BPOV

It had been a rough few days. Carlisle had been 'recruiting' vampires from all over the world so he had locked himself away in his study. Alice had been aiding him and the rest of the family had been keeping the Denali's company. I had been keeping to myself as much as I could – I had made sure Renesme was kept safe away from a certain blonde bitch by keeping her at either Jake's or Charlie's – and that evening had swiped a bottle of whiskey from the kitchen. Vampires couldn't get drunk but the alcohol gave off a nice buzz that helped mellow me out and that was exactly what I needed right now; to keep calm and try to forget. I had climbed onto the roof and was trying to drown out the sounds of laughter and happy chatter from beneath me when I heard his voice.

"We need to talk" I took a mouthful of whiskey and swallowed before turning to face him. I saw Edward flinch as my crimson eyes bore into him and he tentatively sat down beside me.

"You shouldn't of attacked her" I snorted.

"You shouldn't of brought her here" I went to take another sip of alcohol when Edward snatched the bottle from me. I growled up at him as he threw the bottle into the forest.

"What the hell Edward?!"

"Why are you doing this? Do you enjoy watching me suffer?" I slapped him. I hadn't even thought about doing it, it had just been instinct. He didn't even flinch as my hand connected with his face.

"How dare you! After everything you've put me through you say you're suffering?" I felt myself shaking with anger.

"I know what I did was wrong and it's a little awkward with Tanya being here...but you're still my wife Bella. After everything we've been through we can still make this work" I couldn't believe him. I felt another slap coming on but his words stuck with me. We could still make this work...I paused. Could we make this work? I still loved him without a doubt...but could we forget this mess? Could we go back to how we were?

"What about Tanya?" His eyes lit up at the opportunity he knew he was getting. He took my hands in his and looked into my eyes.

"I'll send her away. It was wrong of me to do what I did but coming home to you, Bella, it reminded me of what I was giving up. Just say the word, love, and I'll know we still have a chance" I was confused. I knew I should of told him to do one and leave it at that but some part of me still longed for a perfect family with him.

"Am I interrupting anything?" Both our heads turned to see Jasper standing behind us. I hadn't heard him climb up. I pulled my hands from Edward's and gave Jasper a forced smile.

"What brings you up here, Jasper?" He kept his eyes on Edward as he came closer.

"Alice is still helping contact the nomads...thought I would come keep you company"

"She already has company" Edward snarled. I tensed and stood, walking to stand next to Jasper.

"I think you should go, Edward. Tanya must be so lost without you" His eyes hardened at the mention of his mistress and any thoughts of trying again vanished.

"Think on it, Bella" Seconds later I was alone with Jasper and everything just exploded from me and I collapsed in a pile of despair beside him.

JPOV

As soon as she collapsed I knew what to do. I scooped Bella into my arms and ran a fast as I could to the creek away from prying eyes. When I knew we were further enough away that we wouldn't be seen or heard I placed Bella onto a rock and cupped her face in my hands.

"Hush Bella please don't cry..." Her body shook with the sobs she could never release and she looked at me with such despair. It broke my heart.

"He said he'd take me back...He would end it with Tanya...I was starting to believe him until you came along" I pulled her into a hug and whispered into her hair.

"Please don't even go back to that scumbag, he doesn't deserve to even think about you anymore" She pulled away and set those dazzling eyes on me.

"Why are you being so kind to me?"

"You know why Bella"

"But I rejected you..."

"I told you I would be your friend; don't friends comfort each other?" She gave me a doubtful look. I took a step backwards and held up my hands.

"I promised didn't I? I meant it when I said I would be your friend if that's what you wanted...I'm here Bella. I can help you through this if you just let me in" I saw the doubt slowly leave her eyes and she wiped away the trails of ghost tears from her cheeks.

"God I must look like such a mess" She half laughed. I wanted to take her in my arms again and tell her how beautiful she looked right then but knew that would just take us back to square one. Instead I wrinkled my nose and looked at her in faux disgust.

"Now that you mention it...yikes" There were a few seconds where I was unsure if she registered my playful tone but then she gave a small laugh and threw a rock at my feet.

"Hey you shouldn't agree with me!" I laughed along with her and soon it was as if nothing had ever happened; we were joking and laughing as if it were just us in the world. I would of given anything to keep her in that moment – to keep her happy – but there was a question I just had to ask.

"Would you of taken him back? If I hadn't of shown up?" Bella's smile disappeared and I felt like hitting myself. She played with the hem of her sleeve and didn't meet my eyes.

"Honestly I was considering it...I don't know, Jasper, after everything he did he's still Edward" I felt anger begin to bubble away inside me as she spoke about him.

"But he hurt you, Bella, he cheated on you and left not just you but your daughter too" Bella turned angry eyes onto me and I almost backed away when she practically spat at me.

"Yes I'm well aware of that thank you" She stood and began to walk back in the direction of the house and I knew that I had lost her again. That whatever moment we had shared before was now forgotten. I couldn't let her leave me angry again. I grabbed her hand and she turned around giving me a weary look.

"Please Jasper not again" She whispered. I kept a hold on her hand and gently pulled her back to me and instead of resisting she complied. I held her hand up in between us and have it a light squeeze.

"Bella I'm your friend I need you to know that I'll always be there for you and sometimes that's going to mean stopping you from doing something very stupid" Her eyes began to darken and I knew any second she would try to leave again.

"I'm not saying you're stupid – just that when it comes to Edward you don't think clearly. Just give it some time, try being on your own for a little while and you'll realise that you don't need him...hell you might even find someone better" I realised the mistake of my sentence as soon as I said it but Bella only looked away and pulled her hand from mine.

"I suppose that means you?" I reached for her had but she moved backwards, away from me, and I didn't try and follow.

"Jasper this isn't going to work – we can't just be friends with how you feel towards me. I'm sorry" And for the second time Bella Swan ran away, upset, and left me alone in the woods.

APOV

The vision of Jasper and Bella in the forest cleared and I sat there frozen for what felt like an eternity. Jasper didn't love me anymore? I felt my hands begin to shake and my lips tremble at the thought of him leaving me for Bella of all people! The sound of someone coming through the front door and then Bella was rushing through the main room trying not e noticed. She seemed upset and very tired and my eyes widened in horror at the thought that maybe the vision could of just happened. It wouldn't of been the first time but they were so rare...Jasper returned shortly after and I followed him upstairs into our room. If he truly had feelings for Bella then they needed to be snuffed out before he did something drastic like try and end what we had. Jasper was on his back on the bed with an arm over his eyes and I knew I had to distract him. Show him what he had I don't know maybe I wasn't there for him enough as I used to be? Barely making a sound I undressed and crawled along his body to straddle his waist. He removed his arm from his eyes and smiled up at me.

"New addition to the collection?" I gave him my best seductive smile and ran a finger down his chest.

"You know it has been a long time..." Jasper gave me a clearly forced smile and began to lightly rub my thighs.

"I know, I'm sorry Ali, I just haven't been feeling it lately" The rejection hit me hard – he had never rejected me before – and I slapped his hands off my body. I rolled off him and wrapped a dressing gown around my petite frame before crossing my arms and glaring into his golden eyes.

"Oh I know you've been feeling it just not for me right? How long did you think it would take for me to find out?" He let out a sigh and scratched the back of his neck as he thought about his response. I stood there, seething, until he finally looked at me.

"I didn't think there was anything to tell. I'm sorry Alice but I've been having these feelings for her and I can't control them...ironic huh? Nothing's going to come of it so what's the problem?" My jaw almost dropped at the sheer stupidity of the question and I couldn't hold back the snarl as I spoke.

"The problem is that you would happily prance off with her the second she says she likes you. Do you have any idea how much that hurts? Being forced to see you wanting her? What if she hadn't rejected you tonight? What would you of done?" He didn't respond but we both knew the answer; he would of jumped at the chance to be with her. I couldn't even look at him as I began to pack an overnight bag and paused as I was about to leave the room.

"She'll never love you as much as I do, Jazz. I was with you through everything...please don't forget that next time you're with her"

-3 Days Later-

BPOV

Everything was going wrong in my life and there was nothing I could do that would stop it. Everyone had heard about Alice leaving for a friend's for a few days and I knew instantly that she had found out about Jasper's feelings towards me. I had kept my distance from the family and they had let me knowing my current situation. It had begun to rain and I was sitting by my bedroom window thinking about what Jasper had said. Would it be so wrong for me to try and move on? Edward clearly had...he hadn't tried to talk to me since the night on the roof and it had killed me to see him with Tanya again the morning after. I watched as droplets of rain ran down the window and weighed up my options; on the one hand I could try and forget what Edward did to me and make the relationship work...but I knew straight away that I wouldn't be able to do that. I would always have that nagging in the back of my head saying 'he's going to do it again'. I rested my head against the window. Maybe it was time to face the truth...that Edward had screwed up and nothing would be the same as it used to be. I thought about Renesme, about how hard this was going to be on her, but realised that it was for the best. Suddenly I felt a need to rid myself of anything that reminded me of Edward. I looked around our room and realised how difficult that would be. But what had he always loved? Me. My scent, my hair, my eyes...I needed to change. I needed to feel like a new woman. So for the rest of the day I cleaned and groomed until I felt new. A wave of happiness washed over me as I sat in front of the mirror and applied light makeup to my face. I pulled my phone out of my jeans and set it to shuffle laughing at the irony of the song choice. I tapped my foot to the beat and swayed my body as the song picked up.

"Go and fix your makeup girl it's just a break up...run and hide your crazy and start acting like a lady..." The words hit home and I laughed at how stupidly I had been acting. Tanya must of been lapping it up watching me fall apart and I wasn't having it anymore. This was my home not hers and I wouldn't run from her. I finished up my makeup and turned the music off as I left the room. As I passed by Jasper's bedroom I paused and walked backwards until I was standing outside staring at the door. If I was trying to get over Edward I could at least give him a chance right? I mean Alice knew the truth about how he felt now...I grasped onto three seconds of courage and knocked on the door before walking inside. Jasper was sitting on the bed with an acoustic resting on his knee and he looked like the poster child of country music. He looked up as I walked in and smiled.

"Hey you"

"Hey. Thank you" He frowned as I closed the door behind me and he gestured for me to sit. I eyed the spot on the bed next to him before sitting and placing my hands in my lap.

"For what?"

"For the sudden burst of happiness you gave me...thank you. I needed it" He simply smiled and nodded before beginning to tune the strings. I watched for a moment.

"I assume you play?" He nodded but didn't reply, maybe this was a bad idea? What if he didn't want to be around me after Alice?

"I can feel you worrying" He muttered. If I could blush I would of turned a deep shade of red but instead I cleared my throat making him look at me fully.

"How are you doing? You keep helping me through everything with Edward but what about you?" He gave a small shrug and continued to tune the guitar.

"I'm doing fine...Alice saw a vision of us after I took you from the roof and she got upset. I told her I couldn't help it that I was trying to make things work and she thought it best to have some time to herself" My heart broke for him over the thought that I had done this to them. I placed my hand on his arm and bit my lip.

"Jasper I'm so sorry...this shouldn't be happening between you two..." He held up a finger and I stopped talking.

"First; don't ever think that this was because of you. What I feel is of my own doing and I should of been clear to Alice from the beginning. Second; I don't really want to get into it right now if you don't mind" I nodded understanding completely and watched him play a few notes.

"Do you play often?" He nodded.

"As often as I can. I'm not that good at composing but I like learning new ways to play, new songs and all that" I smiled and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Would you play something for me?" I tried my best to keep the nerves out of my questions and he either didn't notice or didn't react to it. Instead he looked at me, really looked at me, and nodded. He played a few notes and the sweetest tune began to play. My dead heart would of skipped a beat, if it could, when he began to sing.

"There's such a sad love deep in your eyes a kind of pale jewel...open and closed within your eyes...I'll place the sky within your eyes...there's such a fooled heart beating so fast in search of new dreams...a love that will last within your heart, I'll place the moon within your heart..." He was singing this beautiful song for me, to me, and I knew I should of felt uncomfortable – this was clearly a song for a loved one – but all I felt was something I thought I could only feel for Edward.

"As the pain sweeps through makes no sense for you...every thrill is gone...wasn't too much fun at all...but I'll be there for you...as the world falls down..." He seemed nervous but all I could think of was how selfish I had been. Jasper had told me over and over how much he cared for me and I had been to wrapped up in my own drama to address it properly.

"I'll paint you mornings of gold I'll spin you valentine evenings, though were strangers 'till now...we're choosing the path between the stars...I'll leave my love between the stars..." As he sang I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I had noticed a long time ago how beautiful Jasper was and he was the sweetest person I knew. And he liked me. Really liked me. Maybe I could give him a chance? Maybe this could be a good thing...As he finished the song and played the last note he waited for my reaction.

"So...what do you think?"His voice was indifferent but his eyes begged me to understand that he would always be there for me...Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes and leant forwards, out lips connected and I let go of Edward Cullen.

A/N;

Sorry guys I know it's been a while, I'm sorry! Things have been mad over Christmas with work, college and hospital appointments. I'll try and do weekly updates! Thanks for all the reviews and follows! Until next time xxx