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I can't move my feet..my feet feel like they are cemented to the floor. A million things are running through my mind right now. After all of these years of not knowing where Mercedes was or what she was doing she tells me that I have a daughter..WE have a daughter. I have a four year old daughter..god I've missed so much of her life. I've missed birthdays, first steps, first words, and I missed all of that. How could Mercedes keep something so important away from me, not even give me a chance to be apart of my daughter's life. As a matter of fact why am I just standing here, I need to go find Mercedes now so she can answer it herself.
I rush out the bedroom and downstairs, the house still filled with guest scatter around the living room and kitchen. I scan the room in hopes that Mercedes has not left yet and luckily I spot her talking to Rachel and Quinn in the dining room. It looks as if she is saying her goodbye because she has her jacket and purse in her hands, no way am I going to just let her leave. I rush over to her, Mercedes sees me walking over and rolls her eyes.
"Santana." Quinn says my name but I completely ignore her.
"We need to talk right now." I say sternly in Mercedes ear.
"Not tonight Santana, you need time to process this and calm down. It's a lot to take in and you need time to take it all in, just call me in the morning." Mercedes tries to walk away from me, I quickly grab her arm to stop her from leaving.
"No, we are going to talk about this right now Mercedes. You are not going to keep making the decisions around here." The anger I was feeling earlier has now come back, how dare she try to tell me what I need to do. This isn't a conversation that can wait, I need answers and I need them now.
"It's not about that Santana, tonight is about Quinn and Rachel and I will not ruin it for them." Mercedes answers, pulling her arm out of my grasp.
"Santana what's wrong?" Quinn asks stepping between Mercedes and I.
"It's nothing Quinn, Santana and I just have something important we need to discuss." Mercedes tells Quinn, I guess to keep from messing up their night with our drama and to also keep her secret a secret.
"Are you sure that's all it is?" Rachel asks coming up and standing next to Quinn, she didn't seem to believe what Mercedes was saying.
"Yes I'm sure, Rachel and Quinn I'm sorry but would you mind if Santana and I leave early. I swear I wouldn't ask unless it was really important." Mercedes pleads with them and I just stand there, too angry to say anything to them. The only thing I care about in this moment is getting the answers I needed from her.
"Of course, it's been five years so I know you two have a lot to talk about." Quinn comments, if she only knew how right she was. "It was great seeing you again Mercedes, I'm so glad you were able to make it.
"I wouldn't miss it." Mercedes says bye to Rachel and Quinn then with aggression grabs me by the arm and pulls me outside and to what I assume is her car.
"Get in the car Santana." Mercedes demands.
"Where are we going?"
"You wanted to talk so badly so let's go talk, now get in the car." Mercedes gets in the car and slams the door, I do the same. How dare she get mad at me, I'm not the one holding secrets for five years. I try to start a conversation once we are inside but she tells me she is not answering anymore questions until we get to our destination. This pisses me off even more but I hold it in because at least I was going to get some answers tonight. We drive for about twenty minutes before we finally come to a stop in front of a house I have never seen before. I thought she was taking me to her old house but this definitely was not it.
"We're here." Mercedes turns the car off and takes off her seatbelt.
"And what exactly is here." I ask her as we both get out of the car.
"I live here, I bought it a couple of months ago." I freeze, did she bring me here to meet my daughter because if so I have not prepared myself for this. Was I even ready to meet her..I mean what do you say to a child when you've been missing from their life for four years.
"Don't worry she's not here, she's staying with my parents tonight." Mercedes assures me, I guess she read my facial expression. I let out a sigh of relief, at least I will have some time to prepare myself for the inevitable.
We walk to the front porch and Mercedes takes her keys out of her purse and unlocks the front door. I follow Mercedes into the pitch dark house, she turns on the light revealing the spacious living room.
"Do you want anything to drink?" Mercedes asks me but I was tired of waiting it was time she gave me some answers.
"No, I want to talk." Mercedes sighs, then runs her hands through her hair. She was definitely not looking forward to this conversation. She gestures for me to sit down on the couch, which I do and she sits down on the sofa opposite of me. "Why did you keep all of this from me? I would never in a million years think you would do something like this.
"Like I told you before at first it was out of anger, I was so angry with you that by the time I got over it Aliyah was turning one. At that point I didn't know how to tell you, I knew you would be so angry with me. I was so ashamed of myself for keeping the pregnancy from you that every year I would chicken out every time I was going to call you up."
"To be honest I was so hurt when I found out you were cheating on me that I wanted you to hurt just as badly as I was hurting. It was stupid and selfish of me and I swear if I could take it all back I would in a heartbeat." Tears begin to fall down her face and I want to be mad at her but I can't. Apart of this was my fault too, the love of my life is pregnant with our baby and I'm in L.A cheating on her all for a stupid role.
"I hope you can forgive me and not let our daughter suffer because of my mistake." Mercedes says and she was right, it would not be fair to our daughter if we couldn't move past this. She is the one who is completely innocent in all of this.
"I forgive you."
"What?"
"I forgive you. I'm at fault here too, it was my cheating that started all of this in the first place and for that I am truly sorry. We can't go back five years all we can do is start from today, Aliyah deserves that much." Mercedes comes over and embraces me in a hug which I am taken aback by but I embrace it, it felt good to hold her again after all these years. We stay in the embrace for awhile before she pulls away and sits down next to me on the couch.
"I'm sure you have a lot more questions to ask me." I definitely have more questions.
"When did you find out you were pregnant?"
"About a week before I came to visit you in L.A, I had been feeling really sick so I just decided to take a pregnacy test and sure enough it was positive." I remember the night we broke up Mercedes had been throwing up all day and she begged me to stay home with her. God how could I have been so stupid, I was so caught up in my own bullshit that I couldn't even take the time to put the pieces together.
"Please tell me you had someone to help you through your pregnancy, that you didn't have to go through it alone."
"Yes I moved back to Ohio so I could be around my family during my pregnancy, they were there for me throughout my entire pregnancy. I didn't go out much at all so most of the people here didn't even know I was home." Well at least she wasn't by herself but I'm sure her parents hate my guts. I get there 19 year old daughter pregnant and I break her heart on top of that, her dad would probably kill me if he saw me.
"I'm glad to hear that." I didn't know what else to say really, all of this is just so unfortunate. It never had to be this way, I should of been the one right by her side.
"What is she like..Aliyah I mean."
"Oh Aliyah..she's your daughter for sure." Mercedes giggles. "Attitude and all."
"Really?" A smile breaks across my face at the thought.
"Yes really, she is a spitting image of you Santana." We are sitting here talking about our daughter and I haven't even seen what she looks like.
"Can I see a picture of her?"
Mercedes smiles at me. "I have something even better than a picture."
Mercedes stands up and walks out of the room as I sit waiting nervously wondering what she is about to bring me. Mercedes returns with a case of dvds in her hand and I am now even more confused.
"What's all of this?' I ask, she places the dvds on the coffee table in front of me.
"These are videos of Aliyah from the delivery room all the way up to now. I knew that one day this would come and I wanted to make sure that you would get to see all the moments I got to experience. You don't have to watch them all right now because it's a lot but you can take them home and continue watching them. I know this does not make up for the time you lost but I really hope this helps." Mercedes walks over to the T.V and puts in the first dvd then sits down next to me. I can't believe I'm actually about to see my daughter, my child, my flesh and blood.
Nothing is on the screen yet but I don't turn my eyes from the television because I don't want to miss one second of it. Sure enough just like Mercedes said the first video is of Mercedes in the hospital surrounded by nurses and a doctors and her mom is behind the camera obviously excited for the arrival of her first grandchild. I watch in amazement as even though she was in pain Mercedes still look beautiful and so happy. Now it's time for the baby to come out and I scoot to the edge of my seat and for a moment I feel as if I am there in the hospital room with them. I hear the doctor repeating over and over for Mercedes to push and keep pushing. Mercedes is yelling and screaming as she pushes and slowly but surely I see our daughter's head coming out and finally Mercedes gives one big push and out comes Aliyah crying at the top of her lungs. The nurses take her and cleans her off, then brings her back over and lays her on Mercedes chest. She is so beautiful, the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. I can't hold in the emotions I am feeling so I let it all out, tears begin to pour down my face. No matter how hard I try I can't stop myself from sobbing, I feel Mercedes rubbing my back to comfort me. I just didn't know I was going to get this emotional but it was the most amazing thing I've ever seen. I watch the rest of the videos with Mercedes that night up, I just couldn't stop watching the videos. I was so in love with the little girl on the videos and I haven't even met her yet, I'm so lucky I get to call this little girl mine.
THE NEXT MORNING
I wake up to the smell of bacon filling my nostrils, opening my eyes I look around and see that I'm still on Mercedes couch. I stand up yawning and stretching my muscles, I hate sleeping on couches. I hear music playing from in the kitchen so I walk inside and find Mercedes singing and dancing to R&B music coming from the speakers on the counter. She doesn't realize I'm here so I just stand and watch her at the stove cooking and singing, moving her hips from side to side. Seeing Mercedes likes this reminds me of when she use to stay at my house back in high school over the summer. Almost every morning she would be in the kitchen cooking me breakfast with her headphones in dancing and singing around the kitchen. God I miss those days, life was so simply back then. I was so much more happy with my life, I had the perfect girl and it felt like nothing in my life could go wrong.
I continue to watch Mercedes until she finally turns around and notices me sitting down at the kitchen table.
"Oh sorry Santana I didn't hear you come in." Mercedes says bringing over a plate of bacon and set it at the center of the table.
"Good morning." I say.
"Good morning Santana." Mercedes responds.
"I'm sorry I fell asleep on your couch, I was trying to watch as many videos as I could and I guess I nodded off to sleep."
"It's fine San, I made coffee if you want some."
"Oh yes please, I need it." Mercedes smiles at me showing off her pearly white teeth, that could always light up any room. She grabs the pot off the counter and pours me a cup of coffee. I happily accepted the cup, I stayed up pretty late last night and this caffeine fix was much needed.
"So I have a question for you and if you are not ready just tell me, there is no pressure." Mercedes says, I take a sip of my coffee then set it back down on the table.
"Okay you got me a little nervous, what is it?" I admit, I didn't know where this conversation was going.
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to meet Aliyah today? My mom is about to bring her over and you could stay for breakfast." My hearts begins to beat a little faster, I wasn't expecting this first thing in the morning. Of course I wanted to meet my daughter, more than anything I wanted to meet my beautiful little girl. It just seems that all of this is happening so fast, I mean just last night I find out I have a kid and already Mercedes wants me to meet her.
Wait what am I even talking about, I have a daughter. My own flesh and blood, I could actually have the family I never had. My parents never paid much attention to me because of how different I was, I spent so many nights alone in my house thinking of the day when I could have a family of my own. Mercedes and I may not be together but we could still be a family co-parenting Aliyah, I can give her the love my parents never gave to me.
"Uhm yes..yes I would." I stutter out, I am nervous but excited all in the same.
"Santana don't be nervous, for now we will just tell her you're a friend of mine. Then once she gets use to you then we can tell her who you really are." Mercedes reaches over and gives my hand a reassuring squeeze. That makes sense, can't just spring it all on her at once.
"Okay I think I can do this." I say more to reassure myself more than Mercedes.
"Perfect, she should be here any minute now." Mercedes says, and I can tell in her voice that she was excited about all of this.
"And Santana just be yourself okay." Mercedes continues.
"I will, I just hope she likes me."
"San of course she is going to like you. " Mercedes interlaces her fingers with mine, which surprises me but the gesture is more than welcomed. Mercedes cell phone begins to ring, and she quickly pulls her hand away and answers the call.
"Hey mom." Mercedes answers.
"Okay great, I'm coming outside now." Mercedes responds to her mother on the other end then quickly hangs up the phone.
"They're outside, my mom is in a rush so she won't be able to come in." Mercedes says quickly before getting out of her chair, I watch as Mercedes rushes out the door.
Left alone inside the house my mind starts racing a mile a minute. What do I say to her? How am I supposed to act around her? Am I even nice enough to be a mom? Will she even like me or want me to be around? All these questions float through my head but now was too late for all of this because I hear them coming through the front door. I stand up, for what reason I do not know, I guess cause it seems to be rude. Mercedes comes into the kitchen holding Aliyah's hand and she is truly the most beautiful child I have ever seen.
"Aliyah this is my friend Santana, can you introduce yourself. "
"Hello Santana, my name is Aliyah Marie Jones..Can I call you tana, I like Santana but Tana is shorter!" Aliyah seems to be in a really great mood.
"Of course you can." I walk over and shake her little hand.
"Aliyah that is a very beautiful name and you are a very beautiful girl." The fact that Aliyah was so joyful made it easier for me to relax and not be nervous.
"Thank you Tana, you are pretty too!"
"Mommy how come I've never seen her before?"
"Well I live far far away from you and your mom so I haven't been able to see your mom as much as I would've liked." I answer for Mercedes, it was only kind of a lie.
"I'm glad now mommy can have friends just like me."
"Alright time for you to eat your breakfast sweetie." Mercedes interjects, obviously Aliyah had sad too much. Mercedes picks up Aliyah and places her at the kitchen table. I take a seat across from Aliyah and she smiles at me and I smile back. This is going easier than I thought it would.
"You have fun with grandma and grandpa this weekend?" Mercedes ask Aliyah as she begins to put food on Aliyah's plate. I follow after her filling up my own plate with food.
"Yes! Grandma took me to the bookstore and bought me a book!" Aliyah eyes lights up with excitement.
"That's great Liyah." Mercedes responds.
"Tana are you a teacher like mommy?" Aliyah asks.
"No I'm not a teacher, I'm what people call an actress."
"Like the people on T.V!"
"That's right."
"That's so cool! Are you a millionaire?" Mercedes shakes her head at Aliyah question.
"Something like that."
"Can I have some money." Aliyah reaches out her hand. I can't help but laugh at her antics.
"Aliyah! That is rude, you don't ask people for money." Mercedes reprimands.
"But mommy Tana is a millionaire she has lots of money!"
"That doesn't matter Aliyah, you don't ask people for money." Aliyah crosses her arms and pokes out her bottom lip revealing the cutest pout I have ever seen.
"It's okay Mercedes." I say and Mercedes just shakes her head.
"How about this, I'll give your mom the money and she can take you to the bookstore for more books.
Aliyah's eyes light up with excitement. "Yes! Thank you Tana! Mommy can we go now!"
"I guess we can, that's really nice of you Santana." Mercedes tells me and I'm just happy I get to do something that puts a smile on Aliyah's face.
"Tana can you come too!"
"Yes Santana you should come, we can make a day of it."
"I would love too, I just need to go get a shower and a change of clothes. Let me text Quinn to see if her and Rachel needs my help today." I pull my cell phone out of my pocket and I see a missed call and text from Quinn.
San I guess things went well with u & Mercedes last night since u didn't come back to the party ;) I took your suitcase back to our place so u can meet us there. I sent u the address. Love u
I quickly text her back.
I got a lot to tell u..otw now. Love u 2
"Well can you come with us?" Mercedes asks me.
"Yes I can I'm just going to go get changed and then I will meet you guys back here if that's okay."
"Yes that's perfectly fine."
"Yay! Tana is coming!" Aliyah cheers and I am surprised that she is so happy that I am coming with them.
"Do you want to use my car?" Mercedes asks.
"That would be great, are you sure?"
"Of course, just wait here a second and I will go get my car keys." Mercedes leaves the room leaving just me and Aliyah. She is staring at me looking me up and down with a questioning look on her face.
"Tana."
"Yes Aliyah."
"You have my face."
"I have your face?"
"Yes. we have the same face. We have the same eyes. nose and everything." Uh oh, this little girl is so smart.
"I guess you're right." I look out the kitchen, hoping Mercedes would walk in and save me.
"How come we have the same face?" Aliyah questions.
"Uhm, I don't know.." Aliyah fixes her mouth to ask me another question but Mercedes walks in and I let out a sigh of relief.
"Okay Santana here's the keys." Mercedes hands me the car keys and I stand up, in a rush to get out of here as quickly as possible.
"Thanks, I will be back once I'm changed and everything."
"Okay, we will be here waiting."
"Make sure you come back Tana!" Aliyah says.
"I'll be right back." I say, then I head outside to Mercedes 2016 Toyota Corolla. I put the address Quinn text me into the GPS app on my phone and I drive the twenty minutes until I reach my destination.
Once I get there I walk into the house and see Quinn and Rachel cuddle up on the couch in the living room watching one of the Housewives reality shows.
"Well look who finally decided to show her face, I'm guessing things went well between you and Mercedes." Quinn says to me when I enter the living room.
"It wasn't like that at all, I slept on the couch."
"Then what did you two do all night?"
"Can you pause the T.V, I have a lot to tell the two of you." I plop down on the sofa opposite of Rachel and Quinn. Rachel pauses the show and both of them sit up detecting the seriousness in my voice.
"What's going on Santana?" Rachel ask concerned.
"Well.." I fill Rachel and Quinn on everything that happened last night and this morning and both of their jaws are almost on the floor, they listen attentively to all the information I give them.
"Oh my god San, that is crazy." Quinn speaks once I am done telling them everything.
"I know right."
"I can't believe she was able to keep this a secret from all of us and for five years." Quinn continued.
"Who you telling."
"Santana how are you handling all of this?' Rachel asks me.
"Honestly I'm still in shock, it all feels so surreal. I was angry with Mercedes but the happiness I feel knowing I have a daughter overshadows all of that."
"San this is pretty amazing, you're a mom now. This is what you always a wanted, you can have a family of your own, this is like your second chance." Quinn has been my best friend since I was a kid and she knew how much I talked about being a mom when I was younger. Once Mercedes and I started dating in high school I always thought she would be the mother of child. Quinn was right this was my second chance to make things work between Mercedes and I. Right now I just wanted to be there for Aliyah but I wanted more than anything to get back with Mercedes so we could all be one big happy family.
"I know I just never expected it to happen like this you know. I thought Mercedes and I would get married then start a family, we're not even together. I doubt Mercedes will even want to get back with me after what I did to her but I just want Aliyah to have what I never had."
"Santana just worry about building a relationship with your daughter and then things with you and Mercedes might fall into place. Right now the only thing that matters is you being there for Aliyah." Quinn explains.
"You're right..I just hope I don't screw this up." I answer honestly.
"You won't Santana, you are a great person and you are going to be a great mom." Rachel tells me and her words make me feel good inside.
"Thank you Rachel, that means a lot."
"You're welcome Santana."
"So when are we going to be able to see this little girl?" Quinn asks.
"I'm not sure but hopefully soon..I'm actually spending the day with them, I just came here to shower and change. Do you guys have anything you need for me to do for the wedding today?" I ask.
"Nope not today Rach and I are going to have a lazy day cuddling on the couch and watching terrible reality shows but tomorrow we have a busy day planned." Quinn explains.
"Great, I should be back later on today." I stand up from the sofa.
"Have fun..oh yeah all of your stuff is in the first bedroom down the hall on the right." Rachel informs me.
"Thanks." I exit the living room and rush to shower and change out of my clothes from last night. After I shower and get dressed I head back over to Mercedes place and they are ready and waiting on me. We all climb into Mercedes car and she drives us over to Lima mall where the bookstore was located. Once we arrive at the mall we all get out the car and head into the mall. Mercedes has a tight grip on Aliyah hands until we get inside the mall.
"There's the bookstore mommy!" Aliyah yells in excitement pointing at the store. It's so refreshing to see a child get excited over books. Aliyah takes Mercedes hand and pulls her into the store, I follow closely behind them.
"Tana how many books can I get." Aliyah asks, running her fingers over the books on the shelves.
"As many as you want sweetheart." I respond, a smile spreads across her face from ear to ear.
"Awesome!" Aliyah runs over to the children's section and begins to look through the book collection.
"I hope you know what you've gotten yourself into Santana, that little girl will grab enough books to fill a wheelbarrow." Mercedes jokes as she sits down in a chair a couple of feet away from where Aliyah was looking through books. I follow suit, sitting down right next to her watching Aliyah.
"It's okay, I'm glad I can spoil her and at least it's on books."
"That's true..so how is all of this going for you?" Mercedes questions.
"Pretty well I think, I'm just excited about the idea of being a mom." Mercedes nods her head.
"I just want to apologize to you again Santana for keeping her a secret."
"Hey let's put all of that behind us, all that matters is that beautiful girl we created."
"You're right." We sit talking about random things while Aliyah picked out books and brought the ones she wanted over to us and placed them in Mercedes lap.
My cell phone rings and I look at the caller I.D and see that it's my agent Cassandra calling me. I want to just ignore the call but it wouldn't matter because she would just keep calling me until I answered.
"Excuse me Mercedes but I have to take this."
"No problem take your time."
"Hello Cassandra." I say in an annoyed tone. I stand up and walk a few aisle down to talk on the phone.
"Well hello to you too Santana."
"What is it Cassandra, I'm kind of busy right now."
"I've called with great news..Guess who will be the lead actress in Shonda Rhimes new television series."
No freaking way! I auditioned for Shonda Rhimes months ago and I just assumed that I didn't get the role.
"Oh my god! Are you serious!"
"Very serious! I just got off the phone with the producers and they said you blew them away at your audition and they want to start filming as soon as possible."
"Cassandra this is amazing! I don't even know what to say, working for Shonda Rhimes is my dream!" I can't believe this is happening, everyone knows Shonda Rhimes strikes gold with every show she creates and now I will be a part of that.
"You deserve it Santana! Now they need you back here as soon as possible, I know you have your best friends wedding to attend but I need you flying back to L.A the next day. I've already arrange for you to get on your private jet on Sunday at noon."
"I will be there!"
"You did it Santana and you deserve this!"
"Thank you Cassandra, I will see you next week."
"See you then." Cassandra hangs up and I want to yell and scream but it wasn't the time or place. I walk back over to where Mercedes was sitting and sit back down next to her.
"Everything okay?" Mercedes asks me.
"Everything is great actually, I just found out that I landed a role for Shonda Rhimes new television show."
"Santana that is amazing, girl come here." Mercedes reaches her arms out and pulls me in for a hug.
"Thanks Mercedes." I say to her. Without thinking I put my head in the crook of her neck and I inhale her strawberry and vanilla scent. God she really smells delicious, I don't want to pull out of her hug but I didn't want to over do it.
"Mommy I'm finished now!" Aliyah skips over with more books in her hands and a smile on her face.
"Finally, I thought you were going to buy all of the books in here." Mercedes jokes.
"Mommy that's not possible, the books wouldn't fit in the car silly." Aliyah corrects Mercedes.
"You're right Aliyah, mommy was being silly." Mercedes says as we walk over to the counter with books in hand to pay for everything Aliyah had picked out.
"Wow you guys bought a lot of books." The girl behind the counter says when we place all of the books on top of the counter.
"Tana is buying them for me! Ain't that right Tana!" Aliyah's face beams with happiness. I love seeing her smile.
"That's right sweetheart." I stand at the front of the counter and pull out my wallet to pay for all of the books.
"Oh..my..god!" The girl behind the counter screeches. "You're Santana Lopez! I've seen every movie and t.v show you've ever been in..I love you!"
"Thank you, I really appreciate your support." I tell the young lady who was freaking out at this point.
"Please can I take a picture with you! All of my friends would not believe me if I told them that Santana Lopez walked into Lima mall today.
"Sure I can take a picture with you." I turn and mouth the words sorry to Mercedes and she nods her head in understanding. The young fan runs from around the counter and pulls her phone out her back pocket. She comes up beside me and I wrap my arm around her shoulders like I do with all my fans, ready to pose for the picture. She holds up the cell phone and takes a selfie of us.
"Can we take another picture with me giving you a kiss on the cheek."
"Okay." I smile at the camera while the young girl places a kiss on my cheek. I expect to her the snap of the camera but instead I hear the young girl yell out in pain.
"Ouch!" The young girl bends down rubbing her knee with Aliyah standing right in front of her, arms crossed and a scowl on her face.
"Aliyah!" Mercedes yells in disbelief at our daughter's actions.
"Get your lips off my mama!" Aliyah comes over and grabs my hand pulling me away from the female fan. Both Mercedes and I stand there in disbelief.
"Jeez I'm sorry little girl it was just for a picture." The young girl runs back around the counter to ring the rest of the books up. I pull myself out of the disbelief I was in to get a handle on the situation.
"I'm so sorry, kids you know. How about I sign something for you." I say hopefully it would make up for the bruise she would probably find later on her leg. The girl agrees and I sign a book for her and it seems to make things better, I see Mercedes angrily taking Aliyah out the store. I catch up to them once I pay for everything and grab the bag of books. I see Aliyah and Mercedes sitting at the bench, Aliyah stills seems pretty upset. I walk over and sit down beside Aliyah.
"Aliyah we need to talk about what you did and said in there."
"I don't want too!"
"Well you need too!" Mercedes says sternly and all Aliyah does is turns her head, which gets Mercedes even more frustrated.
"Aliyah." I call her name softly, maybe she would talk to me.
"Yes." She answers but doesn't look at me.
"Why did you call me your mama back there."
"Because you are Tana." She answer matter factly.
"How do you know that." Mercedes asks Aliyah.
"I don't know I just have a feeling and I look just like you Tana." I see tears roll down her eyes and it breaks my heart. I lift her up and put her on my lap without even thinking about it.
"Aliyah can you look at me." Aliyah slowly lifts her head and I am meet by her soft dark brown eyes. "You are right I am your mother."
"I knew it."
"Are you mad that I'm your mother?"
"No I'm happy..I finally get two parents like all my other friends." This little girl really melts my heart.
"Well I'm glad that makes you happy because it makes me happy that you're my daughter."
"Really?' Aliyah says wiping away the tears from her eyes.
"Of course, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world."
"How come you've been away?" Now this is a question I have no idea how to answer. How do you explain to a four year old the reason you've been out of their lives is because their parents were being complete idiots. I look to Mercedes for help because I have no idea how to answer this question.
"Aliyah you are too young to understand right now but I promise when you get older I will explain everything to you okay. I just want you to know that Santana and I are going to be the best parents we can possibly be for you."
"Okay mommy."
"Mommy loves you."
"I love you too mommy."
"Can Santana and I have a hug please." Aliyah nods her head then puts her little arms around both of our necks. I squeeze her real close and tight, I hold on to her not wanting to let go. I have my daughter in my arms and even though we are not together I have Mercedes back in my life again. I don't care what I have to do I'm going to make this work and never hurt these two again.
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