p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"strongModern Lams /strongstrongand jamilton/strong/p
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p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"strongTW/strong: span style="text-decoration: underline;"strongMention/strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong of /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strongdepression/strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong, /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strongsuicide /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong, self harm./strong/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"Crimson love dripped upon the floor as tears poured from his eyes. He listened to the other ramble on about his amazing night though the cheerful voice sounded a million away. He who has always been the shoulder that was cried on...he who has been there for his friend from the start. How fickle is the human heart? It falls hard and fast despite the warning that love is a trap. So many times he said to not go back to the man that caused so much pain and heartache but, what does he know? A lonely heart yearning for the love one who will never see the pain he causes. So onto the floor the love fell one crimson drop at a time the glint of silver in his hand as the call dragged on. "That's great. I'm glad you had f-fun." He choked out with a forced smile that the other person can't see through the phone pressed to his ear. "I'm fine. Y-yea just...tired..." span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"Tired of you hurting me. Why can't you see?! Why...are you blind to what you do to me? /spanHe thought watching the red drip down his freckled skin as tears mixed with the red on the floor making it pink./p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Heh hello there teapot I'm k-kettle." He tried to joke but, his forced laughter wasn't fooling anyone. "Did you just admit I'm right? What a world." He teased getting a huff of indignation and a soft chuckle that melted his heart all over again. "What do you mean? I'm not crying, what gave you that idea?" He replied panicking when he heard concern in the other's voice; as quickly as it came the concern faded. He continued to babble on about his date with the poofy haired man. A flash of silver and a splatter of red on tan skin. "R-r-really?" He heard a door open on the other end and another voice speak softly in a familiar southern drawl. The phone dropped and he heard a loud thud followed. "You still there?" He called out and heard the one thing that shattered his heart, "Yes! A million times yes!" He heard happy sobs and smiled a sad smile. His only hope of having a chance with his soul mate gone. He stared at the silver glinting in between his fingers as fresh tears fell from his eyes, "What's the point...?"/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"He stood on shaking legs leaving his mess behind the silver still between his fingers. He went to the drawer and pulled out the note he never gave to the man he'd fallen so hard for, that he'd comforted when he was hurt, that he stood by no matter what...that will strongspan style="text-decoration: underline;"NEVER/span/stronglove him back. He put the picture of he and his friend beside him and lifted the silver in his fingers, "There IS no point..." He attacked again more red falling onto the floor. This time there was no one to catch him and break his fall. He attacked again more red staining the floor as he cried. "Are you there? Hello?" The other man called. He cried harder knowing a ring now sits on the other man's finger. "Are you okay? Answer me please..." The other man begged sounding scared. He swung again more red splashing onto the floor. "This isn't f-funny! Say something!" "What's going on darlin?" "There's no point..." He mumbled his vision fuzzy as he continued to attack his freckled skin. he heard the sound of a door slamming shut and an engine. "N-no point..." He brought down the blade against his wrist crying out in pain. It was better this way...his friend was happy...that's all that mattered. His vision grew fuzzy as he shakily tried to attack his other wrist and failed the blade clattering to the floor. His vision grew dark around the edges as he lay the rapidly growing puddle of red that stained the floor. He coughs and smiles one last time listening as his heart slowly thuds like a bass drum. Soon the sound fades in his ears and his world goes black. His arm falls limp his red stained fingers touching the note he'd never passed along./p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"The door slams open a man standing looking panic stricken a phone clutched in his hand. He walks into the apartment looking for the person he'd been talking to. He twisted his new engagement ring nervously. Sure his fiance had hurt him in the past leading to him spending many nights here crying on his best friend's shoulder. They ate ice cream binge watching mean Girls and crying over the musical Heathers. For his friend to just cease responding without ending the call scared the crap out of him ever since he figured out his friend is FAR from okay. The further he went into the small apartment the heavier his heart felt. He reached the bedroom pushing the door open. "No... no...NO!" he rushed over to the limp man on the floor seeing the large puddle of blood and the razor. He checked for a pulse tears falling into the man's hair; he did not find one. He sat back on his knees shaking; he then noticed the note. He picked it up more tears falling as he read it,/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"I love you so much it hurts. I smile and listen to you go on about your dates and smile though I break a little more inside each time. I broke each time you came to me in tears and when you returned to that man starting the cycle all over again. I wish I told you but, it was clear you didn't feel the same. I held onto the naive hope that you'd see through his act and choose me instead but, somehow I knew...I had no chance at all. I love you Alexander Hamilton, I'll see you on the other side./span/p
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p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"strongTW/strong: span style="text-decoration: underline;"strongMention/strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong of /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strongdepression/strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong, /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strongsuicide /strong/spanspan style="text-decoration: underline;"strong, self harm./strong/span/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"Crimson love dripped upon the floor as tears poured from his eyes. He listened to the other ramble on about his amazing night though the cheerful voice sounded a million away. He who has always been the shoulder that was cried on...he who has been there for his friend from the start. How fickle is the human heart? It falls hard and fast despite the warning that love is a trap. So many times he said to not go back to the man that caused so much pain and heartache but, what does he know? A lonely heart yearning for the love one who will never see the pain he causes. So onto the floor the love fell one crimson drop at a time the glint of silver in his hand as the call dragged on. "That's great. I'm glad you had f-fun." He choked out with a forced smile that the other person can't see through the phone pressed to his ear. "I'm fine. Y-yea just...tired..." span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"Tired of you hurting me. Why can't you see?! Why...are you blind to what you do to me? /spanHe thought watching the red drip down his freckled skin as tears mixed with the red on the floor making it pink./p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""Heh hello there teapot I'm k-kettle." He tried to joke but, his forced laughter wasn't fooling anyone. "Did you just admit I'm right? What a world." He teased getting a huff of indignation and a soft chuckle that melted his heart all over again. "What do you mean? I'm not crying, what gave you that idea?" He replied panicking when he heard concern in the other's voice; as quickly as it came the concern faded. He continued to babble on about his date with the poofy haired man. A flash of silver and a splatter of red on tan skin. "R-r-really?" He heard a door open on the other end and another voice speak softly in a familiar southern drawl. The phone dropped and he heard a loud thud followed. "You still there?" He called out and heard the one thing that shattered his heart, "Yes! A million times yes!" He heard happy sobs and smiled a sad smile. His only hope of having a chance with his soul mate gone. He stared at the silver glinting in between his fingers as fresh tears fell from his eyes, "What's the point...?"/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"He stood on shaking legs leaving his mess behind the silver still between his fingers. He went to the drawer and pulled out the note he never gave to the man he'd fallen so hard for, that he'd comforted when he was hurt, that he stood by no matter what...that will strongspan style="text-decoration: underline;"NEVER/span/stronglove him back. He put the picture of he and his friend beside him and lifted the silver in his fingers, "There IS no point..." He attacked again more red falling onto the floor. This time there was no one to catch him and break his fall. He attacked again more red staining the floor as he cried. "Are you there? Hello?" The other man called. He cried harder knowing a ring now sits on the other man's finger. "Are you okay? Answer me please..." The other man begged sounding scared. He swung again more red splashing onto the floor. "This isn't f-funny! Say something!" "What's going on darlin?" "There's no point..." He mumbled his vision fuzzy as he continued to attack his freckled skin. he heard the sound of a door slamming shut and an engine. "N-no point..." He brought down the blade against his wrist crying out in pain. It was better this way...his friend was happy...that's all that mattered. His vision grew fuzzy as he shakily tried to attack his other wrist and failed the blade clattering to the floor. His vision grew dark around the edges as he lay the rapidly growing puddle of red that stained the floor. He coughs and smiles one last time listening as his heart slowly thuds like a bass drum. Soon the sound fades in his ears and his world goes black. His arm falls limp his red stained fingers touching the note he'd never passed along./p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"The door slams open a man standing looking panic stricken a phone clutched in his hand. He walks into the apartment looking for the person he'd been talking to. He twisted his new engagement ring nervously. Sure his fiance had hurt him in the past leading to him spending many nights here crying on his best friend's shoulder. They ate ice cream binge watching mean Girls and crying over the musical Heathers. For his friend to just cease responding without ending the call scared the crap out of him ever since he figured out his friend is FAR from okay. The further he went into the small apartment the heavier his heart felt. He reached the bedroom pushing the door open. "No... no...NO!" he rushed over to the limp man on the floor seeing the large puddle of blood and the razor. He checked for a pulse tears falling into the man's hair; he did not find one. He sat back on his knees shaking; he then noticed the note. He picked it up more tears falling as he read it,/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"I love you so much it hurts. I smile and listen to you go on about your dates and smile though I break a little more inside each time. I broke each time you came to me in tears and when you returned to that man starting the cycle all over again. I wish I told you but, it was clear you didn't feel the same. I held onto the naive hope that you'd see through his act and choose me instead but, somehow I knew...I had no chance at all. I love you Alexander Hamilton, I'll see you on the other side./span/p
p dir="ltr" style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 18.9px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"The note fell to the floor the paper immediately turning red, "JOHN!"/p