Alex nodded, taking in a deep breath. When they got back to the house, Alex and Dean walked in, neither of them mentioning the test. They both walked up to Alex's room, where she left her back and headed into the bathroom. Dean waited outside while she completed the tasks to the test. She opened the door when she was done, anxiously waiting for the results.
After what felt like an hour, it was time. All three read the same thing…negative. Alex took a sigh of relief, falling against Dean as his arms folded around her. "Thank god. I don't think I'd be able to take care of a baby."
"I think you'd do a great job." His hands slid down her petite waist until his hands met hers. His lips crashed against hers, passionately. "God, I love you so much."
"I love you too." Alex whispered, biting down on her lower lip.
"And I'm so happy to finally see you smile again." He gave her hand a tight squeeze, before giving her a peck on her lips.
Theresa paused outside the bathroom, peeking her head in. "Why are you two in…?" She suddenly stopped as her eyes landed on the pregnancy test. "Oh…oh my god."
"No, it was negative. I'm not pregnant." Alex smiled.
"That's great." Theresa took a sigh of relief. Alex was finally coping with the tragedy and a pregnancy would destroy all the progress. But they didn't have to worry about that. Right? After all the tests told her she wasn't pregnant. But Theresa remembered when she had gotten pregnant with Alex. She had taken five tests, all which read, negative. When she had gone to the doctor three weeks later she had already been three months pregnant. And Alex' pregnancy had gone undetected for five months even after the doctors tested for pregnancy. "But…maybe you should go the doctor just to be definite. And they should test you for other things as well."
Dean nodded in agreement. "She's right, Alex. Look what happened last time. And maybe something else could be wrong, considering you haven't had your…period."
"Alex don't tell me the last time you had it was your first pregnancy." Theresa's eyes widened with concern.
"Is…is that a bad thing? It's such a pain anyway." Alex attempted to deny that this was serious.
"For that long, yes. Especially that you're sexually active."
Alex's smile disappeared. Instead it was replaced with anger and grief. "I'm not sexually active. It happened twice and I didn't want it to. I didn't have a choice."
"I'm sorry, Alex. I didn't mean it like that. It just something could be wrong because of what happened." Theresa voice was soothing. She regretted the words she said earlier. Alex was finally improving and she didn't need to come and destroy that. "Let my go call my gynecologist. I'm friends with the woman who works for her, she'll get me an appointment today."
Alex cringed, dreading the appointment. She knew it would be torturous. She did not want to receive a pelvic exam or a Pap smear. But she would most likely require one. She nodded towards her mother, before throwing the three tests in the garbage. The three tests which may have given her false results. She took Dean's hand and led him back into her room. She plopped down on the bed, looking down at her hand.
Dean read the fear and bit or sorrow in her face. "You okay?"
"I guess. I just…I don't think I'm going to be able to handle the doctor appointment. A pelvic exam…it's going to bring back too many memories. Last time I didn't have to be examined because it happened so long ago. It's been two and a half months, but something may be wrong with me."
"You'll get through it. You're strong." Dean took her hands in his as he gazed into her steamy eyes.
"Dean, I understand if you want to leave me."
"What?" Dean burrowed his eyebrows her spontaneous words. "What are you talking about?"
"Dean, I don't…I don't know when I'll be ready to…have sex." Alex talked in a soft voice as tears began to well in her eyes.
"That's okay. I'll wait until you are ready."
"But…what if…what if I'm never ready?"
"Then we'll deal with it. Alex, I love you and nothing is going to make me leave you."
Alex nodded and rubbed her eyes. Dean pulled her onto her feet and attacked her lips with his.
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