When we arrived to Coruscant, I was spellbound by the sights around me. Looking out as the ship landed, I felt a whole lot smaller. Anakin then dragged me down to the hanger where the Queen and her royal guard were already awaiting the hanger door to open. I walk over to Obi-Wan as Anakin stayed behind Qui-Gon.
"Relax, take a deep breath." Obi-Wan tells me as he looks back at me.
"You live here, try coming from somewhere small to a planet like this." I joke with him and he smiles before turning around as the hanger door opened. Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan took lead Anakin and I followed close behind with the others behind us. We bowed to the two men waiting for us; who I found were Senator Palpatine and the Supreme Chancellor.
Anakin was taken by Jar-Jar and one of the Queen's hand maidens, while I was left to stand with Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan. Once Qui-Gon had finished speaking the Senator and Chancellor, he turned around to me.
"We are going to the Jedi Temple, there you will speak with the Council and they will decide your fate as a Jedi." He informs me and I nod my head as I continue to look around the world around me. If what Qui-Gon was saying would become reality, I would be staying on this planet a whole lot longer than I originally thought.
We entered a transport ship and I was seated next to Obi-Wan as Qui-Gon sat opposite us.
"What will happen if I do become a Jedi?" I ask Obi-Wan as I still want more answers on what would happen as most of the things I heard on Tatooine were mostly rumours or myths.
"You will be first be trained to become a Padawan and then you will be under the aid of a Jedi Master. Then once you are ready, you will take the trails to become a Jedi Knight." He replies and I feel my mouth gape open as I look at him with disbelief. I would be trained under another great Jedi?
"But we must know if you will be accepted to be trained." Qui-Gon pipes up from in front of us. I sit back in my seat and slouch down as I look out the window behind Qui-Gon.
"What's wrong?" Obi-Wan asks and it were as though he had seen me have another nightmare.
"I just… this is all a lot to take in so suddenly. Two days ago, I was helping Anakin and Shmi… today, I'm on my way to find out if I can train to be a Jedi." I look up at him with a weak smile. "It seems a little surreal to me." I sigh and then continue to look out of the window.
Obi-Wan looked at the young girl as did his Master, both sharing the same thought of how brave she was in accepting all of this at once. But Qui-Gon was also looking at his Padawan with the same amount of worry about his emotions. He worried that his Padawan would be taken too far by his sudden interest in the young girl. He didn't want to see him upset but he did not want him to be stripped from the Jedi Order either. It was a difficult situation.
I waited outside the large doors that led to the room that Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon had entered. I kept picking at my robes as I looked around, seeing all the Jedi in one place was making me nervous; plus, the fact I was about to be tested by some Jedi. I was terrified if I were going to mess something up or disappointed Qui-Gon. Hell, I don't even make a fool of myself in front of Obi-Wan. Ever since he just listened to me on the ship, I felt like he was always just there for me. I just hoped he would be around in the future; I think I would need someone like him to help me through this madness.
"Camari." I'm shock from my thoughts as I turn to see Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon walking out of the room.
"The Council are willing to test you, just do as they ask and we will be out here once you're done." Qui-Gon tells me and I nod my head. I release a breath I hadn't realised I had been holding since they walked out the door. A hand on my shoulder and I almost instantly recognised the sense of comfort just as his hand touched my skin.
"You'll be fine, just take deep breaths." Obi-Wan tells me with a smile on his lips. I take a deep breath before I turn to the doors and wait for them to slide open then I enter the small circular hall.
There were multiple seated Jedi Masters and now I was stood in the middle of them all.
"Nervous, you are." The small green Jedi spoke and I look at him and nod my head.
"Look at this monitor, tell me what you see." The Jedi Master next to him held a silver monitor. "You'll have to focus, make your mind only focus on this." He advises me and I take a breath again before focusing. An image of a cup appears in my mind and I frown before giving my answer.
"A cup."
"A boat."
"A speeder."
"A cup again."
"A ship."
The Jedi then lowered the monitor and turned to green Jedi. They saved a look and I found myself looking towards the door way; hoping that he would come and help me.
"Your mind drifts to others, it would seem." I close my eyes and inhale and the realisation that I had to be strong through this settled in
"No." I reply and look back to the Jedi. "I only wish that I can become something stronger than I am now. I'm not afraid to battle for peace." I tell them and the bold Jedi looks at me with curiosity in his eyes.
"How feels you?" The green Jedi asked as he stroked his chin.
"Alone, sir." I look down at my feet as I try to keep everything in control; I must do this for Anakin and Shmi.
"How old are you?" The bald Jedi asks and I look up at him.
"Eighteen." I reply and most of the Jedi around me frown or look to one another.
"You are already too old to begin training." At these words, I begin to lose all hope on the promises that I have made too Anakin and Shmi.
I wasn't strong enough to take care of them now and I'm not strong enough to take care of them now. I'm a fool for believing I could change anything.
"But, we will take in consideration the power and loyalty to the Code you have shown to us with your words. You may leave and we will speak later on, once we have made a decision." The bald Jedi then gestured for me to leave, which I did once I had bowed and left.
After returning to the rooms that had been generously given us, I sat in silence staring out the window and out to the world Coruscant. Speeders and transport ships scattered the skies, yet I felt as though there was no one on this planet. I couldn't shake the lonesome feeling that clouded my mind. After standing in front of those Jedi today… it had taken more of a toll than I would like to admit; much less acknowledge.
"I wouldn't worry so much if I were you." I don't react when Obi-Wan speaks and enters my room. He slowly moves across the room and sits next to me. We sit for a moment in silence before I leant my head to my left and it was rested on his shoulder.
"Sometimes I question why I'm here." I sigh and close my eyes.
"Think of it this way," Obi-Wan began, "You only did a simple task for the Jedi Masters and I know from experience that they will say certain things that make you believe that you aren't going to understand the power in you. But trust me, Camari, you will become a Jedi." We look at one another and the way that his eyes sparkled from the sun light that shone through the windows made my insides melt. "I promise."