Tessa: Tuesday June 5th

There was a player on the soccer field; she was kicking a ball around when all of a sudden she heard something. Some one was in the shadows staring at her. The girl took of running she was sprinting into the woods and went through the bushes. She stopped. She wasn't in the woods anymore she was in a kitchen… my kitchen… Blood was everywhere and there was someone on the ground. She walked closer but stopped when she passed a mirror and stopped; it was me!. Something slammed and I spun around, the person on the ground was gone and the kitchen was there with more blood. I looked to my right and saw the same shadow that was at the field staring at me. It was a human shape; RUN. I took off running again and ran out of my house back into the woods. I was sprinting running so much it felt as if my legs were going to fall off. As I looked around that human shape was everywhere; running besides me and whispering something that gave me chills. KEEP RUNNING JUST RUN! My breath was hot, my lungs were burning I cant keep going on. (This was the part I usually woke up at but not tonight.) I heard a howl ring out, the same one that I heard when I left the wedding reception. NO NO a wolf pack now? Am I going to be eaten?! I collapsed then or was I tripped I don't know! I was on the ground I tried to look around but I couldn't focus on anything besides the fact that I was covered in blood.

What do you want! I screamed looking up at the shape that has followed me, its eyes red. More howls rang out all around me the thing vanished and I closed me eyes. I felt cold so cold… Something hot cupped my face. "Tessa." I couldn't open my eyes not yet until I heard a large amount of growls. I looked up and saw wolves everywhere, one right in front over me with its lips back. Three other wolves behind it with the same expression. I was now falling; red eyes everywhere WHAT DO YO_

I woke up in a jolt, I was covered in sweat my blankets on the ground in a heap from where I threw them off. I grabbed my violin from the side of my bed and played with the strings like one would with a guitar. But after awhile it didn't help me; I couldn't breath; I got up and went to the bathroom put on the shower and got in the water. I felt the hot water go over my body as I breathed out and in as best as I could. I haven't been able to sleep for the past two days. In fact I haven't been able to breath for the past two days, not since the reception. I was finally able to get my breathing down and got out of the shower and went to my room to get dressed for the cookout in an hour. These couple of says have gone by in a blur, between studying, school, and trying to sleep. Key word is trying; I haven't been able to sleep in what seems like forever. Every time I have been able to its just been nightmare after nightmare. Somewhat are thy same things sometimes of others. Always it has to do with blood, red eyes and wolves. The guy at the reception has even made it into a few of them. Him he has also haunted me for the past two days. I when over to my phone and texted my friends Bexa and Amanda; they had left for soccer training that takes all summer which means I'm going to be all alone.

Okay so what do you wear for a cookout, lets go with black pants, blue tank top and for a jacket lets go with dark blue leather jacket? Right okay now make up is done and time for hair. I put on my outfit and blow-dried my hair making it stay natural wavy.

I walked downstairs and came to find Bethany in the kitchen with papers covering the island we have. She had similar make up to me with the mascara and eyeliner that went around the whole eye, bottom and top. Her hair was pulled back with her bangs on each side out, honestly she reminds me of Natalie Dormer. She was wearing a red plaid shirt and dark jeans. When I came in she looked up from one she was reading.

"I was wondering if I would have to go and wake you, did you get any sleep?" she said as she motioned that there was coffee made ready.

"No." I grumbled as I poured coffee into a mug and started to drink it.

"Well sorry to here that the girls have gone. But you look nicer then I do for the cookout. Hoping someone sees you." She cooed me wit a smirk making me spit some of my coffee into the sink.

"No I am not, I just felt like wearing this outfit, nothing wrong with that. So when are we leaving?"

"Um in like 10 minutes."

Why are we even going? I mean I know that we were close with Paul and his family and all but we haven't actually hanged out with them for years."

"Well because we haven't seen them in ages and two because if we don't go Mrs. Lahote will come and drag us over. Plus look on the bright side free food and maybe those hot guys that were staring at you will be there."

"Please don't even go there, I still can't get him out of my head. I don't understand falling for guys is your thing not mine and yet." I trailed off at that and refilled my coffee mug.

"You are still thinking about him?" She asked me, I had told her that night when she got back from work about the weird feelings I felt to him.

"I know right, it's been what two days and I feel like I am about to fall apart. I can barely even breathe and when I close my eyes I see him, those dark brown eyes. I want to see him and want to just be in his presence; I can't explain it. I hate this god why am I so interested in this guy." I put my coffee mug down and ran my fingers through my hair as I sat down at the island to face Beth.

"Don't be afraid to be involved with someone sis, there is goodness out there. Whatever reason there is for you to be so obsessed with this guy is out there. When we are at the cookout maybe he will make an appearance, if so then talk to him. Just talk to see if he is any good. That way you can see if he is worth the time, so don't say no so quickly. Besides I saw the way he was looking at you and he looked like he was staring into the sun."

"Can't I jut forget it ever happened, I don't want to find him to my liking. I don't do this stuff remember."

"You are impossible kid." She said shaking her head. "Okay how about this, we can just stay for a little bit because odds are we aren't going to know anyone there…"

"Done." We got up and headed out to the car to start the drive. It was a cloudy day like usual but it wasn't supposed to rain. Beth out her phone into the AUX cord and played her music.

Here's the thing

I was minding my own business doin' what I do

I wasn't tryna look for anything

All of a sudden couldn't take my off you

I didn't even know if you could tell

That you had me in a daze

Saying 'what the hell'

"SERIOUSLY!" I yelled at Beth making her laugh even more, "can you please stop enjoying my torment!"

"Oh stop being a baby who knows maybe you will actually like the guy. Can you just please be a girl for one second and go crazy about the guy." She replied turning the song up and that is how it continued until I found us pulling into the Lahola's driveway.

"Okay remember, we are only here for a little while, oh and grab the pies I put in the back." Beth said to me as we stepped out of the car, I responded as I moved to the back doors and opened it.

"When did you put a pie in the car?" I picked up two apple pies.

"I made them earlier today I just didn't want to forget so I put them in the car." With that we made out way to the house. The cookout was already in full swing, we were ten minutes late... woops. We walked up to the door and knocked.

"Hey guys you made it!" Paul said as he opened the door, "AND YOU BROUGHT PIES!"

"Ha hey Paul." Beth said as we walked into the house.

"Where do you want me to put these?" I asked Paul who opened his mouth to responded before someone answered for him.

"I will take them for you, if Paul gets them they will be eaten in two seconds." Mrs. Lahote said as she came up to us and gave us hugs then taking the pies. "I'm so glad you guys came."

"Yeah it's been so long." Beth said hugging her as I saw Leah Clearwater walk in. She and Beth used to be good friends back then. "Leah!"

"Hey babe and Hey Tessa, you look different. I like the new edgy look." Leah said to me.

"Ha thanks." I said to her as I noticed Paul motioning me to follow him as Beth stayed with Leah.

"Come on lets go outback." Paul said as he started walking towards the back of the house, I followed him as I noticed that I knew no one here at all. It took us no time to go through the house since it was so small, probably half the size of mine… When we got out side there were about nine people out. Five of them were playing my sport, soccer, while the other were just sitting around talking. "Hey guys this is my friend Tessa. The guys over there playing soccer are, Jared, Collin, Brady and Logan. Then those over there are Kim, Quil, Claire and my girlfriend Rachel. You probably recognize them from the wedding."

"Hi nice to meet you." I said as they all turned and looked at me. It wasn't until that moment when I realized that when I was looking around at the people that I realized that I was looking for him.

"I know you, you gave me cake!" A little girl said to me as she ran up to me stopping a foot away making me smile.

"Yeah I did, I hope it was good." I replied as I squatted down to be on her level.

"It was soooo gooood! I'm Claire." She stuck her hand out and I took it shaking it.

"It is a pleasure to meet you Claire. I am glad the cake was good." She smiled and ran off to go play with the kid I think was named Quil, making me stand back up.

"You know Paul, we know how to introduce ourselves." The one I think Jared said as he twirled the soccer ball in his hands.

"I was just trying to make it easier… So ungrateful" Paul mumbled back.

"I should probably apologize before hand, I am really bad with names so I might forget yours. But I will try my best." I said to them making them laugh; these guys laugh allot, its kind of nice.

"Don't worry about that, you will soon enough." The guy I think was Jared said; maybe I can remember their names? "Paul are you still playing? Lets go." With that Paul, Jared, Seth, Collin, Brady and Logan went off to start their game again. I went to sit down with the Rachael and Kim; Quil was chasing Claire.

"So Tessa, what year are you?" Kim said, I think Kim.

"I'm a senior at Forks, what about you guys." I replied.

"Oh I graduated from college early." Rachel said.

"And I am also a senior." Kim said with a shy smile. After that the three of us fell into an easy conversation of basically anything from school, to TV shows and to music. I can see myself becoming friends with these girls.

Embry:

I walked in my house to see my mom they're yelling at me like usually but no sound was coming out of her mouth. The room was spinning and I found myself running down a hall opening a door into a room I have never been into. A room that was painted a light green color; almost teal. There was a wardrobe to the left of the door. There were big windows were on both of the walls where you can see the woods from. In one of the window to the far left wall was one of those window nook things that jutted into the wall where you can sit right at the window. I heard a noise snapping my head back to the forward where the bed was. A queen sized bed with cream sheets and lots of red pillows but I didn't look at that. I ran to the bed to where there was someone lying with blood all over the used to be cream sheets. I turned the person over and stammered back. It was Tessa! She lay there motionless as I tried to waken her up. I heard another notice like a door got slammed making me spin around, there she was standing, her face pale and her eyes a pale green color.

You did this! Why didn't you accept me! What was wrong with me that you couldn't save me! Your ancestors chose me why is that so hard for you to accept and I that revolting! Now here I am in my room dead killed by the thing that you are supposed to kill!

Tessa I started I a moved closer to her but then everything was on fire and I was thrown out of the house watching it burn NO

Why Embry! She started again as I turned around to see her staring at my with a tear going down her cheek though her eyes hard. What did I do to you, you just casted me aside! Fix this! Fix it! It's your fault now look what I have become!

I noticed that her eyes have changed and were now red I felt myself started to shake TESSAA!

I woke with a jolt in my bed before I got up and put water on my face. I thought it would be easy to have two days till I would see her. I have never been so wrong in my life; it has ben torture and if you don't believe me ask the pack. I have been in wolf form most of these past days; only in human form to try to sleep and show my mom I'm still alive…

I got dressed and looked at the clock, it was past six, and the Lahote's were already having their cookout. Could she be there? It was then that I realized I was shaking, probably since I woke up making me run to the woods put my cloths down before I shifted again. I pickup my cloths and ran to the Lahote's. I was luckily alone since the guys are at the cookout. My chest felt heavy as I ran, for the past days it was felt as if a chizzle has been carving out my chest. All the while I wanted to run to where she lived just to see if she was okay. It took all my might not to and in return I keep having dreams of her, her eyes and her smiling only to now turn to her being dead. I don't know if I can keep this up, I cant keep fighting this but I know that I am not ready to be around her. I'm too shaky I can turn at any second and I don't want to her anyone. Sam and Emily are gone for the rest of the week; but I know what he would say to me if he were here. To not fight it anymore and to see her. That she would make me better and he was probably right but I don't know if I am ready for that.

I stopped at that because there she was, sitting with Kim and Rachel talking about a TV show called Leverage. I know that Kim has just started watching it according to Jared who is forced to watch it also. She was wearing black pants, a blue tank top and a dark blue leather jackets. I could see from here that is made her eyes look blue that you could barley even notice the green in them. Her hair looked lighter now and was down showing its length; it was wavy and blew around her face. I heard her voice then but I didn't quite catch what she said but just the sound of it made me calm and the whole in my chest seemed to be filled.

"Oh I can! Give it here man." She said replying to someone as she got up taking off her jacket and putting her hair up in a ponytail. I loved how it showed how her cheekbones are so potent. "Wait Paul do you see Beth looking over here?" She said in a hushed voice as she walked away from Kim and Rachael where she was given a soccer ball.

"Nah she is in the kitchen, no view point." Paul said back to her

"Okay watch and learn bro." Tessa said back with the ball in her hands.

"Bro?" Paul mumbled back to her making her laugh. I felt so at easy at that sound.

"Catch!" she yelled as she broke into a run and then before I knew it she was going into a flip and which turned into a front handspring and then she was on her feet and the ball was flung to Jared.

She just did one of those soccer flip throws and it was perfectly done. I didn't focus on what people were saying next, from her presence being around I found that I was calmer then I have ever been and had shifter out and put my cloths on before I even realized what I was doing when I walked out of the woods and to the gang where every one turned and looked at me.

"Sorry I'm late, I uh was asleep and my mom has the car." I stumbled out as I walked towards them.

Tessa:

"Paul what are you doing you are going to hurt the soccer ball!" I yelled to Paul as I saw him trying to do a flip throw but really he is doing a handstand on it.

"That's what you care about the soccer ball?" Paul said as he was on his feet.

"Yes Paul I mean are you trying to get all the air out of it? You aren't even doing the flip right." I couldn't help but the soccer player just came out of me no matter how hard I tried to keep it down.

"Like you can do it Tess."

"Oh I can! Give it here man." I got up and took my jacket off putting my hair up in a ponytail as I walked away from Kim and Rachael. Seth met me where I stopped and gave me the soccer ball. "Wait Seth do you see Beth looking over here?"

"Nah she is in the kitchen, no view point." He responded as I dropped the ball on the ground and moved it on the ground to see how it gripped.

"Okay watch and learn bro."

"Bro?."

I put my foot under the ball and kicked it up allowing it to fall into my hands. I realized then that the strangling feeling I felt in my chest that made it impossible to breath was gone. I felt hole again; I don't know how the one who had taken away my breathing capabilities weren't even here. I shook my head and looked up.

"Catch!" With that I ran a few feet and then I found my self flipping with the ball hitting the ground bouncing back into a front handspring and when I got upright I flung the ball towards Jared and landed on my feet. When I looked up I saw that Jared had the ball in his hands. "BOOM and that my dear Paul is how you do the flip throw."

"Dam Tessa you got skill, are you on varsity!" Kim yelled over to me.

"Have been since freshman year." I said back to her with a shrug, I like to be humble when it came to any skill I possessed. But I felt a pull at that moment and found myself turning my head to woods. I saw nothing but my heart wanted to pull me to it for some reason.

"What position are you?" I think Collin asked me having me reluctantly turn my head away from the woods.

"I am forward right wing."

"So you get the goals?" Jared said to me as he went up by Kim and kissed her on the cheek. Man I have never seen such young couples look so in love, maybe in that honeymoon time when couples just start and nothing goes wrong.

"Hell ya man." We all turned our heads when we head a noise from the woods when all of a sudden he appeared out of it. He was wearing a black t-shirt and cut off shorts. The black shirt made his skin look more russet and his deep brown eyes look darker. I couldn't help be finally be able to breath and to of feeling like my heart was being ripped out of my chest.

"Sorry I'm late, I uh was asleep and my mom has the car. " He said as he walked over to the group, where we were all gathered by the seats. I grabbed my jacket putting it back on while also taking my hair out of its ponytail allowing it to fall.

"Better late then never bro, Tessa this is my friend Embry, Embry this is Tessa." Paul said to him as he came to the group. Embry extended his hand to me and I took it to shake. Man was it hot, like his skin was literally burning.

"Nice to meet you Tessa." He said

"Pleasure." I said back putting my hand down.

"Alright well I am going to start the grill, wanna help Rach?" Paul said picking up Rachel who started to shriek and yell at him to put her down.

"Are they always like this? The couples." I asked Embry seeing all the kisses and honeymoon stuff.

"Oh Jared and Kim are allot worse when no one is around. Believe me." He said back with a shake of his head.

"Right." I shifted on my feet as I heard Beth and Leah come out. Leah carrying a tray of uncooked burgers for Paul. "Well at least he isn't as hot headed ha."

"I don't know it was nice when you wanted to fight he would do it. Now not so much."

"Well Tess I'm sure you can carry the hot headedness for the both of you." Beth said appearing beside me. "Hi I'm Beth." She shook Embry's hand as he told her him name.

"Oh I have no idea what you are talking about sis." I said as seriously as I could while she smirked and walked over to Leah and the grill.

"Hot headedness?" Embry said motioning to the seats, which I took.

"Well growing up with Paul can you blame me for tending to get a little hot headed.'"

"You call that break up hot headed?" Leah said as she and Beth sat down with everyone beside Paul and Rachel who were grilling.

"Oh you told her?" I said to Beth.

"How could I not its priceless." Beth said.

"What happened this I got to hear." Paul said coming up. "I always like it when Tessa loses her head. Its always cute."

"So breaking your boyfriends nose is cute?" Beth said to him.

"Ex-Boyfriend Beth I had broken up with him before he just didn't acknowledge it." I grumbled Paul smug face was staring at me waiting for me to go on…. "Okay fine Paul ill tell you but you will not say anything got it? Well I had dated this guy named Evan and I broke up with him because he was clingy. Which drove me crazy since he wanted my undivided attention all the time so I broke up with him."

"I can still remember him crying out the door; he was such a cry baby and you just laid it into him. You should have sugar coated it babes not everyone doesn't feel." Beth said laughing.

"Anyway I was I was playing at the soccer tournament and he was on the sidelines saying he loved me and wouldn't leave. So I stopped the ball turned around and shot it at his face and broke his nose…. I didn't mean to break his nose he just needed to shut up." I didn't need to go on, everyone was cracking up. I couldn't help but look at Embry his laughter made me start to laugh to.

"Oh Tessa I have forgotten the trouble you used to cause."

"Well I learned from the best Paul." I ran my hand through my hair and found myself turning my face to Embry. "I really didn't mean to brake his nose."

"Eh it's his fault, the important thing was if you got in trouble or not." He said back tom.

"Hell nah the refs just shrugged and gave me the ball back and played the game where it left off."

"See that is really what matters." I couldn't help it, my head went back as I laughed at that and shook my head at him. Being next to him made me notice his deep eyes. They were dark brown that had a deep depth to them. "So tell me about yourself?"

"Myself?" I said back to him trying not to get lost in his eyes again and twirled the soccer ball that Jared had just tossed into my hands.

"Yeah, like why soccer?"

"Because the objective is clear, get the ball in the opponents net. I know what to do. I can go through a day of shit where everything goes wrong but once I'm on the field everything stops and I know who I am at that moment and what needs to happen. Plus kicking a ball as hard as you can or slamming into someone to get the ball is a great way to relieve stress. I had started when I was a kid so its all I know."

"So you play aggressively?" there was a glint in his eye, something around amusement or happiness I don know for sure but it made my chest swirl.

"Is there any other way to play? I don't know soccer has just always been there and I would have no idea what I would do with out you know?"

"I get that." He said back with his eyes almost dancing. God why is his eyes so attractive and deep and omg shut up shut up.

"So what about you? What's your equivalent to Soccer?" I said in a teasing voice. Why am I flirting?! I'm not flirting oh yes I am! The teasing the hair rummage the fact that I'm only paying attention to the beautiful eyes and the way how his chest rises and falls when he breaths where you see how tones his chest must be… He has to have a six-pack… FOCUS!

"Well I love cars. I work at a garage as a mechanic with some of the guys here. It's nice to have something to do with my hands thats straight forward."

"Do you work on bikes to?"

"Sometimes why?"

"Well since my dad is working overseas he left his 2006 Triumph Scrambler. So I figured that I should help him out and keep it running for him. I just had to redue some parts in the garage but it would be nice to know a mechanic in case something goes wrong and I could go to someone who wont overprice me." I said with a quick rush realizing I was starting to rant.

"Wow 2006 Triumph Scrambler I would be beyond honored to work on it. So do you ride on it then?"

"As far as my father and sometimes sister knows, no I have never in my life ever ridden a motorcycle before. I merely make sure that it looks nice. Oh and all my leather jackets and pants are just for when I feel badass and not for long rides on it." I added with a smirk… "Sorry I tend to have a little sass."

"Don't worry about it. Man that bike must be nice to not ride."

"Oh it is, there is wicked nice suspension, power, acceleration man I could go on all day on how amazing that bike is. Unless it is pouring out and you have to take tight corners and are going over the speed limit. I may go a little over the limit…"

"Breaking the law in these tiny towns; that takes guts."

"Not when you are thought of as the good child then you can get away with everything and I mean everything."

"Anything?" He said with a raise in his eyebrows and I couldn't help it, I raised my left one and put my elbow on my thigh and my right hand holding the side of the jaw on my knuckles. He laughed at my responses and lowered his eyebrow.

And that's how it went between us just talking and talking about things. I didn't even know how the time was going between us. All that I knew was that I never wanted this conversation to end.

"You didn't?! You did that!" He said laughing! "I don't believe that."

"Why because I look so innocent? Nah as I said before I'm know as the good child and also when I pulled that prank it was in the middle of soccer season so they didn't want to take me off the field. Now if I did the next month I would probably have gotten in so much trouble." I said laughing.

"Well I guess you will go down as the girl who put the Spartan statue on top of the main school building. Now one will be able to beat that prank." He said still laughing.

"Lets see who tries though. The basketball team tried to top it by putting ducks and pigs in the main building so all of a sudden barn animals were running around the classrooms. Now they got in trouble."

"So if I ever get in trouble I should just tell people my name is Tessa?"

"Tessa Cayton would work but you might want to grow your hair out and dye it brown, maybe also put colored contact lenses in, I don't have brown eyes."

"No you have mesmerizing hazel ones, the blue and green are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen." He said in a hushed voice. I felt my lips part in surprise to what he said, I'm used to people saying my eyes were nice but not like this. And talking about bikes and pranks are different then these types of compliments.

"Thanks."

"TESSA!" I looked up to see Beth standing with the Lahotes with her bag and I looked at my phone… it was 9… there was a bonfire… I had been talking to this guy for the past 2 and half hours without realizing a single thing. "Come on babe we got to go we have to pick up Spartacus."

"Yeah coming." I said struggling up as quickly as I could.

"Who is Spartacus?" Embry said standing up with me.

"Its my dog he has been at the vet for the past week. Well it was nice to meet you. Have a good uh rest of the night." With that I rushed to Beth and said bye to everyone and rushed into the car. My heart was racing as we drove away; my chest feeling as if it was ripping in half. I slammed my hand down on the dashboard.

"I HATE THIS!"

"Whoa there babes I was only talking about how I forgot the pie pan really it is no big deal." I glared at her as we drove out of La Push. "Ah but this is about that guy you were so deep in conversation with…"

"How did this happen! I mean talking with him felt like I didn't want anything to end. But just to be able to look into his eyes and talk about anything. I rushed out of there because I don't want to get lost in guy I'm not that girl and driving away from there made me feel like my heart is getting ripped from my chest. I cant breath!" I yelled back to her and my phone buzzed. "Oh Paul texted saying that he has the pie pans we forgot."

"First there is a granola bar in my purse eat it since you didn't eat there, second what about the guy! You should have seen the way he was looking at you it was like he was looking at the sun for the first time but there was also a struggle like he wanted to look away… Thirdly have fun for once! He's hot and if you feel so bad away from him then try it out. Oh I have the best idea! Tell Paul that you are going to pick up the pans after school then maybe you can see him." Beth said.

"No No and oh wait NOOOO! I need to focus on my last soccer season oh and also I'm not like you! I find that stuff a waste of time. But I can pick up the pan tomorrow so that I can run Spartacus on the beach." I fished turning the music up to signal I wanted the conversation to be over all the while texting Paul that I will pick it up. I looked out the window at the trees passing by feeling more and more ripped apart. I put my head on the window and closed my eyes only to see his eyes in the dark and only those.

EMBRY

My feet hit the ground, all four legs slamming into the ground as I ran the borders. Three hours three full hours of talking to her! Why oh why did I even go over there I can't control myself around her. Though talking with her was amazing. She has such a different personality then I have ever met it is like she hides what she is thinking.

So she is mysterious and hot? I mean that girl can wear a leather jacket and she has a bike man how she will look on one of those.- Jordan

JORDAN- me

Oh come on Embry, you can't call dibs on her if you're her imprint and just try to forget her.–Jordan

He is right, listen up guys Sam and Emily are back meet at their place now so we can fill them in on Embry. Oh and she is coming over tomorrow for pie pans if you want to not see her- Paul.

I grumbled and turned making my way to Sam's house. Its weird I thought that they are supposed to be gone for a week. Why could they be back already?

Well I guess that is what we are supposed to find out…-Jordan

My mind went back to Tessa and her eyes but also what she said about how soccer is the only thing that she has. That it makes her life worth something. Paul had mentioned how Bethany was told how there is a big chance that she can never play again. That it's too dangerous. By the way that Tessa is I had a fear that she would play even with that chance. But if she gets hurt and I did nothing just because I didn't want this, how could I ever live with myself.

I flashed back to the dream I had the way she yelled at me asking what it was she did wrong. Nothing and I will try to give the best of me to you and do what I can.