn't care, to me, it was the prettiest hand I've ever seen. She didn't pull away, like I thought she would due to the fact that I ignored her calling my name. "N-Naruto?" Hinata was crying so hard she could barely say my name this time. I looked up at her and her face was wet with tears. I finally decided to say something. "Hinata...I don't want to hurt you at all..." "N-Naruto, I know you don't, but-" Before she could continue, I lifted my hand from hers and put one finger over her soft lips. "But, you know that saying? If you love someone, I mean truly love someone, you have to let them go, set them free, Hinata-chan."
(You built the wall so high between us and you tell me that you haven't changed.)
I glanced at my cast one more time before looking back at Hinata. "But N-Naruto, yes, I believe that, but, I cannot just l-leave you. I'll be by your side. I'll fight by your side, t-through everything. I-I don't care if I get hurt, Naruto. Isn't that what l-love is all about? Going the distances to p-prove that you r-really love someone. I'm m-more than willing to take that risk, Naruto. I-I... love you."
(Tear down the wall that I can feel between us, the hidden wall that hides the real love, tear it on down, tear the wall down.)
She was completely right, 100% correct, but I was the one who was holding back. I was the one who just wouldn't move forward. I really did love Hinata, but the thought of hurting her, I just couldn't. Not now. But I didn't know what to do, because I still wanted to be with her, she's the one I know it. She's the only one I'd ever want to date, want to marry. 'God she's so beautiful.' I thought. My hand that was previously over Hinata's mouth was now putting her hair behind her ears. I got up and moved to the side so I could sit next to her and talk to her face to face. She was still crying though, I hated to see her cry, and hated it even more to know it was because of me. "You're right, Hinata. It's all so true, but listen to me please? Kiba is in the hospital because of me. Well, Kurama inside me, but Kiba still could've still died because of me, Hinata, do you understand? The last thing I want to see is you getting hurt because of me and my stupid actions. You heard Granny Tsunade, it's emotions. That's all it takes. I feel your emotions right now, Hinata. Angry and sorrowful...Kurama could cause me to do something I don't want to do. I love you, too. That's why I just have to think about this, Hinata." I reached my hand to wipe her tears away but this time, she did pull away.
(Tell me, my love has got the strength to take it, tell me what's wrong we'll make it. Tear it on down, yeah tear the wall down.)
"Hinata, please-" I started, but she put one finger over my mouth. Why was she acting this way? I only did what was best for the both of us. "No, N-Naruto, I get it now. I-If you love someone, I mean really love someone, y-you have to let them go, and set them free." She repeated my lines, removed her finger and leaned in kissed to my cheek. It was quick but it was the last one I was gonna receive in a while. She got up and headed for the door, but before she did I grabbed her wrist and tried to talk to her but she was not hearing it, she changed perspective so quickly, I didn't even have enough time to really explain myself to her. It's like she didn't get it at all.
(I thought I really knew you baby, almost the way I know myself. But now you're actin' like a stranger, and you changed girl into somebody else.)
"Don't leave like this, please Hinata-chan." My face was a few inches away from hers, I tried to kiss her but she closed her eyes tight and pulled away, just like before. "N-Naruto...you have to decide. Is it u-us? Or nothing? I-I do understand what you mean, but there's also two sides to it. W-We can do anything, N-Naruto." I didn't quite understand what she was saying, but her voice was so soft and a little bit cracked from crying. Hinata got out of my grip and ran out the door. What did I just do? Baka, baka, bakaaa!
(Hinata's P.O.V.)
Naruto, ahh, he's so cute and I'm a wreck. I'm always crying in front of everyone and I've only seen him cry once or twice. Right now, I'm sitting here crying all over the bed. He says he loves me but he keeps making excuses about how we shouldn't be together. Maybe it's me? Maybe I'm the problem? He says if I stay with him, I'll get hurt but he doesn't know that I'm willing to take that risk, love is what binds us together. He tried to wipe my tears away but I pulled away instead. I was going to be strong about this for once. It took me a lot of courage to do that but I needed to show Naruto that I could be just as strong as he is. "Hinata, please-" He begged, it made me want to cry even more, I can feel the sadness in his voice. But I took it strong and put one finger over his lips, that I probably wouldn't be kissing in a while, and I began to speak.
(Tear down the wall that I can feel between us, the hidden wall that hides the real love, tear it on down, tear the wall down.)
I repeated the same lines he said to me, about loving someone and setting them free and it was not easy. I didn't want to set him free. I'm not ready to go alone but he seemed to quickly want me to exit his life so I got the message. Before I left, I went to kiss him on the cheek. It was quick but it was the last one I was going to give to Naruto in a while. When I was done, I got up and headed for the door but he grabbed my wrist and twisted me around before I got the chance to. He told me I couldn't leave like this, but he doesn't know that he made me do it this way. He tried to kiss me and I really wanted to kiss him too, but instead I closed my eyes and looked away. I told him we can do anything and free'd my arm from his grip and ran out the door. I accidentally bumped into my father, who was very uneasy to see my crying so hard, especially since he knows it was because of Naruto. What just happened? And what did I just do?
(Tell me, my love has got the strength to take it, tell me what's wrong we'll make it. Tear it on down, yeah tear the wall down.)
(A/N: Hey guys, ya this chapter was corny, tbh this whole story couldve been made much better imo. But I just hope you guys like it, only 3 chapters left. So far, Naruto is faced with a tough decision. He wants to stay with Hinata but she doesn't seem to get it. And Hinata wants to stay with Naruto but he doesn't seem to get it either. But Hinata is being selfish and Naruto is trying to get her to see that, but all she cares about is to be with regardless of anything. She's real for that one, but Naruto just doesn't want Hinata to get hurt. Kurama is ruining everything. Can they work a way around it? What will they end up doing? Will they be together in the end? Keep reading to find out! PLEASE REVIEW ~ Only takes a second, but means a lot!)
